Chapter 356: Thank you for giving me an empty joy

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That kind of knowing he was lying to me, but I would rather open my heart and ask him again under the banner of giving him a chance, what can I get?
It was just another stab in the heart.
It's true, anyway, this heart is already riddled with holes, so I don't care about another one or two.
Holding the phone, I looked out the window dreamily, and said softly, "Ji Guanxin, is the scenery on your side beautiful now?"
Ji Guanxin said: "I don't have much time to go out to see, I stay in hospitals and hotels every day. Why? Do you want to come over?"
I thought a conversation that knew the result would not poke my tear ducts. But when Ji Guanxin lied nonchalantly, I still felt heartbroken.
"I'm not going anymore, just ask casually. I thought the cherry blossoms on your side should be very pleasing to the eye." Open your eyes, because only then can tears be enough to blur your vision.
Ji Guanxin gave a subconscious question, I didn't answer, nor did he answer.
Silence... is the best explanation. I wish that Ji Guanxin would give me something to say right away, just as he has always been a clever tongue, able to turn black into white, and dead to live.
Holding the phone, I don’t know how long it has been, Ji Guanxin just asked tentatively: "What did you see?"
I reached out and wiped the tears in front of me. Because of my grievance, I choked up and said, "Ji Guanxin, are you interesting? Are you going to Canada to see your second sister-in-law to give birth or go to Japan to see the cherry blossoms with Zhou Mengyi, don't you know it?"
I was so angry that I wanted to yell at him, but found that his voice was full of grievances.
The driver in the front seat looked at my face in the rearview mirror, and I didn't care to be ashamed. The only thing in my head was the facts in the photos.
Ji Guanxin had been away for more than half a month. He said that he would be back in three or five days, but in three days and three days. I believe him so much, but he hurts my heart so much.
I said, "If you really can’t let go of her and want to find her, you can tell me, I’m not the kind of prudent person, what are you doing now? Do you go to private meetings abroad with me behind? Can't you get out of bed if you are sick? Why would she be alive immediately after you are together?"
Ji Guanxin quickly said: "Zijin, it's not what you think, don't cry, listen to me explain to you."
I held the phone, held back the tears, and said in a puff: "I will give you a chance to explain, you said."
Ji Guanxin said: "I'm really in Canada, but I went to Japan halfway, Zhou Mengyi also came to Canada to see my second wife, so..."
"So you two went to Japan to see Sakura and visit the library? Didn't you say that you can't walk away with your second wife in the hospital? Which one of your words is true and which is false? Why can't I be at all right now? Believe you?"
Ji Guanxin paused for a moment, then whispered: "Don't you believe me?"
I said, "How do you make me believe you?"
I am the one who sees the photo now. If Ji Guanxin turns around and kidnap me with his new appointment, I am afraid I will be even more disappointed.
What I wanted was a reason that convinced me, so I gave him one last chance: "What are you doing in Japan?"
Ji Guanxin was obviously silent, although he said aloud after five seconds: "Go to see a friend, a friend you must see."
When you can't find a decent excuse...
In fact, there are tens of thousands of ways to make a person sad, and it takes years and months to make one person lose trust in another person, and it cannot be accomplished overnight.
If Ji Guanxin had never lied to me, then I would not be as sure as I am now, he was lying.
Even if I don't use the sixth sense of a woman, I can only guess from Ji Guanxin's answer and his obvious pause, as long as I am not a fool.
The expected ending still made me feel ashamed.
I suppressed the urge to burst into tears for a moment, secretly adjusted my breathing, and then said to Ji Guanxin, "Okay."
Ji Guanxin asked: "What does it mean to be good?"
I held the mobile phone in one hand, and clenched my fist in the other, gritted my teeth and replied: "Since you are so busy abroad, you don't have to take the time to call me every day. I have a good life alone. Others are thinking about it."
After all, without waiting for Ji Guanxin to reply, I immediately hung up.
I don't know where to swing my eyes, I hold my mouth, and my facial features are drawn together on one face. Only aggrieved can interpret it.
The driver took out the tissue and handed it to me, but I took it but couldn't even say the word ‘thank you’.
Ji Guanxin called me quickly. I didn't answer, so he kept calling and sent me a text message. I was annoyed, so I shut down the phone.
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What is the leak in the house and the night rain? What does misfortune never come singly? I thought that after going through all the hardships, it was all hard work, but after ninety-nine and eighty-one hardships, what the told me I was on the wrong path? Let me choose again?
I really hope that Ji Guanxin never appeared in Liangcheng, nor did he rescue me who was in dire straits at the time. I firmly believe that as long as it is not a matter of death, everything else is trivial.
