Chapter 62: That grand farewell (3)

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Every time I play, I ponder deeply in my randomness, use all my strengths, and create one after another, but not for classmates, but for the person hidden in the corner.
I showed wonderfully to the audience, just to let him look at me, just to let him remember me.
Can he understand my mind?
I don't want him to understand, I just hope he can remember my beauty tonight, I know I am beautiful tonight, because I used all my wisdom and all the love for him in beauty. I condensed all my youthful years tonight and bloomed for him.
Guan He came to register for the show, and I teased her: "Beauty is coming out of the rivers and lakes again?" In three years, Guan He really did not participate in any activities related to literature and art. Have a good voice.
She only smiled and nodded at me, calm and indifferent, like the most ordinary classmates. She told Shen Yuanzhe: "My show is" Every Day in My Life "."
I deliberately left Guan He's program to myself to report.
The small lanterns around me kept blinking, and the students' faces were blurred. When I walked to the center of the stage, I suddenly remembered the junior third art performance. Guan He invited me to perform with her. At that time, we were very close. I don't know when it started, we started to become strange.
"In every person ’s growth, there will be some important people who have left an intriguing chapter. There is also such a person in my life. Her appearance made me feel the biggest disaster in my life. I was jealous of her. I envyed her, but in the envy of her, I kept chasing her, hoping to get better and better. I used to be extremely painful for this kind of catching, and now I finally understand that I can Standing here is inseparable from her. Because of her appearance, I became the person I am today, and I want to thank her. "Every day in my life", performer: Guan He. "
Guan He walked from the darkness to the center of the bright stage; I walked from the stage to the darkness. At the junction of light and darkness, the two passed by, I looked at her, but she looked at the audience with a smile.
I do n’t know if she understood what I said, but that does n’t matter. What matters is that I finally let go of my heart. I no longer envy others, I started to like myself.
Guan He bowed to the audience and said with a smile: "In one and six years, I have laughed and cried; I have had pride and inferiority; I have made mistakes and corrected mistakes, maybe I have no expectation from my parents I ’ve done my best and I have no regrets for myself. I give this song to all the teachers and classmates who have given me help and care. Thank you, "Every day in my life."
Watch time flies
I pray tomorrow
Every little dream can be realized slowly
I am so ordinary but so lucky
I want to say thank you
Every day in my life
Watch time flies
I look back
Once a reckless boy
Once lived
I am so ordinary but so lucky
I want to say thank you
Every day in my life
As the party came to an end, the atmosphere became more and more sad, and many girls could not cry when singing.
The time is almost the same and we must say goodbye.
Teacher Li quietly told me a few words, and I will report for the last show.
"The last show is the chorus, the song title," Farewell ", the performer, and all the teachers."
All the teachers walked to the center of the stage, standing in rows.
Teacher Li played Master "Farewell" by Master Hongyi.
Outside the long pavilion, by the ancient road
Fragrant grass
Evening wind blows the willow flute
Sunset outside the mountain
The end of the sky
Familiarity
A goblet of wine is more than happy
Don't dream cold tonight
The affable old principal, the white-haired geography teacher, the white-faced scholar politics teacher, the once-blushing English teacher, the sloppy ghost math teacher, the muddled physics teacher, the rigid and serious teaching director ...
My eyes are wet. I believe that at this moment, the eyes of all classmates will be a little sour.
Three years, the most youthful and gorgeous three years! High school, our carefree military training, sweating and singing military songs; high school, divided into liberal arts and science, fast and slow classes, anxious pain; high school, the endless sea of ​​questions, we three sleep, five shift.
We once played the right steps together, punished the stops together, skipped classes together, scolded the teachers together, played together, studied together ...
Whether we love it or hate it, the three years of high school have left the most indelible mark on our lives.
The old headmaster said goodbye to everyone in his singing: "Graduation is an end point and a starting point. The third year of hard work is over, but the life of hard work has just begun. I would like to represent all teachers and give a farewell speech to all students. To exercise health, the gentleman keeps on strengthening himself; on the topography, the gentleman carries goods with virtue '! "
The teachers departed one after another. I told everyone in accordance with the instructions of Teacher Li in advance: "The following is the dance time left by the school. The old principal said that as long as there is another student willing to dance, the music will be played for him."
