Chapter 40: Lovesickness is not negative (1)

Three days later, Fu Dongwen's father had an operation.
He did not show up.
The operation did not end in the afternoon until late at night.
This time, she was very mindful. Instead of going to the operating room, she asked the head nurse to call her. At one o'clock in the morning, the head nurse finally informed her that the operation was over, and Deputy Dean Duan went to the bathroom to take a bath first, and asked Shen Xi to wait for him in the office.
Duan Menghe's office was not locked at ordinary times, and was left open for people to come and go. When Shen Xi arrived, several doctors involved in the operation were also there, and Duan Menghe was confessing the work to them.
"You continue." Shen Xi sat on the sofa and waited.
Duan Meng and a few words dismissed everyone and said to her: "I wanted to talk to you a few days ago, but I don't want to affect the mood of the operation."
Shen Xi didn't understand what he was going to talk about, it sounded related to the Fu family.
"Shen Xi, don't interact with him anymore. If he can treat his father and brother like this today, he can treat you like that tomorrow."
Duan Menghe's doctor's clothes were dazzling white. He was a man with a sloppy appearance and meticulous professionalism. He had to change his doctor's clothes every day. In fact, he is a serious person.
On weekdays, he also joked to the doctors and nurses in the hospital. Three months ago, the embarrassment of his rejection of his marriage proposal spread in the hospital. At first, everyone thought it was his sore spot and did not dare to mention it. Later, he found himself It's not serious, the whole hospital is guessing whether he is persevering in private, or the proposal is useless and sincere? So slowly, someone boldly asked him how he was rejected by Dr. Shen? When to propose again?
Only he and Shen Xi knew the real situation.
The two reached an agreement, if they talk about personal relationships, Shen Xi will resign and leave.
Shen Xi did not expect that he would cross the boundary.
"Deputy Dean Duan," she didn't want to discuss Fu Dongwen's affairs with outsiders, "you have just finished the operation, and that's it for today."
Shen Xi stood up and went to open the door.
"Shen Xi," Duan Menghe held the door, "I know your taboos, and it's not about the relationship between you and me. I also know that you don't love me, but I don't want to see you go back."
When she left Beijing, there was no way back. Where could she go back?
Duan Menghe said, "I can guess that you left Beijing that year and it was related to the news of Fu Dongwen's engagement. Shen Xi, do you know why I had to consult the Fu family because of Fu Dongwen and Duan's The relationship is correct, and it is also because the lady from the Gu family asked my cousin to come to me and let me accept this patient."
She shook her head: "I don't want to know these."
Shen Xi couldn't face him in Beijing, and his marriage.
"Why would my cousin come to ask me? It was because he and Miss Gu were going to get engaged. He felt that he owed Fu Tongwen and asked me to help."
got engaged? Miss Gu? Is there any other lady in the Gu family?
"Gu Youwei didn't marry him, and she couldn't stand Fu Dongwen's behavior in the past two years. She canceled the marriage contract with him. Shen Xi, from you to Miss Gu, he has let down one or two women?"
He is not married? ! Didn't marry Gu Youwei?
"Shen Xi"
The subversive news burned her face like a rush of fire, and Shen Xi flushed, holding Duan Menghe's arm: "Gu Youwei is going to be engaged to your cousin? Didn't you lie to me?"
"Yes..." Duan Menghe looked at the tears in her eyes, and Gu Youwei cancelled the engagement. "
Shen Xi opened the door, ran to the end of the corridor, rushed down the stairs, and almost knocked over the nurse on duty upstairs. Unconsciously, Shen Xi stumbled back two steps, rubbed his shoulders against the wall, and let the nurses who drove upstairs ran down the stairs in a panic. Ignoring everyone's surprise and greetings, he returned to the office and locked the door.
why……
why did not you tell me?
Shen Xi picked up the telephone receiver on the desk and placed it next to his face, only to find that his fingers were wet with tears.
His late-night phone calls and the attitude that he couldn't help but kiss that day are vividly visible. He has his own in his heart, why not explain it?
"Good evening, where do you want it." The wiring lady was asking on the other side of the receiver.
She choked: "...Three three four."
"Okay," the wiring lady heard the cry and hesitated for half a second, "please wait a moment."
The phone was answered quickly.
"Hello." It is Tan Qingxiang.
Shen Xi cried in his throat, restrained, and slowly uttered: "Mr. Tan, I'm looking for...San Ye."
"Shen Xi?" Tan Qingxiang hesitated, "Look for him now? I'll help you ask."
The earpiece was put down, it was the sound of footsteps going upstairs.
