Chapter 73: chapter 73

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"I thought you would never come to see me again."
The simple single sentence made Xiao He's head buzz, and then it seemed like he had opened a secret box that had been in the dust for a long time, and countless memories poured out.
Xiao He knew that this was the memory stored in Guangmin and found the key, so it rushed out. He was shocked to a certain extent and a little dizzy, but fortunately he remembered Li Liuyun by his side, for fear that Li Liuyun would take the opportunity to escape, Xiao He A dose of anesthetic was pushed at a critical moment, which made him collapse and lose consciousness.
After doing this, Xiao He's entire brain was completely invaded by those chaotic and complicated memories.
Xiao He... Xiao He, the first marshal of the empire, was not as unbearable as Xiao He imagined.
He did betray Fan Shen, but there were countless misunderstandings.
Fan Shen has a brother who is only one year older than him, and his name is very similar, named Fan Chen.
Unlike Fan Shen's meticulous training since childhood, Fan Chen has been weak since he was a child and almost never appeared in front of others. Few people have seen him.
It stands to reason that the same princes should not be treated like this.
But... the gap between them is so big that it is immeasurable.
The reason for this is that Fan Chen is weak and difficult to show up, but in fact there is something unspeakable in it.
Fan Shen's parents and wife are deeply affectionate and very affectionate.
But Fan Shen's father did something wrong, but it may not be regarded as his fault.
Fan Shen's mother is Xiao He's aunt, named Xiao Qing.
Xiao Qing has a twin sister named Xiao Xue.
The two look exactly the same, they are all overwhelmed, no one can tell when they urinate.
After growing up, the Xiao family chose the more stable and generous Xiao Qing when the royal family was married, instead of Xiao Xue.
However, Xiao Xue has never been reconciled. She admires Fan Qing's emperor's reputation and loves his heroic spirit. When Fan Qing was drunk, she wore Xiao Qing's clothes and slept with Fan Qing. together.
After the incident, she woke up, for fear of being accused of being accused, she ran away and hid the matter.
Fan Qing was so drunk at the time that he only thought about it once with his beloved wife.
Ten months later, when Xiao Qing was eight months pregnant, Xiao Xue actually gave birth to a child first.
At that time, Xiao Xue was already married as a woman, and no one thought much about it, except that Xiao Xue had descended from her husband.
At that time, Xiao Qing also visited her sister and looked at the baby in the swaddle. She only felt a sense of familiarity between her brows and eyes, but she didn't think much about it.
Until Xiao Qing gave birth, as the two children grew up, everyone inevitably found out.
Fan Shen's facial features are very much like his father, but Xiao Xue's son looks exactly like Fan Shen.
If Fan Shen's appearance followed his mother, it could be explained, after all, Xiao Qing and Xiao Xue are twin sisters.
But...Fan Shen is not like his mother, or, should I say, there is not even the slightest resemblance.
When the two children were one year old, they couldn't help it. Xiao Xue cried bitterly to explain the whole story, and Xiao Qing almost collapsed.
Xiao Xue's marriage broke down and she was confined at home, and Fan Qing apologized to his wife in every possible way when she learned about it, annoyed.
Xiao Qing was angry at her sister's betrayal, but the deal was done, and the children had already been born, she could not throw Fan Qing's blood outside.
So... Fan Chen regained his status as a prince, but he changed from a child of only one year and two months to more than two years old.
But as time passed, Xiao Qing couldn't let go of seeing the two children so similar.
Her beautiful marriage was ruined by her own sister, and she still couldn't get past this hurdle in her heart.
The same prince also has the right to inherit, Xiao Qing inevitably thinks more about it.
Without Xiao Qing doing anything, Fan Qing, who was conscious of guilt, took the initiative and imprisoned the bastard.
That's why Fan Chen is weak and unable to go out.
What kind of thoughts Fan Chen will have when he grew up under such circumstances is unknown.
Then there was a memory that belonged to Xiao He himself.
Xiao He, who had been trained as a family pillar since childhood, had an unhappy life.
He lives to win glory for the family, and he lives to continue to live for glory.
Joining the army, killing the enemy, and becoming a general were not what he wanted.
He just does it if the family needs it.
Walking like this step by step, Xiao He has not had a friend in his entire life for more than 20 years, and he regards loneliness as the normal life.
Until... he was appointed by the Great Emperor Fan Qing and became the teacher of the prince.
When I met Fan Shen just now, Xiao He was a little jealous.
This prince is also the pillar of the whole world, but his majesty did not force him to learn what to do to win something.
Unlike Xiao He's solitude, Fan Shen is as warm as the summer sun, which makes it difficult for people to ignore it.
Xiao He has no friends, but with such a student, he has unparalleled satisfaction.
