: Summary of Volume 1: I want to light a lamp

Latest URL: I had a difficult time when "Mr. Gu" was blocked.
During that time, I had severe insomnia, a bad mood and too much pressure. Every day, I will be exposed to the evening sun to increase the secretion of melanin. Usually, I will move a small bench and sit in front of the window.
"The Little Prince", "The Ordinary World", "The Kite Chaser", "The Moon and Sixpence"... These books are almost all read during this time.
good looking!
Sometimes I conceal my thoughts, sometimes I was moved to tears.
One day, I raised my head and suddenly realized that my life has always been full of sunshine and beauty. Darkness and pain are more of self-exile from the soul.
It's like the stand-in boy has the ears of a manta monkey, suddenly feels the sound of nature, and appreciates the beauty of nature.
All difficulties are no longer difficulties.
This experience prompted me to think: Where is the value of literary works?
No one's life can be smooth sailing. Life is not easy, there are many tribulations, many twists and turns. I am very fortunate to be able to see these works. When I am in pain, they are like lights in the dark, giving me strength and allowing me to break through the spiritual barriers.
Think about it carefully, this is actually a very romantic thing.
I don’t know how many years away, in a place far away from where I live now, there is such a person who weaves a lantern with his own efforts and puts his spirit and soul into it as a light. Then it is thrown into the long river of human history, floating on the river.
Those who are fortunate enough to see such lights, whether he or she is in the upper stream, lower stream or middle stream in life, whether it is the stormy waves or the beautiful scenery. This light can bring him (her) soul touch and feel the beauty in it. Either love, or the pursuit of dreams, or the thinking about life, or the search for truth.
People are lonely, their life span is limited, people are very small, and the entire human race is actually very fragile. We have been living on the earth all the time. A virus may disintegrate the entire human society. Race, culture, and region divide people from each other, even when the Internet is so developed today. However, such lights overcome these obstacles.
Those who make lights, across races, religions, regions, and time boundaries, tell others this way: I have lived, I have thought this way, and I have been moved this way. This is my light, and I especially hope that I can use this insignificant light to bring as much help as possible to others. Even if it is just a touch, it is the greatest consolation in life.
Perhaps this is where the value of literary works manifests.
In fact, when I wrote "True Real Gu", I felt this way. When I communicate with readers, when I am happiest, it is not when the readers say which chapters are cool to see, nor is it to discuss the setting of Gu worms. But I remember some students said that I hope to learn from Fang Yuan his spirit of never giving up. I drew strength from "True Real Gu" and achieved good results in the final exam. My family is difficult and my parents are divorced. I once felt that life was terrible, but I found new hope in Fang Yuan's persistence.
The ancestors had a word, which was very delicately made-it is called "see xiansiqi.
These past creative experiences and life experiences triggered my urge to create "Infinite Blood Core".
It's not so much writing a book, it's better to light a lamp.
Even if the light of this lamp is extremely faint, I want to try my best to help some, maybe I will meet my friends who are in darkness and pain for a while. Give them some strength.
What I hope is that when we encounter difficulties in life, when we are misunderstood, spurned, and disgusted by others, when we are deceived by life, when we are tortured by our own dreams, even when we commit ourselves, we cannot forgive ourselves. When it was wrong, I recalled the roar of the substitute boy
"I am not a needle."
"I'm not a genius either."
"I don't have noble blood."
"I am not a Templar."
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"My original memories have been erased, and now my memories have been instilled by others, and they are still incomplete."
"You all know your name."
"I'm not as good as you, because I don't even know my name."
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"We were born ordinary."
"We are rejected and disgusted."
"We were betrayed by relatives."
"We are always not treated fairly."
"We have sinned, and we cannot forgive ourselves."
"We were cast aside, exiled, wanted, and ridiculed by the crowd. So what?"
"Should we not think about it?"
"Should we not do it?"
"The reality has made us so miserable. The bad life makes us unbearable. We can only get better if we think about it."
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No matter what, we should pursue the beauty in life.
The sun is always there.
Are we just looking up?
This creative concept began to sprout in the later period of "True Reality Gu". The writing of "Human Ancestor Biography" gave me a lot of enlightenment in life. When "True Real Gu" was sealed, he clearly realized this. When it comes to "Infinite Blood Core", it is my formal experiment and development.
Only in this way can we live up to this life.
Encourage each other.
August 30, 2020.