Chapter 1182: 1184 He regrets as much despair

Qin Shu looked up at the man, knowing that he was jealous, but she really had to go, if she didn't go to Chaoyan, she might be gone.
Why treat him so well?
Actually she is not good.
When he was a kid, he fell down from the mountain and accidentally hit him.
At that time, she couldn't see Zhaoyan's eyes, and she felt that he was very pitiful.
When I was young, I was sympathetic, and when I saw him unhappy, I wanted to make him happy.
Friendship is slowly established when she comes back and forth. Seeing him gradually become angry, he will walk out of the pavilion, laugh, and say a few more words a day. That is a sense of accomplishment and sincere joy. .
So, now let her give up looking for Chao Yan, who can do it?
She looked at the man, "Zhaoyan is my friend, I can't care about his life or death."
Fu Tingyu knew that she would say this. More than ten years ago, when she was so young, why did she provoke so many men?
"You have so many friends, can you control it? When will you control me?"
Feng Jiuxiao and Ling'er looked at each other with helplessness, neither of them was wrong.
One as a man. Who suffers from his wife always worrying about other men?
As a man, Feng Jiuxiao can best understand that if Ling'er always put his mind on others, he would also be crazy.
Although the relationship between the two is not before, they can't stand other men to attract Ling'er's attention and eyes.
Feng Jiuxiao and Ling'er knew that at this time they couldn't say anything, even if they spoil their daughter again.
The two turned and left tacitly.
Xiaojiu ran in from the outside, and happened to meet Ling'er and Feng Jiuxiao. He stepped forward and grabbed the hands of the two people and asked, "Grandpa and grandma, did mom get up?"
Ling'er took Xiao Jiu's hand and walked outside, saying, "Your mother just got up and has something to say with your father. Let's go out and wait."
"Oh, isn't my mother in a bad mood?" Xiaojiu came here today just to take Qin Shu out for a stroll.
Ling'er heard the sound and nodded: "Well, but your mother will organize it by herself."
In the room, only Qin Shu and Fu Tingyu were left.
Fu Tingyu is really jealous. If it weren't for her distress and crying because of guilt, he might be even hotter.
Qin Shu raised his eyes to look at the man, and saw that his eyes were downcast and he didn't speak, his precious and clear face was full of words that I was jealous, and I was not happy.
She stepped forward, leaned into the man's arms, stretched out her arms around his thin waist, as if to appease his unhappy emotions.
Fu Tingyu looked down at the person in his arms, showing that it was good, but he still couldn't help being jealous.
How many men are there around her? All of them are excellent, and all of them are eyeing her.
Nima, who has a husband and son, is still staring.
Fu Tingyu couldn't help but explode in his heart.
Seeing the girl holding himself and not speaking, he spoke first: "I just wanted to ask, if I find it? Even if he sees you, what do you plan to do? Stay with him?"
This is what he wants to know. Before Junli had an accident, she ran over regardless of her stomach.
He endured it.
Now there is another face, and next time, in case of coldness, Hua is speechless, Qin Feng and the others will do the same.
Is she going to find one by one, to accompany?
"When Chaoyan was a child, he was unloved. His family and servants regarded him as an unknown person. He hadn't had a friend since he was a child, and no one wanted to play with him. He was born and his mother died. No, I said I would accompany him on his birthday, but I didn’t do it. He never expected anyone, nor did he expect anything, but that time, he said that he was very looking forward to his birthday. Accompany me on my first birthday. I can’t imagine him sitting in the cold pavilion, waiting, one day, two days, three days... that kind of waiting, to disappointment... despair, is an uncomfortable process."
"He can't see his eyes. He was sent to the abandoned manor so far by his family to fend for himself. He sits in the pavilion every day, except to eat on time, and the rest of the time is waiting to die. His world is dark and cold, and he says he will not survive eighteen. Years old, I said he could live a hundred years old and would help him cross the eighteen-year-old threshold together, but I didn’t do it either. I can’t imagine waiting for death on one side until I have the idea of ​​living, insisting After so long, it was discovered that the person who kept him insisting was no longer there. How did he survive when he was eighteen? I heard that that year, he used Zhaoyan as the code name to become the first person on the killer list in January."
