Chapter 555: .Once the sea was difficult

"Words can never transfer my affection
Express one in ten million
For this regret
I thought and thought at night
Refuse to sleep"
Chen Xingru cried, maybe in that year, she was full of longing for her in her happy years. For her, at that time, perhaps this emotion was her greatest sustenance.
Even if she had already felt it a long time ago, she knew that she might end up without a problem, but she was deceiving herself.
Anyone who is full of affection and affection will presumably have many people's unjustified distress. Choosing words and making sentences is not only for expression, but also for a measured concern. Too much, for fear of misunderstanding. I'm not talking about it, and I'm afraid it's hard to tell.
Especially when there is no way to deal with each other day and night, the limited phone call and the letterhead of the sentiment are more perfect. As a result, love is so overflowing, making speech even more impoverished, thinking about it, and sleepless.
Don’t talk about Chen Xingru’s party, even if Zhang Zirong is watching, even watching this sentence of lyrics, a picture will appear in her mind involuntarily. The girl is determined to see a lover in the distance. At night, it is difficult to toss and turn. Falling asleep, it is excited, but also uneasy.
Once a thought comes out, there is no hindrance. It is an attachment that is only available right now. In the relationship between letters and phone calls, the erratic heart of the people will inevitably be enlarged. But the wonder of love is that eachother is not worthwhile in the eyes of bystanders, but it has a lot of affection for the parties. Even a few words are the warmest sustenance in the moment of loneliness.
"A strange city
In a familiar corner
Also comforted each other
Have embraced and sighed
Whatever will face
What kind of ending
In the wind and sand
Looking at you away
I was too sad
I hope I can send you thousands of miles away
Until the end of the mountain
Depend on you all my life"
Chen Xingru has already burst into tears. What she is saddened is not now, but back then. It can be said that she and him who wrote this song all the time.
She wrote her heartfelt voice, her suffering, and her memories.
No matter what the ending will be, at least, once, in a strange city, two lonely people once comforted each other, and once embraced and sighed.
Why sigh?
There is a sky full of wild sand in the strange Beijing. When the wind rises again, even people's faces are blurred. A lover in a different place has longing and loneliness. Nowadays, the all-pervasive means of communication relieves the trouble of chewing love alone, and at the same time, the comfort and hope of waiting are not diluted with mercy.
Once in a huge, complex city, there would be a familiar corner of the lover, engraving comfort and recording sighs. Without the immediate certainty of a phone call or a period of WeChat, on the contrary, there will be enough time to breed the sincere hope: no matter what ending will be faced, at least, the world will share this time. Even as far as the other end of the galaxy, there will be people who know the heart, with the light of this lamp, praying for a reunion.
Unfortunately, it is inevitable to separate when together. When the long time of preparation goes by every minute, it is hard to keep. At the time of parting, I can only hope to meet again. Knowing that it is vain, I still hope that after sending you thousands of miles away, you will be out of the crowd, at the end of the world, and be with your loved one for your whole life.
Today, the global village that sits on the ground and travels 80,000 miles every day, I am afraid it is difficult to restore the longing for that day. But one thing is connected, distance always means uncertainty. Emotions that are not fully grasped will also have more opportunities to appreciate the shifting of hearts. As for getting better or worse, it depends on growth and predestined conditions.
The bitter love between Chen Xingru and Chen Qiuling is like a soap opera at 8 o'clock. When watching TV, many people may make complaints and clichés.
But when things really happen to me, it is not cliché, but pain.
Chen Xingru's role in this relationship is actually not that glorious. After all, she is a third party anyway.
She traveled across the ocean to see him, maybe she had a hunch deep down in her heart, but the care and dreams made her choose to ignore things other than love.
But always, she still failed to get what she wanted.
Come excitedly, walk empty.
After many years, goodbye is nothing but a thing. Chen Qiuling has left this world forever. Although the two are no longer lovers and each have their own new feelings, some things are carved in memory. The inside is indelible.
Looking at the lyrics of the entire song, Chen Xingru was already crying and couldn't help herself.
Even Zhang Zirong on the side has reddened eye sockets. I don’t know if she is saddened by Chen Xingru and Chen Qiuling’s irrational relationship, or simply because of Chen Xingru’s voice in the lyrics Gratitude.
But it is undeniable that this is an absolutely good song.
Zhang Zirong leaned gently on Wang Yifan's shoulders, Wang Yifan gently hugged her waist, and gently patted her back with one hand.
Chen Xingru was obviously still stuck in this memory for a while and couldn't help himself.
In fact, in terms of emotions, men are usually more rational than women. The male protagonist in this story, Chen Qiuling has not taken the initiative from beginning to end, which can also explain the problem.
Women are emotional. Chen Xingru has already married and is a woman. Chen Qiuling has no interaction with her anymore, but she still remembers the scene clearly.
Love is financing, introspection, long love, and separation. All these, laughter and tears, suffering and sorrow, in the final analysis, love is willing and worthwhile.
Chen Xingru experienced all these things willingly. She actually knew that Chen Qiuling had a wife. When they were on Hong Kong Island, both of them subconsciously ignored this, because at that time they were just two of the same loneliness. The two same lonely hearts came together.
For him, Chen Xingru saved up for half a year and traveled across the ocean to see him, only to get heart-piercing pain. It was a happy lie that was ruthlessly exposed, allowing her to face the scene she had been avoiding.
But she was willing, willing.
In fact, compared to the actor in the previous life, the one who took risks and used public funds in order to participate in the poetry society and to be able to raise money across the seas was expelled. Later, it is said that the poet actor in that song killed four people for money and money, so he was sentenced to gunfire. He also killed many people and killed others.
In contrast, Chen Qiuling may seem mediocre, but it is precisely because of this that Wang Yifan will take this song out.
Chen Xingru wiped away her tears and said apologetically: "I'm sorry, I've lost my temper."
Zhang Zirong shook his head and said, "Human nature."
"This song is so well written, it makes me feel like I have gone back to the past and re-experienced the love at that time, thank you!" Chen Xingru looked at Wang Yifan sincerely.
Wang Yifan shook his head and said, "This song belongs to you. Because of your story, it has a soul."