Chapter 411: It doesn't matter whether it is true or not

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Luo Xiangdong carried me to the Great Wall and there was a lot of trouble. Who caught me? I also naively thought that Kuang Yiyang should not see it in the hospital, right? But after all, this matter cannot be contained in paper.
Kuang Yiyang couldn't hear the joy and anger, and the expression on his face was faint, but my heart suddenly raised my throat. Now that Luo Xiangdong is not there, I face Kuang Yiyang alone, saying that I am not nervous or afraid, that is all fake.
When his voice fell, I stopped. About ten seconds later, I tried to calm down and said to him aloud: "Yiyang, I'm sorry, I really like Luo Xiangdong..."
After hesitating for a moment, I added another sentence: "I love him."
Like to be different from love, I want to tell Kuang Yiyang in this way that I really can't do without Luo Xiangdong.
Kuang Yiyang still focused on the tablet in his hand. He was playing a game I loved to play before, Bubble Shooter. After a string of bubbles of the same color was struck, they disappeared on the screen with a bang. After a while, Kuang Yiyang opened his lips and said aloud: "I know."
Looking down slightly, I have a lot to say in my heart. For example, I am sorry, such as thank you, for example, I know I am selfish, but...the more I want to say, the more silent.
I am not a person who loves to hide my thoughts in my stomach, but because I am with Luo Xiangdong, Kuang Yiyang will be hurt no matter what I say, so what I say at this moment seems pale and false.
I would rather Kuang Yiyang scold me.
"I know you love my brother-in-law, and I also know that he loves you. If you two don't take into account my feelings, you won't be together until now."
In the quiet room, Kuang Yiyang's voice sounded so clear. His tone of voice was very calm, but there was a huge wave in my heart.
Holding my fingers tightly, I tried to say something, but Kuang Yiyang hurriedly said before me: "I always couldn't figure it out before. You said that you wanted to find someone who wouldn't cheat. I just like you with all my heart; and my uncle There are so many women, but you end up falling in love with him with all your heart."
"Even if he is my brother-in-law, I don't want to give you to him, because I never believed he would have you in his heart."
Tensed to the extreme, my fingers in my fist suddenly became weak. The throat is also very tight, as if it is stuck for life.
Kuang Yiyang didn’t look at me either, he seemed to be talking to himself, and he whispered: "Until you returned to Liangcheng, and I found out that my brother-in-law was also following, I didn’t know that he also had you in his heart. ."
"I once thought that you loved my uncle and not me because I was so bored that I couldn't play anything at all. So I smoked, drank, fights and smoked drugs, and I did all bad things. I didn’t expect you to come back and find me. Just doing this...I feel a little better in my heart."
"But whenever my uncle finds me and looks like I can't wait to kill me, I will always think of you. If it wasn't for me, you might have been together long ago."
"I urged him several times, and he scolded me. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't be cruel to drive you away. I asked him who is more important between me and you, and he didn't answer me. I knew then that he not only has you in his heart, but he is in love with you."
"I heard that you are with Ji Guanxin, I ran to him and asked him what he thought in his heart. He didn't say anything, but didn't show up for a long time after the fight. Even if I got into trouble again, he just Ask someone to come and pick me up. He wouldn't really be angry with me since he was a kid, but because I let him miss you, he didn't care about me anymore."
"At first I didn’t study well because I was in a bad mood. Later, I just didn’t know how to face you. Obviously you and my brother-in-law love each other, but because of me, you can’t be together. I feel like I’m the one who has the most One, if you can suddenly fight and beat someone to death, or use drugs to kill you, it’s fine, so you don’t have to worry about it anymore."
Kuang Yiyang said while playing the game, in an uncommon tone, but I could hear that this was his effort to suppress his feelings to the extreme, and to make it indifferent and indifferent.
My throat was extremely choked, I tried hard to hold back the tears, and said in a low voice, "Yiyang, I'm sorry."
Kuang Yiyang said: "In the past, I always felt that you and my brother-in-law were sorry for me. But from the moment you returned to Night City to help me with drug abuse, I would understand. No one in this world owes anyone, I I used to be happy to be nice to you. I always felt like I was infatuated, but you told me that you didn't like me. It was my wishful thinking. Maybe you are still full of burdens."
"Even without this blunder, you will not fall in love with me if you don't meet my uncle."
Kuang Yiyang is right, but at this time I don't know what else to say but sorry.
Tears blurred my vision, I didn't see when Kuang Yiyang put away the tablet. He leaned on the sofa, looked sideways at me, and said softly: "Actually, you don't have to feel sorry, because I have used you too."
auzw.com His voice fell, and I couldn't help but look up at him.
