Chapter 30: Shen Dongli

Chapter 29
I don't know when I started to think differently about Yuer.
I still remember that when I picked her back, she had a thin, small, dirty face, not as big as a palm, and her eyes were so bright and fierce, but I clearly saw the disguise Behind the ferocity is fragility.
Suddenly, she felt a little distressed, so the ghost took her by her side, and in a blink of an eye, it was ten years.
I know she is extremely dependent on me, and I also enjoy this dependence. At the beginning, she was still wary of me. She had to take a careful sniff to eat, and she didn't dare to let go of her appetite when she felt that there was no poison or drug. She was obviously hungry. After eating a few large bowls of rice, she suddenly shed tears and puffed down. I know that she must have been wronged for many years of wandering. She did not speak, but just stayed with her quietly .
Later, she gradually let go of her mind and accepted me, even for a moment she didn't want to leave me. At night, she held the quilt and knocked on my door, closing her chin, looking at me carefully with her clear eyes from bottom to top, and begged: "Master, shall I sleep with you?" She pitifully Said, the right thumb and index finger were a small distance away, and said: "I won't take up a lot of space, just the corner of the bed, otherwise I can sleep on the ground..."
I sighed in my heart, knowing she was afraid I would leave her at night. Obviously they are two strangers, but she relies on me so much, but I love her so much. She curled up into a small shrimp and slept on the corner of the bed. I couldn't stand it, so I pulled her in and whispered: "Yu'er, I won't leave you behind."
Her back stiffened, and it took a long time before she muffled and said, "Foster father said the same." Then I heard a low choking.
I took her into my arms and patted her back gently until her breathing calmed down and she fell asleep deeply. There were still tears on her face. In the first year, she would often wake up in dreams. After waking up, she would look for me everywhere. If she couldn't find it, she would cry loudly. After such an experience, I would never again. Leave her to sleep alone. After the second year, she basically never cried again, and I didn't want to see her crying. It felt like the heart was gripped severely by someone, and the pain was uncomfortable.
I have never realized that I and Yuer are different. Except for my mother, I rarely get along with other women, and I have always dressed Yuer as a boy. She herself doesn’t seem to realize that there is anything wrong. She is at an age when she is indefatigable. She wears men’s clothing with laziness. His smile also looks like a handsome little boy.
When I arrived in the capital, I saw Brother Mo Wei. When the brother saw Yu'er, his eyes brightened, and he pulled her cheeks left and right. After all, all the meat he raised was ripped off by him. His hand protects Yu'er behind him. The brother smiled and looked at me maliciously. The first meeting like that made Yu'er hate the brother for many years.
I always say that our Yuer is a gentle cat. The brother sneered when he heard it, and said, Shen Dongli, you are only afraid of raising a white-eyed wolf. He said, Yu'er was a fierce wolf cub outside. Only when she got to Shen Dongli did she put away her fangs and claws and pretended to be a kitten. Then he exposed the wound caught by the wolf cub as proof.
I don't care about these words, and Yuer is my cat. She often climbed onto my lap when I was dealing with official duties, found a suitable and comfortable seat for herself, and then went to sleep slowly. Sometimes when I'm not there, she has to hold my clothes and smell my breath to fall asleep. After Yuer left me, I would think every night, would she sleep well without me by my side?
The first time I realized the difference between us was when she came to the menstrual affairs. I ran to the hospital holding her, a heart beating quickly, for fear of her accident. The result was... Since then, Yu'er can no longer sleep in the same room with me, no matter how she wailes at the door, I will not open the door cruelly. After she went back to bed in frustration, I went to see her quietly and helped her tuck the quilt.
At first, she said that she was sleeping well, she didn't kick the quilt or grind her teeth, she didn't sleep with punches, she didn't dream, nothing was true. I just endured it at first, but then I got used to it. I couldn't sleep at night without her robbing me of the site. wry smile.
After that, Yu'er's figure gradually became taller and more exquisite, with the fragrance of a her body, but her demeanor was beyond the reach of ordinary men and women. She kept the cat’s habit and still wanted to find a good dream in my lap, but by then she had grown up and was not as thin and small as when she was a child. As soon as she got into my arms, I took her out , She climbed up again perseveringly.
I said to her: "Yu'er, there are differences between men and women. I can't do this in the future."
She pouted her mouth and looked reluctant. She simply covered her ears and said, "Yu'er didn't hear anything." By the way, she closed her eyes.
I smiled helplessly, she suddenly rushed forward, her movements were so dexterous, I couldn’t avoid it, she leaned back on the back of the chair, she was sitting on my knees, her legs spread around my waist, With my face buried in my chest, I muttered, "Master, don't you want Yuer..."
