Chapter 58:

On the day of the earthquake relief commendation meeting, Xu Qin went to the hospital, put on a white coat, and set off with his colleagues.
When they arrived at the hall, they got out of the car. Several soldiers lined up and walked to the meeting place. The boys raised their heads and stood at the same pace.
Doctors and nurses are mostly women, the team is idle, trotting and trotting, and chattering, the handsome men in the team next to the nympho. After all, the upper body of the military uniform, all tall and straight, with long arms and long legs, is really heroic.
The soldiers did not squint, but Yu Guang also sneaked a glance at the nurse. The younger boys were somewhat aspired to hear the girls' crisp and sweet laughter.
The two groups of people entered the venue in very different styles.
Two-thirds of the auditorium was allocated to soldiers. Medical staff, journalists and social rescuers account for the remaining third.
Xu Qin and his colleagues found a seat together and glanced at the soldiers. Rows of soldiers sat upright and extremely imposing.
Xu Qin, at the Meng Parent University, was able to distinguish the subtle differences in military uniforms, and soon found the armed police fire brigade, with four or five rows behind her. But they are in the left zone, and they are in the middle zone.
She glanced at the soldier's face, and suddenly saw Song Yan.
He had his back straight, sitting upright, perhaps sensing it, his eyes moved, his face expressionless, but the next second, he blinked at her.
She couldn't help but pursed her lips, and after sitting down, she looked back at him again, and there was no figure to block it.
The commendation party was broadcast live at the prime time nationwide, and half an hour before the start, the people under the stage had basically been seated.
Several presenters dressed in Chinese clothes confronted the manuscript on the stage, and the staff was busy.
The soldier's piece was quiet and silent. Someone from Xu Qin whispered. Soon after she sat down and wanted to use the toilet, she got up and went to the bathroom.
When he came out of the bathroom, he met Song Yan. He was in a military uniform, holding a military cap in his hand, and stood on the side of the corridor. The whole popularity was Yu Xuan.
She smiled, trotting over a few steps, her eyes gleaming at him: "Following me?"
"Well, come and see you." He said, "It's not easy to meet." Then, she glanced up and down.
She put her hands in her pockets and was not comfortable: "It's weird to wear a white coat when not working, but the leader asked to wear it like this."
"It's pretty." Song Yan said, remembering to hang, "How is your hand?"
She raised her wrist to show him that the wound had scabed. He held her hand and stroked her wrist with a rough thumb without touching the wound: "It should be almost ready."
"Huh." She lipped her lips, her eyes unconsciously swimming around under him.
"Look?"
"You are really handsome in military uniform." Xu Qin said, touching his fingers on his military uniform. The thick and stiff fabric was very textured. She was reluctant to let go and felt it. She whispered, "Can you wear it home? "
"Do you like it?" He asked in a low voice, his voice a little tempting.
She nodded: "Like."
"Okay." He whispered in her ear. "Wear it back to show you next time." During the speech, fingers caught the pocket of her white coat and pulled it a little. "How about you, can this piece be sneaked back?"
"Yes." She said, somehow, her cheeks were hot.
He smiled: "That's fine, it's done."
Someone came over from the restroom, and he slightly distanced from her, his smile closed, and said, "Go in."
"Ok."
The entrance for the two seats is not at the same place, Song Yan advanced the field.
Xu Qin walked to the other entrance, and a soldier approached him. After wiping his shoulders, he called out: "Doctor Xu?"
Looking back, it was Lu Jie.
She had a bad impression of him, and nodded with no expression.
"I didn't expect to meet here again." Lu Jie was still so hearty. "Song Yan should also be here, but I haven't seen him yet."
Xu Qin didn't bother to talk to him, saying: "The conference is about to start, I'm going in first."
Lu Jie mistakenly thought she was displeased when she heard Song Yan's name, so she let it go.
The two have to leave.
But Lu Jie finally endured, did not hold back, said to her back: "Is it really impossible for you and Song Yan?"
There was no one else in the outer hall and the echo was empty.
Xu Qin stopped and turned back: "What?"
Lu Jie said with a smile: "I just think it's a pity that he loved you for so many years. It was just for you to test for the military school and for you to be a special force. So much suffering has happened. Why didn't you come together?"
Xu Qin stunned: "He ... what military school, special forces?"
...
In the venue, the host walked onto the stage: "There are five minutes left before the start of the conference. Please all relevant personnel to sit down as soon as possible, do not move around at will."
Song Yan glanced at Xu Qin's seat, empty and empty.
Ten minutes have passed, and she has not entered. He frowned.
...
Outside the venue, the hall was splendid and quiet.
Xu Qin stood alone, pale.
What Lu Jie said, it appeared like a frame by frame.
He said that Song Yan is one of the hardest and most desperate members of their team, bearing weight, launching water, skydiving ... Devilish training, he gritted his teeth, and tortured against torture, he might as well endure his life.
