Chapter 142: Gentle poison (final)

He Shushan turned abruptly, tears were already overflowing in the red and bloodshot eyes, but he widened his eyes and never let a drop of tears fall.
"Chu Que knot! Obviously you haven't really seen me in your childhood, I'm just your dispensable playmate!" And Shu Shan clenched his teeth, but couldn't stop the bitter laughter Poured from my lips, "Five years ago was my promise. I said I would not leave you first in my life. I sing for you, I tell you, I will play the piano for a lifetime. But!"
He Shushan walked step by step towards the man who was standing in place, the sun was covered by dark clouds behind him, and there was no longer the gentleness of observing the sun. His expression was the despair and sadness that Chu Hiongjie had never seen before, just like the night when he returned from Yongshengju to his apartment alone, leaning against the icy door in the darkness, he was absolutely hopeless.
"But! Chu Hiongjie! When I return this life to you, I will never owe you anything again! My promise, my song, everything I have, is the little wooden car, I do n’t owe you any more! I will give it all back to you with my life, and from that night on, my life will no longer belong to you! "
"I live for A Yuan, I live for my fans, I live for all who value me, and I live for myself!"
"But Chu Hiew, I will never live for you again!"
At the end the voice had become hoarse and torn. Every word was bitten extremely decisively, as if using all his strength to block all his retreat, there was no room for a turn.
The tears that finally fell from my eyes seemed to be witnessing this eternal farewell. He Shushan turned around at the moment when tears were about to fall, and quickly wiped away the hot and humid liquids with his hands. He was unwilling, and could no longer shed tears in front of this man!
The sadness and despair that tortured him for several months, the sharp blades that had been slashed in his heart for a minute and a second, these have long wounded his heart, and can only maintain the most basic beating pacing. And the love that once thought to be deep and strong, when he felt the vitality gradually disappeared, he had been buried in his heart forever.
A heart that has barely a life-sustaining effect, there is no possibility of love again.
The quiet atmosphere enveloped the simple and clean ward in an instant, it was the kind of depression that seemed to condense the air into ice, and pressed heavily on He Shushan's heart. His tears kept rolling down, but he wiped them out tenaciously, don't let that person see, and don't let the tears fall!
This is his final dignity, and this is the last answer he gave himself over the years.
The ticking of the ticking second hand broke the silence, and Chu's knot's eyes glowed with red blood. He looked down at the ground without the guts to look up at the thin young man.
Every word that man said seemed to be the sharpest sword that pierced his heart fiercely. He wanted to refute, but was powerless to find that this man was right.
He is arrogant, he is rude, he is self-righteous, he is arrogant, he has never put anyone else in his eyes, he even once thought that he would never fall in love with anyone, including himself!
But when he actually left the hospital and saw the scene that had been preserved intact.
Only then did he realize that he had been obsessed with meaningless dignity, and he had built a high tower for himself since he was a child. He stood alone at the top, enjoying the first-class feelings of the Supreme Man, but he did not find that he had been forcibly dragged into the realm by the man who had stubbornly climbed the tower for twenty years.
From the little boy when he first met, to the beautiful and delicate teenager, until now, this stubborn young man who was facing his back and shrugged his shoulders without making a sound.
And Shu Shan really grew up.
However, he has always kept his feet on the ground and kept drawing.
What exactly is dignity?
It was something that made him almost lose the person he loved forever in his life. It was something that made him hypocritical for more than thirty years. It was a meaningless thing, but he used to look at it. Something more important than the sky!
"Bang-", the sound of heavy objects falling from behind He Shan. His body suddenly stunned, as if imagining what was happening behind him.
Qing Ya's eyes widened suddenly, and Shu Shan immediately turned away, and when she saw the man's straight spine, her eyes suddenly stagnated, her body shivered, her eyes widened in shock. Although he had been mentally prepared, when he really saw the scene, he felt something collapsed.
Chu Hiong knotted her head in a humble attitude into the dust, kneeling seriously before him.
The pair of knees that were once proud and unwilling to bend for anything, were completely close to the dust that the man once hated, even though the waist was straight, but there was no cold and elegant look. At this moment, the arrogant and indifferent man who has been stepping on the world under his feet is as ordinary as any man who has done wrong.
