Chapter 94: I will stay stubborn to the end

The air is filled with a strong smell of meat, mixed with the spicy smell of the cooked peppers. There was a table between Luo Xiangdong and I. The hot pot in the middle of the table was filled with steam. I was in a trance for a while, and I could not see the expression on Luo Xiangdong's face.
Maybe after a five-second pause, I said aloud: "According to you, as long as you don't go to bed, you can't get married?"
Luo Xiangdong replied calmly: "Now I have to taste the fruit before buying it, not to mention the big thing like marriage. It's not good to say, I haven't tried it before marriage, who knows if there is anything wrong with it after marrying back. ."
I immediately became angry, and stared back, "What's the difference between you saying this and arrogant words? This is just to find a good-sounding excuse for your men's dirty mind!"
Luo Xiangdong said: "Why is it an excuse? I said the fact that no man wants to talk about platonic love with a woman unless he is abnormal."
After a pause, he said again: "In fact, you women are sometimes hypocritical enough. Don't say that when you are in a relationship, you never thought about it. Once the raw rice is cooked, the rice is cooked. All the mistakes have been pushed to our men. It’s not that you haven’t enjoyed it. To a certain extent, we have exerted more effort. How can no one feel sorry for us.

Look at the aggrieved appearance he said, if I only look at the expression but don't listen to the content, I really have to overflow with sympathy. But at this moment, I just want to splash his face with hot pot soup.
Of course, the person sitting across from me is Luo Xiangdong, and I just dare to think about it.
But I couldn’t swallow it in vain, and I fought back:
Okay, I won’t discuss with you the question of who contributes much, so I’ll just ask you, if you choose the marriage partner, is it your choice? Important conditions?"
When Luo Xiangdong saw me launching the first round of attack, he paused somewhat, and then replied without changing his face: "No."
I chased after him, and continued to ask: "Is it not an important condition, or you don't care at all?"
Luo Xiangdong looked back at me intently, did not fall into the trap I set, but said soberly: "If you don't care at all, you have to have a bottom line. I said that I don't care, because I didn't consider whether she was a good person or whether she could be married. A necessary condition, but this does not mean that she has been with many people, but I still don’t care. This is basically two different things."
Seeing that the trap in the first round was seen through by him, I immediately launched the second round of offense. I said: "Where is the bottom line you can bear? Has she followed one person, two people, or three people?"
Luo Xiangdong was finally frowned when I said, he asked aloud: "Is Luo Xiangdong can't find a woman?"
Seeing him showing his defensive space, I immediately attacked his weak area, and asked repeatedly: "According to what you said before, it is clear that you can try love before marriage. Or you have an obvious patriarchal thought in your heart. Men can, but women can't?"
After all, without Luo Xiangdong's answer, I will make a declarative summary: "To put it bluntly, it is not that we women are duplicity, but that you men love too much. Women are clean and self-conscious. You say this is pedantic and conservative, so you can't do it; those passionate and unrestrained , You guys never refuse, but after you try it, you still say no. You said you want to marry those who are clean and self-conscious. Isn't this reaching out and slap your own face? Turn it over, you are justified, you really belong to this world The most liar and self-justified animal on the world!"
I told Luo Xiangdong what I didn't say to Chen Wenhang, and I said it emotionally.
After speaking, Luo Xiangdong didn't respond right away, except for the spicy soup in the hot pot gurgling and making a faint sound on the table, only the faint whispers from other table guests around him.
I am a little regretful, mixed with a little fear. I shouldn't say such things to Luo Xiangdong on the spur of the moment. I was afraid that he would be angry, so I looked at the expression on his face without a trace, but there was no joy or anger on his face.
After a moment of silence on the table, I picked up the bottle and poured the rest of the beer exactly.
Raising the wine glass, I said to Luo Xiangdong: "I'm sorry, Mr. Luo, I just said a bit awkward, but it was not to you. Don't take it to your heart. This glass of wine is my apologize to you."
After all, I raised my hand and drank a glass of beer in one go.
I drank this glass too quickly and I was nervous, so I choked a little after drinking it. I coughed a few times and my eyes were red.
While I was wiping my mouth with a tissue, Luo Xiangdong, who was sitting across from me, finally spoke. He replied in a lukewarm voice: "You are right. Men really love to lie and are fickle. Don't say you are not. Understand our hearts, sometimes we don’t even understand ourselves."
I was a little surprised that Luo Xiangdong actually responded to my aggressiveness before.
Looking up at him, I suddenly felt a little bit emotional, so I whispered, "Is there really no unchangeable man in this world?"
Luo Xiangdong put his right wrist on the table and rubbed his finger at the wine glass in front of him. Hearing this, he replied aloud: "A man is not bad and a woman does not love. A bad man is always the most fickle man."
