Chapter 298: Crush inferiority complex, no longer alone
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I Really Didn’t Want to be a Savior
- In the Fire
- 4287 characters
- 2021-01-30 06:32:10
Looking at Chen Feng's sudden embarrassment, Zhong Lei was a little nervous.
She wondered if she was wrong, maybe she should lie and say that it was all for you?
But she was not good at lying, and felt it was uncomfortable.
Zhong Lei is a very simple person with a straight personality.
She originally only liked music, and could not fit anything else in her eyes.
She likes music because she has great dreams.
The roots of her dreams are naive and real.
"What is left for this world."
Simple ten words.
Some people often hang it in their mouths, and then live a joke in casual talk.
Some people do it all their lives, turning the joke into a myth.
Zhong Lei is the second kind of person.
There are three reasons why Chen Feng can attract Zhong Lei.
First, Chen Feng's "music" completely hit her.
This is what Chen Feng thought, but he did not know that it was not the decisive factor.
To attract Zhong Lei, talent alone is not enough.
Even if Chen Feng copied her own song and resonated with her, it was not enough.
text has no first, Wuwu second.
can be ranked in the top one hundred millennia in the art field where no one is convinced, which is beyond the ordinary people's imagination, even unreasonable, but she did it.
In the first timeline, she debuted as a pop singer, under the pressure of Zhou A in a humble identity, she bluntly killed a path by her own ability, and rashly heroically rose against the current.
After becoming famous, she still had to face all kinds of dilemmas alone without any attachment, but she was fearless and eventually achieved that kind of achievement, becoming an idol across the times.
The stubbornness in her character may be stronger than Chen Feng imagined.
She has a strange absolute confidence in her bones and will not lose to anyone, including Chen Feng.
Even if she couldn't admire Chen Feng's creative abilities, she even wanted to go to the teacher, but she still wanted to catch up with or exceed him.
She knows how to respect teachers and respects, but she will not blindly follow, which is why she dropped out of school.
She will not indulge in the song Chen Feng wrote to her, and she is still tirelessly chasing her own inspiration.
The second reason, Chen Feng saved her life.
The third point is the most important.
Zhong Lei smelled Chen Feng's sense of responsibility, was like-minded and similar, and was much deeper than her.
Zong Lei once asked Chen Feng, "Why are you always so busy and tired, don't you want to rest?"
At that time, she already had speculation in her heart, just want to get a firm answer from Chen Feng's mouth.
Now, Chen Feng has been silent. Zhong Lei waited a long time, leaning his head, staring at him with a pair of beautiful eyes.
"Which...If you don't like me to say so, I can change my tongue. For example...all for you..."
Chen Feng covered his face, "Don't do it."
terrible.
He thought about it again, and he got the medicine.
Chen Feng tentatively said: "Then if I change my mind and let you stop writing now. As long as you promise me, we will get married right away, how?"
Zhong Lei was stunned, "What are you talking nonsense about?"
"No, I'm serious, this song is too difficult, I don't want you to vain youth."
Zhong Lei was puzzled again, "I can write differently when I get married? There is no conflict between the two."
Chen Feng shook his head, "Not the same, this song is not a love song, married and sweet and greasy, how can you write such an atmospheric thing."
"You look down on me?"
"No!"
"Well, I can pretend to promise you, and then get married, write quietly, and publish when we die. Isn't it the best of both worlds?"
Chen Feng was dumbfounded again.
Sure enough, underestimate her, this is the real she, not so honest, the eight cows can not pull back the things that they have found.
"This……"
quietly thought about it, it seems that this is a perfect solution.
At this moment, Zhong Lei suddenly let go of his hand and turned his hands against the railing of the lake. Youyou said, "Actually, you don't like me, right? You used to be married and just wanted to use this Force me to finish this song, right?"
Chen Feng's heart snapped and threw a thrill, "I...I..."
Zhong Lei's tone sounded a bit depressed, "You really look down on me."
Chen Feng looked away, and suddenly the words couldn't be answered.
Zhong Lei said, "I don't need any conditions for what I want to do. I'm just a little sad. You said that I wouldn't lie, and you are the same. In fact, I knew from the beginning that you didn't like me. Conditional feelings , Not real feelings."
"I'm sorry..."
