Chapter 180: He didn't misunderstand me

Xi Zhan didn't explain to me why Chen Shen was there. He hung his head and kissed the corner of my lips, then raised his hand and pinched my earlobe. I stared at his face and smiled happily!
　　 I am grateful that he did not misunderstand me.
　　 I am grateful that he is willing to listen to my explanation.
　　 I am grateful that he is more willing to believe in me!
　　 I thought we could reunite with the mirror, but I was thinking about his wanting me to kill the child and Gu Tingchen's threats...
　　 "Second brother, third brother brought me your words."
　　 Thunder suddenly sounded from the horizon.
　　 "Well, I know." He said.
　　 "You said it was over between us."
　　 He said truthfully: "I want you to knock the child out."
　　 "But this kid is very important to me."
　　 After a few moments of thunder, there was a heavy downpour outside the window, and the sky in Tongcheng changed, which seemed to imply the end of Xi Zhan and I.
　　 Xi Zhan suddenly loosened my eyes and looked at me coldly. I suddenly stepped back and sat on the bed not wanting to discuss this issue, so I changed the subject and asked: "How did you leave Finland?"
　　 "Chen Shen understands that I will not be detained for long, and he has already got what he wants so he can take the initiative to let me go."
　　 Chen Shen under the pressure of the Xi family let Xi Zhan leave...
　　 I think their relationship should not be so bad!
　　They are just a means of commercial competition!
　　 "Then your power..."
　　 I want to ask how much power he has left, but I can’t ask that, because it’s me who destroyed his power!
　　 Xi Zhan did not answer my question, but said in a calm voice: "Don't worry, life's ups and downs are normal."
　　 paused, his eyes suddenly looked at my stomach.
　　 "Kill this child."
　　 There is no doubt in his voice.
　　 Seeing him so firm, I was terribly afraid, I quickly reached out to grab his sleeve, but he took a step back!
　　 This is the first time Xi Zhan refused me to act like this.
　　 No matter what happened before, as long as I stretched out my hand to hold his sleeves, I could be trusted and indulged in him.
　　 But now he rejected me.
　　 The corners of my eyes moistened for an instant, and I slightly raised my head to push back those tears, and asked him with fear, "Why do I have to kill him?"
　　 "You know your physical condition."
　　 As expected, Xi Zhan was worried about my body.
　　 I lowered my eyes and said, "I want to keep him."
　　 No matter what he does, I will keep him!
　　 "Me and him, you can only choose one."
　　 Xi Zhan turned sideways to look at the scenery outside the window. There was a magnificent river with bright lights on the bank of the river!
　　 I know that this man is serious.
　　 He never slaps himself in the face when he speaks.
　　 What he says is nothing!
　　 I sat by the bed without speaking for a long time, and Xi Zhan also stood by the window patiently waiting for my final answer.
　　 I pursed my lips and remembered what Gu Tingchen had said. He had my parents imprisoned in his hands and took such ambiguous pictures of me.
　　 even threatened to destroy my child!
　　 If I continue to stay with Xi Zhan, I will face three threats from Gu Tingchen, especially the safety of my parents.
　　 In addition, Xi Zhan mentioned such a tricky choice.
　　 And I have no face for the time being to keep Xi Zhan.
　　 I just did such a cruel thing to him, even if he forgave me, I can't forgive myself!
　　 This choice makes me very uncomfortable. If I don’t talk about it, I will keep this child 100% in my heart!
　　 So the answer is obvious.
　　 Even if I leave Xi Zhan, I still have to keep the baby!
　　 But am I willing to leave him?
　　 I still wonder if Xi Zhan did this on purpose!
　　 He knew that I wanted a child but he let me make this choice. I suddenly realized that Xi Zhan wanted to leave me!
　　 So he mentioned this choice that obviously knows the answer!
　　 He is forcing me to leave him, forcing me to be this bad guy!
　　 Thinking of this, I desperately asked him, "Do you want to leave me?"
　　 Hearing this, Xi Zhan was silent, his eyes seemed to be only the bright rivers outside the window.
　　 I suddenly understood his choice.
　　 I think he will leave no matter what my choice is. He came to see me today to say goodbye to me!
　　 I remembered the explanation he just said.
　　 Misunderstanding in his heart is not the reason for our separation.
　　 Indeed, he did not misunderstand me.
　　 But he still wants to leave me.
　　 The injured lion needs time to lick the wound.
I think so.
　　 This is the only reason I can comfort myself.
　　 I can understand, after all, I killed him.
　　 But the sadness in my heart is so clear.
　　 "Xi Zhan, I choose children."
　　 I said these seven words seriously and solemnly.
　　 But this heart is already broken.
　　 He turned around and stared at me with his deep eyes like he first met for a long time, and finally gave a gentle hum from his nasal voice!
　　 My fingers gripped the sheets tightly and I wanted to say something, and finally only said, "Thank you for your favor."
　　 Hearing this, he turned around and left the room indifferently.
　　 He left the room decisively without saying a word.
　　 Xi Zhan is really more desperate than expected!
　　 I stretched out my hand to wipe the tears from the corner of my eyes, and suddenly I couldn't suppress the sadness in my heart. I stretched out my hand to cover my cheek and cried at a loss!
　　 I don’t want to leave him!
　　 But he has the idea of ​​leaving.
　　 I also have a reason to leave.
　　 The separation between us is taking advantage of the trend!
　　 is to go with the flow at this time!
　　 He and I will eventually become strangers.
　　 Mo Lu...
　　No, no, I don't want to be a stranger with him.
　　 I quickly got up and went downstairs to chase him. I saw Xi Zhan's arrogant back at the gate.
　　 Under the heavy rain, he walked forward unswervingly, without any hesitation!
　　 I know he will be out of my world soon!
　　 I stood at the gate and did not dare to run out in the rain and bravely caught up with him to keep him. I was afraid that I would not be sick after the rain!
　　 If this happens, then this child really won’t be able to keep it. I stood at the door and kept staring at the figure from the back, and I was terrified to the extreme!
　　 I want to speak to him, but I don’t have the courage!
　　 He is almost gone, almost gone!
　　 I stared at the back in the night with desperate eyes, suddenly mustered up the courage, and shouted, "Xi Zhan!"
　　 There was thunder, and the torrential rain was rushing. I don't know if he heard my call, but he suddenly stopped!
The man’s body was a little stiff, and I tightly grasped my dress with my fingers to find a trace of support and said: "Xi Zhan, I am reluctant to leave you! I know it is my fault, I am sorry for you, I let you become It's like this now!"
　　 I made him a wounded lion!
　　 I let him lose everything!
　　 It was me who defeated all the pride of a man!
　　 Xi Zhan didn't turn around, I mustered the courage to continue saying: "I can't bear to leave you, but I have to leave you again! Xi Zhan, would you give me eight months?"