Chapter 261: Confession

Zhang Yang pushed Wang Yan into the co-pilot and sat in the cab himself, slowly moving the car, and the car fell silent again.
After all, Wang Yan didn't cry, but she stubbornly looked out of the window, her hands twirled around the corner of her dress, and the mink coat she wore was wrinkled by her.
In the early morning of winter, it was quiet. Zhang Yang didn't know what kind of highway it was. After starting to get off the highway, it became more and more desolate. There was a faint, distant, bare and huge hill in the distance. A highway meandered in it until After passing a hill, Zhang found out that this was not a hill at all, but a dune. This road had already passed through the desert. No wonder it felt desolate and quiet ... Slowly, Ferrari stopped at On the side of the road, here the line of sight is wide, and you can see the dull rolling sand dunes in the darkness.
"Say! Why are you unhappy?"
Zhang Yang parked the car, opened the door and got off, and walked to the co-pilot. There was a chill in the desert in the early morning. Zhang Yang didn't want Wang Yan to get out of the car.
Wang Yan didn't say a word, gently opened the door and got out of the car. Her body leaned on the hood, and her eyes looked at the rolling hills in the distance. Under the dim moonlight, she was like a holy goddess, full of sacred Glorious.
This was a long silence, and it wasn't until Wang Yan fought a cold war that the silence broke.
"Let's get into the car. It's a bit cold."
"Zhang Yang, why did you do that at the club today, Zhou Xiao I also know that he is not a good person, but he is still bright and bright, have you thought that I would be embarrassed?" Wang Yan didn't move, and the voice was like no The animal with the slightest emotion, everything is fine today, but after the back, she broke away from her control, and Zhang Yang broke the palm of Zhou Shao.
"No."
Zhang Yang was silent for a long time and spit out two words.
It was a long silence again, and Wang Yan's eyes were always staring at Zhang Yang's face, which made her impress her.
Finally, Zhang Yang spoke again.
"Wang Yan, I am a child born in a peasant family. I am selfish, I am selfish, and in my bones, I hate or even hate those arrogant fathers who are arrogant and arrogant. I am jealous that their birth is better than me. I am jealous that they are rich. , I'm jealous that they can change different women and cars every day, I'm jealous of everything ... "
"When I was very young, I was determined to be a useful person. I studied hard. All my spare time was used for studying. I studied calligraphy, I studied tea ceremony, I studied all the popular things in high society. Why? In order to prepare for one day to enter the high society ... But, I failed, I completely failed, I failed to arrange my life track, I applied for the most famous university in China, and my score was far Much higher than the admission score there. I did n’t go in. An alumni with a total score of 70% lower than me went, but I went to a poor university ...

"Zhang Yang ..." Wang Yan shook her body and gently held Zhang Yang's hand. She felt Zhang Yang's emotions, and she wanted to stop him from talking.
Zhang Yang gently pulled Wang Yan closer to him, and let Wang Yan's body rest on his chest. He didn't stop. He also needed to talk by himself. The depression in recent years had made him almost collapse.
"I understand that I failed. Even the most undergraduate university, even if I try harder, I can't really stand out, and my grades are excellent. It is just astonishing. If I design according to my design, I need to calculate carefully. It will take ten years to reach my goal, and it will be smooth sailing. At that time, I am old, my goals, my ideals will disappear with my age ... "
"If so, I have fallen. Actually, I am not an art department. I don't like to draw. However, for freedom and less restraint, I chose this subject that can often make excuses. I gave up all my hobbies. I do n’t write anymore, I do n’t play Go, I do n’t study tea ceremony anymore, I do n’t care about famous car magazines anymore. As for the life of the real high society, I always dream in my mind, I know the world Most of the famous wines, I know a lot of famous works of art in the world, but unfortunately, I have never drank a good bottle of wine, I have never seen real art treasures, I always live in an illusory world, I am fallen, I am I read novels, play games, and stay in dormitories all day long to peep. I use boring things to pass my boring time and boring youth. I think that in my life, I will live like this ...
