Chapter 391: But also love Song Qingwan

Chapter 391 can also love Song Qingwan
Song Qingwan pulled her lips and smiled:
"Besides, the kid goes out early and returns late every day, and he doesn't know what he's doing. The Lu family is like a haunted house without people, deserted."
"I was thinking that Lu Anran would be fine to marry. At least she has Yu Zheng to accompany her. For the rest of her life, she can count on someone to rely on. But Lu Junhan doesn't have any. He is alone. I How to rest assured!"
Lu Anran at the door closed her eyes, tears streaming down her face, she didn't expect her aunt to think so.
Lu Junhan also pursed his thin lips, his dark and gloomy eyes sinking a little.
Song Qingwan was talking, as if he was back at that time, his eyes were red again, and even the hoarse voice was choked:
"I just thought, he doesn't like women or children, but if he has a child, at least he won't be lonely anymore. When the time comes, if I leave, what should he do alone, so I started desperately He urged him to find a woman to have a baby, and I also thought at the time that if I could take a look at Lu Junhan or Lu Anran's child before I die, I would die without regret."
Lu Qidong raised his head and closed his eyes, but his eyes were red again.
Song Qingwan took a deep breath and laughed again, "But I am still very lucky. A few months before I was dying, I met Lili. Although she is not a boy, that little girl is so cuter than me. The child I thought of years ago is even more cute. Does it matter to a boy? At that time, I felt that I would die without regret."
Lu Qidong was stunned severely.
He originally thought that Song Qingwan's desire to die was only because he was suddenly afraid of pain, but he did not expect that Song Qingwan had this idea a few months ago!
At that time, she didn't want to be cured anymore, and started to wait for death slowly!
In fact, he can understand her best.
At that time, he also thought about giving up because it hurts too much, that kind of pain is not something people can bear.
Song Qingwan's illness has been less than three to four years.
In the past few years, the weakness and severe pain of chemotherapy. Every time I went to the operating table, my body was cut. After the operation, my incision was painful and I could only lie on the bed and couldn't move.
And the feeling of being trapped in a hospital bed, not being free, and being constantly pierced by dense needles, really makes life worse than death!
It can be boiled once or twice, but the more times I get scared.
Song Qingwan said again at this time:
"But, brother, look, how good it is now. Brother, you have come back from the dead, and I can see your last side, and I have no regrets. The boy Lu Junhan also has a child, so cute and sensible. I also know how to take care of her father. I have no regrets when I die. Dad also often goes back to Lu’s family to fish and eats with us. Just like when we were young, when I was a family, I died without regrets. In the past few days, Lu Anran has also begun to return to the Lu family, no longer hiding in her room, and my last heart knot is almost solved, really... You see how good it is now! The Lu family who had no one at first , Now all the Lu family have slowly returned. The previous Lu family was at best an empty house, how is it like now, everyone is always together, you see... No, there is nothing better than now. "
Lu Qidong looked at her, gritted his teeth fiercely, not letting himself whimper.
Song Qingwan laughed with tears in her eyes, she said softly:
"So, I really don’t have any regrets now, and even the current life is something I didn’t dare to think about two years ago. This is much better than what I thought about the end before death two years ago, really At that moment, I was thinking, if I were there, if one or two people could come in front of the bed, I would be thankful."
Outside the door, Lu Anran couldn't hold back, covering his mouth tightly, but tears kept falling to the corner of his eyes, crying silently.
She regretted it.
In the past three years, she should have come back often.
She shouldn't forget to go home in order to repay her debts as soon as possible and make money desperately.
As my aunt told her before, I can paint anytime, but some people don’t accompany them now, and...maybe there will be no chance to accompany them again.
My aunt was talking about Dad at the time, saying that Dad was old and there was not much time left, so they were children, and sometimes they came back to accompany him more often. Perhaps, my aunt was talking about not only Dad, but also... herself.
Aunt herself has not much time left.
Song Qingwan: "In fact, in the past two years, I have been reflecting on it. I feel that I have failed in my life. The Lu family has not developed well, so I have to rely on Lu Junhan's kid to do it myself. The Lu family was torn apart, and in a blink of an eye, Lu Junhan developed such a lonely and silent character, but Lu Anran hadn't grown up at all, and was so weak and weak. Sometimes I was thinking, if I die and get down there, you Blame me what to do..."
Lu Qidong closed his eyes, "You are my favorite sister, how could I blame you."
When Lu Qidong woke up, he saw that both Lu Anran and Lu Junhan had grown up peacefully, so he didn't ask for anything. He only asked for the safety of his children, and Song Qingwan had already done it.
Song Qingwan didn't reply, just smiled, with tears in her eyes:
"Brother, now you wake up, you can definitely do better than me, not only to develop the Lu family, but also to teach two children, and I believe you will be very good to Lili, you are so gentle and smart , You can definitely teach Lili to be the best kind girl in Haicheng, so I really have no regrets."
"But I have!"
Lu Qidong had red eyes and a hoarse voice.
"I couldn't sleep last night. I was asked to check your life information for more than ten years. After reading it, do you know what I regret most? What I regret most is that I was thinking, why didn't An Ran and Xiao Hanhan both brought them into the car. I know this idea is too ruthless and cold-blooded, but I do think so."
Song Qingwan was stunned, and just looking at him so surely, Lu Qidong closed his eyes, took a breath, and continued to say in a dumb voice:
"You are my sister, and I treat you as my own sister! I never felt that you owed me. I took you into the Lu family of my own accord. You did not owe me anything. Therefore, you don’t have to pay it back. I’m kind, go and raise Xiao Hanhan and Xiao Anran! Even if you throw them away and don’t want them, it’s okay. This is your right as my sister. Their father is me, and it’s me who is responsible for them. I'm sorry for them, not you! They are not your responsibility, and you shouldn't let you take it alone. I regret it too much. If I knew this was the result, I..."
Lu Qidong couldn't continue.
He loves Xiao Anran and Xiao Hanhan, but he also loves Song Qingwan.
(End of this chapter)