He struggled day and night, performing missions time and time, and making credits. Until the last time, he suddenly became a traitor who betrayed military secrets.
Lu Jie said that he has always clearly remembered that day, Song Yan was dragged away directly in front of a group of teammates, only to know that he committed the crime of execution. There is a way to punish traitors in private, he can't survive the torture.
He also said that Song Yan was not such a person, but he couldn't save him, and he didn't know who was going to kill him. He always thought that Song Yan was dead. It wasn't until this year that he met again in Wangxiang that he had the ridiculous sentence: "Are you not dead?"
Xu Qin twirled that sentence in his mind,
I don't know who is going to kill him.
I don't know who is going to kill him.
In front of him, Fu Wenying's sarcasm smiled: "He called, Song ... what's coming?"
Half a year ago, Zhai Miao ’s accusation in the courtyard house was suddenly clear: "You almost killed my brother!"
Disgusting and bitter emotions swept up from the limbs and bones, and suddenly turned over the river,
Xu Qin stood in the same place, gasping for a moment, she turned stiffly and walked out. Just after taking a step, the security guard rushed up and pulled her to push into the field: "The conference is about to start. Go in! "
Xu Qin was pushed into the venue, the door closed behind him, and the eyes were gorgeous. On the stage, red and green dancers swarmed onto the stage, and the ferocious music sounded.
She stood at the exit of the stereo and was trembling with shock. She was at a loss as to where to go. She wanted to return to the gate and Xiaonan ran over to pull her: "Doctor Xu, what are you running around? Hurry back to your seat, this live broadcast!"
She was forcibly pulled back into her seat and seated. The music and performances on the stage highlighted the theme of the earthquake and became more and more tragic.
Her eyes lost focus, her eyes loosed, and she didn't know where to look.
Behind him, Song Yan glanced at her, only to see the back of her head.
After the opening song and dance, several presenters took to the stage and chanted the praises of Song Gongde. Xu Qin was sitting under the stage, all kinds of emotions in his heart were violently upset, and he was about to vomit. Recitations, poems, performances, shows one after another, the applause around her continued, she couldn't sit still, and every second became extremely tormented.
Just when she could hardly stand up and rush away, she suddenly heard her name: "Xu Qin, a burn surgeon at the Third Military Hospital ..."
She woke up abruptly, and the people around her were pushing her, and when it came to her, at the commendation link, she and Song Yan had to come to power.
She turned around and saw that Song Yan had got up from the seat, the applause was thunderous, she stood up and walked on stage.
She was pale with the lights on the ceiling.
Song Yan and her met in the middle of the stage, and gave her a quick glance, and found that she was a little strange, but she couldn't say anything at all at the moment.
The host introduced the moving deeds of saving the baby to the audience and the live TV audience.
Xu Qin knew the importance and suppressed everything in her heart. When it was her turn to speak, she could say calmly and calmly: "This is what I should do. The doctor's duty is to save people."
But after saying this, she didn't have much to say, the host praised: "Dr. Xu is not good at speaking, he talks less, he does more."
Xu Qin was stunned. Say less, do more, isn't this the man in military uniform beside her?
Her nose was sore and she couldn't help it. At this moment, she just wanted to step down, but there were still people to commend. The host introduced them one by one, and the other soldiers came to power one by one.
When she and Song Yan stood a little bit next to each other, Song Yan asked very lowly, "What's wrong? Uncomfortable?"
She hurriedly made excuses: "It seems to have a bad stomach."
He whispered: "Be patient again, and you will step down immediately."
"Hmm." She glanced at his profile. Since taking office, she has not dared to look at him directly, fearing that she will cry. At this moment, his profile is also quiet and calm, not showing the mountains and the water, not revealing a trace of dark past.
Xu Qin blinked hard, reminding herself that she was still on stage, just about to look away, but at this moment, she saw Song Yan very quickly glanced at the other soldiers, special forces, artillery, and PLA in the center of the stage. Armored soldier.
He glanced at their military uniforms and then looked flatly down the stage.
Xu Qin suddenly remembered the night when Wang Xiang looked at the soldiers passing by him.
He is envious.
Like a little boy with only a paper plane, he envyed other children's remote control planes and tanks.
She couldn't bear it anymore, tears rushing into her eyes like crazy.
She turned her head quickly, letting tears drip, and wiped away after it had dripped. The people on the stage thought she was touched by other people's deeds, but did not feel different.
Finally, the leader came to give the certificate, and everyone applauded and could step down.
Xu Qin did not go down to Song Yan's side, and quickly walked in the opposite direction.
There was also thunderous applause from the audience. She did not return to the auditorium and rushed out of the venue directly.
She appeared in a white coat on the street in winter night and stopped the car to go west.
Arrived in the compound more than half an hour.
The maid came to open the door and said that the man was in the teahouse.
Without changing his shoes, Xu Qin stepped directly into the door, quickly walked through the living room, and entered the tea room.
Meng Huaijin and Fu Wenying were making tea, and was a little surprised to see her visit suddenly.
