Chapter 15: Mouth

After speaking, Comrade Gu Dabao didn't have any different colors, but instead squinted like a sunbathing cat:
"Dust the body," he lifted a grass from my head and said, "Silly, let you jump. You really jump."
I thumped the stump with a heartache: "Can't you jump, atonement for yourself ten years ago."
He was silent for a while: "Okay, come to school once in a while, just go shopping."
He said this, and I immediately wanted to offer treasure: "OK, take you to a place."
The place where I will take Brother Dabao is located in the mysterious grove at the back of our school ... This forest is lush, with lush foliage and a very good atmosphere. It is really the best place to stir up field battles. In the middle of the woods, there was actually a
body sculpture imitating Rodin's thinker. In high school in the past, Brother Wen went through here after buying breakfast, and I wondered: "I want to put a thinker here for Mao? What is the fun of the design school people?" Wen brother tore a piece of bread and put it in his mouth. Chew and calmly answer me: "Where is the fun? Good students come here to think about life, bad students come here to think about strangers, isn't it very appropriate."
Of course, I did n’t want to bring Gu Xingzhi to think about life or strangers today. The place I wanted to take him was a dilapidated log cabin separated from the grove by a narrow ditch. The wooden house is located on a sunken ground, and the trees are hidden by the woods, but not much can be found. As soon as the crumbling wooden door was opened, the dust from the face almost choked me to death. When I was busy, I turned my head back to block the dust, and I caught a glimpse of the two dark black eyebrows of Gu Xingzhi's madness.
"... Uh, bear with me first." I explained to him by covering my nose. "I haven't been here for a year. This is the secret base of my sisters." I fanned in the air with my hands, and I walked in to make way for him Gu Guxia still gave me a face, bent over and followed in.
The wooden house is not as decadent as the outside. On the contrary, there are fresh graffiti on all four sides, like a small artistic style, as if living in a spring. I introduced: "This was discovered by me and a couple of high school sisters. It feels good. It's a meeting place or a vent. Because the appearance looks too gruesome and there are not many students who seem to come, we will claim to occupy this room. For your own sake, draw and write on the wall. Have you ever found it, ha ha ha ha. "
Looking back, Gu Xingzhi was staring at me with a strange expression. Xia Guang dyed his pale face pale, and he suddenly read it in a very slow and elegant tone like recitation of foreign poetry:
"Be sure to become CDEFG next year ..." This is Brother Wen's expectation for the chest to become bigger.
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"The scum of the college entrance examination ..." This is Fan Ni's resentment towards the college entrance examination.
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"The sixth-class setback man, refused me to find someone to scold me. Sooner or later, the old lady made you submit to kneel at my feet and shouted a hundred sentences I love you ..." This is what I wrote.
"Hello! Don't read it, how do you know!"
Gu Xingzhi raised his brow slightly, and said, "I've been here many times." He walked toward the left wall and pointed to a small place: "This is what I left."
I leaned over and looked at it. A line of black English letters with blurred fonts: "Crazywomen, gobacktostudy ..."
"So you wrote this‘ dead back to study, a group of crazy women ’?
I gave him a squint.
"I don't mean that," his long fingers touched the tiny black line of English words: "The benevolent sees the benevolent and the wise sees the wisdom. What I wanted to express at the time was that girls who were zealous in life, go back and study hard. What The three viewpoints of what determine what you see, Xue Jin, your inner world is very dark. "
After he finished speaking, he glanced at me with a very contemptuous look.
I touched my exclusive wall and replied: "Yeah, I am a little monster in the dark. Didn't God send you this white, clear, winged to save me?"
Gu Xingzhi walked to my side and accompanied me to watch the years and life traces I had left on the wall.
I pointed to a piece of green font: "This was written here last year. That was when I just passed my 29th birthday. I had been blind dated many times. The result was still single. I had a fight with my mother and she said I would find it again. She would return to the west before reaching the man. I ran here and wrote this sentence. "
Gu Xingzhi read out the words on my wall: "I'm going to be a man and marry a girl like me in my next life ..." He laughed softly, the laughter was like spring water flowing across his chest, "You are so narcissistic If so, it should be written like this-my wish in my next life is to still be a woman, like a woman in my life ... "
"What do you know?" I pursed my lips: "Am I called narcissism? I am called self-aggrandizement! No one wants in this life, I can only count on my next life. Now! "
Gu Xingzhi's smile faded, his pupils were as deep as the stars, he looked at my eyes seriously for a long time, and then said,
"Don't say such things in the future, you really don't want anyone? Then what am I doing here?"
