Chapter 11:

Song Yan, let's reconcile.
Xu Qin woke up in the middle of the night and said this in his dream.
When she was sober, she once panicked for this blurt words. If he agreed, what would happen next?
Dare to let parents know? Dare not.
Can you go far? not necessarily.
But knowing that it was impossible, she seemed crazy that day, like a drowning man who just wanted to grab his driftwood and rescue her from a dead life.
If rescued, can she really abandon the so-called old life and break up with the family?
Xu Qin is very clear. So when he refused her, she was beyond the pain and despair, there was a trace of security and happiness that did not need to change the status quo.
She is always torn in contradictions, she has never been firm.
The night was silent, she thought, at that time her face must be very ugly. Song Yan must have seen her ugly under the mask, so she was disgusted and disdainful; so she did not want to be reconciled with her and never looked back.
At three o'clock in the morning, she sat on the bed, her arms burst into coolness. The window was open and the night breeze was too cold.
The weather in the north always cools down suddenly, without giving you a little preparation.
Autumn has already arrived. Otherwise, how could it be so cold at night.
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Xu Qin is actually a native of southern China. He grew up in Liangshi, the hometown of fish and rice, before he was ten years old.
She has a beautiful face since she was a child, has a good hair, soft and supple, born with a linen color, like a dyed exotic style. In the time when hair dyeing was just emerging, the students were envied, and more envied by her identity, the mayor's daughter sounded domineering; the daughter of a well-known sculptor sounded romantic.
She lived in a large villa from an early age, listened to symphony, watched famous Renaissance paintings, learned piano and violin, traveled all over the world, and was the proud daughter of heaven. A beautiful life suddenly decayed from within one day.
Mom and Dad no longer love, quarrel day and night, Mom screamed: "Liar, liar, I want to report you." Dad shouted violently: "If you can't go on, you will get divorced. What the do you want?"
Xu Qin did not know what his father lied to his mother or what his mother wanted. These questions didn't make it clear. Mother burned that happy home in the middle of the night and burned herself and her beloved husband. She may also want to burn the love crystallization of the two-Xu Qin.
Xu Qin was rescued and sent to an orphanage. The school in the city was rumored, and the eyes of others around her became strange, with ridicule to read jokes.
The aunts and children in the orphanage didn't like her, and secretly told her parents' jokes. She sometimes screamed and fought with others. She was punished by aunts for work, hunger, hunger, and no sleep. The schoolmates also bullied her, "Xu Qin, why don't your luxury car come to pick you up?" "Xu Qin, what about your Barbie?" "Xu Qin, why don't you wear calfskin boots?" They used The stories of her parents compiled songs to sing behind her, sing while pulling her hair, and stretched her foot to trip her to the ground.
She became more and more silent, more and more like a non-existent transparent person.
Until one day, Dad's comrade-in-arms Meng Huaijin and his wife Fu Wenying appeared, saying: "Qin Qin, we will take you home."
Twelve-year-old Meng Yanchen reached out to her with a warm smile like the sun: "Qin Qin, this is my brother."
At the age of ten, Xu Qin went to the far north.
Meng Huaijin treats Xu Qin as if he were out, and he is very fond of it. In his words, he and Xu Qin had a father-daughter relationship in this life. Xu Qin loved this adoptive father as he did his biological father. Fu Wenying, the adoptive mother, was also very concerned about Xu Qin, but as Xu Qin gradually integrated into the family, the relationship between the two siblings caught her attention.
Xu Qin first came to the Meng family. Meng Huaijin was busy with work and had little discipline. Fu Wenying is a woman of arrogance and arrogance, and is a woman who behaves as a rule. Xu Qin, who is unfamiliar with the rules of the family, is inevitable to rigorous training. Xu Qin was trembling day and night, fearing that Fu Ying would be dissatisfied, and was rushed back to the orphanage. She did n’t dare to speak, she did n’t dare to go out of the room, Meng Yanchen accompanied her to see her carved wood, and the accompany was countless for a whole day; she dared not make a sound at home, fearing that Fu Wenying, Meng Yanchen She went up and down the door and opened the door to make the house rattle, and she was often trained by her mother; she did n’t dare to pick food, choose her favorite, or eat too much. The minister took her to the restaurant to eat a stall, eat her belly full and then wipe the oil on her mouth before going home; she often had nightmare dreams about the screams of her parents burnt to death, dreaming of being bullied, insulted and mocked, and insomnia at night Can't sleep, Meng Yanchen accompanied her to paint and tell stories.
Gradually, children grow into boys and girls.
Although the two have a great relationship, like brothers and sisters, they are not brothers and sisters. After all, mothers will inevitably worry about crossing the line. One day, Fu Wenying proposed to go through formal adoption procedures, let Xu Qin be renamed Meng Qin, and write in the Hukou book.
Xu Qin refused to sit at the dinner table and wiped his tears, saying that although he loves Father Meng, he must follow his father's surname.
Meng Huaijin couldn't bear it and proposed not to change it. Saying that the surname is just a surname, Qin Qin's surname is Xu, and he will be his daughter all his life.
But Fu Wenying was very persistent on the matter.
Xu Qin finally agreed-she was advised by Meng Yanchen.
A month later, when he was in high school, Xu Qin suddenly offered to go to boarding school. Fu Wenying answered.
After changing to high school, for the first time in the dorm, the female students in the same bedroom were all promoted from the junior high school of the school, and they were familiar with each other.
Meng Huaijin was afraid that she would be bullied. The family sent her to the dormitory together. Meng Yanchen also bought a bunch of snacks for the girls in the dormitory to buy the hearts of the people.
