Chapter 1540: I thought I met the right person

Nan Yan looked at her, after a long time, slowly said: "Then, do you think, how should I choose?"
"I?"
Ran Xiaoyu was taken aback for a moment.
Her eyes flickered, and she hesitated: "Niang Niang has always been a very assertive person, why do you want to ask the servant girl?"
"Independent?"
Nan Yan gave a wry smile when he heard these two words.
She said: "My own opinion, that's something you can only have if you have enough confidence in yourself."
"..."
"But now, I can't believe in myself."
"..."
"I thought I chose the right path, I thought I met the right person, but now it seems that it is not."
"..."
"I don't even know how I should take every next step."
"..."
"I'm afraid that if I took a wrong step, I will go back to that time, that way...I, I really don't want to..."
Hearing this, Ran Xiaoyu only felt a tingling pain in his heart.
You know, even if she was a maid or Shangbao maid, her fate was like a mayfly. When the day was unpredictable, Nan Yan had never been so hesitant and panic all day long. This shows that this time, Zhu Feng’s love for her. , Has hurt her heart.
Even now, the emperor's care for her and compensation for her will not allow her to heal.
Ran Xiaoyu reached out and gently held Nan Yan's hands.
Her palms are not as wide as Zhu Feng's, and her palms are not as warm and hot as Zhu Feng's, but such hands are also the ones that accompanied Nanyan through countless winds and waves, and even life and death, and were held by her. Nan Yan also felt a warmth in her heart.
She looked up at Ran Xiaoyu.
Ran Xiaoyu said: "Niang Niang..."
"..."
"The maid does not have to worry. No matter what decision the maid makes, the slave will accompany you and protect you, even if it can't stop all disasters, but the slave-slave will accompany you to bear everything!"
"...!"
Nan Yan's eyes were red when she said that.
She slowly leaned down, pressed her face to Ran Xiaoyu's shoulder, and choked up: "Xiaoyu..."
The two embraced each other like this.
After a long time, finally calmed down the ups and downs in his heart, Nan Yan slowly raised his head and smiled with red eyes: "Looking at what I am like now, I am embarrassed to tell others that I am a noble concubine."
"Mother, don't say that."
"..."
"Everyone has the right to lick the wound after being injured, and everyone has the right to protect themselves, and more--"
At this point, Ran Xiaoyu's words paused.
Nan Yan looked at her: "What?"
"..."
Ran Xiaoyu had a rare hesitant look on his face, his eyes flickering slightly, and after a while, he said: "More power to find out the truth."
Nan Yan took a deep breath: "Xiaoyu..."
Ran Xiaoyu said: "The servant girl can't help the empress make decisions, but from the servant's point of view, the reason why the servant girl didn't completely resist the emperor to go to Yumen Pass was because she wanted to figure out something, didn't she?
"..."
Nan Yan glanced at her.
After a long time, he sighed and said, "You are right."
"..."
"The reason why I am hesitant and hesitant is precisely because I also need to go to that place and figure out some things."
"..."
"But it's impossible for me to be a noble concubine."