He said it.
Sure enough, lying is a very difficult thing.
"I knew it from the beginning, so you don't have to say sorry. I wasn't a likable character before. It's good if you didn't hate me. No, you hated me at first."
Chen Feng shook his head, "No."
"You are lying again."
Chen Feng: "Well, it's a little bit, but not serious."
Zhong Lei: "What about later?"
"Don't hate it anymore."
Zhong Lei: "But after you don't hate me, you feel ashamed of me again, which makes you uncomfortable?"
Chen Feng felt that he was completely seen through, "Yes... yes. Why do you understand this? Have you also studied psychology?"
Zhong Lei suddenly smiled and shook his head sweetly, "I haven't studied psychology, but I have learned you. I don't understand what you have experienced, but I understand your mood changes. I'm better than any other person in this world. Everyone knows you better. Probably better than yourself."
Chen Feng: "This..."
Zhong Lei said again: "Are you worried, I found out that after you use me, will I hate you?"
Chen Feng nodded, "Yes."
He really wanted to break into a ghost, or find a rope to hang himself.
too frightening.
Did she know everything?
I lied to her, actually been playing with fire and self-immolation?
can single-handedly leave a name for Qing Shi, and sure enough there is no easy generation.
She was accidentally lost in the innocence and simplicity she disguised with emotions, unconsciously, has been exposing herself.
was completely seen through!
What is she doing today, do you want to strip me?
Since she has known for a long time, we can get married in so many timelines, this...
Chen Feng got the answer immediately.
Zhong Lei: "Actually, your worry is superfluous. I like you, it doesn't matter if you like me or not."
Chen Feng: "Ah?"
"Don't I just say that conditional feelings are not true feelings. Feelings are not exchanges. Whether you like me or not does not affect me."
Chen Feng waved his hands again and again, "Hey, aren't you single?"
Zhong Lei nodded, "Yeah, because I thought I could never like others in my life, and at the same time, I wouldn't be with someone I didn't like, so I plan to be single all my life."
Chen Feng wants to give her a thumbs up.
Zhong Lei spread his hands again, "Again, you just don't like me that much, there is still a little... right? I look good, sing and listen, and have such a long life, and now I am so gentle to you, hard-hearted Must it melt?"
Chen Feng blushed, "Yes... a little bit."
"It's just guilty, right?"
Zhong Lei nodded: "So, let's be honest. So you don't feel guilty. Then you only need to use a little bit of liking, and you can change everything to me. I will be very happy in my life, even now. Keep going, I am also very happy, I just hope you can relax a little bit more."
"Of course, no matter what happens to us next. I will do everything I can, write the songs you want and I want. I just said you were angry when you looked down on me, actually here."
This is her, who can understand everything but make herself so simple to live.
Seeing that Chen Feng was still thinking, Zhong Lei grabbed his shoulder with another hand and shook it, "Also, you guys are really tangled. I always like to think about it and live a very tired life. But, I’m fancy As far as you are concerned, do you understand? Is it more comfortable now?"
Chen Feng nodded, "It's much better."
"Frankly?"
"Frankly. But I have to think about where to start."
"Okay, I'll wait for you to organize the language."
At this time, Ryan came over to say hello: "Chen Feng, we have to go back to rest first. When will you leave?"
Chen Feng turned back to speak, but Zhong Lei gave Ryan a fierce look, "We still have something to say! You are busy with you!"
Ryan's neck shrank and hurried away, strange.
Unconsciously the time has passed, and after all, something will happen tomorrow, the crowd will continue to disperse, and even the waiters will leave after they have packed the scene.
Ou fat man settled in Cai Weilu's room, Uncle Long took care of him.
Song Siyu, after all, everybody is pretty, they have to go home.
Finally, only a few people were left in Cai Wei Lu, Lu Wei, Zheng Rou, Fat Man, Uncle Long.
and others all walked together. Chen Feng and Zhong Lei returned to the small table in the middle of the courtyard and sat down.
also placed fresh snacks nuts and drinks, as well as a cup of hot tea and juice.
Chen Feng carried the tea cup and activated the galaxy's human brain. After thinking for nearly half an hour, he slowly lowered his voice and opened his mouth.
"My dream is true, not a dream."
