Chapter 130: Steel piano

Don't wrong yourself.
Isn't this what I used to comfort myself when escaping from the capital?
But, can you really not let yourself be wronged if you don't want to wrong yourself?
It is precisely because he does not want to wrong himself or marry a man he does not love, that is why Qin Yueran "escaped" from the capital to Ninghai a thousand miles away. However, there will always be so many unsatisfactory life, and he is not completely free. Can you really leave the family that gave birth to her completely?
The longer I stay in this so-called upper-level circle, the more clearly I understand the hidden rules, and the less I can think of any resistance.
No one supports, no one understands. Qin Yueran doesn’t know how long his escape from marriage will last. Everyone feels that the man he is going to marry or will marry is so dazzling, everyone thinks it will be. An absolute match for a talented woman, but who understands her own suffering? No matter how good he is and he doesn't like it, will he really be happy if he is combined together like this?
Qin Yueran wanted to pursue her own happiness, not just showing it to others—that way, she owed herself too much.
Although she looks beautiful on the surface, with long sleeves and good dancers, she is a famous social queen in Ninghai. However, when all the guests are gone, when all the noise is gone, in the dead of night, she always stays on her own rooftop, quietly drinking a glass of red wine, and serving it for a while. Then let your fingers dance indulgently on the keys.
This piano can be said to be his best friend except Xia Qing. The whispers from the bottom of the girls' hearts were all expressed by Qin Yueran through the sound of the piano.
After leaving for nearly two years, Qin Yueran dared not go back. She was afraid that after she returned, she would encounter various forced marriages. However, unless she disappeared completely, staying in Ninghai would still be unable to get rid of the control of the family. In the eyes of those people, the interests of the family are always above all else.
In the face of the so-called overall situation, no one really cares about his own happiness.
Two years of time, for a woman who is in the midst of her youth, it is as precious as gold. She could do many meaningful things, and she could talk about a love that can be remembered for life, even if it is beautiful. But Qin Yueran could only force herself to hold on and hold on... until he couldn't hold on.
"The Wedding in a Dream" is the most frequent piece she has played in the past two years.
Whenever he played this tune, Qin Yueran would have less hope for her wedding, more disappointment in reality, and feel that her life would be more depressed.
But what can it be? She couldn't be strong enough to ignore the family. Moreover, if her selfishness caused the family to lose undeservedly, it was not what she wanted to see.
Qin Yueran didn't want to compromise, but reality forced her to compromise. She was strong and didn't want to surrender, but she would raise her hands after all.
This was not the result she wanted, and she didn't even know how long she could hold on.
This is a long road, so helpless.
When you are sad, no one can comfort you, you can only squat down and hug yourself.
Therefore, after hearing Su Rui's words "Don't wrong yourself", Qin Yueran suddenly felt a sore nose and moist eyes.
In so many years, no one has ever said this to himself.
It sounds like there is a heartwarming tacit understanding.
Don't wrong yourself, Qin Yueran really feels wronged-why can't he control his own destiny?
Many times, she even imagined that if she was not born in the Qin family, the capital, did not possess such a seemingly prominent identity, but was just the daughter of an ordinary family, would she be able to talk about an unutilitarian love and have a spotless wedding ?
However, there is no if.
In this world, there is not only the law of conservation of energy, but also the dynamic conservation of happiness. This road seems to be destined to be born. If you get something, you must lose something.
Can this conservation be broken?
When he raised his head again and looked at Su Rui, Qin Yueran's eyes had a different taste.
Looking at Qin Yueran with red eyes, Su Rui gently held her shoulders and said seriously: "You will have a wedding of your own after all, trust me."
"Yeah." Qin Yueran nodded, twitched her nose, and smiled: "I hope you are not bragging. If you can't cash it, I will come to you to settle the account."
Qin Yueran found that she had said this sentence naturally, and there was no sense of separation between him and Su Rui. He seemed to be an old friend who had known him for many years.
However, this sentence seemed a bit ambiguous and intimate after all.
"Well, if you can't marry and become an old girl, then come to me. The big deal is that I will wrong myself and take you away." Su Rui said, patting his chest.
"Fuck, I will be wronged if I marry you? This must be the blessing you have cultivated in your life?" Qin Yueran smiled happily, such a smile looked so bright and moving under the moonlight and starlight.
Su Rui continued to play Wuxia said: "It is said that good and bad are dependent on each other, who knows, maybe you are a broom star."
