Chapter 53: What is the truth?

His words were cut off, and the girl in front of him screamed. It was the first time he saw her so gaffe. However, after she yelled, she stopped talking, just looked at him steadily, like Xianglin's wife, only her eyes were turning occasionally, barely proving that she was a living creature.
"I..." She paused and laughed again, "Don't worry, I will assume that I have not heard anything. Just now I assume that nothing happened."
"Nothing happened?"
"You, you think about it slowly for a month, if you haven't changed your mind, come and tell me...say what you just wanted to say, think twice."
This seems to be the result of her long consideration.
Sheng Huainan was a little angry: "I don't need to think about it."
"No, no, no, calm down, think about it, think about it," she drew her hand vigorously, waving her hand and stepping back, "I just calculated it, you change your mind about once a month, I don't know. Do you have such special days every month, but I think you should think about it, I am afraid of you..."
"You only have such special days every month..." Sheng Huainan flushed with anger.
"I do have such special days every month." She continued to laugh, but he could clearly see that her smile was sticking to it like a paste, trembling, and about to fall off. He could even see the sadness and fear under his smile.
Sheng Huainan stepped forward to pull her, and she backed even further. He saw the obvious confusion in her eyes—she should be really afraid of him.
He dropped his hand and smiled reluctantly: "I'm sorry."
Luo Zhi stopped hiding, nor did he tease or ridicule him as "I'm sorry" as before. He just stood in place and lowered his head, rubbing his toes lightly against the snow, making a series of scars.
"I'm not the one who healed the scar and forgot to hurt." Her voice was very soft, unlike any words she had said before. Even when he was driven to anger, she could calmly joking and mocking him. , Has never shown weakness to him like now.
"You can be enthusiastic for one second, and not even send a text message in the next second. It disappears for many days, and you stay thousands of miles away. When you meet again, you still look like you haven't seen it for a long time. I can't bear it." She smiled bitterly, "But I knew it for a long time. I like you if you are right. If you hook, I will ignore the prejudices and cooperate with you as a good friend."
The performance was seamless and sweet.
"You are too self-righteous, Sheng Huainan."
The voice was soft, but every word seemed to be accusing.
I don't know if it was because of the enthusiasm that was poured down by a bucket of cold water, the sentence that she interrupted and didn't say was like a steamed bun that couldn't be swallowed, stalked in the chest, holding Huainan more and more uncomfortable. He also stopped smirking, with a little bit of displeasure, and said: "You don't think my previous actions were all insanity."
Perceiving the emotion in his words, Luo Zhi suppressed his sad expression, raised his face and turned his lips together and sneered: "Do you think that you don't have to ask for the dust? I should say long live three times now?"
He was getting more and more embarrassed, and his face was a little bit too much.
"Let’s make it clear today. What did I do wrong, and you are reluctant to forgive me? It saves you a great favor, I don’t appreciate it."
She looked at him with her hands behind her back.
A trace of fatigue suddenly flashed across Sheng Huainan's face. When talking about a mess as big as the student union, he never showed such helplessness and exhaustion on his face.
"The reason I haven't said it is that if I can prove that you are innocent with my own strength, you don't have to know the truth of the matter. Although I can't say to understand you, but at least it is clear that you will never go with a low profile. Explain or justify. I accuse you, you clear your guilt, but after this process, your self-esteem and feelings are hurt. I...I cherish our previous..."
He didn't go on, but was upset by the central word, then raised his eyes again, looking at Luo Zhi with an annoyed look.
She felt soft for a moment, almost moved by the rhetoric, a little snow fell on the tip of her nose, and her wetness reminded her of that rainy day suddenly.
"If you really cherish it, you wouldn't have treated me like that before. Your feelings have been hurt, your self-esteem has been smashed, and we will not be able to return to the previous state. What can you say?"
Sheng Huainan was stunned.
"Hehe, yeah," he smiled a little with a broken jar, stood with his back relaxed against the big tree, shook his head and said, "I messed up, am I?"
Luo Zhi was noncommittal.
"So, someone told me that you have secretly... secretly loved me since high school, is this true?"
Luo Zhi didn't expect that he would ask this in the first sentence, his shoulders trembled slightly, his eyes dodged.
"You said the point."
"You answer me first... is this true?" Sheng Huainan blushed.
"So what?"
"You used to even like me to admit, why do you want to see through this issue?"
Luo Zhi smiled bitterly, and tightened his collar: "No. It's different."
"Because I have a girlfriend in high school?" Sheng Huainan showed a clear look.
When Luo Zhi heard this, he laughed and laughed: "What is the relationship between these two things?"
"Then why not answer?"
