Chapter 129: Reading aloud (4)

The city bureau is a very interesting place. Across the road is the old commercial district in the city center. There are high-end hotels and several old-fashioned shopping malls supporting the facade. The popularity gathered by these "facades" has spawned another A bunch of small commercial streets of different grades cross the road from the city bureau. They are surrounded by snack bars in the parking lot opposite the gate. The colder the winter, the more it sells, and I do n’t know why the business is like this Prosperity-probably because the police comrades of this generation are extraordinarily stingy.
A luxurious trot that was out of step with the surrounding environment was parked in an open-air parking lot, and a dining car selling octopus was not far away. The line was more than ten meters long and looked like a dragon. It was really daunting.
Fei Du probe gave up at a glance, raised the window again, and chatted with Lu Jia next to him: "After the end of the year award is generally at the peak of resignation, do you have any plans for next year? I want to continue in my future Do you want to experience a different life? "
Luo Wenzhou has been working overtime at the city bureau these days. It is more convenient to go out and drive his own car. Fei Du came by his own car. The driver's seat of the sports car was slightly cramped for Lu Jia, and he couldn't open his stomach. When he asked, he leaned back on his back: "Fei Zong, do you think I eat too much and have a large displacement, can't I afford it? "
"Isn't it," Fei Du glanced in the direction of the city bureau. "I still have soft rice."
Lu Jia smiled silently for a while. The lantern on the upper stage penetrated through the gap of the car window which was not tight, and fell into his slender eyes, and a little needle-like light fell at the corner of the eye.
Then his smile became weaker and silent for a while. Lu Jia said, "I heard people say that those who have used drugs will have their brain's physiological structure changed by drugs-this argument sounds pretty good, You think, if experience, character, and education are all detachable software on a person, then the brain must be hardware. The brain has changed, which means that you have changed from a 'superbook' to a 'little lord' , This is equivalent to being "borrowed from the body" by another soul, even if there is a previous memory, it is not the same person. "
Fei Du did not intervene, listening very patiently.
"But in fact, sometimes I think, 'trauma' is a bit similar," Lu Jia said, turning his seatbelt off, and stretching a little lazy. "Trauma will also turn a person into another unrecognizable appearance. Sometimes, when you look at other people and look in the mirror, you feel very embarrassed. You think, how can I become like this? I don't even know myself. "
"The things that ordinary people pursue are nothing more than houses, cars, careers, love, status, and ideals. They are busy every day. Everyone is burdened with the troubles and happy things that fill their stomachs. Seriously, they do n’t know what
impermanence
means. They just feel that today, yesterday, and tomorrow, they do n’t think,
I am an ant floating on the river in dead leaves, turning over and over.

Fei Du made no comment, propped his head "um", waiting for him to say.
"But you are different. Just like you ca n’t live this kind of day, you ’re just like a hen who scares bald hair from gunfire. From then on, you ca n’t lay eggs—you look at others and feel that all these things they are after It ’s a mirror flower, you ca n’t take it seriously, you do n’t have to say it. You have nightmares, delusions, irritability, anxiety, and unexplained nervousness every day ... If you look at you more, you may think that he is not intentional, and someone is on the street Holding you to ask for directions, you feel that he has no conspiracy, and sometimes even see who has been patrolling for a long time, and you suspect that someone has hidden a weapon. "
Lu Jia's voice was getting lower and lower.
Noisy and noisy vocals came from the gaps in the window, mixed with the man's speech, and it seemed that he became more out of step and more lonely.
"Trust in society and the environment is the cornerstone of security," Fei Du said. "Without this, you can only be displaced in a long-term stress state. It is really painful, even if the trauma passes ..."
"You can't get over this, it will never get through, even if you catch the killer, 'People who stare at the abyss, the abyss are staring at you,' I don't know if you feel that way," Lu Jia shook her head, "I sometimes feel myself Just like neuropathy, it's particularly boring to live. "
Fei Du silently reached out and patted his broad shoulders.
Lu Jia waved his hand: "I especially like chatting with you, although you haven't said a few words for a long time."
"According to normal social etiquette, I should comfort you with two sentences, such as 'Everything will pass, time will one day lose your memory and intelligence, and of course the wound will heal,'" Fei Du said, listening Seeing the car next to him making a short flute twice, he didn't look out of the window, straightly picked up the coat next to him and put it on, "but these are nonsense, you don't want to listen to me if you want to hear me."
Lu Jia laughed: "General Fei, are you purely discriminatory, right? Just talk to me a lot more lazily. It's all about the truth. Shouldn't you change to a beautiful girl, you should pay attention to social etiquette?"