"You are the broom star. Since I was a child, the Feng Shui master of the capital had fortune-telling me, saying that I was a rare Wangfu fate." Qin Yueran said here, she couldn't help but feel a little sad: "Later, this comment was passed without knowing why. Going out, that is, at these words, I will get these things."
"Can you believe what a fortune teller says?"
"Not a fortune teller, but a Feng Shui master." Qin Yueran corrected.
"In my opinion, they are no different from liars."
"That master has a high reputation in the capital, and many people are very superstitious of him." Qin Yueran's mood improved again, and he pursed his lips and said with a smile: "If you let them know what you say about their idols, they will probably form a group. Beat you up."
"Then I will take you to beat him up first, isn't this a mistake?"
"You said, you must help me out at that time." Qin Yueran smiled when she heard the words, and she didn't take Su Rui's words seriously.
"Okay, when I finish this fight, you don't want to be touched by your body."
"Commit to you with my body? I am not at a loss? Let Xia Qing hear this, but I don't know how to deal with you.
"I have said that, she and I are innocent."
"I believe you are innocent to her, but she is not innocent to you." Qin Yueran seemed to mean something.
"Cut, I'd rather believe that there are ghosts in this world than that of a woman's broken mouth."
"Really clichéd and boring joke."
After the two people fought for a few words, they all fell silent. For a moment, the atmosphere was a little stagnant.
"Why don't you speak?"
"Why don't you speak?"
After a brief silence, the two said these words almost simultaneously. Glancing at each other in surprise, both of them laughed.
"Do you mind if I try your piano?" Su Rui said suddenly.
"Of course you don't mind, you know how to play the piano?" Qin Yueran looked at Su Rui with some curiosity in her heart, but when Su Rui first saw this piano just now, she did seem a little excited.
"So-so."
After Su Rui finished speaking, she was already sitting in front of the piano.
In a woman's mind, once a man can play the piano, he will have a different temperament.
Qin Yueran rarely saw men playing the piano. She was a little bit disbelieved. Su Rui, who kicked the second young master of the Bai family half an hour ago and vomited blood in public, actually knew this kind of instrument?
For this kind of person with a six-star top secret identity, he should like to play, shouldn't it be guns?
However, Qin Yueran did not expect that once Su Rui's fingers were placed on the piano keys, these fingers seemed to possess agile individual lives!
After trying a few notes gently, Su Rui's expression seemed more focused than ever.
The slender fingers are like running clouds and flowing water, stroking them on the keys, and the sounds like sounds are spread out like mercury.
At this moment, the notes and melody seemed to be in harmony with the stars in the sky, filling this rare night with a different kind of atmosphere.
It's bright, it's rare, and it makes people feel very disappointed.
Qin Yueran stood on one side and looked at his eyebrows, his expression, and the movements of his fingers.
Unlike the clear spring water that he played just now, Su Rui's melody revealed an atmosphere, and there was also a hint of sorrow in this atmosphere. Although it was not thick, it could be clearly felt.
Sometimes it is exciting, sometimes smooth, and after abrupt cessation, there will be a waterfall of mercury. Being able to play such a melody is no longer a purely technical category, and it can only be achieved by devoting the strongest and most sincere feelings.
Through the melody, Qin Yueran seemed to see a figure like a lone wolf.
Blood and gunpowder, loneliness and boundlessness, haggard and hope.
Through the sound of the piano, Qin Yueran seemed to feel a lot of emotions and saw a lot of things. What suffering has this man experienced? Can you play such a moving tune?
Qin Yueran felt a faint pain in her heart. At this moment, this man playing the piano was so distressing.
She didn't know what he had really experienced before, but she could clearly feel that emotion, once hesitated, once helpless, once sad, but she never stopped giving out endless hope for life.
The melody stopped slowly, the notes stopped flowing, but there was a trace of tranquil beauty under the night sky.
The name of this song is-"We Have No Tomorrow".
"Su Rui, I suddenly wanted to hug you."
When Su Rui played the finishing tune, Qin Yueran said suddenly.
Su Rui turned around in surprise, and the latter was already in tears.
"it is good."
Su Rui stood up, wiped the tears from Qin Yueran's face with both hands, and then gently hugged her into her arms.
But Qin Yueran backhanded Su Rui tighter.
This simple hug is not about ambiguity, not about feelings, but only about the memorial to the past and the hope for life.
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