At first, the classmates still looked at me and I looked at you. I was embarrassed to play. Soon, bold boys came with their girlfriends. Many underground feelings were exposed, which caused many boys to roar.
Many classmates ca n’t jump, the teaching ca n’t, and the open-air dance floor with flashing lights is full of beautiful or clumsy figures.
Yang Jun jumped to the table next to me, staring at the dancing Tong Yunzhu in a daze.
I said, "If you want, just ask her to dance."
Yang Jun looked sad: "I can't dance."
I walked over and patted Tong Yunzhu's shoulder: "You go and invite Yang Jun to dance!"
Tong Yunzhu was stunned, and immediately said, "Okay."
She came to invite Yang Jun, Yang Jun twitched and said: "I will not jump."
Tong Yunzhu smiled generously and said, "So, your first dance needs a dancing partner." She reached out to him, I gave Yang Jun a look, Yang Jun blushed and held Tong Yunzhu's hand.
In the sound of dance music, the students began to leave in twos and threes.
I hid in the dark, searching around for Zhang Jun's figure, but I couldn't see him. Is this the way he chose to say goodbye?
The firewood, silver flowers and starlight converged on the stage, but it was shining for parting.
In the soft and sad music, I walked to the school gate.
Goodbye, one!
Goodbye, my youth!
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Gold List Title
At this crossroads, the young you and I wave goodbye.
We thought that farewell was just a love, but did not know that it is our youth;
What we thought we forgot was just a laugh and sorrow,
But I don't know what we forget is our dream and passion.
The day of the exam is lonely.
When I used to make tea habitually and wanted to recite English, I realized that it was no longer needed. A habit that I have been doing for almost three years. When I didn't need to do it suddenly, I was not relaxed, but rather lost.
I went to sign up for the summer vacation painting class. This time, I learned for myself. This world is beautiful because of color. I hope I have a pair of eyes that are better at capturing color.
A few days before the college entrance examination, I received a call from the teacher responsible for admissions at Peking University. Congratulations on my good results and invited me to report to Peking University. I chatted with him dizzyingly, and when I hung up the phone, I realized it. I forgot to ask him how I did.
My dad and mom started to get excited. After all, the teacher of Peking University's enrollment phoned in person and proved my achievement.
I called the head teacher, and the head teacher was half happy and half sorry, saying: "You are the first in No. 1 middle school, the fifth in the province, and it is less than 10 points away from the provincial champion."
While my father and mother were excited, they also emphasized to each other that they should be low-key, and do not shout to the public before the official release.
The next day, Tsinghua ’s admissions teacher also called me and invited me to Tsinghua. When he heard that Peking University ’s teachers had contacted me, he immediately introduced me to Tsinghua ’s policy of insurance research and emphasized that Peking University does not have these advantages.
Tsinghua ’s phone here has n’t been out for long, and Peking University ’s phone over there.
Mom and Dad were so happy that they really took Tsinghua University or Peking University as a proposition, thinking very seriously and deliberately making a long distance to my second uncle who was a vice president at a key university to study whether I should enter Tsinghua University or Peking University.
I think their mentality is a bit like marrying a daughter. The two golden turtle sons of Tsinghua Peking University make them embarrassed, but their embarrassment is to act with hypocrisy and happiness.
On the day of the college entrance examination list, Guan He ’s mother called my mother to watch the list together. My mother already knew that my grades had to go, and I did n’t want to block it, because this moment was the moment they should enjoy raising me for many years, but Tell them to see Guan He's mother, please be cautious.
Because our mother seemed to be a close friend among the boudoirs, Guan He and I went together to see the list.
When we arrived, the school entrance was already full of people. My mother dragged Guan He's mother into the crowd cheerfully.
Guan He and I sat on the flower bed platform beside me, watching the crowd in front of the school gate in a daze, only talking once or twice.
The list has not yet come out. The news that I am the fifth in the province has spread. Many students came to me to verify the news. Congratulations.