"I promised him to go to an earth-shattering thing together to make life more meaningful and pursue, but I still didn't do it, because I made an unreliable remark. He created the Chisha Organization by himself and both hands. ."
"The reason why he was a killer was because of one sentence from her, one sentence that didn't pass through the brain. If I didn't say this sentence at the beginning, there would be no Red Sand Organization, so things would be different. "
"He originally had nothing to do with me. Maybe he didn't have me. In addition to being unable to see the light, he won't live to be eighteen years old, and he won't be dragged out of by me like he is now, so that he can see hope while pushing him personally. hell."
Qin Shu finally lost control of his emotions when he said that, and his tone became a little heavier. It was all self-blame and guilt.
She raised her head to look at the man, her eyes were red and swollen: "It was I who broke into his world by mistake, and I made his world a mess. I also regret breaking into his world. Without me, he might die. , But it will definitely be better than it is now."
She lowered her head again, hugged the man tightly, like grabbing a piece of driftwood in a raging sea, and didn't let herself sink.
How disappointed and desperate Zhaoyan is, how much she feels guilty, blames herself, and feels distressed.
It suddenly occurred to her that when she was a child, she was very naughty. She thought she was a little clever and wanted to help her mother, but she always made trouble.
Want to help the master, but always make the master headache.
They spoiled her very much, although she was always amused, but she was really unhelpful.
She wanted to help Chaoyan out, but she did not help.
He smiled happily, but the pain was real.
Fu Tingyu was stunned. He didn't understand the face of the city, let alone his experience. He grew up with a golden spoon in his hand, and was raised by the stars. Everyone spoiled him.
If you stand from the perspective of a bystander, Chaoyan's experience is probably very miserable.
An age that was supposed to be taken care of by his family, but he was pushed into by his family. How far would he be injured before he even had the idea of ​​living?
From the beginning of the poisoning, he tried hard to live because the girl was by his side.
Without her, he had no idea of ​​living.
He and Chao Yan are different.
It gave hope and despair, which was a hundred times more painful than despair.
These are because of girls, which is why she is so guilty and unable to control her emotions.
He looked down at the girl, tightened his arms, and held her tightly.
Where can he care to be jealous now, but feel sorry for her and have to bear such unbearable self-blame and guilt.
"Boa, stop crying, okay? You want to find him, I will accompany you."
Fu Tingyu comforted those who were caught in their emotions and couldn't calm down.
After a long time, Qin Shu gradually calmed down in the man's low voice.
She still hugged the man's thin waist, her crying voice was hoarse, "Baby Yu, I'm sorry."
She knew that being a wife shouldn't have anything to do with other men, but she really couldn't leave them alone.
Friends who can live and die together are really rare.
It's just that there are some gratitude debts that I don't want to owe, and they are unclear.
"We are a husband and wife, why are you sorry? I know you don't have a relationship between men and women. I just can't control my temper. I promise not to be jealous in the future."
Fu Tingyu's strength is poor, which is clear to all readers.
However, being jealous is obvious to all.
Concentration and being jealous are actually equal, and you must be jealous.
Fu Tingyu also blamed herself a little, knowing that the girl had already blamed herself and felt guilty about Zhaoyan's affairs, she lost her temper.
Qin Shu was able to control his emotions, now it is useless to say more, crying is even more useless, finding the beautiful face is the most important thing.
When the two were planning to pack their luggage and go to the grassland again, Qin Shu received a text message.
[Yin Shi: My master has been found, don't disturb. 】
After reading the content of the information, the heart that has been holding finally landed.
She was also relieved, but fortunately she found it.
"Baby Yu, Zhaoyan found it." She yelled to the man happily.
Just seeing the last two words, the smile that had just started to lift up, he drew away again.
Don't disturb.
Hearing the words, Fu Tingyu walked over and looked at the text message on the phone screen.
When Zhaoyan found him, he was relieved. Seeing the last two words, he turned his head to look at the girl, "Are you planning to go?"
Qin Shu looked up at the man, thought for a while, and directly dialed Yin Shi's mobile phone number.
After she was connected, she asked a little eagerly: "How is Zhaoyan now?"
Yin Shi answered cold-bloodedly: "These have nothing to do with Miss Qin."
