Chapter 30: contradiction

Xue Xi did not speak for a full five minutes, he squeezed Zhou Yizhi's hand.
Zhou Yizhi raised his head, observing his expression.
Because the street lights were dim and he was facing the light again, Zhou Yizhi moved closer to him again, and the two were about to stick together.
Only then did Zhou Yizhi see the shock and astonishment on his face.
No matter how mature this person is due to the encounter, this moment is just like a teenager who opened the gift box and saw a huge surprise. How hopeless he was in his last life, how unbelievable he is at this moment.
Snow fell on his shoulders, and he didn't move. Except for the beating of his heart, Zhou Yizhi could hear it. Only after a while, his eyelashes trembled with a piece of snow.
Wan Lai was silent.
The siren screamed, the subway was coming and going, and the noise came like running water, but it bypassed two people.
Zhou Yizhi was nervous at first, but she suddenly calmed down a little when she heard the person's unsatisfactory breathing close at hand.
To confess this kind of thing, the hardest thing to say is the first sentence. After the first sentence is said, everything will be easier to handle.
She felt embarrassed, but could it be any better for her brother to look dumbfounded.
It is always two people who are ashamed together, then the shame will not go anywhere.
"Wait for me." She raised the bamboo stick.
But before she left, Xue Xi took the bamboo stick in her hand, walked away and threw it away.
He walked back and stood in front of her, as if taking two deep breaths.
Zhou Yizhi smiled, standing on tiptoe and rubbing the snowflakes that fell on his brother's shoulder with his fingertips.
The cold fingers touched the cold bridge of the nose, and it turned into strange hotness.
She asked: "I just confessed, did you hear that, don't you say something?"
Xue Xi looked at Zhou Yizhi for a long while before he found a bit of reason.
He asked in a dumb voice, "Isn't it Lin Jiayu?"
Zhou Yizhi's cheeks were hot, a little uncomfortable, and smiled: "No, why do you think that? Just because I asked him to come to our house to make up a few lessons?"
"You praised him." Xue Xi whispered: "You said he is excellent, you watch movies with him, you laugh with him, you still reluctantly send him to the door..."
Before he finished speaking, Xue Xi suddenly realized that his emotions were leaking too much, and he was almost complaining. He stopped the car in time and looked at Zhou Yizhi, but Zhou Yizhi smiled sweetly.
What to do, my brother is jealous.
She looked at Xue Xi with bright eyes: "But, have I ever said that in my heart, you are better, you are the best in the world. I have watched more movies with you, and when I see you, my heart When I laugh more, when I say goodbye to you, I feel more reluctant to leave?"
Every time Zhou Yizhi smiled and said a word, Xue Xi's breathing became heavier. He couldn't tell whether Zhou Yizhi's words were true or false, whether they were joking or making him play. He could only look away stiffly.
Zhou Yizhi pulled his hand out of his brother's down jacket pocket, and put his hands in his down jacket.
Xue Xi opened his arms subconsciously.
The girl got into his arms.
Zhou Yizhi embraced him and sighed slightly.
She leaned her head on his chest, hugged so tightly, tugging at his sweater, feeling his body temperature, a kind of solid warmth.
Enough of the hardship of the previous life, in this life she just wants to hug, accompany, and reunite with the person in front of her.
Any misunderstanding should not happen.
So she buried her face in his arms and explained seriously: "That is to test your reaction. If you don't like me, how can I confess it rashly?"
"Really?" Xue Xi couldn't help but asked: "What did you say at the door, your face was red."
"Brother, you remember so clearly." Zhou Yizhi's smile was about to overflow, and he said happily: "He told me that you were in the kitchen and looked at the door. He must like me very much."
"It seems that he was right." Zhou Yizhi raised his face and blinked at Xue Xi.
The thorn in Xue Xi's heart was pulled out so lightly by her. No matter what happened between them, as long as no outsiders participated, his heart would quietly fall.
His heart beats fast.
But now, I am not afraid of being heard by her.
