Chapter 90: Wandering for too long

Late past?
Yesterday all kinds of death, such as yesterday, all kinds of today are born today.
Everyone knows that time is gone, and the truth is that the past is like smoke.
How many people can really be so open-minded?
Han Feiyan thought she could do it, but when she watched Liu Yanbo appear at Gao Yuanqiu's wedding yesterday, she watched him be embarrassed by Yin Hanruo and walked onto the ceremonial bench, knocking down the group of suits in the most powerful way Time.
She knew that she couldn't do that open-mindedness.
In the sea market, even in this world, Han Feiyan thinks that no one knows Liu Yanbo better than her, and no one has poured more emotions on him than she did.
Once made unreserved contributions, but in exchange for the bitter fruits of today and today.
Liu Yanbo, why are you doing this to me?
Han Feiyan thought for a night, but still did not figure it out.
She has always had feelings for him, and losing to reality does not mean not loving.
Because there is still love, she was so excited that she could not control herself so much that she ignored the fact of breaking up.
Father, like son.
Fortunately, the milk tea shop owner heard a small part of Han Feiyan's words.
He is a wise man, and can guess the current relationship between the man and the woman from this part of the words.
He was still a kind man, and he couldn't bear to watch a pair of formerly intimate lovers make such an uncomfortable relationship and make a foreign appearance.
So, he used his best milk tea as a method of mediation.
The late past
This is a good name.
There are thousands of right and wrong in the past, all have died.
You do n’t have to let go, but you do n’t have to be too persistent?
After the milk tea shop owner put down the milk tea and left, Han Feiyan also calmed down, staring at Liu Yanbo staring.
Liu Yanbo mixed the milk tea and took a sip.
Milk tea has the bitterness of coffee, but it is more mellow and silky than milk. The taste is as memorable as its name.
Liu Yanbo put down the milk tea cup and said to Han Feiyan: "It's delicious, don't you try it?"
Han Feiyan took a deep look at Liu Yanbo, stirring his milk tea, and gently said, "You have heard so much, right? I am looking for other men just for a better life, for money."
"You can call me a gold worship girl, I will not refute." Han Feiyan sipped milk tea and continued: "I will also say that you are selfish, because this is also true."
Is Liu Yanbo selfish?
He is really selfish. In order to live a life of ordinary life and ignore the feelings of a loved one, what is not selfishness?
Liu Yanbo has always considered the reasons for the split between the two after he broke up with Han Feiyan, but he did not think about it in this respect.
After saying this by Han Feiyan, Liu Yanbo discovered that in the past three years, he had always regarded Han Feiyan as a simple girl who had just graduated from that university, instead of looking squarely at her growth.
How many people can feel like a rock in this flower world?
Love also needs to be given to each other, and the guarantee of material life is also one of the expressions.
Everyone is a mortal. Platonic love is really not as good as bread and milk.
"I'm sorry." Liu Yanbo lowered his head, only to feel a bitter taste in his heart.
He realized his mistake, but he was late.
Han Feiyan looked at Liu Yanbo, his excitement gradually calmed down, and slowly said: "I said these are not to make you apologize. In my heart, you are wrong, but I also know that I made bigger mistakes. I do n’t deserve to be sorry.

After a long breath, Han Feiyan then asked: "I asked you out just to know one thing, why can you do this for Yin Hanruo? Or have you never loved me?"
She was really jealous.
When Liu Yanbo and Yin Hanruo held hands at Gao Yuanqiu's wedding;
When Yin Hanruo beckoned, Liu Yanbo could offend the two giants of Haishi for her.
Han Feiyan's inner monologue at that moment is only left—why?
She desperately wants to know this answer.
If it was n’t too sudden, she planned to find him to the side and ask a question on the spot.
The relationship between the two was not only Liu Yanbo's first love, but also her first love.
'S reason for separation was enough, but she couldn't relieve her.
No matter men or women, jealousy is always meaningless and always runs counter to reality.
Can Liu Yanbo give Han Feiyan an answer that satisfies her?
Looked down for a long while, Liu Yanbo lit a cigarette, and looked away from the window, and said: "Probably because of the marriage certificate! It makes me feel that I finally have a home."
This is the most reasonable explanation he can think of.
For many years, Liu Yanbo has never experienced the feeling of being home again. He really wants to own a home.
Many people often say: In this age where marriage and divorce are as frequent as eating and sleeping, the marriage certificate is just an optional paper.
This piece of paper may not be so important to many people, but it is very meaningful to Liu Yanbo, because no matter how many true and false elements there are, at least in the situation, he has a home after all, this Inexplicably mentally gave him a sense of stability.
Yes.
He lacked a sense of security, to a ridiculous degree.
Even if this marriage is just a transaction, without any emotional basis at all, he will still struggle like a moth to fight the fire.
In fact, on the day Liu Yanbo broke up with Han Feiyan, any woman who came to him for any reason, as long as he was married, would not refuse.
This is like a drowning swimmer who knows that he is helpless, but still wants to grab anything that can be obtained, even if it is only duckweed.
Liu Yanbo chose Yin Hanruo not because of how beautiful she is or because of how good she is, but because she appeared at the right time.
Han Feiyan stared at Liu Yanbo intently and asked, "That marriage certificate is really that important to you?"
Liu Yanbo nodded and said, "It's really important. Otherwise, I wouldn't always mention marriage with you after getting approval from your parents, and mentioning that you are bothersome."
Han Feiyan wondered: "Why?"
At the beginning, when the two were communicating for almost a year, Han Feiyan led Liu Yanbo back to her hometown.
During that period, Liu Yanbo was recognized by the two Han family members, and the two old people also hoped that they would get married as soon as possible.
After returning to the sea market, Liu Yanbo bought a diamond ring and begged many times. Just ten days before the two broke up, he also mentioned the matter of getting married, but he was still fooled by Han Feiyan as usual.
To this day, Han Feiyan still can't understand why Liu Yanbo was so urgently hoping to get married immediately.
This is actually not to blame her.
Because her parents are alive, she never lacks the warmth of her family, so she naturally cannot understand the kind of cravings of a prodigal son for home like drug addicts.
Liu Yanbo had smoke in his mouth, swallowing clouds and spitting fog like a junkie, gazing aimlessly out the window, muttering: "Because I have been wandering for too long, too long."
Everyone in the world speaks of prodigal sons with little emotion, and even envy their unrestrained freedom.
This is a misunderstanding.
The prodigal sons who are truly wandering around the world may be because of rebellion and freshness at the beginning, or because of the yearning in their hearts, and more likely because of the helplessness of reality ...
No matter what the reason was, the world was changing, when the prodigal sons were on the hotel bed, the park bench, or even the grass in the wild ...
During these lonely nights in these non-warm places, the prodigal people will never have the pride of being drunk and drunk, or the poetic emotions of the sunset and the broken heart on the horizon ... the only thing left in their hearts is a desire--
May one of the ten thousand lights be lit for me.