Chapter 51: Break

After learning that her grandma had passed away, and that she had missed her funeral, Yi Yan began to be depressed all day long.
After waking up, she vomited blood twice because of her sadness, but she no longer cried loudly, but shed tears without saying a word.
She didn't talk much anymore, she didn't think about food, she was tired of falling asleep, or stared at a certain place for a long time, and she started to cry when she watched.
Jiang Xiche was tortured by her in such an anxious manner, but there was no way, even if she called her best friend over, it was of no avail. She was stubbornly immersed in her grief and became extremely pessimistic.
Today is the fourth day that Yiyan has lost his soul. The outdoor sky is clear and the spring breeze is incompatible with the lonely atmosphere in the ward.
Yi Yan lay in bed and stared out the window in a daze. Jiang Xiche went to the company. Aunt Yuan, who was in charge of looking after her, went out to buy things for her. The air was silent.
Not long after, there were a few sudden knocks on the door, and Yi Yan didn't know whether he heard him or not, and there was no movement.
The people outside the ward waited for a while. Seeing that no one came to open the door, they opened the door by themselves. Looking at the person on the bed at the door, he hesitated before moving his legs closer.
"Yan Yan."
The voice coming from her ear made Yi Yan's eyes stunned for a moment. She turned her head slowly, and she saw Yi Secheng's complex face, with Yi Li still standing behind him.
Yi Li held her hands in front of her, wringing nervously, bowed her head and did not dare to look at her, looking very awkward.
"Yan Yan, are you okay?" Yi Shicheng gave Yi Yan a stiff smile and said softly, "I brought my wife to apologize to you."
Yi Yan changed back to her original posture blankly, and said indifferently, "Let her go."
Yi Shicheng looked embarrassed, he stopped talking for a while, and pulled Yi Li a bit. Yili understood, he hesitated to look up at Yi Yan, sometimes biting her lips tangledly, sometimes babbling lips, she just couldn't say something.
"Tsk." Yi Shicheng glared at her, wishing to slap her twice on the spot.
Yi Li showed a grieved expression, closed her eyes after a while, gritted her teeth, and finally opened her mouth pitifully: "Yi Yan, I'm sorry, I shouldn't beat you, let alone push you down impulsively. I was wrong. , I will never say nasty things to you again, and never do anything with you again, can you forgive me and don’t sue me..."
After she finished speaking, the air was quiet, and Yi Yan didn't react at all, seeming to treat them only as air.
Yi Shicheng gave Yi Li a look, and Yi Li immediately pressed down the corners of her lips, as if about to cry, begging: "Yi Yan, I beg you, I am really wrong, you forgive me, I will Will you never show up in front of you again?"
Her unprecedented humble appearance was exchanged for Yi Yan's unfeeling words, "Go away."
At this moment, Yi Yan is like a heartless stone. She would never forgive Yi Li. If it were not for her, she would not become the half-dead look now, nor would she not even see her grandma's last time. To.
She even began to think that it was because Yi Li cursed her grandma at the birthday party last time that her grandma left so soon.
She already hated Yi Li.
She was merciless, Yi Li didn't know what to do, and helplessly shook Yi Shicheng's hand to let him speak.
Yi Shicheng sighed, brewing for a moment, and said to Yi Yan in a careful and heavy tone: "Yan Yan, because of this incident, the Jiang family has terminated all cooperation with Yi Shi, and we have also been punished, so you will let him go. Li, she was just too impulsive, she didn't expect to push you down."
"Heh." Yi Yan suddenly chuckled, and at the same time a drop of tears plunged into the pillow.
She was wounded like this, her father, even if he hadn't visited her before, now he still has to come and beg her to forgive his other daughter and the culprit.
What a touching fatherly love.
Yi Yan swallowed, still not looking at them, her ethereal tone was full of loss, "You go, I don't want to see you, I feel disgusting."
"Yan Yan..." Yi Shi's idiom was pleading and helpless, "Dad, please, as long as you don't report on her, you can punish her whatever you want."
"Dad?" Yi Yan made a suspicious voice, and finally turned her head to look at Yi Shicheng again. At this time, her eyes were red and her voice was choked.
"Do you think of me as your daughter? I'm lying here and can't go anywhere. It's no different from a disabled person. It's all thanks to your daughter Yili. If you ask me to forgive her, who will replace her? Am I suffering this pain?"
When she talked about the back, tears couldn't help sliding down, and her heart hurt.