The man's tears fell from the place covered by his hair.
He Shushan couldn't see his expression clearly, but just looking at it from such a distance, he felt a kind of pain that bit his heart and pecked himself at the heart, gradually, even every cell in the whole body was Tightening pain.
"And Shu Shan, give me a chance."
The voice was hoarse and choked, Chu Hiong said with a bowed head.
He Shushan suddenly stepped back two steps suddenly, until he stepped back to the window, then stabilized his panic.
Do not! This is not a hibiscus knot!
Chu is a man who is so proud and indifferent!
The man thought he had hidden the coldness from the inside out seamlessly, but he had already seen it through.
He never kneels to anyone!
He has never been so humble and small!
He even ...
He Shushan's brain was blank, and his back was close to the window. The glass was heated by the sun, and the warm temperature came through the clothing on Shu Shan's back, but it could not warm his cold heart at all.
He didn't know how long before he suddenly laughed lowly, the laughter was a little crazy, and finally he was suppressed to the extreme bitterness: "Chu Yun knot, okay, I forgive you. From now on, we will not meet again. None of us owes anyone. "
The straight back trembled, and Chu's hands clenched into fists, shaking her body. I do n’t know how long it has been, or how long Bing Jie has been in the air. Even in the end, even Chu Hiujie didn't know how he could barely calm down to a voice that he didn't even believe: "No, and Shu Shan, you owe me, you will always owe me Life."
Immediately after the words fell, Chu hibiscus raised his hand and smashed the glass vase placed on the side of the small coffee table, then quickly picked up a sharp piece of glass on the ground and slid toward his left wrist without hesitation.
"what are you doing!"
He Shushan vigorously opened the sharp glass piece, but left a tiny blood hole on the fingers of Chu Hiong knot, leaking blood. The anger rushed to his heart in an instant, and Shu Shan threw a slap on Chu's face with merciless force, so strong that the latter turned his whole body into a crook, and blood dripped from the corner of his mouth.
"How can you give up your life like this !! How can you ..." and Shu Shan's anxious voice reminded him that before he finished speaking, he suddenly felt a powerful force to pull himself forward, then down One second-
He fell into that familiar, warm chest.
"Shu Shan, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you ..." Just knowing that simply whispering this sentence, as if losing all the language functions, Chu Hiong was dead. Hugging He Shushan's thin waist, the strength was as if he wanted to embed this person in his arms forever.
He Shushan listened to the man in his ear, repeating the simplest love sentence in the world. It seemed that he was afraid that he was about to run away, and Chu Hiong used all her strength to embrace herself into her arms, and the hot beating heart, at this time across several layers of fabric, really touched his chest.
"I love you."
The last sentence seemed to be a crying sound, so that He Shushan gradually woke up from that state of loss. He didn't move, but left the other side to cling to himself tightly, not talking, and struggling.
"You can't bear me, you can't bear to abandon me, you can't bear ... you can't bear it."
Listening to the other person's repeated words, He Shushan felt his shoulders gradually getting hot and humid--
It's this person's tears.
He Shushan's lips gradually evoked a bitter smile, feeling the violent beating heart in the man's chest, as if infected, the heart he once thought he would never warm up again, slowly and again Gradually warmed up.
I don't know how long, there was no sound in the silent room.
He Shushan slowly closed his eyes, eventually raised his hands, and gently hugged the man who was afraid of panic.
Feeling the other person's suddenly stiff body, feeling the arms that increased strength in the waist, shook his head slightly, and the bitter helpless smile filled the lips again.
People who love more often end up paying more and hurting more.
He was still reluctant.
Reluctant to watch this person die, reluctant to watch this person humble enough to give up self-esteem, and even reluctant to ... reluctant to make this person sad.
Outside the window is a clear blue sky with dark clouds gradually spreading. The bright and bright sunlight gently spreads the light toward this land, driving away all the cold darkness and returning the warmth to the earth.
His tenderness is a poison.
It flows in thinly, but penetrates the bone marrow.
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