Zhong Lei marveled in his heart, but said nothing on his face, only said: "You continue to talk, I will listen, don't care about me. I listen quietly."
Chen Feng nodded, "I saw the future, experienced the future... many times."
Next, he was talking throughout, and Zhong Lei was listening.
She strives to be quiet and be a perfect listener.
Zhong Lei almost covered his mouth and exclaimed in the thrilling place, worrying for him.
But again and again he heard that he really killed the battlefield, worried that it became reality, and the dangling heart fell to the ground again and again in a very strange posture.
She tried not to disturb Chen Feng's narration, but this long story sounded too gruesome.
He talked about exactly four hours, and the time came to 3:30 in the morning.
"That's probably how it is. I always have these in my heart. At first I thought it was a dream, but I brought back your songs and other people's songs, as well as "Mad Guess" and Star These things are being done by Feng Research Institute. The future has been changed. I want to win once."
Chen Feng crossed his hands and looked at her calmly.
Zhong Lei pondered for a long time, trying to digest everything Chen Feng said.
After a long time, she said: "Let's talk about it when you copy my song from the beginning."
Chen Feng said: "Well, I want to say sorry to you again. All the songs I created for you were originally yours. I also sold your songs to many people. The feeling that I am your companion in your heart is an illusion. . It’s because the song is yours and you’ll be easily touched.
Zhong Lei nodded, "Do you think you are a shameless thief who bully the world, and not as good as I hoped, you have fooled me for many years. Right?"
Chen Feng: "Yes, you know it now. It doesn't matter if you hate me or hate me, even if you don't believe it."
Zhong Lei has a complicated expression, and then asks, "Is it really okay?"
Chen Feng crossed his hands, "In fact, there is still a little bit, but I can't help it." First launch https://https://
"You are really not honest."
Chen Feng: "Anyway, I have considered, maybe your feelings for me are hallucinations. I dare not say before, now I am sure you can complete "Morning Breeze", I dare to say."
"I think about it first." Zhong Lei fell into a long thought, his expression became solemn.
After a long time, she sighed quietly, "This situation is too brain-burning!"
Chen Feng shrugged, "Yeah. But you don't have to deal with other things, you only have to deal with our affairs. Even if you scold me and beat me, it will be fine. If that makes you happy, all right."
"After all, compared with you, my ordinary humble past is not worth mentioning, I don't deserve you at all. I used to lie to myself to be an actor in my life, and I can bear your favor with peace of mind, but I found this to make me mindful. The confusion caused me to interfere with my own judgment, and I couldn’t even figure out what to do to be correct.
Zhong Lei rubbed his temples and shook his head, "Wait, please don't talk first, I will slowly, my brain is a little messy, I have to slap it again."
Chen Feng was awaiting trial in confusion.
Even if she said the love story better, Chen Feng thought that once she discovered that everything was an illusion, her heart would inevitably regenerate changes.
After a long time, Zhong Lei: "You tell me, why did you copy my song at the beginning? Make money?"
"There is a point for this purpose. Actually, I was originally embarrassed, but your attitude towards me at that time was too bad, I was not angry."
Zhong Lei: "So you just grabbed my work?"
"Ok."
Zhong Lei suddenly smiled, "It's not strange, this is your temperament. When you taught me to flirt with Lin Youde, I knew you were a pretty black-bellied person."
Chen Feng nodded awkwardly, "Yes."
"What about later? We have all become friends and copied my songs? Are you professionally proficient?"
Chen Feng: "Cough, I caught you for copying because you are the most powerful. Take your song and let you sing. It must be red and safe. I need to accumulate wealth as soon as possible, so I choose the most safe and easy way."
"Then our business has started, and you and Ou Fatie are also on the line, copying me? Also riding a motorcycle to the scene of the accident to copy, and standing next to the fire to play guitar for me, why?"
Chen Feng is even more embarrassed, "Because I found that you are too scary, no matter how I copy it, it seems that it has no negative effect on you, and the songs you write are getting better and better. I hope to squeeze your potential and let you stay More stuff."
Zhong Lei: "For example?"
"All the songs in the bath fire, self-burning, music box, and of course, including "Morning Breeze" are all works that you have not created. Also, "Dream of the House of Dreams" is also, I have heard it before, but you did not copy it to me. opportunity."