"I'm sorry..." Yi Shicheng lowered his head, feeling somewhat uncomfortable. "Dad, I'm sorry. I know I didn't do my duty to you as a father. You should blame me."
"I don't blame you, I hate you." Yi Yan said with great grief, what she had held in her heart for a long time, "The daughter you like more has never been me, and the wife you like more has never been my mother. Me. Fighting with Yi Li at school, it was obvious that she was at fault first, but you turned to her. I wondered if it was really my fault. Later I found out that you are protecting her because she is also yours. daughter."
"No matter how wrong she is, you are willing to defend her, and even confess her fault in a low voice. What about me? You want to marry me to someone I don't love or even know, and use me as a tool of your interest."
"I wondered more than once, even if I die, you won’t feel sad for me, just like grandma is sick and dead now, you just think it’s a normal thing, and it will have no effect on your life. ."
Yi Shicheng raised his head and looked at her with disapproval and embarrassment. "What are you talking about? I am sad when your grandma is gone. I have not always defended my wife. She made a mistake. I also punish her. I didn't let her kneel down for your grandma last time."
Yi Yan did not refute, but looked at him without saying a word. Yi Shicheng had no courage to look at her wet eyes and lowered her eyelids.
After a moment of silence, he glanced at Yi Yan again, and said again in a negotiating tone: "Yan Yan, you can forgive me for the last time. I will let her kneel for you, okay?"
With that said, he started to pull Yi Li's arm down, motioning her to kneel.
Yi Yan was extremely disappointed. He really wanted to help Yi Li intercede anyway, but he didn't want to say anything about her physical condition.
She closed her eyes, her eyelids hot.
After a long silence, she endured the sorrow and sorrow in her heart and absolutely said, "Yi Shicheng, from now on, you will no longer be my father. I will officially cut off the relationship between father and daughter. From now on, you will live or die. Well, don't come to me again, you just treat me as dead."
With a "bang", Yi Shicheng was startled like a piece of wood, shaking his lips: "Yan Yan..."
"Get off." Yi Yan still closed her eyes and took a sniff, her voice was so dumb that people could not hear her.
"Yan Yan, don't..."
"Go away!!!" Yi Yan broke out unexpectedly at this moment, and screamed at the two with anger.
Both Yi Shicheng and Yi Li took two steps back from fear, and she yelled at them again: "Get out!!!"
The voice burst and trembled.
"Good, good! Let's go right away, Yan Yan, don't get excited, let's go now, let's go." Yi Shicheng hurriedly pulled Yi Li out for fear of overstimulating Yi Yan.
The moment the door was closed, Yi Yan finally burst into tears, and the deserted ward echoed her distressing cry.
Grandma is gone, and my father is no longer a father. She is lying here, unable to move.
These pains are like demons, pulling her heart, painful to death.
...
Jiang Xiche received a call from Aunt Yuan, saying that Yi Yan had vomited blood again, and this time he vomited more severely, and the quilt was red.
When he rushed over, Yi Yan had already been given another shot and fell asleep, except that her eyelids looked red and swollen, and her face was pale and pale.
He was extremely uncomfortable, and he didn't go anywhere, just staying with her here, even if he couldn't do anything.
Time is walking slowly.
When Yi Yan woke up, the lights in the ward were already on, and the bright sky when she was awake was dark.
Feeling that her left hand was being held lightly by someone, she turned her face slightly, raised her heavy eyelids, and saw Jiang Xiche.
I don't know when he pulled the single sofa to the bed and fell asleep sitting on it, with his head hanging slightly, his sleeping face was very quiet, her right hand was holding her left, and she could feel the temperature above.
She stared at him silently for a long time. She didn't know what she was thinking. She didn't say a word. She quietly moved her eyes away and started looking at the ceiling in a daze.
She felt her head groggy and her eyes felt like sand was being polished, and she felt a little fiery.
After a while, Jiang Xiche, who was not asleep very well, felt a little sore in the back of his neck. When he raised his head, he also raised his hand to pinch his neck, his eyes slowly opening.
When his vision was clear, he realized that Yi Yan was awake. Her face was pale and motionless. If it weren't for the long eyelashes flashing slowly, he would think she was dead.
"Yiyan." Jiang Xiche instantly lost his sleep, leaning over and touching her face with one hand, his concerned voice and the dimness of just waking up, "Is there anything uncomfortable?"
Yi Yan shook his head imperceptibly, not wanting to speak.
"The meal is still hot, I'll get it for you." Jiang Xiche got up as he said, walked a few steps to the table and brought two insulated lunch boxes.
