Chapter 321: Ok, how long will i wait for you

"I have been trying and working hard. I want to forget him, but I can't forget him. I don't know what to do. I have been thinking that if I met you from the beginning, it would be fine. It’s good if the person I fell in love with is you at first. In this case, there won’t be so many painful things. In this case... everything will be different."
Tan Qing said softly: "Fool, what is there to live up to this kind of thing? I like it if I like it, and if I don't like it, I don't like it. I failed to meet you before you liked others. It's not your fault, it's me. You came too late. You don’t have to force yourself to accept me. I’m good to you because I want to be nice to you, not because I want you to accept me. You know?"
"Tan Qing, I watched a movie today. There is a line in the movie. The girl asked the boy why he should be so good to her, and the boy said, because he loves her. The girl asked, isn’t love between two affections called love? Boy? Say……"
"what?"
"It's hard to fall in love. It's more like you and me."
"..."
Li Shengxia’s tears continued to flow,
At that time, I thought, I fell in love with Mo Nianchen, I loved so wishful thinking, you were so good to me, but I have been betraying you, I know it’s difficult to fall in love. , I know that I may never meet in this life, I know, you deserve a better girl, but if you are willing to wait for me..."
"I want to try to respond to you. I want to try and see if we can be happy. Although it is difficult to fall in love, but you love me, at least I can try to like you."
"Actually, I like you. I have always liked you, otherwise I won't tell you so many things about me, but... but that kind of love is always a little bit worse... It can't reach love, it's good , But it's not love."
"I know, stop crying." Tan Qing rubbed her head, "Fool, I didn't have to ask you to respond to me. I never expected that we would love each other, as long as you let me continue to love you. Now. Does it matter if it is love?"
Li Shengxia desperately shook his head, "It’s not like this. One person should pay so much for another person. He shouldn’t have nothing. I should refuse you. I should refuse you earlier, refuse any help from you, refuse to tell you anything about it. My business, staying far away from you, don’t let you feel that you have any chance. But I couldn’t refuse you. It was I who restricted your life... I made you what you are now..."
"Where is this kind of thing should not be, midsummer, don't blame yourself anymore. You can't accept me, it's not your fault. You rejected me a long time ago, and I insisted on staying. All this I was willing. I said, you don’t have to accept me, you just have to let me continue to guard you like this. You know? Don’t cry."
"Tan Qing, don't you always be like this, OK? You scold me occasionally."
"You are so cute, how am I willing to scold you."
"..."
It is because you are like this, because you are so kind, you never give me any burden, you never give me any harm, all I can get from you are good, so I don't feel your importance.
Because the hurt is the most profound, but you are never willing to hurt me.
Tan Qing, you are so good, but I am too cheap. It's that I have to like Mo Nianchen, it's that I have to guard the bruises all over my body, I am always obsessed with the past, everything is what I deserve.
"Tan Qing, can you wait for me?"
"what?"
"Give me some time, let me be myself, let me try to like you."
"Don't force yourself."
"It's not reluctant, I want to like you, I know it may take a while, but let me try it, OK?"
"Is this your truth?"
"Ok."
"Well, how long will I wait for you." Tan Qing wiped her tears again, "You can stop crying now."
"Ok."
"In midsummer, I imagined a thousand scenes of confessing to you. I didn't expect that you would be the one who said this first. Although it is a bit regretful, I am very happy. You know what I want and are willing to try. Accepting this from me, no matter what the outcome is, I am very happy."
I should thank you Tan Qing, I'm so afraid I won't be able to do it in the end.
Even so, you will definitely say in the end, don't force yourself to midsummer, follow your own inner decision, midsummer.
I don't want to hurt you, Tan Qing... I really want to try to like you, please, let me like you.
please.
"So, where do you plan to live tonight?" Tan Qing adjusted his mood and started the engine again.
"I will go to your house to see Yi Chen and Lemon."
"it is good."
Tan family.
Tan Qing has always lived in a separate courtyard without living with his family. Apart from the housekeeper and a few necessary servants, there is no other person in the house.
It was midnight and the two children fell asleep early.
There is no difference between Xia Yichen's sleep and wake-up. He still looks like a small adult, which makes Li Shengxia feel ashamed. He is right. Compared with him, sometimes he is more like a child. Probably because he hadn't had a father since he was a child, Xia Yichen has always been very precocious. He has undertaken many things that he shouldn't have, but he has never complained.
Looking at Xia Lemon, she was holding a lot of snacks when she slept. Li Shengxia couldn't help but smile. I really don't know who she looks like. However, it is precisely because of her being so cute that these five years have not been so hard.
Li Shengxia looked at these two little guys and felt that everything was worth it for both of them.
Li Shengxia was sitting by the bed, dragging her chin, and muttering to herself, "Yi Chen, Lemon, if you could have a daddy, what would you like him to be?"
"Although you have never told me, in fact, you also long for your father, right?"
"When Mommy was young, my mother left me very early. I also longed for my mother and didn't dare to tell my father. However, I know this is incomplete and I will be expected to fill it up anyway. ."
"But, Mommy can't give you your father."
"Uncle Tan is very good, you also like him very much, he also likes you very much, if we become a family, you will be very happy too. Will you accept him?"
"Mummy..." Xia Yichen suddenly opened his eyes.
Li Shengxia was startled, "You...how did you wake up?"
"I haven't fallen asleep." Xia Yichen said, "Mommy, what about you, do you like Uncle Tan?"
This is the second time Li Shengxia asked him this question today, and he felt that he had to communicate with her seriously.
"..." Li Shengxia paused, "Why ask?"