She was silent again, her eyes twinkling. Sheng Huainan was about to speak, but saw Luo Zhi turn his face, as if a tear was falling. He was surprised and subconsciously reached out his hand to help her wipe it off, and was pushed away as soon as his hand touched her face.
"Say the point." Her voice suddenly became very cold.
He retracted his hand and smiled bitterly: "Then are you always... jealous of Ye Zhanyan because... because you have a crush on me?"
Luo Zhi did not panic or stare innocently as he imagined. From the moment he started to ask the question about the secret love, her speed of answering the question became very slow, and she had to think for a long time every word she said, as if she was thinking about the response countermeasures, Sheng Huainan's disappointment was beyond words.
"I didn't." She still lowered her head, slowly and calmly.
"you have not?"
"I do not have."
"So... what about envy? If you think jealousy is malicious, then envy—"
"There may be a bit of envy," she suddenly raised her head to look at the misty lights of the communication center in the distance, "but not because she is your girlfriend."
Her slow answer was not because she made up lies, but because she was trying to be honest. Sheng Huainan seemed to understand this, so he lowered his voice and asked, as if he was coaxing a child to talk: "Then what do you envy?"
Luo Zhi smiled like a wayward child, and said: "The crystal is very bright because it refracts the light. I envy the spotlight behind it."
Luo Zhi saw that Sheng Huainan's eyes were full of doubts, and he was a little forgiving. She didn't know why he was so interested in these details, was he procrastinating and didn't want to say those allegations, or unknowingly deviated from the track, suddenly came to the interest to want to know her?
To understanding? Luo Zhi smiled bleakly. In fact, there seemed to be thousands of mountains and rivers blocking them all the time. He didn't notice, but Luo Zhiming clearly saw it. On the rickety tricycle, when he made a serious promise, she turned around. His face was moved, as if a sad premonition had already risen.
The sole purpose of a promise is to slap yourself one day.
"It's cold, you speak up."
"Sorry, I've been dulling, but suddenly I feel... embarrassing to tell you straight."
"You are embarrassed to ask even if I have a crush, what else is embarrassing?"
Sheng Huainan was startled.
"I... after breaking up with Ye Zhanyan," he said with some difficulty. "Did she find you at the end of the freshman winter break, that is, before the start of school, and cried out with you the reason for our breakup, and then asked you to help write a letter. The important letter and a white crystal swan pendant were brought to me after school started? And you didn’t. Instead, you told her that I threw the letter into the trash can with the pendant without reading it. Didn’t it?

It took Luo Zhi a long time to remember that he should have raised his head abruptly for the first time, looking at him with a surprised and innocent or even extremely angry expression. However, her posture and expression remained motionless, her head quietly lowered, and her mood became calmer and calmer.
"Could it be...really?"
Luo Zhi raised his head: "Is that such a thing?"
"Do you think this is a trivial matter?"
"You mean, I made troubles and destroyed you two?"
"Yes."
"When did you know?"
"...In the middle of the night on the day we skated."
Luo Zhi tilted his head for a moment, and smiled: "Oh, so I made an appointment to see Tiffany and the others the next day, you let me dove."
Sheng Huainan was a little uncomfortable and didn't follow up: "I was told this by a witness."
"Witness?" She suppressed a smile, "Who?"
"Luo Zhi, I just want to hear from you, whether there is it or not."
"Who?"
"I can't tell you..."
"Who?" She smiled, flat and gentle.
Sheng Huainan tried to say to her in a calm tone: "In fact, you don't need to know who said..."
"Let me ask you one last sentence, who?"
"Okay," Sheng Huainan shrugged, "she said her name is Ding Shuijing."
Luo Zhi's gaze seemed like a calm and waveless lake, too deep to see the bottom.
"I know. So, you have already asked Ye Zhanyan for verification?" Luo Zhi nodded to himself, then turned around and left. Sheng Huainan took a few steps forward to hold her: "That's it?"
"How should that be? I should say in tears, you listen to my explanation, things are not like this, really not like this, you must believe me...huh?"
The corners of her mouth were raised and her smile was ironic.
"But why should I explain? Don't you know the presumption of innocence?" She said while gesturing, "Who accuses, who gives evidence. No matter the text message or the call log, there is no evidence that can be obtained, I Why do you want to talk nonsense about this matter with you? With your mouth closed, what kind of story can be made up, how to refute the fictitious things? I ask you, Ye Zhanyan's friend list in high school, there is a person like me Is it such an important thing, why bother to pass it on by me? Does she have my mobile phone number? Because she is your girlfriend, the boys in your class who passed the exam for P major have a good relationship with her, why Don't give it to your good buddy, but give the letter to me?"
Every word of Luo Zhi made a sound, she threw away his hand and continued to move forward.
