Chapter 1502: What I want most is you!

"Do you remember the book of transference that I found with you back then?"
As soon as he spoke, I suddenly went back to more than ten years ago, and I was a little hesitant, but what happened that day and that day was still clearly stamped in my mind.
Probably because it has had a profound and far-reaching impact on my future life.
I said, "Remember."
Pei Yuanxiu looked at me and said gently: "At that time, did you know what I was thinking?"
I shake my head.
"I was thinking, let's just forget it," he said.
"..."
"I have known for a long time that I am not a royal orthodox. The book of transferences made me know that I have no hope. At that time, I only thought that I was in your eyes, not to be discarded, not to run away, but Accept that fact calmly, and then leave. I hope I'm such a person in your eyes. "
"..."
"I hope that you can go with me."
I lowered my eyes.
However, he still looked at me without a slight relaxation of his eyes, and said, "In fact, at that time, I knew that you already had a relationship with the third child. You went down to Yangzhou together-I already thought about it and wanted to stop it. You followed him to Yangzhou, but after all, the emperor still favored him. "
"..."
"So, you rejected me."
I said lightly, "I rejected you, not to follow him."
He looked into my eyes: "But after all, you followed him."
"..."
This time, I have nothing to say.
Yeah, after all, I followed Pei Yuanzhang.
Even then, I refused to follow him and stayed in the imperial city to wait for a fair day of amnesty, in order to one day be able to get rid of that false identity, go out of the palace, and pursue my own life, But at that time, I counted so much, and did not count what happened later.
Now, I do understand what Yan Qingchen said just now.
Nothing is manageable.
The best ability of a person is not control, but it can be solved one by one when problems arise. Unfortunately, at that time, I was too convinced that Pei Yuanzhang would let me go, and I did not have the ability to confront the emperor.
So disastrous.
I said calmly, "Yeah, I followed him after all."
He said, "Do you know what I thought at that time?"
I shook my head.
"I already knew that you were affectionate to him, and that he would not let you go easily with his heart. So I had expected this result, and I thought that I could accept everything calmly."
"..."
"But I found that I couldn't accept it."
"..."
"I can't even calm down."
I was silent for a while and then said, "Not only because of me."
He did not deny that there was a scorching sensation in his eyes and he stared at me tightly: "You know a man who was originally a prince, and Jiang Shanshe was a man at his fingertips. He lost everything overnight, what People are no longer. Identity, status, power, and even the proof of their existence are gone. Is that the feeling? "
"..."
I didn't speak.
But in fact, I understand that feeling.
Just like when I left Xichuan and went north to Beijing.
I was uprooted, and everything that once belonged to Yan Qingying suddenly had nothing to do with me. After I changed myself to a status called "Yue Qingying", I became a completely stranger in the past. When I saw people in the palace to salute, I saw the emperor, prince, and concubine bowing down. This is not wrong for ordinary girls ... for me, too.
In addition to every night, I will dream of when I was still living in the main house of the Yan family.
I will also remember that even in the days of poverty, my mother still lives with me in peace and dignity.
So, I bought them with the silver money I brought with me, and transferred me to the cabinet, not only to hide myself better, but also to avoid having to bow to people every day.
I confess that I am not a person who can't afford to let go, but the gap is not so easily accepted by everyone. Liu Qinghan will say that it is easy to go from frugality to luxury, and naturally, from hardship to luxury.
I said gently: "I understand."
Pei Yuan Xiu said: "You may not understand everything."
"..."
I glanced at him and nodded.
Yes, he is a prince, and Miss Yan's is different.
Moreover, men's obsession with power and status is also different from women.
He said, "I thought I could care less about all that, but it turned out that I couldn't."
"..."
"I thought I could let you go, but it turned out that I couldn't let it go."
"..."
"I know what day you spend in the palace. I know that Pei Yuanzhang forced you to death by yourself. Do you know what I thought at that time?"
