Chapter 1717: I'm not at anymore

Chapter 1717
Zhang Nian looked at Qiao Jinnian, but did not answer immediately.
After her mother left, she didn't come back to Los Angeles, took a bus directly from Yuncheng, and started a trip alone...
She has been to the plateau, to the deep mountains, to the beautiful rapeseed fields, and also upstairs on the stilts, leaning against the window, listening to the gurgling water, enjoying the morning mist, the swallows crowing in the mountains and forests.
In a few months, she was earning money while traveling...
Once a teacher resigned and said: The world is so big, she wants to see it!
Zhang Nian was envious of that kind of "willfulness", and when he finally could do the same, he realized that the original kind of life, arbitrarily allowing himself to settle, and full of unknown expectations.
However, the teacher found his other half during the journey.
A travel by one person has become a road for two people.
And she...
Zhang Nian suddenly laughed, which was different from the shyness and unbearable bitterness of love when he liked Chu Zixiao before.
It is also different from the helplessness and gratitude of Qiao Jinnian for helping.
Even more home is different... Faced with the sudden change of the Zhang family, the sadness of father and mother when they left for several months.
Now Zhang Nian has found his position again during the journey, and knows better, what does he want?
In life, maybe after losing everything, you can never hesitate.
"Senior, you want to be with me..." Zhang Nian asked, "Can you tell me what I look like in your mind?"
Qiao Jinnian smiled, "Quiet but not responsive, generous but reserved, filial, tenacious... Clean and self-conscious."
Listening to Qiao Jinnian exaggerating himself a lot, Zhang Nian laughed.
No one doesn't like being praised, but when the praise is too much, it feels a little untrue.
"Senior, in your eyes...Is there nothing wrong with me?" Zhang Nian asked calmly.
Qiao Jinnian was stunned, and then said: "The beauty is in the eyes of my lover... you are not good, and I will take it away, isn't it?" His eyes were burning, "Besides, a girl like you, will What makes me feel bad?"
"Then if I tell you, I am not as clean as you see me?" Zhang Nian ignored Qiao Jinnian's slightly frowning look, but just retracted his gaze and looked forward, "Senior, I am not here... I do not have you either. Think so well."
"Xiao Nian..." Qiao Jinnian frowned when Zhang Nian said that he was not right.
He didn't like her saying that to herself.
"I didn't lie to you." Zhang Nian tilted his head to look at Qiao Jinnian, "I am not as good as you thought. Although I am not going to be sloppy, but the first time I am gone, don't you mind?"
"I don't mind!" Qiao Jinnian said hurriedly with some breath.
Zhang Nian smiled faintly, "No, you care!"
"I don't care!" Qiao Jinnian's voice hurriedly did not think about it, as if he was afraid that he would have different answers if he thought about it.
"But, I care!" Zhang Nian smiled calmly, "Senior, my heart is given to Chu Zixiao, and my body is given to him... But because of Zhang's affairs, I can't be with him anymore. ."
Qiao Jinnian's breathing began to become rapid, and an indescribable feeling gradually spread in his heart.
"Senior, are you sure you want such a woman who doesn't belong to you physically and mentally?" Zhang Nian asked.
"I want it!" Qiao Jinnian said hurriedly.
However, when he said this, there was an inexplicable emotion circulating in his eyes, even though he was holding back and suppressing it, but it still leaked out.
"Senior, why bother to deceive yourself?" Zhang Nian ruthlessly exposed what was in Qiao Jinnian's heart, "You are clean and self-conscious, so ask your significant other to do the same. This is no problem... The problem lies in that I know Chu Zi earlier than you. Xiao, I couldn't help having a relationship with him... Although that night was an accident, I felt very happy because it was the best night in my life."
Finally, he was able to face the events of that night, and even Zhang Nian became very calm now.
Whether it was talking about Chu Zixiao, or thinking of the departure of her parents, the downfall of the Zhang family... she could treat it with a normal heart.
"Everyone has everyone's life. Parents naturally hope that their children will have a partner and will not be alone. So... when they are dying, they want to entrust me to you." Zhang Nian said calmly, "You are a good person. But sometimes, it’s not good...to be together."
Qiao Jinnian's heart seemed to be torn apart by Zhang Nian's calmness. What did he want to say, but found that he was powerless to say something? !
"The life of two people is not bad, but the life of one person is not necessarily bad..." Zhang Nian smiled, smiling very quietly, "I don't want it either Chu Zixiao or you. Because, whatever It's him or you, and there are things between me and him that can't be eliminated and cannot be ignored."
After Zhang Nian looked at Qiao Jinnian again, she withdrew her gaze, "I'm fine now...for the time being I want to live a life alone without thinking about other people's ideas, as long as I am happy." Her gaze gradually became more profound and transparent. With a trace of mystery, "Maybe, I can meet my ultimate him in the future, maybe, I will be such a person in my entire life... In fact, no matter what, how can you know the joy of fish?!"
"Xiao Nian..."
"Senior!" Zhang Nian interrupted what Qiao Jinnian was about to say, and smiled at him, "Today I promised you to come out for dinner and even come here for a walk... I know, you will definitely mention things together again, so I Here I am. I am here because I want to tell you, let’s just do it...if a friend can do it, and if he can’t, I will treat it as a ignorance in the future."
"No!" Qiao Jinnian was anxious now, "Xiao Nian, I really don't care about your first time. You can't veto and my future because of the past..."
"Then you should treat me as selfish!" Zhang Nian said obviously without any leeway, "I just made it clear to you today, we...impossible!"
After speaking, she looked at Qiao Jinnian deeply and got up.
Without saying anything, turned around and went up the side steps...
"Xiao Nian..."
Qiao Jinnian's voice came from behind, but Zhang Nian did not stop.
Today, Qiao Jinnian may need to consider and digest.
However, she is not in this matter. For a clean and self-conscious person, even if he can forgive, it will become a wound in their future life.
She didn't want each other to be sharp because of this, so she was not afraid of how Qiao Jinnian would look at her, and told her about the night...
However, she did not say that it was because of Dad's design, but made him think that she had climbed onto Chu Zixiao's bed!
Suddenly, Zhang Nian stopped...
The sight fell on the person who just got out of the car parked on the side of the road, and for a while, he forgot to react.