Chapter 8:

I do n’t know how long he has been sitting. From dawn to darkness, Zhang Hang ’s body is frozen and he does n’t feel conscious. Lu Chengye knows that he ca n’t let him be outside like this. Let Zhang Hang go home.
Although that house will probably not be Zhang Hang's house after a few days, at least it can shelter from the wind and rain, and people in the winter cannot always be outside. Lu Chengye understands Zhang Hang's feeling that he doesn't want to go home. He has also experienced this proud age and would rather starve to death than bow his head. But no, people always have to live, no matter how difficult and painful, as long as you go through and think about the past, you will feel that the pain and hardship at this time is just a simple footprint on the road of life, deep or shallow, depending on how you are Look at it. Perhaps Zhang Hang would rather be blind outside than go back to that home or accept the gifts of Zhang Qiming and Zhao Xiaolian, but now he must go back for a future that is not far away and himself.
Each step comes out by myself, maybe painful or embarrassing, but we must go on.
Lu Chengye almost walked forward while biting Zhang Hang's buttocks. Zhang Hang rubbed his barely conscious hands and whispered, "Dahei, I don't want to go back."
Humming bite Zhang Hang's ass, but didn't bite the meat, but just caught the cotton pants outside. Since he didn't leave, he dragged. Lu Chengye worked hard to drag Zhang Hang, a helpless expression appeared in the young man's confused expression.
"Yes, I have to give you something to eat." Zhang Hang rubbed his head. This dog was raised by him. He followed him since he was a child. He couldn't bear to suffer the cold and starvation of this dog.
One person and one dog walked back slowly, the snow was getting worse, the sky was getting dark and it was hard to see.
Under the streetlight, a familiar car stopped in front of Zhang Hang. Zhang Qiming's still sober face stuck out of the window and said to Zhang Hangdao: "Get in the car."
Zhang Hang froze on the side of the road, Zhang Qiming left him in the hospital, and now comes back to pick him up, but he doesn't know how to face this familiar and strange man.
"Get in the car!" Zhang Qi was obviously a little irritable. He returned to his parents' home from the hospital and fell asleep. After waking up, I decided to go home and talk to Zhao Xiaolian, but no one was in that home, and Zhang Hang was no longer there.
At this moment he suddenly thought that he had left the child in the hospital, and he was just like himself, knowing that the two were not biological fathers and sons. He was an adult who could bear it, but Zhang Hang was only 16 years old. Is it such a small child that he can afford it?
After waking up, Zhang Qiming couldn't wait to slap himself, and drove out to find Zhang Hang. He wandered around the hospital without hope, and was really lucky to see a person and a dog walking slowly along the roadside.
However, at this moment, Zhang Hang was looking at him with an unfamiliar vision, and his sight was full of distrust.
Yeah, how can he make Zhang Hang trust the things he has done these days?
Zhang Qiming stepped out of the car and wanted to reach out to hug the child, but saw Zhang Hang step back, Dahei ran to the middle of the two, and looked at him with a grin and a grin on his face.
Zhang Qiming took a deep breath and whispered softly: "I always thought you weren't born full-term. I was born less than nine months ago, only five pounds, held in my arms small, wrinkled, particularly ugly, with a head I was half that long. I thought I had a deformity and stood still without saying a word, even dared not to touch you, thinking about how to comfort your mother, and how to soothe my grandmother. At this time the doctor told me that the child The skull is soft, and it is normal for a child born to be born. It will be open for a few days. I look and see, I look at you every day without turning my eyes, and I ca n’t bear to look away for a moment. Really, in a few days you I opened it, my head was round, my skin was tender and not as ugly as when I was born. "
He said, while trying to hold Zhang Hang, Zhang Hang stomped his feet, this time without backing up. Lu Chengye fangs, threatened Zhang Qiming, took a few steps back, and let Zhang Qiming hug Zhang Hang.
"I watched you at that time. I could n’t bear to sleep with my eyes closed at night. When I got up the next morning, my eyes were dry, but I could n’t help but look at it. You were so cute. At that time, the camera was a rarity. I bought a camera to take pictures for you. I think, I will save all your photos from each period and paste them. I do n’t want to miss any moment of your growth. "
Holding Zhang Hang firmly, Zhang Qiming's voice choked with a hint: "Hang Hang, why aren't you my son? I'm willing to take off the stars and the moon for you, but why aren't you? Why aren't you! "
"Dad ..." Zhang Hang couldn't control himself, hugged Zhang Qiming and cried.
Even if they are not their own father and son, even if the damage has been irreparable, but the feelings of more than ten years, they are accumulated together every day. How can such feelings be let go because of their blood relationship.