Fu Wenying didn't intend to ignore her, but she looked cold, wearing shoes on her feet, frowning: "What are you doing?"
Xu Qin walked to the tea table, looked down at Fu Wenying, and asked, "Is it you? Was it you who nearly killed Song Yan six or seven years ago?"
Fu Wenying's face changed suddenly, and he paused for a second: "Who told you?"
Xu Qin understood that a big tear rolled down his cheek.
The teahouse was quiet, no one spoke, no one comforted.
She wiped the tears from her face herself and turned to look at Meng Huaijin: "Dad, do you have you?"
Meng Huaijin frowned, but shook his head again: "Qin Qin, Dad doesn't know what to say."
Fu Wenying: "This matter has nothing to do with your dad. He also learned later."
She took it lightly, without any other words, no apology, no explanation.
Xu Qin stood there, tremblingly waiting for a full minute, but no one spoke, as if this was just a trivial matter, just turning a page would pass.
But this time, she couldn't get through.
She wiped a few tears on her face and said softly:
"Mom, I have always regarded you as a mother. I have never hated you. Even if you oppose me and Song Yan, fight me, ignore me, even if you interfere in my work, I have never hated you. … I have been thinking about taking the initiative to reconcile with you. I have been thinking that you are just the character, not that you do n’t treat me as a daughter ....

She said that, taking a breath, she wanted to continue speaking quietly, but tears shed uncontrollably, and she couldn't bear it anymore, she cried out in silence:
"I ’m a fool. I ’m a tool that you keep at home for you to get married. Just because this tool has humanity and the feelings you want, you do n’t listen to you. You ’re afraid she will be out of your control, so You want to destroy her beloved, so that she will never be tempted by him to deviate from the track, let her have no expectations in her life, be your puppet doll! "
She cried and shook her shoulders, as if betrayed: "You didn't treat me like your daughter at all? Not at all! ... liar!"
She looked at Meng Huaijin, tears were falling like rain,
"You didn't say that when you picked me up from the orphanage. You said you want to pick me up and say you are a father. You said you would love me like a father. This is what you said! You said it yourself! ... the liar, the liar! "
Meng Huaijin's eyes were wet, his cheeks twitched, and he said nothing.
Fu Wenying couldn't sit still anymore and snapped: "What do you say to your parents ?! These years have been in vain for your upbringing ?! How can your parents be perfect ?! If you are not good, remember clearly. , For your goodness you have forgotten everything. Who fed you in these years, who took care of you when you are sick, who helped you out when you were bullied? You have lived in this family for so many years, just for this matter , For this man, to deny everything his parents have done, to break with his parents? I am not a perfect mother, but are you a perfect daughter ?! "
She had a sharp voice, and Xu Qin stopped suddenly. The vent of her brain was cut off just a moment ago, and her mind was suddenly empty, leaving nothing but desolation.
She looked at her blankly, with tears on her face.
Meng Huaijin sighed heavily and lowered his head to hold his forehead.
Fu Wenying said coldly: "Qin Qin, what her mother has done will not deny it. But you also think about it. You think I let you down, but as a daughter, did you let me down!"
"Hypocritical." Xu Qin said suddenly.
"What do you say to me?"
"Hypocrisy. I let you down? It ’s just that I fell in love with him. You said he did n’t deserve me. What are your qualifications? What are you qualified for doing that kind of thing? Life is seen as an ant, a secretly poisonous hand, what are you qualified to say that it is not good enough? You are not good enough. You cannot even say that you are a 'good person'! "
Fu Wenying iron color iron blue, got up: "Dare you say another word, I--"
"You killed me!" Xu Qin's eyes were red, "I'm not obedient anymore, you killed me!"
Fu Wenying stunned suddenly, so did the children who had always been unaware of their resistance.
Xu Qin gasped violently, saying, "I didn't pursue everything he had suffered and lost half of his life. In the future, I have nothing to do with you. I warn you not to hurt him again. Yes , In your eyes, I have nothing, but I will die for him. "
After she finished speaking, she turned around and walked away. When she raised her eyes, she saw a family portrait hanging on the wall. In the photo, Meng Huaijin and Fu Wenying were sitting on the bench, and she and Meng Yanchen stood on either side.
The family looks very happy.
She looked at the picture, and the tears were flowing like a gate again, and she suddenly bowed her waist and cried. The thin body was trembling from top to bottom.
Meng Huaijin saw her stop and got up: "Qin Qin--"
But the next second, Xu Qin rushed up, grabbed the pair of frames, and yanked it down to the ground. With a loud noise, the wooden frame broke and the glass shattered.
She twitched with tears and ran out the door quickly.
Suddenly there was silence in the house.
Meng Huaijin covered his eyes and sat down.
Fu Wenying stood there, her lips tightened, her chest undulated violently, she restrained herself, and she was about to sit down slowly, but she was shocked suddenly, and her body was cold--
Meng Yanchen stood pale on the steps in the living room.