Chapter 39: I only adore you

(No.192—No.196)
No.192
Every afternoon, we would take at least half a class to practice singing. Singing the same two songs every day quickly made Yu Huai irritable. As the competition date approached, he became harder and harder, and I was a little afraid to talk to him. In the last few rehearsals, he sneaked out the door with his notes and only returned after class.
Forgot to say, Yu Huai borrowed his notes from Senior Huainan Sheng. I took the initiative to take on Yu Huai's cleaning job because he said that if I behave well, I will return the notes.
I thought that Yu Huai escaped from rehearsal and no one noticed it, because every time we practiced, the room was messy, let alone we were sitting in the last row. However, Wen Xiaoxiao soon came up.
"Where is Yu Huai?"
Wen Xiaoxiao didn't question everyone in front of everyone during the rehearsal, but quietly ran to my table after it was over.
Wen Xiaoxiao was very caring this time. I participated in several class committee meetings on behalf of Yu Huai, and everyone's whimsical suggestions and gossip that went off the topic to South Street were finally thrown to Wen Xiaoxiao. She took it all down, and asked her father to help contact a small factory for ready-made garments. The other party happened to have the model clothes of the May Fourth Youth Suit. For the sake of her father's face, the factory agreed to use "bad materials" to pick up our small business.
Therefore, I am embarrassed to face such a committee of literature and art. Selfishly speaking, I understand Yu Huai. This kind of boring group activity has no effect by one person or two people, and he is busy with a major event related to his future; however, it is not good for him to do so in terms of reason.
If the reason why we sit in this classroom is just to enter the university, then why should people like Wen Xiaoxiao sacrifice their time for others?
I gaped.
"He seems to be very busy lately... but he sings very well, and he is very serious in rehearsal every time. These two times are really something... When we start to formally line up and practice rounds, he will definitely not be absent! "
Wen Xiaoxiao helped his glasses, nodded, smiled kindly at me and left.
I looked at her back with some guilt, and sighed. Wen Xiaoxiao is like a girl living in the Republic of China. Although she is not a big beauty, she has beautiful eyes and a soft and thin voice. She shyly supports her glasses before speaking. Xu Yanliang needs to use iron when leading everyone to rehearse. The lungs roared to shake the place. Maybe because she is too gentle, I dare to use a lot of excuses to prevaricate her.
I retracted my gaze and inadvertently caught a glimpse of Zhu Yao in the front row with a mocking look.
A thought suddenly hit me.
They are not similar on the surface, but perhaps in essence, Yu Huai and Zhu Yao are the same, just a matter of degree.
None of them will do useless things.
I didn't want to continue thinking about it, so I got up and left the classroom with the water glass. At this moment, I received a text message from Yu Huai.
"Bring me two fountain pens to the top floor of the administrative district."
No.193
In order to facilitate students to go to the office to ask questions, all teaching and research rooms are arranged in the teaching area from the first to the third year of high school. Therefore, there are only a few offices such as the principal, youth league committee, and academic affairs in the administrative area. The parts above the third floor are almost empty.
I climbed up to the fifth floor and saw Yu Huai sitting on the steps, putting the calculation paper on his right thigh, nervously calculating.
"The pen you want." I stood under several steps and reached out and handed it to him.
"Well, put it aside," he didn't look up, "this one is out of my hand, thank you."
"What if I wasn't happy to deliver it for you just now? Why do you think I must run errands for you?" I was not angry, but curious, so I asked calmly.
He didn't answer, and I was not in a hurry, waiting quietly for him to finish the last point. After Yu Huai wrote down the answer, he took out a piece of paper from the pile of papers around him to check the answer, showing a relaxed smile.
"I never thought about it," he put down the pen in his hand and looked at me, "I never thought about whether you would be willing to give me things... would you?"
I don't know how to answer. I did not realize this problem until I was walking halfway with the pen.
"Why don't you return to class?" I changed the subject.
"It smells bad in the class. It's been a long time since the window was opened, the heater was too hot and it was noisy."
"Do you avoid rehearsal?"
He nodded: "I don't think it makes sense to practice so many times."
"But this is a collective activity," I looked at him, "this is unfair to Xu Yanliang and Wen Xiaoxiao, and I have to cheekily explain to you."
"If I don't need to prepare for the competition now, then I will resist the impatient and take part seriously. Things are prioritized, you can't force me." Yu Huai looked directly at me without guilty.
I moved my lips, knowing that I had no position or reason to blame him, so I sat down beside him in frustration.
"You don't have to be so nervous in this competition, didn't Zhu Yao say it? It's difficult to qualify for a pass in the first year of high school. If it is so, it is better to face it easily, and you will not lose money."
Yu Huai relaxed from the somewhat guarded and negative state just now.