When I heard him say the last few words, his teeth were rattling, and the sound made me shudder for a while.
Of course I know.
When he was caught by Butu and brought to Shengjing by Losh, he told me everything.
He was almost going crazy.
At this moment, I clearly heard his heavy breathing, each sounded like a few heavy impacts, hitting my heart severely. When I looked up at him, I even felt To the pain in his eyes.
I immediately lowered my head, avoiding his gaze, and said, "I know, Losh told me everything."
His heavy breathing finally eased at this moment.
But his eyes did not relax a little, still looked at me scorchingly: "At that time, I was determined to get back everything that belongs to me."
"..."
"Whether it is this country or you!"
"..."
"But after passing the imperial city that night, I also understood a little bit. He thought deeper than me and was harder than me, so he won, won the world, and also won you. If you want to take back what originally belonged to me Everything that I want to take back to you is not a matter of overnight. I need to think deeper than him and do it harder than him. "
When he said these words, his voice was still calm, even with a touch of indifference, but every word in these words, I know, is stained with thick blood, even after so many years, the scene is still there My head is surging.
I said: "So, after you failed in Dongzhou, you immediately went south to Jinling; in Jinling, you dormant for so long and planned for so many years, you have been manipulating Shen Gongyu secretly until the emperor was After Ma Hegu took them down, you took that opportunity and seized Jiangnan. "
He said, "Yes."
In fact, I have known for a long time, even if some of them are not known, I can guess how much.
But this is the first time, when he told me plainly, the years when the clouds and fog around the mountains suddenly became clear, and Huang Tianba once said that this has been hidden in the mist People, like mysteries, finally let me see some clearly at this moment.
I was silent for a while, and then said, "What do you say now?"
He looked into my eyes and said, "I want you to know that I do everything for a reason."
I also looked at him and nodded: "Yes, of course there is a reason. For these reasons, you killed the real Yue Qingying, and instructed Gu Ping to kill her on Pei Yuanzhen's wedding night; use me to go to the sea to find wonderful words. Opportunity to find Folang machine guns and even send someone to intercept light cold on the execution ground ... "
"Lightness,"
After he called my name, he didn't talk anymore, but looked at me deeply and looked at it for a long time, finally deepened his throat, and slowly said, "One will be all done."
One will succeed and die ...
That's it again.
This sentence has always been the best explanation. All conspiracy and conspiracy, those methods that cannot be spoken to, and those killings, seem so righteous behind this sentence. Maybe for men, This sentence can cover everything.
There is nothing that cannot be sacrificed before success.
I couldn't help but chuckled.
His expression seemed very dignified, especially when he heard my laughter, the whole person seemed to tremble with it, and he reached out to me subconsciously: "light-"
Just as his fingers were about to touch me, I immediately retracted my hand on the table.
His hand was frozen in front of me.
I looked up, facing his injured eyes, and said lightly, "You better not disturb, Uncle Fear is outside."
The light in the room cast me and his shadow on the doors and windows, and the people outside could clearly see each of the two of us. He hesitated a bit, and finally slowly retracted the hand. go back.
And I put my hand back on the table.
The two of them seemed to break for a moment. When he looked up again and looked at me, his eyes finally calmed down. He said, "Can't you forgive me?"
I couldn't help but twitched the corners of my lips again, showing a faint smile: "Yuan Xiu, the two of us, be fair."
"..."
"You just said, you convinced yourself before you did everything, and you should think clearly before you do, what would happen if I knew the truth."
"..."
"You killed my friend, use the people I care about to kill Pei Yuanzhen, and use my concern for the wonderful words to find the Folang machine gun ..." When I said the last time, my voice was shaking slightly: "You cannot After doing all that, I have to know nothing, and I have to be so obedient to return to you. "
"..."
"You can't do everything."
He looked at me, in his black eyes, his throat stabbing, and Shen said, "I want you most, only you!"