Chapter 138: Gentle poison 5

City B at night was shining with dazzling neon lights everywhere, turning the entire city into a sea of ​​lights. Probably because the neon lights at night are too bright, and probably because the moon no longer has the strength to compete with these cold artificial lights, the moonlight is dull and gradually covered by flowing clouds.
A white Ferrari roadster was passing fast on the road, perhaps related to the cold weather. On the streets of city B in the middle of the winter in the early hours of the morning, there were no vehicles driving, not even many pedestrians on both sides of the road. A few people found the speeding sports car, and only sighed: In such weather, it is enough courage to not put the hood on.
The tear marks on He Shushan's cheeks had already dried up. He held the steering wheel with his hands, his eyes looking forward without focus. On top of his head was the bitter cold winter wind. At these temperatures of a dozen degrees below zero, he wore only a thin coat. His hands were frozen to purplish red because of the cold, and his lips were scary and pale, but he didn't feel anything, just holding the steering wheel hard and moving forward.
This car was his birthday gift, and the birthday gift that Chu Hiong Kee, who had taken over the Chu Group, gave him.
He also remembered clearly that man said:
You have been an adult since today. It is time to have your own car.
He took the silver key with excitement, and drove the car around every day. Later, because he entered the entertainment industry, and the car was too swaggering, he never drove again for many years.
However, I don't know why these months, he would always get into the car involuntarily in the garage.
The gifts that Chu Hiong gave were always extravagant.
From a set of electronic smart toys when he was six years old to a Victorian piano last year.
This man never dwells on the need for money, but he just sends a gift without even mentioning a "happy birthday". Once, He Shushan always thought that this man just buried his feelings too deeply, so outsiders seemed to think he was too ruthless.
But now, He Shushan understands deeply.
Chu Hiong has feelings, but ... never against him.
A knife-like fierce night breeze blew from all directions, and the thin coat couldn't stop the bitter cold wind at all. There was an abnormal flush on He Shushan's face, but he didn't seem to notice it at all. He drove the car calmly and rationally, entered the secure cx apartment, and then stopped and went upstairs.
He lied to Chu Jingjie.
In the past few months, since the night that Chu Geunjie left, he has never returned to the Blue Mountain Villa.
He specifically instructed Yuan Zhen not to tell Chu Hiongjie about this, but he secretly prayed in his heart: this man will soon find out that he moved into the cx apartment and ask him why.
A few years ago, Chu Hiongjie left He Shushan a house in the cx apartment. Although he was still a Tianyu artist at this time, everyone had no objection to this matter, and even Pan Lun didn't dare to say a word. but……
He Shushan has never lived.
Every day when he enters this community, Shu Shan is thinking, maybe next second he will see the cold and indifferent man standing downstairs in the apartment building and asking himself why he suddenly moved here.
But whenever he drove around that tiny corner, he always found--
Under the dim and dim street lamp, only the air was flowing alone, and there was never that man.
Therefore, he really never cared about his own affairs.
Therefore, when he was living in Yongsheng, he just cared about it politely, and didn't even have the energy to listen to his explanation.
Therefore, he really wants to leave forever.
Suddenly a low laugh, the most desperate and sad voice, echoed gently in the narrow elevator. He Shushan looked at the brightly reflective elevator wall. The helpless self seemed strange and familiar.
Familiar with seeing this person in the empty apartment all the time in the late night of these months.
The corners of this man's eyes were flushed with redness, his cheeks were white, and his lips were colorless. He seemed to want to cry, but he couldn't squeeze a tear.
He Shushan, He Shushan ...
You are a complete loser!
The elevator suddenly made a "ding--" sound, and the metal elevator doors began to open to both sides.
"Ai Qing, if I eat something so late, will it grow fat? You know, I'm not in good health, always ..." The teenager's crisp voice came to an abrupt halt, and Xu Situ looked at the elevator in surprise. Man, exclaimed: "Hey ?! Shu Shan ?! What's wrong with you, why is your face so bad!"
Xu Situ quickly stepped forward to support He Shushan. He looked at Shu Shan's appearance, his face wrinkled, and said, "Did you haven't rested for a long time? Don't fight like this, Shu Shan, you can have songs anytime, but the body is the most important thing." . "
Zhu Qing, who was standing outside the elevator, heard Xu Situ's words, and a helpless smile appeared on his handsome face. He entered the elevator and said, "Of course you don't understand. For Shu Shan and their singers, a good song , That's their life. "
Xu Situ snorted softly and said, "I don't care anyway, Shu Shan, you have to take good care of yourself! Anyway, your new single is also over. You don't have to work again tomorrow, and take a good rest at home!"
Zhu Qing heard the words and said, "You should loosen the arms of others and Shu Shan as soon as possible, and let them go home to rest. Really think that everyone is like you, and you will not be sleepy in the middle of the night?"
Upon hearing this, Xu Situ immediately refuted a few words. Zhu Qing laughed twice, instead of paying attention to this proud child, but turned around and said to Shu Shan: "Shu Shan, take a good rest. I know that your heart has been uncomfortable in these months, but your body Most important, go to bed early. "
He Shushan slowly looked up and looked at the two men. In his sight, Zhu Qing and Xu Situ seemed to have three separate bodies, shaking and swinging constantly. His eyesight has always been good, but at this time, he could not see the expressions of the two.
"Well, thank you."