Qin Shu didn't worry about Yin Shi's cold words: "You let me talk to him, I have remembered the past."
"Miss Qin, my master has finally made up his mind not to see you and forget you. Why do you bother my master? Do you think the injury is not deep enough, do you come and stabbing a few more? Unless Miss Qin is willing to marry my master, otherwise, don’t Come to disturb my master."
Yin Shi hung up after speaking.
Qin Shu was stunned for a while, then called and found that he had been blocked.
Zhaoyan pulled her black.
Maybe Yin Shi was right, she really shouldn't bother Chao Yan.
It is impossible for her to marry Chaoyan.
Even if she is unmarried, marrying him in order to make up for her fault is a kind of harm to him.
Qin Shu was silent for a long time, Fu Tingyu stood by the side, did not ask or urge, but waited patiently.
After a while, Qin Shu seemed to have made some kind of decision, raised his head to look at the man, and smiled at him: "I'm not going to look for him anymore, as long as he lives well."
Fu Tingyu stretched out his arms and hugged her into his arms. Knowing that she was not feeling well at this time, he replied, "Okay, I listen to you."
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Chao Yan Monologue
In the days when the baby was with me, I found that I became more and more dependent on her, just like a fish can’t do without water and everything can’t do without sunshine.
I am really afraid of losing her company one day. Will I still be like this, looking forward to the sun rising and setting, she will suddenly appear next to me.
Listening to her, listening to her laughter like a silver bell.
I have countless thoughts of possessing her, wanting to take her to a place where no one knows them, and take it for myself.
I accompany myself every day, only talking to myself, and only smiling at myself.
But when I thought of her innocent smile, I dismissed the idea again.
Ever since she disappeared from my world, I have always thought that I should take her away, leave here, and go to a paradise where only she and him are there.
But she likes freedom, family and friends.
While jealous of those people, he was also afraid.
I'm afraid she is upset, afraid that she hates herself like this.
Later, I finally tried to become what she liked and tried to get close to her.
Hide all the bad aspects of yourself and only give her the good ones.
I found that she likes this kind of self more.
But a voice in my heart kept yelling, taking her away to a place no one knew, so that she would belong to you alone.
At this time, another voice will come out, saying that she likes you like this and can't do things that make her hate.
In the end, I became a human being unlike a human, and a ghost is not like a ghost, making you sick.
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The Qin Shu family of three stayed in Feng Yiguo for another three days. Three days later, the family was going back to Jiangcheng.
Feng Jiuxiao was not willing to let Ling'er go, but he couldn't keep it.
At the crowded airport, he hugged the person in his arms and said to her ear: "I will go to see you and the baby when I have time. I didn't fulfill my husband's responsibility when you gave birth to Xiaobao." , Did not fulfill his father’s responsibilities. So, this time, I will not miss it."
Ling'er sighed secretly: "You are also very busy. Come here when you have time. Don't worry if you have no time."
Feng Jiuxiao asked, "Are you not welcome me?"
Ling'er said sternly, "If I don't let you come, you won't come?"
"I'll see you and the baby." Feng Jiuxiao finished speaking, before Ling'er was not paying attention, bowed his head to kiss her.
Ling'er subconsciously wanted to push him away, but was held tightly by him, and even the chin was held by the slender fingers, making her unable to escape.
Standing not far away, Qin Shu watched her parents kiss goodbye. She really didn't expect a master like an immortal to become a husband and a father.
Sure enough, all men are the same.
After returning to Jiangcheng
Ling'er didn't want to live in Shengyuan. She bought a small villa by herself and lived by herself with a maid to take care of, so she didn't need to worry about her children.
Xiaojiu and Nannan go to school normally.
Fu Tingyan’s game company also opened today, and started to make publicity a month in advance. Even if the brother of the fourth master of Jiangcheng does not make publicity, he pays attention to a lot of media and various people.
Fu Tingyu and Qin Shu will definitely come to cut the ribbon as their brothers and sisters.
Jiang Yu also brought Ye Xue to participate, and they had lived together for more than a month. The two did not quarrel because they exposed some shortcomings after getting along. Instead, they were like glue.
As a single dog, Fu Tingyan, although he is quite happy for his brother to embrace the beauty, he is only showing affection in front of him. Is this really appropriate?