Maybe he solved the problem that I couldn't do with just one finger, so I felt that I owed him great favor. But if he didn't show up at that time, I felt that even if he bleeds all the way, I would still survive.
He promised me too many beautiful things, crocheted too many dreams, he made me feel wishful thinking that he loves me so much, but in the end... I really responded to the sentence: thinking too much.
I was sitting in the back seat of the taxi, tears wet with several tissues. The driver didn't know how to persuade me, so he didn't say a word.
In my current state, I really can’t go to a travel agency. I want to find a place to hide, but I am shocked by the huge night city. Now I don’t even have a place to hide and people to talk to.
At first I have Chen Wenhang and Zhang Xinwei, then I have Kuang Yiyang and Xu Lu, and then I have Luo Xiangdong. When I lost everyone, Ji Guanxin brought me back, and now he is no longer in Night City. Who should I go to?
After a long time, I was crazy about buying a house, no matter where I go around the world, as long as I like a house, I will buy it. Maybe it was the illness that fell from this time, crying tired, and want to find a place to hide, and that place welcomes me at any time.
Seeing that you can go to the travel agency just around the corner at the crossroads ahead, I mumbled to the driver and said, "Don't go to the sun, take me to find a reliable housing agency."
The driver looked at me in the rearview mirror without exception, the speed of the car slowed down, and he asked aloud, "Which house do you want to rent?"
I said, "Just around the city."
He said: "Then I will send you to Hanzheng. The real estate agents over there are all dealing in the city center and within the first ring road. Other families may not have such good houses in their hands."
I responded and the driver turned and left.
I wanted to take some time to find a house, but now this is a top priority and imminent. When I arrived at the door of the Hanzheng Housing Agency, I took out my sunglasses and put on my sunglasses, and then I got off the car with the money.
From the outside facade, you can see the compelling style of this agency, with three floors above and below, the best location and the best decoration. As soon as I stepped in with my front foot, someone in a suit and tie came to greet me.
I went to a separate reception room with him, and asked about the requirements. It was very simple. I live alone, 40 square meters is enough, as long as the location is convenient.
The agent introduced me to four places nearby. I asked about the price. The most cost-effective one is to deposit one for three, 30,000 yuan a month. The money in my card is enough to rent here, so I decided on the same day.
Because I didn't dare to go back to Xuri's apartment alone, I took the agent and went back with me. Going upstairs by the elevator, I was always worried, for fear that the dead mouse would still be there.
With a ‘ding’, the elevator door opened, and the white walls were spotless, and the smell of fresh paint wafted in the air. This place has been repainted, and I took a careful look into the corridor again. The doorway was very clean and the dead mice were cleared away.
When I came back to Night City this time, I didn't bring much luggage. There were only two suitcases in total, and the other things were put in two big bags. The agent helped me take half, and I moved into the new apartment that same day.
After changing two residences in a row for more than a month, I was lying on an unfamiliar bed, staring at the unfamiliar ceiling, with the illusion of being abandoned by the whole world.
Did not go to work today for no reason, I was going to call Xu Yifan, just to tell him I found a new place to live.
As soon as I turned on the phone, many missed calls and unread messages popped up on the screen. This is good for me as a person, as long as I don't want to see things, I don't even look at them.
So I ignored the red numbers on the green app and called Xu Yifan.
Hearing that I had moved, Xu Yifan asked in surprise, "When did it happen?"
I said: "Today."
Xu Yifan said: "I called you yesterday and shut down the phone. Did I really almost call the police? Are you okay?"
I said: "If you want to say it's okay, it's telling nonsense with your eyes open... I'm broken in love.
Speaking of this, I held my mouth uncontrollably, tears floating in my eyes.
As expected, Xu Yifan advised me: "Don't be uncomfortable with the girl, don't care about the eternity, as long as you have it."
I cried and said, "But you are not the one who is sad..."
Xu Yifan said: "I know I say nothing right now, because no matter how much I say, standing and talking will not hurt your back. But think about it, what hurt you to death before, do you still cry now when you think about it? Will it hurt to toss and turn to death and alive?"
I couldn't help but think of Zhang Xinwei and Chen Wenhang. I used to shed tears on them. But now I think about it, a pair of unfamiliar white-eyed wolves, talking to them all seemed to lower my grade, so why bother to remember.
Thinking of this, I felt a little more balanced.
Xu Yifan would especially persuade people. He told me some great principles, and these great principles are not empty.
As he said: "At our age, we have long understood that no one is necessarily in whose life. We take everyone who comes to me seriously, hoping that he can accompany me through the whole life, but in case he leaves halfway. , We also want to thank him for the empty joy he once gifted."
Kong Huanxi...This word is really the best vocabulary to interpret joy and sorrow.