I laughed and pulled her back, but she hugged me like a koala, writhing and trying to free my hand.
I said dumbly: "Yu'er, don't make trouble!"
She raised her small face and said aggrieved: "Master...it will be fine in a while..."
I gritted my teeth and threw her out cruelly. She whimpered, gave me an injured look, and ran out. I am ashamed of my reaction and terrified of my emotions.
How could you feel that way towards her? She is still a child, she sees me as her only support, trust me, rely on me...
I sat in the study all day and couldn't do anything until it got dark and Yu'er didn't come back. I remembered the look in her eyes when she left, and I was suddenly afraid. Will she run away from home, will she never come back?
If she left me forever...My hands and feet were cold, and I ran out before putting on my coat, and I ran into her at the door who was coming in with a full burp...
"Master, are you going out?" She hiccuped again and looked up at me with some doubts in her eyes, "Where are you going?"
At that moment, I felt like a fool...
Sinking my face, I walked back and said, "I didn't go anywhere."
She followed me step by step and said: "Master, the new chef at Tianxianglou is very good, let's go eat it tomorrow. By the way, I just ate a table and told them to get money from Tianlai Mansion. "
At that time, she had already become famous in the Imperial College or even the entire emperor. She didn't need to bring money when she went out. She would know that she would come to the mansion to get the money when she reported it. She ate when she was upset, I should have known...
She suddenly yelled and smiled: "Master, did you just want to go out to find me?"
I was silent and did not answer.
She walked around to me and said, "Master, are you worried about me running away from home?"
I looked down at her and said nothing.
She smiled happily. "Master, don't worry, even if you throw Yuer out, Yuer will crawl back on her own and will never leave the master." She said, she rushed forward again.
She must have forgotten that she had said this sentence, so she walked so cleanly later that she didn't leave a word.
I started to distance myself from Yu'er, and didn't dare to let her discover my nasty thoughts. She was already in the cardamom age at that time, and I was still unmarried in my twenties. There are countless matchmakers, from aristocratic daughters to imperial relatives. Guoqi, I always smiled and declined, only saying that I had no intention of this. Those people did not give up, waiting at my door, even entering the room, Yu'er was so angry as a cat with his tail stepped on, kicked out one by one-really kicked...
I knew she was a martial artist, but I didn't expect it to be so strong. No wonder all the students in the Imperial College were miserable, saying that their life without being beaten by Li Yingyu was incomplete...
I am a little bit happy about Yu'er's violence. Sometimes I deliberately scolded her with a straight face. She kicked her heels aggrievedly, lowered her head and turned her face away, and quarreled with me. At that time, I couldn't help but want to hug her. Hug her...
Yu'er said: "Master, if you really want to find me a master, just say it, bad guys will go down to eighteen levels of hell, and Yu'er doesn't want to do that either." She clearly didn't think so, her expression Not reluctant, it seemed that as long as I revealed that I meant to marry, she would rush to bite me.
I told myself that Yuer is still young, so wait a few more years...
But I think again, I am her master, this is not ethical...
The way of Confucius and Mencius, the love of men and women, my five inner circles are like a fire, and I suffer from time to time. This kind of suffering is even worse when I watch Yuer grow up day by day. When Fengzhi gave a lecture at the Imperial College, I realized that the prince thought about Yuer, not just him, but also others, but that person was the prince, which was very dangerous. Yu'er is special, not because of how beautiful her appearance is, but because of the strange qualities that attract people around her.
When I saw Yu'er joking with others, I suddenly learned what jealousy is. At home, I pretended to ask casually: "Yu'er, do you like the prince?"
She froze for a moment, then sneered: "You only like that if your brain is caught in the door. Master, you don't know, that man's brain is sick, so I came to beat him twice in three days and he is itchy!"
My heart tightened and loosened. Fortunately, Yuer didn't like him, but the prince seemed bound to win Yuer. I secretly told Taifu Zhou, find a name and let Yuer leave the Imperial College.
He sighed that it was a pity that Yu'er was one of a million talents, but it was a pity that he didn't know how to learn. Yu'er also told me about that: "Isn’t it just writing "University" silently? What's so difficult? Savvy is the sum of memory and understanding. My memory is good, but what the said in the book is that I I don't understand at all, it's a fart."
I held back a smile and said in a deep voice, "Yu'er, don't talk dirty."
She sticks out her tongue and smiles mischievously at me.
She is sixteen, the flowers are blooming just right, the soft waist, the amorous feelings inadvertently revealed between her hands and feet, all attract me to come close, just thinking about it will make me tremble and can't help myself. Then I was surprised to find that I and her have been together for ten years.