After waiting for a long time, there were slow footsteps in the receiver, and then the receiver was picked up.
But he didn't speak immediately. After a long time of silence on the other end, Fu Tongwen asked her in a low voice, "What's wrong with you?"
He heard her cry.
"Where are you?" His tone was slow, not very clear.
Shen Xi lowered his head, tears fell on the desk, and finally cried out: "I want to see you... Fu Dongwen, I want to see you..."
"Where are you?" He suppressed his breath slightly, and asked patiently, "In the hospital?"
"I want to see you, Fu Dongwen, I want to see you..." She felt sorry for herself.
The fragility that he did not dare to expose after leaving two years ago, all broke out at this moment tonight.
She wanted to see him and asked in person, why didn't you tell me if you weren't married?
"I... it's not very convenient to get out now," he said, "Are you in the hospital? I will ask the driver to pick you up."
This is the last sentence she remembered before she sat in the car and left the hospital.
Except for the driver who drove the car, he did not let anyone who knew her pick him up, because he was afraid that people would see her crying.
The hospital is not far from Xiafei Road, there are few vehicles on the road late at night, and the road is unimpeded all the way to Lihe. The driver opened the door for her. Shen Xi got out of the car and stood at the entrance of the alley where he had lived for several months, as if he was going back to the past. She temporarily calmed down on the road and was once again disturbed by the familiar buildings on both sides of the stone road.
Behind her, the three men who followed her from the next car not too far away followed her unhurriedly.
Shen Xi's eyes were red, and he stood outside the apartment door.
Before knocking on the door, Tan Qingxiang opened the door for her: "Come with me."
Shen Xi ignored the polite greetings, passed him and stepped up the stairs.
"On the second floor," Tan Qingxiang chased, "He was in a bad mood today and drank a lot of wine. I heard that he hung up the phone and it was even more wrong, Shen Xi, you—" He told him to find himself here. It was superfluous. In the past, Shen Xi took care of him a lot, and he didn't need his instructions at all.
Shen Xi ran upstairs, the door on the second floor was hidden.
Before entering, she leaned against the door frame to calm herself down. He just changed her breath and the door was opened by him.
The others are drunk and are waiting for her forcibly.
The moment the two eyes met, she felt a sting in her heart, dazed, unable to ask a word.
There was a double shadow in front of him, and he stood unstable: "Come in and talk."
In the bathroom, Zhou Lixun happened to come out and was surprised to see Shen Xi. Downstairs was Tan Qingxiang, who dared not follow. Both men were locked outside a door.
Familiar rooms, familiar furnishings, even a row of ink bottles on the bookshelf.
Before she came, Fu Dongwen asked people to make tea because she wanted to sober up, but she drank too much. Alcohol was on her way. A cup or two of strong tea was useless. He took the tea cup, poured it half a cup, and put his hand on the desk: "Is there something important, crying like this?"
He is still pretending, when is he going to pretend?
Why can't you speak frankly?
Shen Xi blamed him for the first time, just tonight, in the Liheli apartment where he and she had lived alone. Her eyes were sore and swollen, she lowered her head, watching a few tears fall on the floor and leather shoes...
"Why don't you tell the truth..." She leaned against the door, trembling from crying, "Why?"
The figure in front of him was blurry and he was close.
"What is it? Tell me what you want to hear."
He went back to the door, trying to wipe her tears, but she blocked it.
"You didn't marry Gu Youwei, why didn't you tell me?" Shen Xi panted, crying and asked, "How many times have you ever seen me...? Fu Dongwen... why are you..."
Too many grievances, she was never good at questioning, even if she took up a lot of truth, she ended up with the three words "Fu Dongwen".
Fu Dongwen was questioned by her. His eyes were full of emotions, his throat was burning, and the frustration and guilt that had been suppressed by alcohol all night ran wildly in his blood...
The door was knocked hard.
"Dong Wen? In Dong Wen, please tell others," Tan Qingxiang persuaded, "You two sit down and talk."
...
Shen Xi's body vibrated along the door, and his chest was dull. Even if he bit with effort, he still couldn't stop the trembling lips due to emotional ups and downs. The indiscretions in the past have become a joke.
I thought that only Gu Youwei was among them, but it wasn't...
He put his hand on the door, panting slightly beside Shen Xi's face, looking down at her face, and seeing her nose and lips flushed with tears. He bowed his head and went to find her lips, as if they could not be found, as if they could not long for...
Shen Xi turned away, sobbing.
Across the door, Tan Qingxiang and Zhou Lixun both spoke out to discourage them, because the quarrel between the two just now is still silent.
