Chapter 2416: I was so weak

As soon as I heard this voice, I said in surprise: "Sister Lan?"
Although she no longer had the deliberate flirtatiousness she used to talk about, and she no longer played with teasing and teasing in her tone, I still knew her voice very well and heard it only after hearing it.
"You, are you here?"
"Well, here I am."
This time, I could hear more clearly. Not only did her voice lose the frivolity of the past, but she also carried a slight, unspeakable depression and heavyness.
Then I heard her slowly come to me: "Sister."
"Sister Lan, you are here, and you are here."
"..."
"Otherwise, Ye Fei was injured like this. I really don't know how to explain it to you and Yemen."
"..."
She didn't respond to me immediately, but seemed to be silent, as if she had been watching me.
After a while, she suddenly sighed and said, "Sister, how did you become like this?"
"..."
This time, I was silent.
And forgetting what he looks like.
I have to face a familiar person and explain it again. Although I'm numb, but I heard Alan's abnormal sound, I still have a sour feeling in my heart.
I smiled and said softly, "It's because ... something happened."
"What the happened?"
"..."
It seems that she doesn't know anything about light cold.
But yes, Yemen went to Yan's house to talk to him before Dingchen died, and then left. Apparently, they took Alan with them. What happened in Xichuan is probably unknown to them.
I smiled lightly again and didn't speak.
But I could feel that my eye circles were hot and probably red.
For a while, the two were relatively speechless, and both were silent. There were other people in the room. They saw neither of us and they didn't talk.
After a while, I barely suppressed the bitterness in my heart, raised my head, and said, "Do you know what Ye Fei was doing? A few days ago we--"
"I know, they all told me."
"Did you come here for him?"
She sighed and said, "If it weren't for him, why would I go to such a place to find my sins?"
I heard she came to him, and I was relieved.
Before I saw Ye Fei's desperate attitude and was not afraid of death, I was always worried that Alan was in trouble. Fortunately, now she appeared unscathed, and I put a stone in my heart. Now the only thing to worry about That is, Ye Fei.
I don't know when he can wake up.
After a few more words, Alan said to Pei Yuanzhang, "I want to be alone with my sister for a while."
I felt Pei Yuanzhang a little hesitant, as if he wanted to say something, but after a moment of silence, he said, "Okay."
After speaking, he took his people away.
After the door was closed, the heat from the stoves on the bed was a short time before the whole room was heated, Alan took my wrist slowly to the bed, and sat on my shoulder again. On the couch.
He also gave me something to cover on his knees.
I didn't expect that even she would have such carefulness and tenderness. In the past, she felt to me like a child of rivers and lakes who was happy and vengeful, but not like this— "a living woman".
I said, "Sister Lan, you seem to have changed a lot."
"It's changed a lot?" When she heard this sentence, she laughed slightly. Although it was a laugh, I seemed to feel the bitterness that could not be concealed in that laughter: "You know what I was like before ?"
"..."
I froze, speechless.
She said "previously", I'm afraid it's not the past I know.
No woman will be what she was once she was born. No woman will be willing to walk on the street and be called "fox fox" at a glance. I can feel her enchanting and charming, her carelessness and indifference, Actually more, it is a mask.
Once a person wears a mask, it is to cover up the injuries he has suffered.
Just don't want people to see their vulnerability.
Seems light cold ...
Alan slowly sat down to the general level and said softly, "If you want, I want to tell you my previous story. Anyone who knows me in the past will understand me later."
"..."
"It will also forgive me later."
"..."
"But I don't want to."
"..."
"I don't want anyone to know or understand."
"..."
"No need forgiveness."
Although her voice was soft and charming, in these few words, there was an unspeakable sourness.
I really don't know what kind of past will make her now, but there is always a reason that must make her intolerant to this world.
It was just that she did not want to tell me, maybe I was not the one she wanted to understand her.
I thought about it and said softly, "Well, what about Ye Fei?"