Kuang Yiyang's face is still youthful and full of vitality, but it is slightly pale because of the recent hospitalization for too long.
He looked at me quietly, with a confused look in my eyes. After a while, I heard him say: "You didn't often say that when family members fight, they must close the door to fight. Once a foreign enemy invades, Do you want to pick up the gun to unify the outside world?"
I have said this before, but I don't understand what Kuang Yiyang means at this time.
He looked at me without changing his face, and said to himself: "You are with Ji Guanxin. Let me know that even if you are not with my brother-in-law, you will not choose me. And I regret why you obviously love my brother-in-law so much. I like you so much, but I still have to watch the pain of both of you."
"I have seen you get along with Ji Guanxin. My brother-in-law is worried that he lied to you, and I don't like him very much. So I always premeditated to let you help me, and also premeditated to separate you from Ji Guanxin. "
I looked straight at Kuang Yiyang, because I had never thought about it, so it was difficult to accept it for a while.
Kuang Yiyang didn't even pick his eyelids. He said truthfully: "That time I was beaten by Ji Guanxin's friend. In the car, I knew I said that. Ji Guanxin would definitely be mad, and you would definitely fight with him because of me. I even hope that I will die. If you kill two birds with one stone, you will hate Shang Ji Guanxin, and there will be no obstacles between you and my uncle."
I was frightened to hear it, and I could no longer describe it as distressed. I couldn't help it. I frowned and interrupted: "Stop talking..."
I always thought that Kuang Yiyang was the best and simplest person I have ever seen. In my opinion, his kindness can only exist in that kind of illusory story. But he told me now that he had planned many things step by step.
I can't believe it, nor can I do it.
Kuang Yiyang said to me: "People are selfish. I was kind to you and I said nothing, but I still want to be with you in my heart. To be kind to you infinitely is infinite I want you to feel guilty, so that you can't bear to say it even if you refuse. Since you still don't want me to be together, then I would rather be "unanimous to the outside", "fat water does not flow into the field of outsiders", so that you and my uncle will not stand by You fall into the hands of outsiders."
Kuang Yiyang’s words made me feel like a cargo from beginning to end. He likes it so he wants it, but he can't own it. He would rather be cheap to his own people than to let me fall into the hands of outsiders.
I looked at Kuang Yiyang and didn't say anything, but my tears couldn't be controlled, and they fell down.
When Kuang Yiyang saw this, he looked at me and said, "I don't know if I call your sister or your aunt. Zijin, I just want to tell you, don't think of others too well, so You will feel guilty. In fact, I am not that kind at all, and I am not as fragile as you thought. I have already lost you. I just don’t want to lose my loved ones anymore."
The brain is completely blank. I keep reaching out and wiping tears, but tears always blur my vision.
In the end, Kuang Yiyang handed the tissue box to me, and he whispered: "Today we will make it clear. From now on, no one will owe anyone anymore."
I took out a tissue to wipe away my tears, then blew my nose again, and then muffled: "Do you think you can feel better in my heart by saying that?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I'm just telling the truth. Otherwise, your morality is too strong. I'm afraid you will always have concerns. It is my uncle who suffers like this. I am also selfish and don't want to make my uncle feel sad."
Kuang Yiyang said too lightly, so light that I kept telling myself that he was telling me on purpose. But what this story tells is too truthful, conforms to all the selfishness and selfishness of human nature, I have no reason not to believe it.
Kuang Yiyang put the tissue box next to my lap, and then reached out to take my cut peaches in the fruit bowl. After he ate a piece, he looked okay and casually said: "By the way, I will tell you something. I want to study in Hong Kong."
Hearing that, I looked at him again and muffled: "Why do you want to go to Hong Kong suddenly?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I have liked you for a few years anyway, even if I let go now, I want to go out and relax."
I didn’t know how to answer for a while, until Kuang Yiyang said again: "I told my brother-in-law, and he is still hesitating. You can persuade him when you go back. Although everyone is selfish, you should not be too selfish. Now you two are here. Together, you can't let me watch in the night city, right? I want to go to Hong Kong, there are friends over there, so take care of me.
If Kuang Yiyang only said to go to school, I might hesitate, but if he said to go out and relax, I would believe it.
After a moment of silence, I said, "What about Yecheng University?"
Kuang Yiyang said: "I have completed the full year of credits in the first month of my senior year, and I can get the and the degree certificate at any time. My uncle nodded and helped me transfer."
I thought to myself, I don’t understand the world of a schoolmaster. I was always worried that he would fail the exam and fail to graduate.