Guan He has been smiling and talking to everyone, but I know her nerves have stretched to the extreme.
I sigh, the most frightening time is waiting before the result is announced.
Finally, the door of the school opened and the teacher came out to post the list.
The front door of the school was chaotic, and all the parents squeezed forward. Instead, we candidates stood outside in a complex mood, both wanting to know the results and fearing to know the results. However, regardless of whether they want or not, all the students know the results one after another.
Some classmates cried and lost their voices, parents cried together, and some classmates couldn't help but laughed together.
I sat deep in the flower bed, not only staying away from the matter, but also empathizing. Three years of high school is not only the hardship of a student alone, but also the countless efforts of parents.
Guan He suddenly rushed out of the crowd, with a smile on her face, and I felt relieved that she must have done well.
"How many?"
Guan He said happily: "11th grade."
As soon as my heart was put down, I saw Lin still sullenly squeeze out the crowd with my mother, and my heart hung up again. I walked over and dared not ask.
"136th grade." Lin still had tears in his eyes, but he still tried his best to smile.
Since the beginning of the first year of high school, Lin has never missed regardless of the entrance exam and the entrance exam. I have worried about Yang Jun and Guan He before, but I have never worried about her.
I do n’t know how to comfort her. The smart girl who did n’t make the top 10 in high school and the top five in high school only took more than 130 exams. For three years and more than a thousand days, I sat behind her and witnessed her hard work. After three years of hard work, it disappeared in a flash.
China's college entrance examination is cruel, not just because it is fiercely competitive, but because it only looks at the cruelty of the final moment. Unlike foreign countries, applying for universities requires a comprehensive performance, and China, no matter how brilliant its previous results, this moment Without success, everything is denied.
I was sad, Lin still comforted me in turn: "It doesn't matter, it's still above the key undergraduate line, and I can still report to a key university."
Lin still's mother is very uncomfortable and doesn't want to say a word. Lin still hurriedly said a few words to me, and took her mother away.
I sat in the corner of the flower bed, staring at the blue sky in the distance.
There are always many things in this world that cannot be explained by logic, and there is no fairness at all.
Yang Jun was excited and jumped around in the crowd and asked aloud, "Have you seen Luo Qiqi? Where is Luo Qiqi? Who has seen Luo Qiqi?"
Guan He stopped him, and after a few words with him, his face dimmed, and he found me, and said depressedly: "How can Lin still fail the exam? Her psychological quality is better than you and me, and she is also strong in concentration. , Both of us are so noisy, she can be deaf. "
No one can know the answer, so the college entrance examination is a cruel game.
"How are you? Do you want to apply for a school?"
"The seventh grade, I decided to go to Fudan University, how about you? Is it decided? Tsinghua University or Peking University?"
"Tsinghua."
"Then I will go to Beijing to play in the future, so I will go to you."
I laugh: "Don't harass me, find someone else."
Yang Jun rolled his eyes: "You!" He sat silently for a while, and suddenly sighed, "I hope Tong Yunzhu can report to the university in Shanghai."
"How did Tong Yunzhu test?"
"Super-level performance, even on the key undergraduate line. Zhang Jun also did well in the exam, as if he was in his twenties or thirties, too crowded, I was squeezed out before I had a closer look, but you don't need to Concerned, some of Tsinghua's young talents, you forget the past and bravely move forward! "
He just said that I was completely wrong with himself. I asked: "What about Shen Yuanzhe?"
"Isn't that him, would you like me to help you?"
"Ok."
Like a monkey, Yang Jun disappeared without a shadow. After a while, he brought Shen Yuanzhe and his sister together.
Shen Yuansi greeted me: "How to hide here? A lot of parents are talking about you outside and want to see what you look like."
I stick out my tongue: "Meeting is not as good as I imagined."
Both brother and sister's expressions are normal, Shen Yuanzhe's performance should be normal, and Yang Jun quickly confirmed my guess with mouthful.
Shen Yuansi has graduated and assigned to work in a design institute in this city, a very good unit. I haven't asked about it yet, and she told me actively that Lin Lan went to the TV station and the benefits are good.
