Chapter 391: Just insecure

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At around five o'clock in the afternoon, I called Luo Xiangdong: "Give kgb and eenb medicine."
The medicine is a small liquid, and dogs don't like to eat it. You must even coax them to open their mouths, and then squeeze in unexpectedly. I can't do it alone, I have to cooperate with Luo Xiangdong.
We first tricked kgb into the bedroom, and after feeding it, we went out to the living room to trick eenb. The medicine was only halfway through, and the mobile phone I placed on the sofa rang, and I heard that someone made a video call with me.
No one else except my mother, I subconsciously said: "My mother's phone call, don't say anything for a while."
Luo Xiangdong answered. After I accompany him to give Eenb the medicine, I took the mobile phone and entered the master bedroom.
The door closed, I connected to the video, pretending to be okay, and greeted her with a smile. And my mother went straight to the subject and asked aloud: "Zi Jin, who was with you last night?"
I said ‘oh’ and calmly replied: "My friend, I just moved to a new house, come and have a look."
My mother frowned and said, "What time did he leave last night? He is still a man, did he come alone or a group of people?"
Of course I said: "A bunch of people are here."
My mother said: "A bunch of people are here, why do you call you when your legs are numb?"
I admire my mother's meticulous thinking, or I can say that she is a little helpless about her inquiries. Being forced to a blind spot by her, I had to say silently: "Mom, how old am I? Can you look at me like a thief?"
My mother changed the conversation and asked, "And why did you break up with Guan Xin again? What's the matter?"
I am now afraid that others will mention Ji Guanxin, it feels like something I have been evading, but someone has to take it out and say it in front of me.
My face sank, and I said in a low voice: "It's nothing wrong, I'm divided into disagreements."
My mother was obviously dissatisfied with my answer. She said aloud: "If you don't have the right personality, don't be together at the beginning. How long have you two been together? Are you kidding me?"
My heart is extremely sad, and God knows if I am playing around. I want to be good too, but...
"The points are divided, what do you want me to do?" I rarely dared to lose my temper with my mother, but it does not rule out that she really provokes me.
When my mother heard this, her face was unkind and she became silent. I didn’t speak. We both held our mobile phones to face each other. Maybe it was like ten seconds later, but my mother spoke first. She said in a deep voice,
Zijin, you’ve grown up. It stands to reason that your mother can no longer take care of your business. But you are the same for three days, who can rest assured?"
When I go out, my family thinks I should be. I tried to calm my mind, and then said aloud: "Mom, don't worry about me, I am fine."
My mother said, "Can you not worry? Ji Guan's new home is in Yecheng. You went back for him this time. Now...what's this?"
The more she said, the more sour my heart became. I don’t want to complain to her about some disagreements with Ji Guanxin, nor tell her. Actually, I and Ji Guanxin have a knot in their hearts and always quarrel. Nowadays, every time I think about Ji Guanxin, I can only comfort myself. It’s fine, what he said. Everything I have done lie to me. So what he did to me was fake, and now we both owe nothing to each other, and we are walking halfway up the road.
If I am sorry for Ji Guanxin, we are both even now.
only the guy drinking water knows it's cold or hot. Many people stand and talk without back pain, and always ask me what to do, but I am not a saint, and I can't make everyone happy. At the beginning, I and Ji Guanxin were together because we were very happy together. Then we separated, not because I didn't work hard, but because reality forced us to get to the point of breaking up step by step.
I hate that people around me give pointers on my feelings, and I am tired of explaining it to everyone.
I don't like a person who is misunderstood so much, and now I ended up in a silent end.
I only told my mother: "Don't mention the past. I and Ji Guanxin broke up peacefully. In my heart...not sad."
To deceive oneself and others, it is true that after a long time, the trance is true.
My mother also saw that I didn't want to talk about this topic anymore, so she said a few words to me and hung up the phone. I was lying on the bed, a little urge to cry, but the tears couldn't fall.
The night city is so big, I can't meet Ji Guanxin, but someone always reminds me of the past with Ji Guanxin. On that night in the imperial court, Ji Guanxin devalued me in front of so many people, I remember it all my life.
How did he hold me in the past, and then how did he push me off the platform. He was really not afraid that I fell to pieces.
The reason why I didn't let Luo Xiangdong go to him was because I didn't want them to lose in the fight, and secondly... I always remember that Ji Guanxin was good to me when he was in Liangcheng, even if it was false, but I believed it at the time.
Goodbye, or goodbye pretending to be strange, this is the best ending for me and Ji Guanxin.
I finally understand that a long time ago, Luo Xiangdong told me not to contact Ji Guanxin, saying that Ji Guanxin would take away all the people around him who really cared about him, and his only advantage was to do what he said.