Across a wooden board, Shen Xi was afraid that someone would hear his out-of-control words and crying again. He pressed his lips tightly, letting tears stay in his neck, soaking his collar, and stopped making a sound.
He had a thousand reasons to choke in his heart and throat, and he wanted to kiss her again. The two of them silently ducked and chased her, their faces pressed against their faces, Shen Xi couldn't cry, and they kept pushing him.
Finally he was pressed against the door, holding his face in both hands, and blocking his lips.
...
"Shen Xi? What do you say? Shen Xi?" Tan Qingxiang was anxious outside the door, "I really opened the door."
Fu Dongwen slid his hand off her shoulders, went around her waist, and touched the door lock.
The door bolt clicked and clicked into the keyhole.
"Shen Xi?" Tan Qingxiang was still calling her
"Qingxiang," Zhou Lixun stopped, "the door is locked inside."
The two men outside the door must have reached a consensus and stopped making disturbances.
...
Shen Xi's head was knocked over by his impulse, and the back of his head banged on the door panel. He was crying and breathing hard. When he kissed him like this, people couldn't breathe. He pulled his shirt with his hands and the buttons were loose open.
She gritted her teeth, resisting as much as he was vomiting.
His face was held in his hands, all the weight of his body pressed up, and he kept sucking her lips, first down, then up. Later, I lost my patience, mixed with her tears to bite, the pain made her teeth loose, and finally her lips were pried open.
He was really drunk, he didn't have any priorities, he lost his composition, and his tongue was tingling.
She suffered from swelling and pain in her chest due to lack of oxygen, but her finger joints were sore.
Can't push him.
He couldn't breathe, and his lips never left her. First he groped his right hand on the collar of his shirt, unbuttoning it inflexibly, unable to unbutton it...Finally, he pressed his leg on her leg and used both hands to unbutton it. Neckline yourself.
One, two
In the end, he finally let go of her lips.
The man in the wine was afraid that the Wenxiang nephrite he touched was fake: "Yang Yang..." He called her.
The tingling under the ear made her hum softly. He was biting her behind her ears and on the side of her neck. After the pain, he pressed the post again. He used a gentle kiss to apologize for his little taste.
Shen Xi's soul is outside, sitting on the windowsill, watching himself and him.
The window is half open, and you can see the street lights on the street and the moon from here.
He was holding her with his forehead resting on the door panel, wanting to be more awake, wanting to have a good conversation with her, but he felt her shoulders shake slightly. He couldn't open his eyes because the world turned upside down in front of him, so he had to touch her face with his left hand, and touch her face with tears.
"Duan Meng and there," he asked, "Do I need to deal with it?"
She cried too much, her brain couldn't keep up with his thinking, but she seemed to understand something. He has a close relationship with the Duan family. Although Duan Menghe is not an important child in the big family, perhaps the elders in the family will mention a new thing that belongs to young people such as marriage proposal.
Shen Xi is not quite sure, look at him.
It happened that in the past few days, the two had no communication, and the information was unclear.
Once lovers met again, they would have been even more distant than strangers. I am afraid that the words will be wrong, I am afraid that I will hurt my feelings, I am afraid that an unreasonable wrong sentence will disturb the peace, and there will be such a hearing...
Shen Xi's mood is difficult to calm, it is like the university is trapped in a schoolwork problem, suddenly found a way to solve the mystery.
"You..." Shen Xi's voice was dry and dumb, "Know about Duan Menghe's proposal to me?"
He smiled and said nothing.
It's not that I don't want to say it, but it's drunk, afraid that the conversation will be full and unclear.
"If... I tell you that I have been in love with him for two years and agreed to marry him, can you understand me?"
This was the first time in her life that she lied to Fu Dongwen. Even if the lie would only last for a minute, she would like to know what he would do if he were placed in his original position.
The words are thrown away, there is no decline.
She regretted then suddenly, in a moment of his silence.
But soon, he recovered as usual, still smiling and saying: "I'll let the driver take you home, tonight..." It was just a relived old dream.
He held the door in his hand, intending to leave.
Shen Xi pulled on his shirt. They were so affectionate just now that the collar of his shirt collapsed, messy, and extremely outrageous. He patted her shoulder and she didn't move.
He pretended to pretend, and whispered to persuade: "The third brother is accustomed to being single, and he won't plan to marry a wife. It is always convenient for you to find me in the future." This is true and sincere.
Shen Xi choked again.
She put her head on his chest, tears falling: "I won't go tonight, if you chase me, I won't go."