Chapter 2428: Find yourself

Finally, the door opened, but Li Xiaoxiao’s expression surprised Bi Luochun very much. There was a smile on her face, but the smile seemed expressionless. Bi Luochun could see it naturally. Li Xiaoxiao has completely closed herself up. It seems that nothing can bring her any interest, nor will her mood fluctuate in any way, but Bi Luochun will not just give up so easily, since Li Xiaoxiao Opening the door means that I still have a chance. Since Fang Zhiqiang is so anxious to let himself deal with this matter, it naturally shows the seriousness of this matter. Even if he can't solve it in the end, he must do his best.
"What's the matter with you?" Originally, after Li Xiaoxiao opened the door, she was about to turn around and walk into the bedroom again, but when she noticed that Bi Luochun was limping while walking, she immediately turned her head and looked seriously. Bi Luochun asked.
She seemed to give a caring greeting, but in Bi Luochun's view, she didn't care about it at all now, otherwise Fang Zhiqiang was injured like that, how could she stay at home for so long without taking a look? Knowing what Li Xiaoxiao was thinking in her heart, Bi Luochun immediately said: "The injury of Qiangzi is several times more serious than mine. Now he, let alone walking down the ground, can keep his consciousness and consciousness on the hospital bed. It’s not easy to communicate with people."
After Bi Luochun's words fell, the original worry on Li Xiaoxiao's face disappeared, and she was replaced by an expressionless smile again. She casually said: "If you are sick, treat it in the hospital. Hey, what are you running around for?" After speaking, she continued to walk to Xiao Ai Li’s walker, and carefully supported Xiao Ai Li’s walker, a smile appeared on her face again, muttering : "Little baby, when will you grow up?"
"Li Xiaoxiao, you really intend to keep going like this? You know in your heart that no one is sorry for you, why do you have to have trouble with yourself?" Bi Luochun looked at Li Xiaoxiao now like this, and finally couldn't help it, maybe Li Xiaoxiao didn’t know what the truth was, but Fang Zhiqiang had already told Bi Luochun everything. Now Bi Luochun is very clear. Fang Zhiqiang has never done anything to sorry Li Xiaoxiao. At least, When he said this sentence, Bi Luochun had full confidence in his heart, and he wanted to use this to make Li Xiaoxiao curious about what he would say next.
But Bi Luochun was disappointed again. After hearing Bi Luochun's words, Li Xiaoxiao did not give any emotional feedback. He didn't even glance at Bi Luochun. She continued to stare at Xiao Aili intently, and said casually: "Others I can’t control it, as long as my precious son can be worthy of me in the future, I will be satisfied, right?"
"Xiaoxiao, you really don't understand anything, it was actually Yaxin who was caught by someone else that night..."
"Lao Bi, if you are here to explain this, then you can go." Finally, Li Xiaoxiao retracted the smile on her face, but still did not look at Bi Luochun, but her tone of voice sounded already I took a lot of seriousness, and after speaking, the familiar smile appeared on her face again, as if everything around her had nothing to do with her.
"Why? Why don't you even give an opportunity to explain? I don't understand. You obviously love him so much, why do you still tortured him like this again and again? Can't you live together well?" Bi Luochun I really don’t understand. Even if he doesn’t fully understand the relationship between Li Xiaoxiao and Fang Zhiqiang, at least he understands a little bit better than others. The two of them obviously pretend to be each other in their hearts, but why? Go together. Every time they encounter something, the two people never think of going together. Sometimes, as a bystander, Bi Luochun looks anxious, but as the authorities, they still pretend to be nothing. The same happens, this is what Bi Luochun can't stand most.
Perhaps it is precisely because of this that the former Bi Luochun finally chose Liu Yan, or it may be because of Liu Yan's personality that makes Bi Luochun feel refreshed, and perhaps there are many reasons and reasons to quarrel in life. Time, but for Bi Luochun, that is better than holding everything in his heart. In Bi Luochun’s eyes, Li Xiaoxiao’s current state is completely incomprehensible. It’s fine if Li Xiaoxiao refuses to say anything in his heart, but she refuses to give the other party even an opportunity to explain. Bi Luochun knows her heart. It is also uncomfortable, but has Li Xiaoxiao ever thought about how much psychological pressure her silence and cold violence will put the other party on? How will it make the other person's mental breakdown?
"Old Bi, I haven't asked too much about your affairs with Liu Yan, because I know that honest officials are hard to cut off housework. This is the same since ancient times. If you think that everything is right or wrong, then I can only Tell you, you are wrong. In many cases, we are not arguing about who is right and who is wrong. No one can tell about complicated things like feelings, and I don’t understand it myself, so it is better not to.
Li Xiaoxiao sighed slightly. With a sigh of relief, she gave up Fang Zhiqiang, and Fang Zhiqiang could not say a word, but seeing Bi Luochun in such anxiousness, she naturally knew that Bi Luochun looked like this because of her relationship with Fang Zhiqiang, so, She still gave Bi Luochun an explanation.
"Is there anything you don't understand? If you like someone, don't you just want to be by his side all the time? Do you still need to think about such a simple thing?" Bi Luochun frowned and said to Li Xiaoxiao just now The explanation that came out, he still couldn’t understand what was going on. For Bi Luochun, everything was very simple. He followed his own inner thoughts, no matter what happened, he could do what he really wanted to do in order to let himself. Feeling happy, Bi Luochun couldn't understand Li Xiaoxiao's complicated thoughts, and he had never felt it before.
