Chapter 319: Can't forget such a nightmare

Li Shengxia dodges Mo Nianchen, "Sorry, Mr. Mo, I'm going to live with my fiance tonight, we still don't go along, please please."
"What did you say?" Mo Nianchen looked at her coldly, as if to say that you have the ability to say it again.
She might have felt scared before with this look, but now she is not scared, "I said, I'm going to live with my fiancé, Mr. Mo, don't you even care about this kind of thing?"
"Have you forgotten everything I told you that day!?"
"What did you say that day?" Li Shengxia looked confused, "I can't remember. My fiance and I will leave first, Mr. Mo, goodbye."
Li Shengxia got into Tan Qing's car, "Tan Qing, drive quickly."
Tan Qing immediately started the engine and stepped on the accelerator...
Mo Nianchen watched the car disappear to the end, and his whole body was cold to the bottom.
Li Shengxia saw from the rearview mirror that Mo Nianchen had been standing there for a long time, and she was holding her bag nervously.
"In midsummer, you are too nervous." Tan Qing said.
"It's you, aren't you nervous? That guy just maxed out my card casually! All of my savings for so many years were squandered overnight by him! And he was obviously intentional."
"In midsummer, I think, he deliberately maxed out your card tonight, maybe to... go home with you."
Li Shengxia couldn't believe it, "isn't this explanation absurd?"
"It's ridiculous, but it's like what he would do."
"Why? Because we said it would end at twelve o'clock? In order to continue to delay time, he came up with this method?"
"I don't think he even drove the car over, so he should want you to take a walk with him."
"Walking? Accompany him? It takes at least two hours to walk from Oriental Cinema to Huayuan Street. I don't have that kind of leisure and leisure."
"In midsummer, maybe he really had something unspeakable back then that forced you to leave him..."
"Like what? For example, does he know he will die soon?"
"He said that?"
"Yeah, he asked me, if a person lets his beloved leave him because he is dying, will that person forgive him."
"If this is the case? Would you forgive?"
"Forgive? How is it possible!" Li Shengxia said: "Don't you think it's funny? This is the love in his heart? If what he said is true, I'm so glad he pushed me away!"
"Because I can’t share the adversity with me, and I don’t believe that I can help him in the same boat. It’s not my ideal partner. Even if it’s not because of that, one day we will be separated because of other things, any unexpected incident. It is possible that our relationship will come to an end. There is no respect, no trust, and no mutual dependence. What use is it?"
"..." Tan Qing was silent.
He can't deny that what she said has some truth. The way Mo Nianchen did hurt her too deeply. Regardless of the reason, you should never hurt others in the name of love.
If this happened to him, he might not be able to forgive the other party for distrusting him.
But can she let it go?
In the past five years, he watched her walk out of the haze a little bit, from the initial silence to the smile that gradually appeared after the birth of the child, she became strong and cheerful day by day.
She is trying to open the window in her heart and let the sun shine through the gap to illuminate her life.
She has been working hard like this all the time, although she also evaded, but she never said that she was tired, and she never thought about compromising with fate.
He admired her bravery, because she had strength that he did not.
It is precisely because even so many things have happened, she has never changed her heart, she is still warm and kind-hearted, he will gradually indulge himself in such a soft and strong.
As he said to her, it was precisely because of meeting her that his life changed drastically. He began to forgive himself, and he gradually wanted to take off the mask of Tan Qing and become his own Tan Tianyou.
Even if it's not perfect, even if it's not good enough, it's all his own...
She gave him the courage that made him want to get out of the haze.
However, Mo Nianchen's reappearance completely disrupted her life.
Tan Qing found that she was changing. Such a change was very subtle. He didn't know how to explain it, but he knew that she was changing, and she herself was aware of it and was afraid of such a change.
Maybe she was just afraid that she would repeat the same mistakes, so she resisted Mo Nianchen so fiercely.
She pretended to have amnesia, pretended to be indifferent, but she didn't know that the three words Mo Nianchen had occupied her time all this time.
Even with disgust, rejection, resistance, what she has to admit is that she can't turn a blind eye to that person.
Unless she is able to face Mo Nianchen one day, she will never have the kind of excitement, will not be angry for him, will not be stabbed by him, will not be affected by him, and completely treat him as a worthy person. Wu's character will never be nervous because of him again...
Otherwise, she will never be able to escape these three words, which will eventually imprison her life.
Li Shengxia was silent for a moment, and suddenly said, "Tan Qing, can you... be engaged to me as soon as possible?"
"What did you say?" Tan Qing suddenly stepped on the brake, as if she didn't understand it for a while.
"I want to get rid of him quickly, I think we are engaged, he should give up entanglement, after all, you are also one of the best in the L city, even if he is bold enough, he dare not do anything to me."
"..."
Tan Qing thought she would be very happy. After all, she had proposed it, but he didn't feel happy at all, because he didn't like Li Shengxia, who was not calm at all at this moment.
He didn't want such Li Shengxia to appear, and she didn't want her to change from one injury to another impulsively in order to get rid of someone. That is not redemption, it is just escape.
Tan Qing did not answer Li Shengxia, but asked her, "Shengxia, have you ever tried to forgive him?"
Tan Qing also told her before.
He said, Midsummer, can you try to forgive him.
Because you really forgive him, he will not affect you, so that he may slowly fade out of your world until finally disappear.
"I tried, of course I tried, I tried more than once, but I can't forgive him."
"Every time I dream back at midnight, I think of what he has done to me, what he said, from the best to the worst, I will be awakened by nightmares."
"He pushed me into when I thought I was in the clouds. No matter what I asked him to do, he never looked back at me. He even stabbed me with the most vicious language and knocked me out. His child... I will never forget such a nightmare."