"Co-authored with me is a spontaneous leek, the more you cut the leek, the denser, right?"
"Actually, I think of you as a sheep using a hair restorer."
"I beat you to death."
Zhong Lei hammered him a few times.
Chen Feng is confused, "Are you angry?"
"Of course mad."
"But you..."
Zhong Lei suddenly digressed: "You didn't plan to save the world at first?"
"Well, because I don't think I can do it."
"But then you went."
"I was just trying to be a good soldier and try to figure out how I died, if I could live a few more days, who knows this, there is no way to go back."
"This is your character. You, like me, don't dare to open your mind defense easily. Once you let others in, you can't break free."
Zhong Lei took a sip of juice and said again: "You just said you went to war every time since the fourth time, right?"
"Ok."
"I die every time?"
"Ok."
"What about friends in the military camp? What about others?"
"It's all dead, it's been dying."
"Alas, in your world, humanity has already perished seven times."
"Yes, I am trying to prevent the eighth time from happening."
Zhong Lei suddenly asked softly: "Are you sad?"
"Okay."
"Fooling again."
"what?"
"Want to lie to me? Are you blind? I can't see that you are full of frustration and have a galaxy hidden in your heart."
"Well, it's still sad."
"Can you tell me a specific story about you and your comrades?"
"it is good."
She knew Tang Tianxin's existence. At first, she was a bit tasteful and secretly scolded others for unchecked points, but then she knew that the human thought of that era was in a controlled state, and it was reasonable to do anything.
Later, she heard that the daughters of Chen Feng and Tang Tianxin could not be born again and again.
Chen Feng's tone was very calm, as if he were a bystander, but Zhong Lei could notice the ups and downs of his mood from his slightly trembling tone, but the tears could not stop flowing.
Chen Feng talked for another two hours, unconsciously it was all night, and the sky outside was white.
It was almost dawn.
After listening, Zhong Lei turned his head to look at the sky in the distance and whispered, "I can't imagine how you have been sacrificed over and over again, watching the death of the caring person over and over again and again. I tried hard to get in, and I could only vaguely grasp that feeling."
Zhong Lei's chin lifted slightly, and tears seemed to flow in his eyes again.
Chen Feng took her hand, "You don't need to substitute, you know it."
"Without substituting, how can I forgive the fact that you really have another person in your heart, and even the child is almost there."
Chen Feng: "..."
After a long time, Zhong Lei kept rubbing his eyes, "Secular ideas and reason want me to hate her, but I can't do it."
Chen Feng was silent for a moment, "Sorry, let you fall into this dilemma."
"But I thank you for your confession to me, and also dispel the doubts I had." Then, she stood up suddenly and plunged into Chen Feng's arms. "You are too difficult. You should tell me earlier. !"
Her emotions finally got out of control.
Chen Feng patted her back for a long time, she finally slowly came over.
He asked again: "Things are so incredible, why did you easily believe it? Isn't this the most scumbag man's most unreal lie ever?"
Zhong Lei broke free and gave him a cry and laugh.
"Go to you, if scumbag would refuse Lu Wei? And long before you started speaking, I made up my mind that no matter what you say, I believe it."
Chen Feng looked at her cheerfully, "Thank you."
Zhong Lei rubbed his eyes and patted Chen Feng's shoulder, "Thank me for what I did, it was you who worked hard."
"It doesn't hinder, there is no way anyway, just stick to it."
Zhong Lei listened to his barely relieved tone, and remembered that he had faced himself with the guilt of being guilty of being a thief for most of the past six months. New 81 Chinese website updates the fastest mobile terminal: https:/
Actually he is very pitiful.
He is not afraid of death, but he can't bear the guilt of deceiving himself.
is really a fool, you just love me too much.
Zhong Lei suddenly leaned forward and grabbed Chen Feng’s hand again,
I don’t know what kind of stranger the two of us are in the timeline of your first and second experiences, after all, I have never experienced In the future, for me, it does not exist."
"I don’t care about the future that doesn’t happen. I only care about the present. I only know that without you, I can’t become the present me in just half a year. The end of the road. Instead I want to thank you."
Chen Feng looked at her eyes, "Don't do this."
"I want to ask you another question."
"what?"
"Did I like you before?"