"If I fail the exam, I won't go this way again, so the result this time is very important."
"what?"
"The competition is very energy intensive. I am not a genius. I am not at the same level as Lin Yang and Sheng Huainan. Although Lin Yang has always encouraged me, I know very well how many catties I have."
Yu Huai rested his chin, his gaze had passed through the opposite wall and cast into the unknown distance.
For this sentence, if it was the first time I enrolled in school, I might be more frightened than Zhu Yao's reaction. You dare to say that when you read college textbooks every day, do you want me to die? However, day after day, I have seen every bird in the forest surrounded by school desks in Zhenhua, and they have grown a lot. One of the signs is that I will never use my own standard of food and clothing to measure others. Whether it should be content.
Under the same school uniform, different hearts are beating.
Besides, the other party is Yu Huai, how could I not understand.
Yu Huai continued: "I was out of balance because of the competition in junior high school. I missed the high school entrance examination and my results were not ideal. Fortunately, it was the high school entrance examination. I can still go to Zhenhua. The language is not good, and I don’t have so much confidence to take care of both sides like Lin Yang. I think I should make the decision earlier."
The top floor was empty, and his words echoed slightly, shaking in the air and surrounding me.
I suddenly realized that I don’t know when, I really became friends with him, otherwise he would not tell me this. He never explained anything to me, and Chen Xuejun was forced by me. Every day he is doing questions that I can't understand, busy with things I don't know, and worrying about the confusion I can't share. Only he helps me, when he has spare capacity.
But now he is willing to talk to me. While regretting his dilemma, I began to secretly feel happy for this kind of trust and intimacy.
I suddenly turned my head and said to him boldly: "But you still don't want to give up?"
"Huh?" He was puzzled.
"If I were you and didn't have much interest in competitions, and knew that if I read properly, there would be no big problems in the college entrance examination, then I would have given up long ago. I think there is only a little bit of wanting to give up in people's hearts. You will definitely give up. But you don’t."
Yu Huai remained silent, listening to me quietly, not knowing what he was thinking.
"That's why I review so hard, hoping to give myself confidence and reason to stick to it. You must really like physics competitions, right?"
"I like physics." Yu Huai corrected.
"So come on! I believe you."
He smiled and thanked me politely for this encouraging words.
"No," I shook my head, "I'm not saying pretty things casually, I really believe you."
Yu Huai put a smile away.
"Maybe you think it's nosy for me to ask you why you don't take part in the rehearsal. In fact, I am not...I don't think you are selfish, I am...I can't accept it."
"Can't accept what?" He became more curious.
I didn't know how I could say such a long passage of words that seemed to be quite fluent. Seeing him listen so seriously, my heart suddenly beat a drum.
"I cannot accept that you are not omnipotent."
I stared at my toes, and felt a big rock in my heart finally rumbling down the stairs with these words.
No.194
Once in my heart, Yu Huai should be such a boy:
Hey, there are a lot of good buddies who have very sharp opinions. They don’t care about anyone who is not stingy, but they are enthusiastic. You can take the first place in the class while catching up on the teacher. The teacher will play basketball and catch the buddies. Active in all activities At the center, it seemed that nothing could trouble him.
Even if Lin Yang is a Super Saiyan, even if Chu Tiankuo is the first in grade, even if Sheng Huainan is so handsome, I want to open my mouth and confess...In my heart, Yu Huai is better than them.
Unreasonably powerful, anyway, it is powerful.
I had too many expectations for him, and I was reliant on the feeling that as long as he sat next to me, I would have a private tutor, and I could be brought together to a good university.
That's why he felt especially sad because he escaped from chorus rehearsal in preparation for the competition.
Actually it was my own fault.
I told Yu Huai about my unrealistic expectations and unreasonable blame, despite his blushing on one side and turning into a tomato.
"That's right," Yu Huai stalked his neck, but didn't dare to look at me, "you are right, Xiaoye is very good."
I couldn't help but laugh, and Yu Huai stretched for a while and laughed embarrassedly.
"Hey, don't you look down on me in the future?" He laughed for a while, then suddenly curled his brows and stared at me.
"what?"
"Geng Geng, remember that even if classmate Yu Huai is not as good as you think, he is still very good, much better than you. You should continue to worship him."
Seeing him seem to be serious about things, my heart is overflowing with incredible happiness.
"Of course." I nodded seriously.
I only adore you.
No.195
Yu Huai was very efficient in studying in the stairwell of the administrative district, and I didn't want to disturb him, so I went back to the class for self-study in the last class, and by the way, handed over to Lin Yang another notebook of Sheng Huainan that he had entrusted to me.
On the way back, I suddenly felt that Zhenhua’s teaching building looked different. Every floor tile and every corner became very close, as if I knew it better.
