Chapter 320: What's wrong with this?

"A lot of times, I really want to lose my memory, but I can't forget it. Those beautiful things have been forgotten, and have been forgotten all the time, even some of them can't be remembered at all, but the saddest things have never been forgotten. Falling, still whirling in my mind..."
"Tan Qing, tell me how to forget the person who gave you the most painful pain in the world? If there is such a method, I will definitely learn it."
"Some people say that in fact, human beings have very short memories of happy things, but they have always remembered the unfortunate things. All painful feelings are the hardest to forget. So the most unforgettable things are never happy things. It’s a painful thing."
"You're right." Tan Qing sighed softly.
Painful things are always hard to forget, and no amount of happiness can dilute the pain. If there has never been a painful thing in a relationship, it can only mean that there is no love at all.
Because it doesn't love, it doesn't hurt, so it's too easy to forget, and it's too easy to walk into the next embrace.
And love will eventually hurt, and the pain is hard to forget after all, so after loving someone so hard, it's like having died once. If you lose the ability to love, you can't go all out like the first time.
Because I have experienced the most painful feeling, I always feel grudge against the next person, instinctively afraid that I will get hurt again.
Therefore, after loving someone, you always want to find someone who loves yourself, because you don’t have to pay, you don’t need to feel distressed, you don’t need to be hurt anymore. Even if that person leaves, because you haven’t given and loved, you won’t feel that It hurts too much.
"But Midsummer, have you tried to face him?" Tan Qing continued.
"face?"
"Well, don't escape, don't use amnesia as an excuse, be your Li Shengxia and face that Mo Nianchen. If you can do it..."
"I can't do it." Li Shengxia interrupted Tan Qing. "When I return to Li Shengxia, I have to endure a lot of sorrow and pain, and I have to face the self-esteem and heart that were once torn apart. It’s too difficult to pick up pieces and put them together in the past..."
"If you can't even face him, how can you be happy? How can you live with another person?"
"I don't need to be happy, I don't need to be happy, I don't deserve such a thing, I just need to be stable, I need to get rid of him, and I need to find myself."
"You did this not to find yourself, but to lose yourself. Don't do such a thing for a person at any time. Why don't you need happiness, why can't you be happy, why shouldn't you be happy, you Why can't you afford it?"
Li Shengxia's face was pale when asked by Tan Qing, "I...I am not good anywhere. I am a single mother. No one wants a woman like me, and no one needs someone like me. I won't Taking care of others and messing up my life, I..."
"What's wrong with this?" Tan Qing interrupted Li Shengxia.
Li Shengxia looked at him in surprise.
His voice became gentle, "What's wrong with this? I can't take care of others, I need others to take care of me, with two lovely children, strong, optimistic, and self-reliant. I can't see anything bad?"
"At least, there is one person who has always felt that this is good and wants to take good care of this beauty."
"I never think you are unworthy of happiness, I never think you should be unhappy. A girl like you, kind and cute, has her own dreams, and will not cling to others easily. I don't know how good it is."
"..." Li Shengxia looked at Tan Qing in a daze. She had never thought that she was like this in his mind.
She always thought that in his mind, she must be a woman who always gets into trouble and needs him to clean up the mess.
Li Shengxia was inexplicably flustered.
"Tan Qing, I am not as good as you said. The reason why I am like that is entirely because I have nowhere to go."
"So, if there is a person who has everything you want, what you need, and you depend on him, you can have what you want. You don't have to be independent or run for life. Would you be willing to depend on him? "
"..."
"You don't want to." Tan Qing said: "So I said, it's not that no one around you can let you depend on, you just choose not to depend on, because you have your principles and persistence, because you are kind and pure , Don’t want to hurt others."
Li Shengxia was silent.
Tan Qing paused, and continued: "Because you know that you still have things in your heart that you can't let go of, and there is another person who has been in your heart, occupying your heart, and you can't make room for others."
"I..." Li Shengxia was speechless.
Tan Qing looked into her eyes and said seriously:
"In midsummer, I like you very much, not just the kind of like you think, I am willing to protect you for life, I can go through fire and water for you, I can give you everything you want, you know, but you never want it. Because , You haven’t driven him out yet, you don’t want to hurt me, I know."
Li Shengxia's eyes faintly expanded.
He continued, "So, I never force you, never force you to make any decisions, I think, as long as you are willing to be by my side, no matter what our relationship is, it doesn't matter. As long as you want to talk when you are sad When you can think of me, I’m very happy. Because I know that you are giving me opportunities, you are giving yourself opportunities, even if I can’t be your lover or your partner, at least I can be like your relatives ."
Speaking of the last, there were some tears in Tan Qing's eyes.
Obviously he was able to get the opportunity with great difficulty. She said that she was willing to be engaged to him, but he crushed the opportunity.
If she makes such a choice, only from one unhappy to another unhappy, then he would rather not.
Surely he will regret it. From the moment he finishes saying these words, he regrets it from this moment, but he knows that he has done nothing wrong, he has done nothing wrong...
"Tan Qing..." Li Shengxia's tears burst into her eyes, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! You are so good to me, but I said so much to you, I regard you as a tool for my escape, and let me down. it is good."
She blamed herself deeply for what she said just now to get engaged with him to escape Mo Nianchen.
Tan Qing did not speak, but turned around, stretched out her hand, and gently wiped her tears.
She didn't dodge, but her tears grew more and more, and she couldn't wipe them off.