"It's still lucky to be simple. It's not easy to listen to my truth." Fei Dusha said with a sigh of relief, and then he suddenly turned to Lu Jia. "Lao Lu, I was too lazy to tell you, but a while ago and a The pretty little girl has talked, there are a few ready-made words, do you listen? "
Lu Jia, who had been discriminated against, made helpless ears.
"Everyone will be shaped by foreign things, environment, encounters, loved ones, hated people ... even Lu Guosheng who makes you hate those who can't cut him out. The murderer will shape a part of your flesh through trauma. This It's a fact, whether you want it or not. "
Lu Jia looked at him sternly.
"Do you know what would happen to me if it were me? I would cut that piece of meat, release the bowl of blood, and chop down the long deformed bone with an axe. I am not a person staring at the abyss, I am an abyss "Fei Du rushed to him with a fleshly smile, but before that smile was broken, he was broken by another car horn. Fei Du shook his head helplessly, turned and pulled the car door and got out of the car." What to urge-help me drive the car away. The parking space on my side is a bit nervous. You can just drive out and relax if you like it. Happy New Year. "
Lu Jia's lips moved. Looking at Fei Du without even confirming his license plate, he opened the door of the temporarily parked car next to him. Luo Wenzhou got out of the car lazily, switched to the copilot, waved his hand at Lu Jia, and the two quickly left.
This is not the first time that Luo Wenzhou has lived in the duty room for a few days. I used to live and live there. I had nothing to worry about except to find someone to feed the cat. I did not feel the same way this time. I felt like I was sleeping in the duty room. Half a lifetime. When he honked his first horn, he saw Fei Duying begin to wear a jacket, knowing that the other party had heard it, but Luo Wenzhou watched him wear a piece of ragged clothes for a minute, and was still talking to the fat man there, Finally couldn't help but honked the horn again without quality.
I do n’t see it in one day, such as every three autumns. Based on this scale, Fei Du is honed for one minute, which is equivalent to 18.25 hours. It is unbearable!
As soon as the door was closed, Luo Wenzhou couldn't wait to rude the driver. However, considering that the environment was too noisy, there was a fat man behind him watching him. He just put the impulse back, complaining very dissatisfied: "You two are plotting to subvert Is it the Galactic regime? What will happen, so long? "
Fei Du sighed, steadily hit the steering wheel, kept on the main road at an unhappy speed, and then freed up his efforts to put Luo Wenzhou into the salty pig's hand under the hem of his clothes: "I'm going to hit the side of the road Fence. "
Fei Du's face didn't show up. In fact, he was a little overwhelmed, because Luo Wenzhou said to him the last sentence was "Fei Du your uncle". It's not very sweet. In the past few days, the big things are connected with small things, and no one can afford to deal with them. Who's okay, at this moment's free time, he feels as if he came back for peace after two days in the Cold War.
At this age, Fei Duchang had played life and played fire. He had never played the game of "Cold War Reconciliation" with others. Only then was the gas field of "I am the abyss" already sprayed out of the clouds with his exhaust gas. "you……"
Before "you" came out, I saw Luo Wenzhou slowly pulling back the hand that had just been oiled, sniffed for a moment, and then licked his fingers.
Fei Du: "..."
"Hurry up," Luo Wenzhou said meaningfully, "starve me to death."
Generally in this context, whether it is an apology or an explanation, it is not a good time. Fei Du closed his mouth knowingly and interestly, and stuck the speed limit and stepped on the throttle.
However, I do n’t know if his car was running too smoothly or not. Luo Wenzhou, the sleeping god, released the hooligan's big move, and actually slanted his head and slept again. There were no more than ten minutes in total. He had already hit a napping very efficiently. When Fei Du wakes up, Luo Wenzhou sticks out a big lazy waist inherited from Luo Yiguo, and holds Fei Du's arm in his hometown. When his arms are stretched out, he wraps the person in his arms, vaguely. Say, "Stop me."
Fei Du: "Wake up and go home."
"I don't want to move," Luo Wenzhou posed on him for a while, and then he had a clever move. Somehow, he held his throat and said, "Husband, please carry me up."
Fei Du: "..."
Luo Wenzhou didn't say anything for a long time after seeing him dead, thinking that the well-informed Fei was always calmed by his shameless face, and laughed straight.
Seeing that Fei Du buttoned his coat suddenly, got out of the car and walked to the other side. When Luo Wenzhou was stunned, he opened the door and turned to kneel down. "Come."