One contained rice and vegetables and meat dishes, and the other contained bone soup. After opening, there was a light smoke coming out.
After adjusting the height of the bed, Jiang Xiche took a sip of the soup with a spoon, took a few breaths, and brought it to Yi Yan's mouth, and said softly, "Drink the soup first, then eat."
But Yi Yan turned away slightly, as before, didn't want to eat, and seemed to lose interest in everything.
Jiang Xiche paused, and after a moment, silently retracted his hand, and then picked up the meal. After picking up the order, he passed a spoonful of the meal together, "Then eat first."
"I don't want to eat." Yi Yan said hoarsely, turned her face down again, her eyebrows wrinkled resistingly.
Jiang Xiche frowned, "You haven't had a good meal for several days."
"I'm not hungry."
"You have to eat if you are not hungry." Jiang Xiche sighed in a low voice, with a gentle voice, "Don't forget that your stomach is still not well. You don't know how uncomfortable you are when you are sick.
Yi Yan was indifferent, staring blankly at somewhere on the floor, and said without emotion: "Forget it."
Jiang Xiche's nerves were tense, his eyebrows suddenly became solemn, and he said solemnly: "Yiyan, when people are old, they will be gone one day. This is the law of life. Grandma doesn't want to see you like this. "
To no avail, Yi Yan remained silent.
Of course she knows the law of mortal death, but she really finds it difficult to accept and regrets it. She feels that she shouldn't let her grandma undergo an operation, so grandma can stay with her for at least half a year.
She shouldn't have gone to the cemetery with Yi Shicheng and the others on that day, otherwise she wouldn't even be able to attend grandma's funeral.
She was like an individual who had lost her soul. Jiang Xiche felt sour in her heart. In desperation, she softened her voice, "Yi Yan, you are obedient and cheer up, OK?"
But Yi Yan suddenly became annoyed and simply closed his eyes.
Seeing the crease between her eyebrows, Jiang Xiche was also irritable. He changed the bone soup on the table and took a sip into his mouth.
Then, he lifted Yi Yan's chin, pushed his thumb down to separate her lips, then moved his head over, pressing her thin lips, and let her eat in this way.
Yi Yan opened his eyes in surprise and felt that he was passing soup into her mouth little by little. The fluid in her mouth gradually increased, some dripping from the corner of her mouth, and some subconsciously swallowed into her belly.
Jiang Xiche retreated, took a tissue to wipe off the soup from the corner of her mouth, staring at her with pitch-black eyes and threatening: "If you don't feed it with your hand, I will feed it with your mouth.
After speaking, he quickly drank the soup into his mouth again, repeating the behavior just now to her.
Yi Yan drank more this time than last time. The moderate temperature soup flowed into her stomach, and the whole stomach became warm. The warmth seemed to be introduced into her lacrimal glands, and she suddenly wanted to cry again.
Thinking of his father's preference, contrasting Jiang Xiche's favor. The father who gave her life is not as good as a man who marries her interests.
When Jiang Xiche let go of her, she looked at him with teary eyes, breathed with her mouth open, and cried, "Jiang Xiche, I have no grandma, no father, and no home."
Jiang Xiche was taken aback.
She said intermittently and ambiguously: "Today at noon he brought Yi Li to beg me for forgiveness. I broke off with him, and I don't have a father anymore... Although I hate him, I am still so sad... I remember when I was young, he told me every day that he loved me, but he didn't love me at all..."
As if someone had screwed Jiang Xiche's heart hard, he pressed her tightly in his arms, feeling sore in his throat, swallowing with difficulty, and said in a dark voice, "You have, my father is you too. Father. If you have my parents, your brother, and me, we will all love you very much."
He paused, then said: "Don't we have a home?"
Yi Yan shook her head. This is different to her. In Jiang Xiche's family, she will always be an alien with no blood relationship, and there will not be her real home.
Her home became a pile of rubble after her grandmother died, and completely vanished after she broke off with Yi Secheng.
Jiang Xiche's heart was filled with a deep sense of powerlessness. He let go of her, held her face in both hands, and looked at her pleadingly, "Yiyan, don't do this, you will have trouble like this, then you let What should I do, what should your brother do?"
brother……
Thinking of the lonely brother who would never grow up, Yi Yan's heart was ups and downs, and his head was heavy and heavy, she tore off his hand in annoyance.
"Sorry, I really don't want to eat anything right now, you can leave me alone, leave me alone, I'm fine."