The happiness that Fan Shen brought to him was something he hadn't enjoyed in the previous 27 years.
Fan Shen gave him the company that he hadn't even dared to think about in the previous twenty-seven years.
Having removed the burden and stopped chasing fame and fortune, Xiao He was by Fan Shen's side and experienced the real life.
For a long time, Xiao He is a person who is extremely lack of love. He regards Fan Shen as his student, his friend... but slowly he regards him as his only.
So when his old illness relapsed and he was very fragile, Fan Shen treated him very well, and he zoomed in to 100%.
The night is hazy, and sentiment arises.
In fact, it is not clear who is the first to take the initiative. It can only be said that the love is deep, naturally.
They had a relationship and it was out of control.
Fan deeply loves Xiao He, but Xiao He is not so.
The deeper the love, the stronger the love, which will not only make people happy and satisfied, but also give birth to anxiety and anxiety.
Xiao He was ten years older than Fan Shen. Fan Shen was only seventeen years old. He was still his student, but he... tempted him.
Will there be a solid relationship between a man and a man?
Not to mention, Fan Shen will still ascend the position of God in the future.
Is there a future between them?
These things that Fan Shen's age might not even think about, but Xiao He was tortured by them day and night.
Then Xiao He was scared.
He had the idea of ​​escaping, but he only showed a little bit, and Fan Shen would chase him back, capturing him with enthusiasm so hot that he couldn't wait to burn everything.
Xiao He was afraid, but in the end he was not afraid.
Since Fan Shen treated him like this, what else could he think of?
He loves Fan Shen, and he is bound to live his life.
If Fan Shen lost him...then he...then he...
Xiao He in the back didn't dare to think about it subconsciously, because he couldn't even estimate what he could do if that day came.
He only hoped that there would never be such a day.
But things backfired, the more scared and the more he wanted to avoid it, the more it rushed to his eyes.
Fan Shen was finally bored.
Fan Shen betrayed their feelings.
Fan Shen doesn't want him...
I watched the person I love holding another person, sweet words, each other, promise each other for life.
Xiao He only felt that the moments of blackness in front of him, his inability to see the way ahead, the direction of his direction, and the bitter taste were pains that he had never experienced under the fiercest monsters.
Since you are not destined to go to the end, why promise so much to him.
Since it was destined not to be with him, why didn't he let him leave in the first place...
Xiao He stood there dazedly, looking at the handsome boy, the sweet girl, watching them embracing like a painting, watching them sweetly as if they could dye the whole world.
He should leave, he should be sober, he should have realized it.
But... not reconciled.
Xiao He is not reconciled!
He does not have a friend, he has not experienced a trace of warmth, and he has regarded him as the most important person in his life.
But he... why do you treat him this way!
Xiao He's heart, how hot it used to be, how cold it is now, he couldn't believe it, couldn't accept it, and strode out and broke into their world.
Then... Xiao He saw the anxiety in Fan Shen's eyes.
disturbed? Why are you upset?
Xiao He looked at him quietly, and his words were as cold and quiet as usual: "Follow me, okay?"
"I didn't see anything, nothing happened, will you come back to me?"
"Fan Shen, I know you are joking with me, but this is not funny at all, let's go back, okay?"
Xiao He has never been so humble in his life.
But if Fan Shen is willing to come back, he really can ignore all this, care about what is happening in front of him, or even ask about it at all.
After all, Fan Shen is still young, he is easily impulsive at this age, he will tolerate him and forgive him, as long as he can return to him.
As long as they can be like before, as long as he still loves him, then... he is willing to say such words that almost give up dignity.
But... what Xiao He waited for was the cold and unfeeling young man.
"Xiao He, I'm tired. No matter how men can compare between men and women, you are very beautiful and beautiful, but you are a man, how can you compare to this tender girl like a flower?"
"Xiao He... it's okay, it's enough for me to be with you for so long."
"Originally, there was no future between us. Don’t you know everything? I want to understand now. I am really obsessed with you, but I just like your body. When I grow up, you will grow old. Now, what else will you have then?"
Word by word, word and sentence condemn the heart.
Xiao He stood there looking at him, with a familiar face, a familiar voice, and a familiar breath, but absolutely strange words.
Tired...enough...old...
Was it just like this between them?
Xiao He's heart almost stopped beating, but even if he was stepped in the mud, he still didn't want to believe it.
"Fan Shen...Are you me off? What am I doing badly, can you tell me? I can change...I can..."
"...I love you, Fan Shen...I love you..."
"Love?" The boy's icy words were as cold as icy ballast, "Don't tell a joke, you don't even deserve a strand of her hair!"
"I'm tired, tired of holding a man, you know, now I'm going to bed with you, I just feel extremely nauseous and disgusted!"
"Xiao He, stop wishful thinking, stay with me, are you worthy?"