The prince wants Yuer, and even the emperor treats her differently. I feel bitter in my heart and I don't know who I can tell.
Mo Wei probably saw some clues. Standing in the garden that afternoon, he broke off a peach branch and said to me: "If you have flowers, you must be able to break them. Don't wait for them to be broken without flowers."
I took the peach branch with a wry smile. The delicate flower bloomed just right, but soon it would wither because of leaving the mother tree. Can I discount it?
On that night, Yuer set up a banquet and said that he would celebrate ten years of acquaintance with me. I was secretly vigilant, after all, this move was deliberate and suspicious. Yuer ate the vegetables fiercely, and then toasted me, saying, "Master, have a drink, Yuer is happy."
I took a look at the wine glass, and Yuer said again, "Master, what are you suspicious, it's not poisonous!" She took my glass and drank it, poured me another glass, and raised it to my lips. "Master, drink."
Where her lips touched...My throat tightened and I pretended to drink the glass of wine casually.
Yu'er stared at me closely, her cheeks started to flush, and perhaps the wine was coming up, her clear eyes were stained with the wine, her pink lips were slightly open, and she shouted: "Master..." Then he sat in my arms.
Her body is a little hot, her hands are around my neck, her lips are rubbed between my neck, and the breath is sweet and warm.
As soon as my lower abdomen tightened, I understood immediately.
There was aphrodisiac in the wine, and she drank it herself.
Afterwards, I thought, she was probably too scared, and she didn’t give too much weight. At that time, it was because the medicine was still emotional. It was hard to say, but I can say with certainty that with my self-control, that little medicine was not enough to make me I was completely out of control, maybe it was because of her forbearance for too long, maybe because of her initiative, maybe because of my selfishness, and finally found an excuse to eat the little disciple I've been thinking about for many years.
She is like a flower on a branch in February, pink and delicate, the petals are slowly blown away by the spring breeze, she stretches her body, waiting for someone to pick it up. I kissed every petal and made a lot of preparations, but she still gasped in pain, looking at me drunkly, her eyes full of attachment and lingering.
But even so, she ran away. Maybe... maybe it was a guilty conscience, maybe it was for other reasons. In short, she ran without a trace. I looked at the mess in the room and the plum blossoms drawn on the snow-white sheets, and I only smiled bitterly.
Is the broken peach branch only one night's glory after all?
The warm and soft scent of the night that drunk people's body and mind will never be obtained again.
After she left, I missed her every day, but she didn't hear anything from her.
Mo Wei knew about this and sneered: "Sure enough, it is a white-eyed wolf. I will avenge my grievance and ran away." He said, "Dongli, I will help you catch her back. You will be at your disposal at the time. How To."
I am laughing, how can I be willing?
After waiting for many years, she finally came back one day. She experienced the wind and frost, and became more beautiful and more firm and sharp in her eyes. Mo Wei said that the little wolf cub has grown into a big she wolf. She paws over and pats him. Fei, then turned around and looked at me carefully.
My Yuer is back...
I endured the bitterness of my heart and smiled with difficulty. Her eyes suddenly turned red, and she asked me dumbly: "Master, do you blame me..."
She seemed to understand her wrongly, and I blame her, not because she prescribed the medicine, but because she had been away for several years without any news. Even the subtle resentment disappeared the moment I saw her.
I sighed, took her into my arms, and gently stroked her back as before.
"Yu'er, don't cry." I kissed her heart and hugged her tightly. She listened to my words, slowly calmed her breath, and fell into my arms.
"Master, Yuer loves you." After calming down, she said. "For many years."
I smiled and said, "I know."
Terror is born of love, and the authorities are fascinated. At that time, we were not sure about each other's intentions, tentatively, doubting, loving, hurting, and coming back now. Is it too late?
In my arms, she raised her face and asked me: "Master, you... have you ever liked Yu'er..."
What a silly boy...
I smiled and said, "Shen Dongli met you when he was seventeen years old. In the next ten years, there was no one beside me except you. Yuer, I once liked a person, do you think there is anyone besides you? "
At that moment, she burst into tears.
I kissed the teardrops on her face, and couldn't bear her tears. This was the case many years ago. Even if it was happy, it still made me feel bad.
Later, one afternoon, I was reading a book, and she was practicing calligraphy and writing, so she brought it to me to read.
Words, it can't be worse, but for her, the requirements cannot be too high. Xiaoxiao shook his head, and the word was bad, but there was a wrong one.
"Being a teacher for one day," I pointed and said, "I am a father for life."
She looked at me with a smile, threw herself around my neck, rubbed the tip of her nose against my neck, and smirked: "I am a husband for life."
So he looked down at her and smiled helplessly.
Well, you are always right, my little disciple, my little lady.