However, I can't go back. Even though the relationship is still, even if they all love each other deeply, but such a thin blood relationship is enough to decide everything.
Zhang Qiming sent Zhang Hang and Dahei home. When the teenager and the dog went to take a bath, Zhang Qiming boiled soup for Zhang Hang and cooked hot meals. Zhao Xiaolian has been spoiled by Zhang Qiming since she was married. She has never been in the kitchen once, and it has always been Zhang Qiming from childhood to being a father and mother.
Zhang Hang came back after taking a hot bath, drank soup in one mouthful, lowered his head to not see Zhang Qiming, and did not know what he was thinking. Lu Chengye wanted to secretly go to Zhang Hang's room and show Zhang Qiming's outpatient diagnosis records, but he didn't know if this was right.
This man loves Zhang Hang, it is a kind of deep fatherly love. For Zhang Hang, he would rather endure his inner anger to maintain a complete home for him, but because of this too deep love, he is even more unable to bear the two. No blood relationship. His contradictions and his pain, Lu Chengye, can understand, but cannot forgive.
That day's slap and Zhang mother's relentless scolding were the scars in Zhang Hang's heart, bleeding and purulent. In the days waiting for the results of the paternity test, they have become incurable scars.
Moreover, even if he is in love with Zhang Hang, Zhang Qiming may not be willing to raise Zhang Hang after the divorce. It's not that he doesn't want to spend that money, but that he can't face it. The more he loves it, the more he doesn't dare to face it.
Lu Chengye didn't know whether Zhang Qiming should know that Zhang Hang was destined to be blind at this time. He could not be sure whether Zhang Qiming would choose to fight for custody because of this disease. He also dare not bet Zhang Hang without this blood relationship and blind Can you keep your past feelings with Zhang Qiming and face the difficulties of Zhang's father and mother? It is better to miss each other, and sometimes to choose this love and let it be wiped out by time, it is better to precipitate this love, let it turn into guilt, and add a bargaining chip for the future.
It is probably done in business. He likes to analyze the pros and cons of everything. Regardless of feelings, he chooses the best practice.
Therefore, Lu Chengye didn't move, watching Zhang Hang eating this meal silently, relatively speechless with Zhang Qiming, entering the room silently.
Divorce is not a simple matter. In the era when there was no prenuptial agreement, property was a big problem when you wanted to divorce. Zhang Qiming is definitely not willing to share half of the property to Zhao Xiaolian, and Zhang Hang's paternity test is a strong proof of the division of property. However, in this case, Zhang Hang was destined to follow Zhao Xiaolian. If Zhao Xiaolian was not given money, in her personality, Zhang Hang would have to drop out of school to ask for food within a few days.
Deep love, care, these feelings, in the face of benefits and money, after all, become red / bare tit-for-tat.
Years ago, Zhang Qiming went to a lawyer, but Zhao Xiaolian still didn't go home.
It was a cold and lonely New Year. It was the first lonely New Year in Zhang Hang's life. At this time, he didn't know that he would spend the New Year every year like this.
He bought a lot of fireworks and firecrackers. At that time, the opening of the market did not ban the display of fireworks and firecrackers. Among the fireworks in the sky, only Dahei accompanied him to see the lonely fireworks.
In the new year, sixteen years old, in the years of growth, the pain has come quietly.
The colorful fireworks wrapped in blue paper were placed by Zhang Hang next to the Christmas tree in the yard. When he went to get the fireworks, he touched the fireworks several times. Lu Chengye was unsatisfactory and went to Zhang Hang with concern, but saw the teenager looking at him with a look of helplessness.
"Dahei, I, I ... I can't tell ..."
It's not that it's not clear but it's indistinguishable. He couldn't tell the green pine and the blue paper together.
Color blindness has begun to appear.
Lu Chengye put his head on Zhang Hang's leg as if to give him enough strength to support himself. It's okay, and he's here.
Even if he does n’t think about it, the fact is that he constantly reminds Zhang Hang that his eyes are getting worse day by day. Modern medicine is helpless. The so-called partial moxibustion is deceiving, and there is no way to stop it. He gradually moved towards blindness, cruel and ruthless.
The night's fireworks illuminate the night like day. Zhang Hang squatted in the yard. In this bright night, he only felt that the future was dark.
I don't know when he will be in this darkness forever and never see the light again.
In the new year of 2006, Zhao Xiaolian received a letter from a lawyer. Zhang Qiming filed for divorce. Only Zhao Xiaolian left an old building in the 1980s when they married, and Zhang Qiming was willing to pay Zhang Hang's alimony every month until he graduated from college. .
If Zhao Xiaolian does not agree with Zhang Qiming's approach, then the paternity test will be on the court. 2k novel reading network