Chapter 188: Force myself not to love him

Luo Xiangdong found a drugstore and parked the car on the side of the road. I stretched out my hand to release the seat belt and got out of the car. Luo Xiangdong said, "You stay in the car, isn't it because your stomach hurts to buy stomach medicine? Is there any other place? uncomfortable?"
I thought to myself, buy me some quick-acting heart-saving pills by the way.
"Stomach pain is uncomfortable enough, do you curse me for being uncomfortable elsewhere?" As soon as the words were spoken, it was already a provocative rhythm.
Luo Xiangdong got used to it. He glanced at me and got out of the car without saying anything else.
I was dying by the co-pilot alone, and it didn't take long for Luo Xiangdong to come out of the drugstore. When he got in the car, he handed me a box of medicine and a cup of warm milk tea.
I saw him holding the wallet in the other hand, the one I gave him.
He started to whisper again, what does Luo Xiangdong mean? While falling in love with Du Ting, he took care of me in every possible way, using the wallet I gave him.
Thinking about it, I frowned inadvertently.
Luo Xiangdong said: "The stomach hurts so much? How about going to the hospital."
In fact, stomach pain is less than one thousandth of distress.
I reached out to take the medicine box and the milk tea, and whispered back: "I want to ask for a leave." I lowered my eyes, tears rolling in my eyes.
Luo Xiangdong thought that I couldn't bear the stomachache, so he immediately said, "Is it another gastroenteritis?"
I really can't bear him being kind to me, hanging my head, I whispered back: "No, I guess I didn't sleep well last night, I got a cold."
Luo Xiangdong said, "Then I'll take you back, so you can rest for two days."
I just want to take an afternoon off. Luo Xiangdong is open and let me go for a few days.
When the car drove downstairs to the apartment, I unfastened my seat belt and got out of the car. Luo Xiangdong also got off and escorted me upstairs.
I said, "No, I can go up by myself."
Luo Xiangdong looked at my face and said, "Are you really okay? Just say, don't hold on, I'll take you to the hospital not far away."
I said, "It's okay. I'll go up first. You drive carefully."
After all, I turned and walked towards the door of the apartment.
Tears almost rushed to my eyes. I thought to myself, if Luo Xiangdong stopped me again, I really couldn't help telling the truth to him. I liked him and couldn't see him with Du Ting.
But Luo Xiangdong did not stop me. Maybe God knows what kind of person I am, even if Luo Xiangdong really stopped me, I wouldn't say it.
So just save it.
After returning to the apartment, I threw myself on the bed and finally returned to the place where I was alone. I could show unscrupulous expressions without restraint, or cry unscrupulously.
The thought of Du Ting and Luo Xiangdong kissing at noon made me feel like a knife.
My stomach hurts all the time. After taking two pills, I lay in bed to sleep. During this period, Xu Lu called and asked me how I was doing. I cried and said to her: "Luzi, I really can't stand it anymore. If this continues, I'm afraid I will go crazy."
Xu Lu said: "I told you a long time ago, for someone like Luo Xiangdong, if you have been with him for a long time, you will definitely like him. You don't believe it, how about you now?"
I gasped with red eyes, unable to refute.
Xu Lu sighed, and then said: "Zijin, you think so, Luo Xiangdong is a playboy, and his girlfriend is constantly changing like a dandy. Such a man, even if you are really together, but the result is not A point."
I choked up and replied: "I know, I won't be with him."
Xu Lu said: "Since you know it's not appropriate, don't put your feelings on him at all. You just meet him all day, and work him, that's why you end up like today. I advise you to get out as soon as possible. Don't really let it go any day, when you and Luo Xiangdong will be embarrassed."
I understand what Xu Lu said. But the old saying goes well, the bystanders are clear about the authorities, I just understand the truth, but the heart is out of control, what can I do?
Xu Lu came up with an idea for me. She said: "Try to divert your attention and don't always focus on Luo Xiangdong alone. It's not that I said you Zijin, Yiyang is so good to you, if he knows you and After Chen Wenhang was divided, he liked Luo Xiangdong again. How uncomfortable he is? Comparing his heart, is Yiyang not interesting enough for you? Even if you want to choose, you have to give Yiyang a chance, otherwise I won't be able to pass it."
Xu Lu mentioned Kuang Yiyang, and my heart moved, it was a heartwarming feeling.
After four years of university, everyone in the school knew that Kuang Yiyang liked me. When I was with Chen Wenhang before, he never tried to destroy him. He waited until Chen Wenhang's true shape was revealed before he came forward. When I needed support the most, he resolutely ignored the eyes of everyone and stood up to me.
To be honest, it is not unmoved.
However, only moved.
Sometimes I wonder, what is wrong with Kuang Yiyang? Why don't I like him? Maybe I have never regarded him as a grown man, only as a brother and a child.
He always followed me in front of and behind me, yelling from senior sisters, and I always regarded myself as my sister, thinking that I should take care of him, but I shouldn't love him.
Xu Lu asked me to give Kuang Yiyang a chance. I said: "If we try to be together but fail, then even friends will not be able to do it."