He mumbled and replied, and Shu Shan went out of the elevator door. Open the door and enter the house, blocking all the noise outside the house. At the moment when the gate was suddenly closed, He Shushan's body suddenly fell down, his back leaning against the solid door panel, and the whole person collapsed on the ground.
The entire face was buried in the cold hands, and Shu Shan's body shook steadily, and a low whimper came from her throat, but no tears flowed from her eyes. He finally felt the feeling of steaming all the water out of the body.
On the night when he was left alone in the studio, he was not as desperate as he is now.
As if everyone would be secretly fortunate when he was in grief, he always thought that he and that person still had a chance and a chance. But today, when he really saw the bright and hearty woman and the other's hand holding Chu Ge's arms tightly, he really felt that everything had long since ended.
The arms that had embraced him for countless nights, the chest that made him feel endlessly warm, and the hot hand that pulled him out of the dark abyss, no longer belonged to him.
And belongs to that woman.
He never found that he could be so jealous, and he never found that he had such acting skills.
Pretending to be indifferent in front of Qi Wenyuan, pretending to be indifferent in front of everyone else, and even so frank in front of that man. But ... the feeling from the bottom of my heart, like a sword twist, could not let him deceive himself.
"Hibiscus ... Hibiscus ... Hibiscus ..."
He Shushan's voice was getting lower and lower, and finally it became a vague sobbing.
Probably because he burned too much, his complexion had changed from the redness at the beginning to horrible paleness. Only those eyes were still red and shocking.
Silent to the room where the air is still, he and Shu Shan have been sitting in front of the door like this for a long time. The sound of heating was blowing a little bit, and slowly, this monotonous sound was suddenly mixed with a faint to inaudible song.
The song choked, echoing low in the room, with the saddest and hopelessness.
"Being in love with the play, I played for you ..." The murky voice stopped abruptly, and Shu Shan held his legs and buried himself in his knees. After a long time, he smiled lowly. With a sound, I continued to sing this last sentence: "I play the piano for a lifetime for you."
In the darkness, He Shushan slowly raised his head and smiled bitterly at an unknown point in the air. The smile was bitter and sorrowful, it was obviously laughing, but it seemed more ugly than crying.
The past is like clouds, one by one flashed in front of He Shushan's eyes.
From the arrogant and indifferent boy I saw for the first time to the little wooden car later; from the sweet-scented osmanthus forest that blocked the sky to the shore of the blue mountain lake; Finally, the man's indifferent gaze in Yongshengju.
In the end, everything was reduced to that person's words that were so simple that their tone did not change--
And Shu Shan, I'm getting engaged.
"Oh, yes ... he's getting married."
The sour extreme sound rang in the quiet room, and Shu Shan suddenly leaned against the sturdy door panel and looked up at the pattern on the ceiling illuminated by the lights outside the window. For some reason, he seemed to have seen the afternoon in his life that he would never forget, twenty years ago.
The boy looked at him proudly. Although he was extremely polite in his words, he looked on with an unabashed cold look.
It turns out that ... has everything been doomed from the beginning?
"I'm so tired, hibiscus." A faint smile smiled suddenly on his lips, and Shu Shan chuckled, "I have been chasing you after all these years. I'm really tired. When can you ... Look back at me? "
The slightly insane laughter gradually sounded, and in the end it was impossible to tell whether the person was laughing or crying.
Suddenly, and Shu Shan stood up and stood up. The hot blood all over his body suddenly crowded his brain, making him almost stand still and fall. He took a few steps, and after all, he stood firm against the wall.
In the darkness without the lights on, He Shushan stood quietly in place. I don't know how long, suddenly he walked forward without any warning. By moonlight, he stepped into the open kitchen step by step, then lowered his head, staring blankly at the sharp knife that was inserted into the wooden utensils and looked cold.
Ears seemed to hear Qi Wenyuan's words of anxiety and comfort in the past few months, but did not make He Shan's face a little floating. He reached out his hand slowly and headed for the sharp weapon.
"Ayuan, I'm really tired. Sorry."
With a faint slash of the sword, He Shushan seemed to see how many times in the concert, those fans holding up their names and screaming.
"Sorry."
Holding the cold knife handle tightly in his hand, He Shan took a step and walked towards the bathroom. He turned on the faucet and watched the hot water fill up in the pure white bathtub little by little. He seemed to see the scenery that he had seen with that person in the past few years in front of the Blue Mountain Villa.
The warm sunlight shone on the small artificial lake, sparkling and ripples.
If it is said, it is this person who gave him life and let him escape from the dark and hopeless childhood. Now ... this man relentlessly took back everything he thought he had.
He Shushan lifted his head and closed the faucet, leaning against the cold tiled wall, he smiled lowly: "You have this right, you have this qualification. Chu hibiscus."
As the voice fell, it was the sound of a sharp tool that cut through the skin with the deepest force. The dazzling blood column splattered, and a beautiful blood flower bloomed on the white tile. He twitched with Shu Shan's body, and then the entire left arm fell weakly, slamming heavily in the hot water in the bathtub.
The blood quickly intensified due to heat and water flow, as if paralyzed, and Shu Shan could not feel the piercing pain from the left wrist, but there was a clear relief, which suppressed his heart for a long time. release.
I can't give up because of deep love.
Because he couldn't give up, he was hurt.
And at this moment, he could finally escape the shadow of that person forever.
get away……
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