"..."
"Is he that person?"
Only then did I hear her breath sink, as if turning her head to look at Ye Fei, who was lying on the bed on the other side, and after Pei Yuanzhang took his man away, I could be in this quiet room He heard his breathing sound more stable and calmer than before.
It's a pity that I didn't wake up.
Alan was silent for a while, then slowly said, "I never thought of him."
"..."
"I never thought it was him."
"..."
"I thought it should be--"
Having said that, her throat suddenly stabbed a bit, and she couldn't speak anymore, and I listened and said softly, "Yemen, right?"
Alan didn't speak, but it was the default.
In fact, the relationship between them is not difficult to guess. Even though A Lan usually took her mask to face all the people, when she mentioned that person and saw that person, the feelings in her eyes could not deceive people. .
Like Ye Fei, no matter how arrogant and indifferent, but when facing Alan, his arrogance and indifference are more like a grumpy child.
I whispered again: "Master Ye, what did he think?"
"Ah?" Alan said softly, "What did he think?"
"..."
"If only I could know, that would be great."
"..."
"Over the years-if I could understand it earlier, I would probably not have these years."
With that, she chuckled again.
But for some reason, I almost cried when I heard her laugh.
Although she didn't complain about a single bit of pain and didn't say a single bit of complaint, it was just a chuckle that made me understand all of a sudden, her persistence and her pain in these years.
After all, it didn't come true.
I said softly, "Are you sorry?"
She said lightly, "Many things cannot be said without regret. Besides, without these years, I would probably not be me."
Having said that, she suddenly looked at me for a while, then said: "Lightness, you know, I actually forgot about these things before I met you."
"..."
"In the past, I even felt that if I could follow him, just follow him like this, and I could pass by for a lifetime."
"..."
"But after meeting you, I gradually felt that it didn't seem to be the case."
"..."
"I want more and more."
I froze and said, "Why ... me?"
She said, "Do you remember when we first met?"
I immediately said, "Remember, at that time, Qing Han entrusted you to take me out of Beijing."
She said: "Actually, I took this business at that time. Besides the high price he offered, I was also very interested. I wanted to see what a woman who escaped from the palace looked like."
"..."
"Of course, you are almost the same as I think, beautiful and tame, everything is what the women in the palace should be."
"..."
"But then I found out that you didn't look like you."
"..."
"Although you are gentle, you are never tame. You know what you should do, and you never forget what you really want."
"..."
"You are like a yak. ​​You refuse to drink water and no one can hold your head."
When I heard her say that, I somehow remembered the roads I had gone through, and for a while, she felt a little stunned, and then she slowly said, "I saw you suddenly and found out that I was so weak . "
"Sister Blue ..."
"I look freer and easier than you, but in fact I know what I'm afraid of, because I'm afraid, so I don't pretend to care."
"..."
"I'm just cowardly."
"..."
"And after seeing you, I felt that I was really too weak."
"..."
"Fortunately, I didn't find it too late. I have been cowardly for half my life.
"..."
"So I--"
Her nose was a little heavy, and she even felt choked when she spoke of it, and she was silent for a while before she said slowly, "So I told him clearly."
My heart also beat: "Yemen?"
"Correct."
"..."
"In the past, I thought it was a cramp and broken bone, and after I said it, I found out-"
"..."
"It turned out to be a cramp and a broken bone."
"..."
"But that's fine."
I ca n’t see her, and I do n’t know what she said when she said these words. Although she said it very easily, I slowly reached out and felt when I covered her hand Her fingertips were shaking slightly.
She has experienced cramps and broken bones, but the pain will probably be in her body for a lifetime.
I didn't ask any more, only said softly, "Why, then, Ye Fei, why?"
She took a deep breath, as if looking back, a little helplessness in her breath: "He thought I and the doorkeeper--"
"..."
"Well, this little boy doesn't understand anything, and he is very angry."