"Zhang Yang!" Wang Yan turned her body, holding Zhang Yang's waist in one hand, and gently stroking Zhang Yang's indifferent face with one hand. For the first time, she really understood this man who often showed a wry expression, For the first time, I realized how painful and helpless this man was, which made Wang Yan shake.
"After I knew you, I really understood the life of a high society. I only knew that a shop that loses tens of millions a year is indifferent to a rich person. The value of a person's clothes can be used by many ordinary families. After spending hundreds of years, I also know that millions of works of art can be placed on the ground and hung on the wall. I have failed. My mood is getting lower and lower. I dare not face you. I am jealous. Like poison poisoning my heart and every blood vessel, I chose to leave you, and I don't want to hurt you, because, I know, you are simple, and behind your rude surname is beauty and kindness. "
Zhang Yang felt that Wang Yan's body was shaking, and she patted Wang Yan's shoulder gently, sighing.
"When I was about to graduate, an occasional thing changed. I started trying to use my changes to fulfill my dreams. However, I still failed. No matter in which level of society, I want to enter the top of that society. It ’s not easy, even the underworld. As a result, I was chased and killed for thousands of miles. I struggled on the death line. I was chasing like a headless fly, and I continued to become strong. But I found that my strength is like a ant in the eyes of some people, and my strength is a joke in the eyes of many people. Whether it ’s Maimat or General, they can easily kill me. I do n’t I know why. I ca n’t die every time. Until now, I know that some people do n’t want me to die ...
Zhang Yang ’s voice was a little hoarse and a little heavy. A man could n’t master his own life and needed other people ’s charity. This is a kind of sadness.
"I have a certain ability, my thoughts have begun to go to the extreme, I tried to step under all the opponents I can step down, my vanity has grown wildly, and I encountered a buy in the cave Our hatred is slowly dissolving. I know that it all stems from the beautiful and kind snowdrops. Maimaiti loves snowdrops. He knows that snowdrops have a good opinion of me. He is willing to give me a chance for snowdrops. He let go I, I know, as long as I can maintain a relationship with Xuelian, Maimaiti will never touch me, and even, he will use his relationship to pave the way for my peaceful steps ... "
"I started to run away, just like running away from you. I know that you have a strong family behind you, a wealth of rich and powerful nations. So is Xuelian. I start to run away, I ’m scared. My poor man ’s Vanity scared me. I used to think of you more than once and use you as my stepping stone, but I couldn't do it ... "
"Don't say it, don't say it ...!" Wang Yan felt her heart was stabbed with a knife, and gently stroked her hands on the open cheek. The man's heart was far more complicated than his surface. Many, he was under the pressure of ordinary people unimaginable, he was jealous of others, but there was a hint of pride in his bones that made him disdain to do those things.
"No, I want to say it, let me say it, I think, I will never say it again!" Zhang Yang pushed Wang Yan away, a pair of deep eyes staring at the black and white pupils.
"I can't do it. I think about it a lot. If I really use you, my conscience will never be upset. Even if I really walk into the so-called high society, my waist will never straighten. I My chest will never stand up. My only way is to escape. I hope to stay away from you. I hope to see you again when I fly to Huang Tengda! "
"Today, I'm out of shape. I see you and Xuelian surrounded by countless men and admire. My heart is like a needle stick. I can't stand it. I can escape you, but I can't escape myself. Thinking, crazy revenge swallowed my thoughts, I was jealous of them, crazy jealous of them, I know that they all have rich wealth and profound background. "
"At the same time, I also look down on them. They are vulnerable in my eyes! I also know that you have a bigger background than them. I have expanded your deception in my heart by a factor of 100, a factor of 1,000. The purpose is to give myself reasons to avenge Zhou Shao. I did it, but I was not comfortable. I have to say that Zhou Shao is a sister-in-law. However, he is an ideal, ambitious and talented sister. He is not The most important thing about the prodigal is that all his means are bright and upright, and I, I am heavier and darker than him. My only idea is to hit all those who are close to you and find some sound excuses for myself! "
(To be continued)