Xu Lu said: "You always want to be friends, but Yiyang has always wanted to be your boyfriend. Have you considered his feelings?"
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I did not speak, Xu Lu said again: "And you always think that you are inappropriate, but in our opinion, you and Yi Yang are a match made in heaven. You and Luo Xiangdong are really incomparable. It’s not all the same. You just believe me. If you can try to spread your feelings to Yiyang, love will be cultivated over time."
I am now in a period of extremely unstable stance, and a little bit of disturbance from the outside world is a huge inducement that can affect my judgment.
When Xu Lu saw me hesitating, she gave a strong dose and said: "I didn't let you agree to fall in love with Yiyang right away, but you should at least give him a chance, try to accept him, and don't always reject him. We all felt uncomfortable looking at the appearance thousands of miles away."
I said: "How can I reject him thousands of miles away?"
Xu Lu replied: "Every time Yiyang came to see you in the city, how many times did you bring me out? The three-person gathering has made it clear that you don’t want to live with him in a two-person world, and you don’t even want to give him a chance. he."
"Zijin, you know, Yiyang has bypassed your side many times and came to me first. Do you think he is better with me? No, he is afraid to see you alone, you will think He is putting pressure on you, so he is willing to go to you with me. He has done this, you should be softened even if you are a stone heart?"
Xu Lu is too good at poking people's hearts. I was blown down by the tears she said. I really felt that I was wicked and broke the heart of a good person.
Finally, Xu Lu said: "You are like a mirror in your heart, it is impossible to be like Luo Xiangdong, so instead of putting your feelings on someone who is destined to be impossible, you might as well leave Yiyang a chance. Then you try , You may find that the person who really suits you is Yiyang. Taking a step back, even if you and Yiyang are not suitable, after all you have tried, you can also distract some of your attention from Luo Xiangdong. Kill two birds with one stone."
Xu Lu persuaded me for a long time. In the end, it was better to say that I gave up instead of being persuaded by her.
It was too sad to like Luo Xiangdong, so I flinched and didn't want to be sad anymore.
"Okay, I listen to you."
Xu Lu said: "Then Yiyang comes back this weekend, I won't be with you two, you can figure it out."
I hummed, talked for a while and then hung up.
Before long, Kuang Yiyang called again. I guess Xu Lu said something to him, so he said: "Senior sister, you are sick. Are you better now?"
I responded: "It's much better."
Kuang Yiyang said: "If the night is not good, you must go to the doctor. Don't stand up at home, you will get sick."
I said, "Okay, I know."
Kuang Yiyang heard that I was in low spirits, and quickly said: "Senior sister, then I won't disturb you to rest, you go to sleep."
I suddenly thought of what Xu Lu said to me. In fact, Kuang Yiyang looked like a big boy who hadn't grown up, but he knew everything in his heart. Many times he was cautiously afraid to disturb me, afraid that I was unhappy, and I was always pretending to be confused.
Secretly sigh, starting from today, I really shouldn’t enjoy the warmth that Kuang Yiyang brings to me, while deliberately paralyzing myself, ignoring his love for me, and just want to be a normal one with him. friend.
When he was about to hang up, I said, "Yiyang."
Kuang Yiyang immediately said: "Well, senior sister, I'm listening, what's the matter?"
I said, "Are you free this weekend?"
"Yes, what do you want to do, senior sister?"
I said, "Didn't you always say that Charlotte's troubles are very good? Is it still in the cinema now?"
Kuang Yiyang replied: "Yes, my classmate went to see one yesterday, saying that the filming was still very high."
I said: "Then you come over to my side this weekend, come with me to see one, I haven't watched it before."
Kuang Yiyang was so happy that he quickly replied: "Okay, I want to watch it again."
Listening to his happy voice, I tried to curl my lips, thinking that he was happy.
After chatting with Kuang Yiyang for a few minutes, he took the initiative to hang up. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. When I came back, I saw the zombie doll pressed against the pillow, half-faced.
I walked over, took the doll out, opened the bottom drawer of the bedside table, and put it in.
Xu Lu is right. I have been in contact with Luo Xiangdong too much, and they all say that they are in love over time. This is the reason.
Two people who like each other are far apart, and there is a day when they don't love each other, let alone Luo Xiangdong and I don't like each other at all.
Just after 7:30 in the evening, my cell phone rang again, this time it was from Luo Xiangdong. Baidu Sao Suo#>Pen>Ge—With love and time
I hesitated for five seconds, then I was connected, with a ‘hello’.
Luo Xiangdong asked: "Is it better?"
I hummed, then said, "It's much better."
Luo Xiangdong said: "Why are you still wilting when you are so much better? Have you eaten? Do you want to come out? I invite you to dinner."
My heart felt painful and uncomfortable, and I resisted the soreness that came up in the bursts, and replied aloud, "No, I will go out with friends to eat at night."
Luo Xiangdong said: "That's okay. Go and eat. I'm just worried that your dinner will be missed."
His unintentional worry made my whole heart hurt.