His appearance reminded me of my deceased father. When I was a sophomore, I watched TV with him. He suddenly asked me how my love life was. He is usually a very serious and rigid man, and asking me this question at once made me a little ignorant. When he saw me not answering, he asked again, what about your roommate? It was only after I responded that I replied, haha, that my roommates have boyfriends, so no one wants me haha. His relaxed face immediately rose again. He said, "Don't say such things in the future. How could you have no one?" His face was black and scary. When I was a kid, I was often beaten by him, and I had psychological sequelae. When I saw him looking wrong, I immediately tightened the pillow in my hand, but I carefully recalled what he said. There was a stream of warmth in the chest.
Now, this feeling is exactly the same, reliable and stable, so I have the urge to talk to the people around me.
That afternoon, I said a lot to Gu Xingzhi. Tell him that in the past few years of celibacy, every family dinner or friends gathering, friends and relatives of three aunts and six wives repeatedly said to me, "You are too demanding," "Do you think you are good?" Every time I want to roar back, taller sister, you do n’t look at the photos, age or character before introducing me to the object? They always habitually blame my leftovers and orders on me for being too demanding. Yeah, I sometimes feel self-doubt, and I feel that my demands are too high, so I always hypnotize myself to do this-
When Guo Degang and Wu Yanzu stood in front of me and let me choose, I should pat my thighs, cry, runny, and look proud and mean. The old lady loved Guo Degang and asked me why I do n’t think of Wu Yanzu as a hair while playing. Egg go! When men of all colors are for me to choose from, I still have to shove a bunch of hair in the wind and yell, shouting, black hair, long face, handsome and handsome, all I do n’t want, I can only see the beauty of the soul. , I know your thoughts shine like a star, come on that collapsed nose, I know the ambition is higher than the sky, come on the sausage mouth, I know that your heart is as kind as your mouth, come on that beer belly, I know that your chest is wide and you can sail through it. Come on that bright summit, only you can transform to indicate that the light illuminates my pace. is it? Do I have to do this?
My so-called "high demand" made me not marry myself until I was thirty. Now I'm thinking, it's really all me wrong. I'm too serious. I care about the other party's conditions so much because I think the other party is too important. I'm not in a relationship or a joke. I'm used to get married and to be responsible for future generations. I want to find the one who made me give up with all my heart, treat him with heart and lungs against other men, and make me love the one I love wholeheartedly, guilty for him, cheating for him, crying for him, and being happy for him like two. The person who is forcing, this person, even if not so good, at least it should not be too bad.
During my talk, Gu Xingzhi never interrupted me. He is a good listener. His expression is also extremely rare and gentle. His sight falls on me like light, enough to put People parcels melt.
After I told him that, he reached out and gently patted the back of my head twice, like stroking a cat. He said, "Wipe the shadows of the past first."
I ignored his words, moved my heart, turned out the black marker in the bag, bent down, and stroked on the wall:
"Comrade Gu Dabao, will you always be with me? Ms. Xue Wangcai, who is 30 years old."
I wrote carefully and murmured, "No way, I have always been a physique association. Now I ’m inexplicably with you, you look so beautiful, the starting point is too high, I ’m afraid I ’m really a man in the future I ca n’t even see my eyes. Do n’t think I ’m just because of your looks, I used to doubt it like this. But before I saw a sign on the constellation, if Taurus likes a person, he will take that person to him. What I like. I am the Taurus woman. I brought you here today. I think I should like you. "
I screwed the marker pen cover and glanced at Gu Xingzhi: "I didn't write this to restrain you, you have your choice. I'm for self-motivation, and when I am 80, I still have the strength to come When I get here, and still have the strength to look back, I will be extremely proud to have met a beautiful man like you at the age of thirty. I will not regret it because I am busy and do nothing. So, you can do it. "
After speaking, I straightened my waist and saw Gu Xingzhi open his arms and hugged me vigorously.
The sunset that had been blocked by his body suddenly poured in like pouring paint.
I was stabbed so that I could n’t open my eyes. At this time, my mother ’s mother once told me that women chased men ’s veil and men chased women ’s mothers. For a girl, chasing back It's always a big chance of being chased, so don't be stingy about expressing your feelings to the man you like because of fear of injury or rejection. This is not good or good.