"Can I know why you refused to answer me about...about secret love in the first place?"
Luo Zhi had already walked a distance, and turned around after hearing his question. This question is a deadly spot that she can't mention. The anger gathered around her because of the argument just now dissipated, and the turbulent emotions began to flow in her eyes again.
"Ding Shuijing said about this secret love?"
"Yes... they all said that."
Luo Zhi squinted half his eyes, his eyes blurred, and drifted far away through him.
"Then... were you happy when you heard it?"
Sheng Huainan moved his lips. Is he happy?
The real "key" part was ignored by them from the beginning, and went around. He was just obsessed with an answer about a crush, and she was actually concerned about this.
"If it weren't for hearing that you did the following things because of a crush, I think I would be happy."
Luo Zhi was silent for a moment, then suddenly asked: "Why do you bring Ye Zhanyan's raincoat to pick me up?"
"Sure enough, you knew it was Ye Zhanyan's raincoat."
"A lot of people know that pink raincoat. Ye Zhanyan likes to show off your things in the class, everything is fine," Luo Zhi lifted his chin, the corners of his mouth have a slightly upward arc, and his eyes seem to be provocative. "I know that a raincoat is also guilty?"
Sheng Huainan was stunned: "Does she like to talk about this?"
"Don't you know?" Luo Zhi smiled, and did not continue the topic. "So Ye Zhanyan's raincoat was used by you to retaliate against me? Vent her? It really doesn't matter."
"I... was too impulsive. But it was not revenge, not for her. I can't tell. They all said that you can disguise well, but this raincoat can try to look like you really."
What you really look like. Luo Zhi almost laughed out loud.
"In fact, even if it is revenge, there is nothing wrong with it. You should immediately believe in Ye Zhanyan."
Luo Zhi said indifferently that Sheng Huainan was embarrassed by the fact that it had nothing to do with him.
"So you did nothing wrong, I understand. If my boyfriend or my mother told me such a thing, I would unconditionally believe what they said. If you can ask me, I already thank you very much. Up."
"Luo Zhi, it has nothing to do with closeness."
"How can things that are unmatched have nothing to do with relatives?"
She waved her hand, leaving a very empathetic smile.
When Luo Zhi moved forward, every step left a creaking sound on the snow. The furry coat made her look like a small animal in a fairy tale looking for her way home.
Sheng Huainan's brain suddenly went blank.
"Luo Zhi!" He blurted out, "Actually, if you say something and you haven't done anything, I may...I may be able to trust you."
"I haven't done anything."
Luo Zhi turned around and said lightly. Sheng Huainan was caught off guard, and her passionate sentence was wiped out by her sentence.
"So do you believe it? I said it now," she laughed. "You don't believe it. If you trust me, you don't need to say anything, and you don't need to bother to verify, because your heart will tell you this kind of thing , I disdain to do it."
Sheng Huainan suddenly hated himself. He is obviously the one who is crusading and the one who is interrogating. Why does he now look like a savage, nonsense child?
"Your high school... why did you like me?" He suddenly went out, grabbing the question he wanted to know, and entangled.
He no longer cared about the truth. He just wanted to ask her, if she really liked him for so many years-then what does she like him? They don't know each other, why does she like him? And if she really likes it, why is she holding her own memories tightly, yet resisting him so much? It seems that this relationship is known to him, and it is not worthy of joy for her, but great humiliation and sadness.
She just paused for a while, didn't turn her head or answer, and moved on.
"You said, if all this didn't happen, you didn't run away in front of the window sill, did we..."
Sheng Huainan didn't finish speaking, suddenly his eyes went dark and his forehead was cold. He was startled, and he held the dwarf pine next to him and flicked away the snowball in the middle of his forehead without knowing it.
In the vague vision, Luo Zhi still maintained a throwing posture, seeming to use a lot of effort, but the new snow was soft and could not convey her anger at all.
"you……"
"...Sometimes," Luo Zhi lowered his head, his voice trembling slightly, restraining the turbulent emotions, "sometimes, I think it's useless to say anything to you, I really want to crush you."
She felt as if she was about to cry soon, and quickly reduced her expression, turned her head and walked away.
Sheng Huainan's mood was a little calm, his stiff back muscles slowly relaxed, and he shook his head to shake off the snow from his hair, and gently put his frozen hands on both sides of his body back into the pockets of the down jacket.
The girl in front of her, her back is no longer the original loneliness. She raised her head slightly, and walked firmly and vigorously with every step, stretched and bright. When Sheng Huainan lowered his head, he suddenly noticed that a long piece of hair hung on the zipper of the down jacket. Half of it was twisted in a chain, and the other was gently floating in the wind. He stretched out his hand to pull, but couldn't pull it out.