But Zhou Yizhi, can she distinguish clearly? Does she like him, or feel guilty, or want to make compensation because of guilt?
He doesn't want compensation, he wants her to be happy and safe, and get what she wants.
He should tell her not to live with that boulder and not to apologize to him because of the things in the previous life. She owes him nothing. The final outcome is not good, it is just fate.
He should have told her this clearly.
But at this moment, she was in her arms, acting coquettishly towards him, quietly hugging in the blizzard city. These are all things he never thought of,
How difficult it is to get to this point in the last life to melt the ice and snow, and live in the same room well.
In this life, she finally installed him in her eyes, and finally laughed at him, and even said that he liked him, he was almost flattered, and even his breathing was relieved.
He really wanted to hold all of this tightly in his hands. Even if she did it only because of guilt.
Therefore, at this moment, he watched her rush into his arms with a smile on his mouth. What he wanted to say, suddenly he couldn't say it because of selfishness.
"This is what I was just talking about." Zhou Yizhi looked at him and asked expectantly: "Then you, you just said you want to talk to me. What do you want to talk to me?"
Xue Xi's voice was a little dumb, and said: "...actually nothing."
"What the are you going to say?! Don't say you can't go home!" Although Zhou Yizhi guessed the character of brother Yi, what he wanted to say to himself would not be a confession, but judging from his just cautious tone, it was definitely something big. .
She was curious in her heart and couldn't help but urged it again, and then moved the hands that held her brother's waist to his neck, hanging like this, looking at him with bright eyes.
The square dancing people around couldn't help but glance at them, but they looked as usual, thinking it was a young couple.
Zhou Yizhi licked his lips, feeling a little embarrassed, and then buried his head back in Xue Xi's arms.
She said with an stern voice, "Quickly, or I will be my brother and you will be my boyfriend by default."
Xue Xi asked: "Boyfriend?"
Zhou Yizhi nodded and said with a smile: "I have already confessed my wish, shouldn't you fall in love next? Although I don't know how to talk about love, but..."
Zhou Yizhi thought carefully about what this person had done to him in the previous life, and said to him: "But I will curb my bad temper and occasionally cut a few fruits that you like to eat on the plate, and give it to you in the evening. Covering a quilt or something, I will learn how to treat people nicely. It's not the same thing to always be taken care of by your brother, right?"
Zhou Yizhi felt that he had said this very intimately, but he didn't know why his brother didn't say a word. He looked at her with no hint of happiness in his expression.
Zhou Yizhi couldn't help asking: "Why, what's wrong, isn't it like this?"
"You... don't need to do this." Xue Xi said to her.
These sounds more like guilt than like.
It doesn't look like you anymore.
"Remembering." Xue Xi still said.
Zhou Yizhi looked up at him, as if he was trying his best to restrain and struggle, a moment later.
He calmed down, gently pushed away Zhou Yizhi's forehead with his fingers, stared into her eyes and said to her: "Seven days, you can think about it."
"Thinking about?" Zhou Yizhi was puzzled.
Xue Xi was silent and said: "I also remember the events of the previous life."
Zhou Yizhi's heart jumped, and as soon as he was about to speak, Xue Xi thought about it again: "If it is because of things in the previous life, and want to compensate me, it is actually unnecessary."
"Look, now you are alive and I am alive, you don't have anything to apologize to me. You don't have to feel that you don't like me because you feel sorry for me."
"There has never been a truth in the world that you must be rewarded for your sentiments. If every sentiment is required to be answered, then I am afraid that you will become a murderer and paranoia.
Xue Xi paused and said softly: "The Zhou family sponsored me, and you helped me when I was five years old. It's just that they offset each other. I think so."
Is he not selfish enough to kidnap her with guilt?
"I didn't--!" Zhou Yi's consciousness was about to refute.
But Xue Xi was very calm, rubbed her head again, and slowly said: "If I am worried that I have a memory in this life, I won't be by your side again, don't worry, such things won't happen. "
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