Chapter 839: Heart to the sun

(The first one is sent out in advance, and I will go out again later. I don't know when I will arrive at night, but I will work hard to update!)

"But in fact I never blamed or resented them, and I never regretted being adopted by them."
There was a trace of pain on Lu Bingbing's face.
The mother’s alienation from her has always been the most painful thing in her heart, although she knows that her mother’s deliberate alienation is not because of her dislike, but precisely because of her love for her, and because of her own The inner self-blame and guilt.
But she has always wanted to tell her mother that such self-blame and guilt are unnecessary.
She has never regretted being her daughter, even in those darkest years, when debt collectors often came to harass her at home, even when she had just arrived in the United States and was unfamiliar with her life, she wanted to rush to school. She had to work several jobs, and she never regretted the hardest time.
In her heart, she had already regarded her mother as her biological mother.
She is also extremely eager, and her mother treats her as her own daughter, cursing as she pleases, instead of the self-blame and guilt in the eyes of her mother every time she comes home.
Every time she saw that look, her heart would feel a little pain.
Over the years, she would often hear some classmates and friends complaining to her, saying that their mothers were wordy and that their mothers were too harsh on her... Every time they complained to her, her heart would be extremely Envy.
She wished that one day she could feel this kind of complaint from her mother like them.
She has been working hard.
She strives to make herself better, strives to make her mother feel what she thinks, strives to be like a normal daughter, treats her mother well, acts like a baby in front of her mother... No matter how busy or tired, she will also spare time to call and greet .
Even because she felt her mother's avoidance and knew the process of adapting to her heart, she did not force her mother to be too tight, did not make her move to her side, but decided to give her time.
But she did not expect that she would suddenly receive news that her mother was sick.
When she received a call from the Hong Kong City Hospital, she only felt as if a bolt from a blue sky had been struck suddenly, and she was completely blinded.
After putting down the phone, she flew to Hong Kong City for the first time. When she saw her mother's medical records, her tears couldn't stop streaming down.
At that time, the doctors at the Hong Kong City Hospital thought they were blaming her for being too harsh, but in fact, she did not shed tears at all because of the reprimand of the doctor at the Hong Kong City Hospital, or even because of seeing her mother’s condition so serious. It was because she shed tears when she saw her mother didn't tell her even when her condition had progressed to such a serious condition!
"Doctor Lu, do you really blame them at all?"
Ye Xiu looked at Lu Bingbing with a complex look in his eyes.
He didn't know how Lu Bingbing came over these years, but he knew it was definitely not easy, and he also didn't know how much her adoptive father left her with gambling debts, but Lu Bingbing just said that until the end It was only paid off at Qi'an Hospital, which is enough to explain some of the problems.
With such a huge debt and such a heavy life, even if it is a biological daughter, I am afraid that I will complain, and even feel resentful.
What's more, Lu Bingbing is just an adopted daughter.
"Do not."
Lu Bingbing shook his head, "I really have never complained about them, let alone hate them. On the contrary, I have always been very grateful to them in my heart."
"If they hadn't led me out of the orphanage, I might have grown up in the small space of the orphanage just like other children in the orphanage, and then I would have an indelible inferiority complex when I became an adult. People’s psychology enters the society. If you are lucky, you can become an ordinary person who is no longer ordinary. If you are not lucky, you may go down the wrong path and become a problem person."
Ye Xiu was silent.
He also came out of the orphanage. No one knows better than him what the environment of the orphanage means to a child, and what will happen to them when they grow up in the orphanage in the future. The problem.
Not every orphanage is as dark as those reported by the news and media. Only a handful of those black-hearted orphanages will have conscientious things, but the orphanage is really not a place suitable for children to grow up.
Even if those orphans were lucky enough to encounter an orphanage of conscience and were not abused or sold organs, these orphans might not be able to grow up healthy and happy like ordinary children.
Because the orphanage may be able to provide enough food for the children to eat, but there are many things, especially the psychological things, which the best orphanage cannot provide, and these psychological things are what every child is growing up. Very needed in the process.
"They gave me the opportunity to get out of the orphanage and receive a better education, and then I have the opportunity to pass the exam, learn the medical skills I have always wanted to learn, and become a doctor."
Lu Bingbing continued, "So even though it was really difficult these years, there is really no complaint in my heart, all I have is endless gratitude."
Lu Bingbing looked at her mother on the hospital bed again, with a sad look in her eyes.
She did not know how many times she had said these words implicitly or directly to her mother, but why did her mother not believe her?
She really doesn't mind those sufferings, she really appreciates them.
If it were not for them to bring her to Hong Kong City, she would not receive such a good education in Hong Kong City, and she would not meet those classmates, friends, who were kind to her later, and always encouraged and supported her. Teacher.
She thinks that her return has been greater than the gain.
"Doctor Lu, you are really an amazing person!"
Ye Xiu looked at Lu Bingbing with sincere respect.
This is really an amazing girl.
"There are some people in this world, no matter what kind of suffering he has gone through, no matter how much darkness she has gone through, her heart will always be sunny and bright, because her heart is a bright and dazzling sun. "
This is a sentence that Ye Xiu saw in a literary work long ago.
He has always felt that this sentence is somewhat exaggerated, but at this moment he believes that there are such people in this world. Su Dongmei before and Lu Bingbing before him are all such people!
They have experienced so many hardships that ordinary people can't experience, but they don't complain in their hearts, only gratitude. What they see in their vision is sunshine and beauty.