However, the results have been minimal.
Xu Qin is not talkative and lacks expression. The girls in the dormitory are noisy and naturally feel that she is not in a group.
After the family left, the roommates gathered around a girl looking at the soni player in her hand, and asked what good songs were on the tape, and they played out.
A girl kindly called Xu Qin: "Meng Qin ..." Turned around and saw the wine red CD machine on Xu Qin's bed, exclaimed: "This CD machine is not sold in China. God, this wine red is more than the advertisement page good looking!"
Two other girls looked over: "Can you give it a try?"
Xu Qin nodded gently.
"Huh, why is it all classical music?"
"Forget it, let's be classical, and cultivate the sentiment."
The three girls glanced with interest, and Xu Qin watched their happy faces intently.
"Meng Qin, is your family rich?"
Xu Qin shook his head: "It's just that my dad is willing."
"That tall and handsome boy was your brother just now?"
Xu Qin said nothing, and bowed his head to sort out the CDs that were messed up by everyone.
"Can you tell me about it? He is exactly the type I like."
Xu Qin shook his head.
"Why not, don't be so stingy." The other party kept asking.
Xu Qin raised his head and said seriously, "He won't like you."
The other party was surprised, and the entire dormitory looked at her in surprise.
"What are you doing?"
"Yeah, it's too much to say that."
"Just kidding. If you don't introduce it, don't introduce it. Why do you say something hurtful?"
Xu Qin tightened the box in his hand and was silent.
"Not even a single explanation, it's too much."
The original smooth integration process thus fell into the freezing point.
Xu Qin's first dinner in the new school was eaten in the cafeteria alone.
On the first day of school, she was still sitting alone in the corner. The classmates around were all old friends reunited, and she changed the school district, and naturally no one noticed her new face.
The class teacher's surname is Lu. Let everyone introduce themselves and ask questions. The fifteen or sixteen-year-old children are very noisy, not to mention knowing all kinds of questions, all kinds of strange things.
For example, in which junior high school did you enter the wrong men ’s restroom, did the confession fail at the junior high school sports meeting? All kinds of embarrassment broke out. There was a laugh in the classroom.
After a whole class, the bell rang, and teacher Lu asked: "I have introduced myself, then let's—"
"Old Lu!" A male voice sounded in the back row of the classroom, dragging and sloppy. "That little guy hasn't introduced yet."
Xu Qin, known as the "little guy," slowly turned his head, and in the last row sat a tall boy, his school uniform was loose and loose, and one foot stepped on a chair. He tilted his head slightly and raised his right hand, his right index finger pointing at her lazily.
The laughter stopped for a moment. The eyes of the whole class focused on her with his index finger.
Xu Qin looked at him quietly, and he didn't have any superfluous expressions, but his eyes were the same as hers, looking straight and detecting.
Teacher Lu was so sorry that Xu Qin came to power.
Xu Qin was not nervous or excited, and said in a waveless tone: "Hello everyone. I am Meng Qin."
She finished the introduction in one sentence, and there was no sound on or off stage.
Teacher Lu wants to encourage her to say a few more words: "Meng Qin, what are your hobbies and tell everyone."
Xu Qin shook his head: "No."
Teacher Lu looked at all the students in the class: "Then to the question, what do you want to ask?"
The raven was silent.
What can a person who has no information ask.
At this moment, the boy's voice sounded behind: "Which Meng and Qin?"
Xu Qin: "Zi Meng Meng, Shui Xin Qin."
"Really good." The questioning boy raised the corner of his mouth and shattered his hair to cover his eyes. There was a reflection of the fluorescent lamp in the classroom. The white light was shiny like water.
"Brother Yan teases the girl again."
The boys laughed.
"Song Yan!" Teacher Lu scolded him.
Some students responded: "Song Yan did not introduce herself."
The sound of coaxing up and down revealed that it was a popular bad boy.
Song Yan didn't move: "Everyone knows, so I won't say much.-Lao Lu, it's time for class." Then he stood up and walked to the door of the classroom.
A noise of dissatisfaction.
"No questions yet."
The male student across the passage from Xu Qin asked aloud: "Last year Zuo Li-just got pregnant and dropped out of school-her parents came to school, and six of your class guys have skipped school. Say, where did you go that day? "
"Go to your mother." Song Yan walked through the passage and said. The hoarse boy's voice fell from Xu Qin's head during the voice change period.
He walked out of the classroom, leaving Xu Qin with a back figure of Dang Er Lang.
Xu Qin admitted that she and Song Yan didn't intersect at all. She went to the class step by step, finished the class, went back to the dormitory, and did everything. Like a lone soul floating on campus.
And Song Yan, wherever he went, had a group of friends, men and women surrounded him, as long as he was there, the classroom would be dead. But he was rarely there. He skipped classes, missed classes, smoked, fought, and couldn't see the figure all day.
But after school that weekend, without warning, Song Yan blocked Xu Qin on the road and announced to her that he was in love with her. The two stood for more than an hour, and finally Song Yan gave in.
He was very upset and took out a cigarette to light it, smoking without saying a word, and then turned his head to look at Xu Qin with a look of "you don't know me". But he looked at it, but finally smiled lightly, raised his hand and rubbed her head, said: "Go."
Xu Qin pulled his foot and walked past him. He heard him say, "See you next week."
He let her go home, it does not mean let her go.
"See you next week, Meng Qin." Song Yan said.
When Xu Qin returned home, there was no difference at all. He only said that the road was delayed, and he never said anything about being "harassed" by Song Yan.
But on Monday, Song Yan didn't go to school at all.