After chatting together for a while, Shen Yuanzhe and his sister left, and Yang Jun jumped up and down. They still have a lot of things to do. Determine the school, determine the major, and report the volunteers. Unlike me, there is nothing left.
After noon, there were fewer people at the school gate, and my mother and Guan He ’s mother were gone, and it was estimated that they all went home with satisfaction.
I sat down in the depths of the flower bed alone, holding my knees in a daze.
Guan He didn't know where to go and wandered around. At about six o'clock in the afternoon, he ran back again and sat next to me with a smile.
"Why are you still hiding here? Wouldn't it be a pity not to win the provincial champion?"
I smiled bitterly, "I'm recalling some previous things and waiting for a friend."
"Zhang Jun?"
I didn't say anything, Guan He shut up immediately.
As the mountains of Xishan become thinner, the entrance to the school becomes deserted, and only one after another can see the lively people.
Guan He asked me: "Aren't you hungry? Do you want to go home?"
"You go back first, I want to sit here for a while."
Guan He shook his head: "I'm still excited. I can't bear to go home. I'll accompany you."
I did not say anything, staring at the school gate.
The afterglow of the setting sun reflected the majestic and beautiful school gate, and the trees on both sides were gleaming with gold and red. Three or two people stood in front of the school gate to watch the list. .
I sat here for a day and didn't even eat lunch, but Xiaobo never showed up.
When I was in the first year of high school, I had imagined this moment countless times. I imagined that my college entrance examination was very good and shocked Xiaobo. I want to see his surprised and unexpected expression. I want to walk proudly to him. I think the two people laughed a lot, and they could be with them from day to day. When countless times of frustration and disappointment, this used to be my motivation.
At that time, I thought that if you study hard, everyone will be together forever, but now I understand that when I choose to study hard, I have embarked on a road that has no intersection with him, and he knew it three years ago. .
Three years ago, I was looking forward to seeing his college entrance examination results. After three years, wouldn't he want to see my results?
I have always believed with confidence that he will come, and he will definitely look at my results. This is our success!
But one day of waiting made me unsure. After three years, I changed, and he also changed. He has his own splendidness, and I am just a memory of the past.
The afterglow of the setting sun gradually gathered, the sky slowly dimmed, the lights at the school door were on, and there was no one at the school door.
Guan He whispered, "Are you going home? It's already dark. He must have known the results for a long time and probably won't be watching the list."
I smiled and said, "After a while."
I walked to the Red List and looked up.
Big Red List, densely packed names. At the top, it is written in shiny gold powder: Luo Qiqi.
I smiled with satisfaction, very good, very dazzling, I can see at a glance, this is my three years of hard work, this is what I want Xiaobo to see, he is the only person I want to share this glory, but , Where did he go? Where did the person who should most see this glory go?
I stared at my name silently, and after a few minutes, my eyes fell and stopped on another name.
Zhang Jun.
I stood in front of the Red List for a long time. Until it was dark, I said to Guan He: "Let's go."
The two talked while walking, talking about the grades of this classmate and that classmate. I said something in my mouth as usual, but my head was tossed and turned all over: Xiaobo didn't look at the list, he forgot, he forgot all!
Before I noticed it myself, the tears were falling down, because Guan He was next to me, I wanted to control it, but I could n’t control it at all, and it was just crying with heavy rain, and Guan He thought I was because of Zhang Jun, so embarrassed, pretending I didn't notice it and didn't look at me at a glance.
I wiped hard, but the tears flowed more violently, and I no longer restrained, and let the tears fall wildly.
When I lost him three years ago, although I was sad, there was still good hope. In the maze of years, we are only temporarily separated, it does not matter, I will wait for you at the exit of the maze of years, and I firmly believe that he will be there, he is my wavelet! How could he not wait for me?
Three years later, I finally reached the exit of the labyrinth with difficulty, only to find that our exits were not the same, and looking back, we could not find the way back.
In fact, I know that we have already embarked on a different path. The further we move forward, the distance will only get further and further away. No matter whether he looks at the list or not, he ca n’t change this fact, but I ’m not willing. forget? I'm just not reconciled! I just don't want him to forget me!