At that time, why didn't I believe it?
A person sat in the bedroom in a daze. After a while, the door was gently pushed open. Luo Xiangdong stood at the door. He looked at me and asked aloud, "Why do you not come out after answering the phone?"
I didn't look at him, just looked at a certain place surreptitiously. For a long time, I whispered: "You go first."
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Luo Xiangdong stepped in and sat next to me. He looked at me and asked, "What happened again?"
It's nothing, just feeling down and wanting to be alone for a while.
Luo Xiangdong sat on the side of the bed and accompanied me for five minutes. During that time, I didn't say anything. In the end, Luo Xiangdong said, "Then what do you eat at night? I will buy it for you, and you can go out if you save it."
I whispered back to him: "No need."
Luo Xiangdong stood up after a while, he said: "I'll buy you some food."
He turned and walked out, and soon I heard the door opening and closing.
Fortunately, Luo Xiangdong has been with me in the past two days, so I don't have the spare time to think about it. But the phone call from my mom just now made me feel very messy.
I lay on my side in a daze by the bed, and it didn't take long before eenb walked in from the living room. It didn't have the strength to jump on
the bed to make trouble with me, just squatted in front of me, raised its paw and put it next to my face.
I raised my hand and touched its head, and said softly, "Eenb, your dad said he loves me. Is it true or not?"
Eenb looked at me seemingly, I knew it must not understand, I was also crazy, and would ask him such things.
Since Chen Wenhang's incident, I have no sense of security at all, and now Ji Guanxin's time has made me not dare to trust others easily.
But I know that I like Luo Xiangdong, I really like him. I want to be with him, but I'm always afraid that the end will be as miserable as the previous two. So this time, even if I put on an innocent hat, I must spend until Luo Xiangdong admits me personally in front of everyone.
Luo Xiangdong left for forty minutes, and when I came back I was already drowsy in bed. In the blur, he stood by the bed and helped me cover the quilt. I squinted at him and said, "What time is it?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "At half past six."
My eyelids drooped down for a while, and I vaguely heard Luo Xiangdong say: "I will put the food in the kitchen for you. I have fed kgb and eenb. You don’t need to feed them at night. I just went out with a key to your house. Tomorrow you go to work as usual, they just leave at home, and I will pick them up."
Got my house key? With a frown, I wanted to open my eyes and argue with him, but I was so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes, my sight went black, and my consciousness disappeared.
With this feeling, I opened my eyes again and it was almost eleven o'clock in the night. I got out of bed and went to the living room. On the sofa in the living room, eenb was sleeping on his stomach and kgb was under the sofa. Seeing me coming out, they all raised their heads.
I instinctively pushed open the door of the guest bedroom. The room was pitch black and there was no Luo Xiangdong on the single bed. The feeling that I can't tell from the bottom of my heart is a bit empty.
I slept for five or six hours, not so much waking up, as waking up hungry. I thought of Luo Xiangdong's saying that food should be stored in the kitchen. When he walked into the kitchen, there was a takeaway bag on the table. Inside were my favorite dishes and snacks. There were several places to go to buy these things.
Put the food in the microwave and heat it up, and the aroma quickly wafted out. kgb and eenb ran over from the living room, stood on my leg, raised their heads, they looked pitiful.
I just wanted to open a box of canned food to feed them, but I didn't remember Luo Xiangdong saying before he left, so I turned back to the master bedroom and sent a text message to Luo Xiangdong with my phone, asking: Are you sleeping?
If he falls asleep, then I won't call him.
And less than five seconds after my short message, the call has been called.
I put the phone to my ear: "Hello."
Luo Xiangdong's pleasant voice came, and he said, "Wake up?"
"Ok."
"You are awake now, and you still can't sleep in the middle of the night? I see how you start work tomorrow."
I wanted to ask him about feeding the dog, but suddenly I heard a woman's laughter from the phone. The sound was not loud, but it was abrupt, and I felt a bit like a knife in my throat.
Seeing that I didn't say anything, Luo Xiangdong said, "When I get up, I will eat something, and the food will be put in the kitchen for you. You can use the microwave to heat it."
"Ok."
"How are kgb and eenb?"
"it is good."
"Then you can eat something and go to bed earlier, so you won't get up early in the morning."
"I know, I'll hang up first if there is nothing wrong."
Until I hung up the phone, I couldn't ask what I wanted to ask. Just listening to the background sound of the mobile phone, Luo Xiangdong was either in the nightclub or the KTV entertainment venues.
No wonder I have to hang up, he didn't hesitate at all.
kgb and eenb are still sitting in front of me, looking like they are waiting for a meal, and I don’t even have an appetite for myself.