"Don't you say everything, we were not familiar with it before."
"Then do you think I like you now because of your talent or something else?" Zhong Lei bit the word talent particularly hard.
"No."
Zhong Lei: "Everyone is a complete person. The so-called talent is only part of it. No matter whether your talent is true or false, it is still only part of you. If I really like you because of your creative ability, then I and those It makes no difference to a woman who wants to invite you to a song and give her a hug."
Chen Feng stunned, is the only child so good at self-raising?
Me...I'm so good?
"Guess when I first discovered that I might like you when."
"When I save you on a motorcycle?"
"That's right. It doesn't matter if you copy songs or not, right?"
"Yes."
"The incredible athleticism you showed at that time was acquired in the future military camp?"
"Yes."
"The time you saved Ryan was scarier than when I saved me. Did you train hard when you learned these skills?"
"It was hard at the beginning."
"and after?"
"Later I was too strong. The people who train me and the people who train with me are very hard. They are not hard."
"Look, you were not so good at first, and even wanted to hide as an ostrich. But then you changed. You became no longer ordinary. I am attracted to you like this. But no matter what you are, it is You. Perhaps this is your essence, but in the previous timeline, you have no chance to show it."
Chen Feng thought for a while, "You are right."
"Of course you deserve me."
Chen Feng: "Uh..."
"Today I was a little bit shocked. For security reasons, look back and you continue to move me the future song. I also want to see where my limits are. Then, I have to put some pressure on myself. You still have to wait. I, when I write this song, we will get married, how about it?"
Chen Feng thought for a few seconds, "Okay."
Today, he and Zhong Lei confessed, but nothing changed, only his heart was a lot easier.
Zhong Lei was really a strange woman, and she could not spend it with common sense.
He smiled happily, looking silly.
looked at Chen Feng's completely relaxed mind, and Zhong Lei also smiled.
If it is as you said, I am too cold in the past, and I will pass you by.
That is my problem, not yours.
Life is like this.
Many women have been waiting for their real life all their lives, but they can't.
After 30 years of age, he had to blind date in complaining, then numb marriage and childbirth, or simply lonely life, and began to complain about unfair fate.
has actually met someone at some point, but it just happened to be missed.
I once missed you, just like Fatty and Song Siyu once missed each other.
Not this time.
Chen Feng, you have been changing.
Your changes make me curious about you, and I always want to try to figure out the meaning behind each sentence. The more you try, the more you cannot extricate yourself.
Now I like you more.
She stared blankly at Chen Feng again, watching his figure continue to grow in the light of the sunrise.
She took a deep breath and thought to herself.
You have to go against the light to disperse the darkness, that is destined to bear too much suffering.
The tone of your storytelling is very plain, but you must have wandered in solitude and hobbled in despair.
You will also worry that no one in the world can understand you, so you always cover up with a fake smile.
But from now on, I choose to believe you, and you have to believe me.
I will not let you stand alone at the end of civilization.
I will try to understand all your motivations.
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How can such a great mission be without me?
I have no complaints and no regrets, and I will never step back.
Together we create more miracles in this era.
Trust us, you also have to believe in yourself in the future.
When Zhong Lei was in a daze, Chen Feng stood up, stretched his waist, and said, "Okay, I haven't slept all night. Go and rest."
"Ok."
originally wanted to go home directly. Unexpectedly, Lu Wei ran out of the back room with dark circles under his eyes. He pulled them back and settled in their rooms.
Zhong Lei fell asleep until the afternoon, and when she woke up, Chen Feng, Ryan, Ou Junlang, Meng Xiaozhou, and Lu Wei sat in the yard.
The maid and waiter in Caiweilu were not there, so they should be called home to avoid it.
"Wake up? You wash your face first, eat something, I have something to announce."
Chen Feng said to her.
Zhong Lei nodded.
Twenty minutes later, the man finally arrived and Chen Feng stood up.
He held a fist-sized stone in his palm.
"Here are some things I want to publish. I will give you a base, no matter what I said sounds incredible, you should not have any doubts. In order to prevent you from thinking that I am bragging, I will give everyone a play."
Finally, he picked up the stone and vigorously pressed his fingers.
The stone cracked open, then exploded again, and the dust was flying all over the sky.