I am very happy.
Whether it is Yu Huai or this school, it is no longer a distant place in my eyes. We are in our respective ranks, we are both troubled and working hard together.
I walked to the floor where the second class was, and stopped a long-haired girl who was about to go out from their class, and when I fixed my eyes, it was Ling Xiangqian.
When her beautiful phoenix eyes looked at me, a girl of mine was a little nervous.
"Classmate, what's the matter?" she asked with a smile.
"Uh, oh, can you help me find Lin Yang?"
"Okay, wait a minute."
She turned around and yelled to the class, "Lin Yang, come out to find someone!" It revealed that she was really familiar, and it was completely different from the malicious ridicule of the big sister who was guarding the glass at the door when I went to Sheng Huainan that day. same.
After shouting, she smiled at me and walked away. Ling Xiangqian is holding a book, wearing a baggy sports school uniform like me. The hat of the burgundy hoodie is turned over from the neckline, and she is wearing a pair of dark gray skateboard pants with a nice texture. Nike sneakers. At first glance it looks like a very casual student style, but somehow, even if it is from the back, it is more beautiful than everyone in the corridor.
I looked down at myself.
The hair is half long and not short, and there are several strands that are always upturned. The hair style of each day depends on the sleeping position of the previous night; there is a red sweater attached to the bear, jeans, and hiking shoes on the chest.
I think it's not just a matter of face.
I looked up again at Ling Xiangqian's back.
Even if Ling Xiangqian and I were beheaded and placed side by side on the ground, everyone would definitely be able to tell which one was a beautiful woman. Why on earth?
"Nephew? Nephew?"
Lin Yang smiled and appeared at the door.
I quickly retracted my gaze and handed over the notebook: "Oh, this note, Yu Huai asked me to give it to you."
Lin Yang took over and thanked him: "This kid can really help people. Hey, what did you look at just now?"
He squinted his eyes and looked in the direction I just looked at, and I also followed nervously, for fear that he would find that I was staring at the beauty just now-but the sky was unpredictable, and Ling Xiangqian didn't go far at all and stopped next door. Near the back door of Ban, the book she just held in her arms was being presented to Chu Tiankuo with both hands.
"It's not my gossip, everyone wants to see more as long as they are good-looking people." I quickly explained to myself.
"Hey." Lin Yang sighed.
Yes. I also sighed for Lin Yang in my heart.
It is really unjust to grab your first place, grab your small band, and grab your class flower.
"Can I ask you a question?" Lin Yang suddenly said.
"ask!"
"If you have a good friend who likes someone, but you always feel that it will be fruitless and will get hurt, should you persuade you?"
"Are you saying that Chu Tiankuo liked Ling Xiangqian but Ling Xiangqian didn't like him, should Chu Tiankuo not hit the south wall or look back, should you persuade? Or mean... the situation is reversed?"
"No no, no, no, you, you, you answer the question first."
I replied without thinking, "Don't persuade you."
"Why?" Lin Yang tilted his head and looked at me condescendingly.
"I advise you not to follow Yu Zhouzhou, will you listen to me?"
Lin Yang's face turned blue in an instant: "Who did you follow...I am in a different situation..." "Everyone feels that their situation is different."
Lin Yang stopped talking, and only smiled for a while and said, "Thank you, Geng Geng."
you are welcome. I waved my hand to say goodbye to him.
The feeling of liking someone does not listen to persuasion. Do you think I have not persuaded myself when I was coldly treated?
No.196
Yu Huai came back when school was about to be over. I greeted him and left first after I collected my stuff. I was at the school gate and remembered that the buckle lunch box with fruits that Aunt Qi brought me this morning was dropped on the desk by me. Hurried back to get it. When I was up the stairs, I looked up and saw Yu Huai walking down, still some distance away from me.
I was about to say hello when a girl chased Yu Huai from behind and stopped him.
It is Wen Xiaoxiao.
I lowered my head and walked slowly against the flow of people, because there were so many people going downstairs, so I walked very slowly.
It wasn't intentional, it wasn't.
As I slowly passed by them, I heard Wen Xiaoxiao's gentle voice with a smile, serious and nervous.
"Today I will ask you where you are at the table, but I don't want to blame you, I don't know what you heard, I just hope you don't get me wrong."
Actually, I didn't mention anything to Yu Huai, Wen Xiaoxiao.
"I heard that you are busy with the competition. You don't need to participate in the rehearsal. I don't say that no one will notice. I always think that you are particularly good. You...you go on, the competition matters. Well, come on ."
I didn't hear Yu Huai's answer. Even if I walk slowly, I can't understand it now.
The thoughts of Wen Xiaoxiao's girl were drowned in the noisy sound field of the staircase. I don't know if Yu Huai heard him.