"You don’t understand, Lao Bi, thank you for coming to me, but unfortunately, I don’t know how to explain things that I don’t even understand. So, please tell Fang Zhiqiang too. One day I want to understand, maybe I will come back to find him, but we can never go back to the past." Li Xiaoxiao's "past" at this time may refer to when they first met, or maybe, It means that Bi Luochun couldn't understand it for a while. He didn't know why Li Xiaoxiao had such a complicated idea, let alone what he wanted to understand for Li Xiaoxiao.
"Xiaoxiao, I feel that the most regrettable thing in life is not to miss a good person, but to miss the person who wants to be nice to you the most." Hearing Li Xiaoxiao's words, Bi Luochun already felt a little bit Powerless, in the face of such Li Xiaoxiao, even if Bi Luochun has something to say, even if the truth of Fang Zhiqiang's incident is so amazing, Bi Luochun feels that she can't persuade Li Xiaoxiao at all, because what she thinks is already It's not the matter itself, but the complex thing like feelings. Bi Luochun also knows that feelings are complicated, so just don't think deeply. Isn't it all right now? But Li Xiaoxiao obviously didn't think so.
"I know." Li Xiaoxiao smiled again. The truth that Bi Luochun just said Li Xiaoxiao naturally understood, and then she continued: "But what I am struggling with now is not the question of who can treat me well, but what should I do? How to be a better person."
After Li Xiaoxiao finished speaking, she stared at Bi Luochun intently. There seemed to be a question and a trace of doubt in her eyes. Obviously, she wanted to make herself better and better, but she couldn't find it. The method has been spinning around in the same place, and has never known how to improve herself, especially with regard to the relationship. She doesn’t want to let herself fall into it, as if she is a bitter woman, so sentimental, she has tried countless times to change herself, but After all, she couldn't find a way. Now she has figured it out. Perhaps it is because Fang Zhiqiang is so kind to herself that she has adapted to this rhythm of life and has adapted to the life with him. If you want to learn from it Jumping out, maybe only when you are alone can you figure out how to make yourself better.
Bi Luochun fell silent, his mind couldn’t help but recall the original Li Xiaoxiao. He just met that Li Xiaoxiao, but it was only three or four years. Bi Luochun didn’t fully know Li Xiaoxiao’s experience, but he It can be seen that Li Xiaoxiao has completely changed a long time ago. She has become so deep. The girl who looked carefree in the past has gone forever and never appeared again. Now Li Xiaoxiao, let Bi Luochun felt strange.
"Do you think I've changed? You don't even know me anymore?" Li Xiaoxiao looked at Bi Luochun's blank expression, and said this proactively. Seeing Bi Luochun's face still blank, Li Xiaoxiao Xiaoxiao smiled again, and then said: "The only thing that is constant in the world is change. It's not just me that is changing, but you, and there are also strong sons, right?"
Bi Luochun has no objection to Li Xiaoxiao’s remarks. Let’s not talk about other things for the time being. It’s just that Fang Zhiqiang’s current status, status, and money have changed dramatically from before. Bi Luochun knows what Li Xiaoxiao said. Of course, these changes are not only these, but these are also very important factors that make a person change his xinxing. With these things, it is difficult for a person to stay the same. At least Bi Luochun asks himself, now he has already found it. Don't go back to the original self.
At that time, I could squeeze Liu Yan into a rented house of less than 30 square meters, and even accommodate the next Fang Zhiqiang, but at that time, they seemed to be able to get happiness easily. Everything can make you laugh from ear to ear.
But now, Bi Luochun couldn’t imagine how he would feel if he were to return to the life he was like before, in a room less than 30 square meters, but he knew that if he did return, he would Maybe one day I will frown and never smile again.
"Then... how do I reply to Qiangzi?" Bi Luochun has realized that instead of persuading Li Xiaoxiao, he was speechless by Li Xiaoxiao. Although he did not want to accept such a result, Bi Luochun could not I didn’t admit it, I lost to Li Xiaoxiao in the end. The purpose of asking this sentence was also to be able to deal with Fang Zhiqiang when I returned. At least it shows that I did work hard, but after all, I still failed to change Li Xiaoxiao. idea.
"You tell him, it’s not that he did something wrong, but I was the one who made the mistake. I will try my best to find what I really want in my heart. If I can find the answer, I might come back to him. Of course, if he lives for the rest of my life. If I can be happy, I won't bother again." Li Xiaoxiao groaned for a moment, then looked at Bi Luochun seriously, and said something like this.
"You... want to leave the strong son?" Bi Luochun was a little unbelievable. Even if there is some unresolvable knot, there is no need to say so serious, right? Li Xiaoxiao's words just now sounded like he was going to leave Fang Zhiqiang completely, which surprised Bi Luochun again.
However, Li Xiaoxiao didn't answer Bi Luochun's words again when he heard the words. Instead, he turned his head again, looked at Xiao Ai Li in the walker, and continued to amused the child.
Bi Luochun looked at Li Xiaoxiao carrying his figure on his back, opened his mouth, but did not make any sound again, turned around, and went to the bedroom door.