I didn't even think about it, and quickly replied: "But I have always only liked good men. You don't need to be handsome or rich, as long as he treats me wholeheartedly."
After speaking, I suddenly thought of the conversation we had when I first met Luo Xiangdong.
I said: "I didn't ask him to look good, I didn't ask him how much money he had, I didn't even ask him to treat me well, I just asked him not to cheat and don't make me sick!"
At that time, Luo Xiangdong's answer was: "A man, he doesn't look good, he doesn't have money, and he's not good for you. Would you choose him if you are crazy?"
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Thinking of the scene at the time, I was afraid that Luo Xiangdong would choke me like this again, so I quickly added: "You don’t need to be handsome but not ugly. There is not much money, but at least I have to work hard. I just want to express In a mood, my request is really not high, I just hope that he treats me wholeheartedly, that's enough."
Luo Xiangdong looked at me and said, "You don't have to be so pessimistic. In fact, I said that men are fickle, and it is not absolute. There are scumbags and idiots. Is there no such thing as a person around you who is single-minded and chasing for several years? the man?"
When I was asked by Luo Xiangdong, I could not help but calm down and think about it. After a while, Kuang Yiyang's face appeared in my mind.
When Kuang Yiyang was just a freshman, he started chasing me, and now I have graduated, but his feelings for me are consistent, I don't know if this is a single-minded one.
When Luo Xiangdong saw that I was silent, he asked aloud, "Did you think of anyone?"
I blinked my eyelashes lightly. Because I was a little drunk, I was slow to respond. A few seconds later, I whispered back: "But I like someone with all my heart, and that person may not like him."
Upon hearing this, Luo Xiangdong said mockingly: "To put it bluntly, people are cheap."
I admit that I am cheap.
Kuang Yiyang likes me wholeheartedly, but I obsessively indulges in the pain of being cheated by Chen Wenhang, unable to extricate myself.
I picked up the wine bottle at hand, just about to pour the wine, but found that the wine bottle was empty.
The opposite Luo Xiangdong handed me a newly opened bottle of beer. After I took it, I simply blew it directly at the mouth of the bottle.
Of course, I can't dry the whole bottle in one breath. I'm just angry, mad at myself, hopeless, impatience, unable to be cruel, and deserve to be bullied.
With my chin up, I was drinking while looking at the chandelier above my head. The warm yellow light blurred my vision. At a certain moment, I drank to the extreme, and couldn't help putting down the wine bottle. My head was heavy, and I stretched out my hand to support it.
The opposite Luo Xiangdong said: "I invited you to dinner. Don't just drink, but also eat."
After drinking anxious wine, the dizziness increased exponentially. I could hear Luo Xiangdong's voice, but could not respond in time.
Luo Xiangdong used public chopsticks to pick up the cooked meat and for me and put them on the plate in front of me.
I held my forehead with my left hand and picked up the chopsticks with my right hand. When I was eating, I still knew how to dip.
Luo Xiangdong said: "The two of us also talked a lot tonight. If you really believe me, I'll give you a trick to make sure you can forget the scumbag."
Hearing this, I had half an unswallowed fish ball in my mouth, raised my head, and asked vaguely: "What's the trick?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "Forget about a relationship, the best way is to start the next relationship. It's not that no one is chasing you. Just the one I saw last time. You junior, I think he is pretty good. He's handsome, so you can just stay with him."
I thought Luo Xiangdong could do anything for me. I quickly shook my head, frowned slightly, and replied, "He can't."
Luo Xiangdong looked up at me and said, "Why can't he?"
"My junior is so nice, I use him as my younger brother."
Luo Xiangdong said: "Don't you just want to find someone who is good, I think he is good to you, you said it yourself, he has been chasing you for several years, this is enough for a single-minded one."
I said: "Because he is kind to me, I can't be with him in such a silly way. It is not fair to him to associate with Chen Wenhang in order to forget the scumbag."
After a pause, I said again: "This is not love either."
I always thought that after being hurt by Chen Wenhang in this way, I was afraid that I would never love again, or even believe in love anymore. But it is undeniable that, deep in my heart, I still believe in love, and I will not be impulsive to start a new relationship for the sake of healing, so that I am not only sorry for that person, but also for what I have been insisting on.
Perhaps because of drinking, I can chat with Luo Xiangdong very casually, or I can tell him something in my heart without defense.
I remember that before we ended this topic, Luo Xiangdong said the last sentence: "Liang Zijin, I have to remind you that sometimes people are really not too stubborn. Finding someone who likes yourself is better than finding someone yourself. People I like are a lot happy."
In this case, more than one person has said to me.
I slowly raised the corners of my lips, showing a helpless and self-deprecating smile, I said: "Maybe I will stay stubborn to the end."