Chapter 292: Pour down

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Lu Yan threw the lantern in his hand to the ground, grabbed Lin Jinrong's sleeve covering his face, gritted his teeth and said, "What do you want?"
Lin Jinrong struggled desperately, not telling him to look at her face, but Lu Yan tried desperately, as if he had a deep hatred with the sleeve; "You have a guilty conscience, don't you dare to look at me?"
Even though the power disparity was too great, Lin Jinrong still resolutely refused to give in. The sleeves were just lightly woven, how could it withstand this tearing, but three or two times... it split off with a "thorn". Both of them were startled. Lu Yan grasped a section of the sleeve in his hand and was a little dazed. Lin Jinrong was the first to react and turned to run. Lu Yan stopped her and hugged her and dragged her into the Tingxue Pavilion.
A flash of lightning flashed through the air, and large drops of rain fell, and the air was filled with a strong smell of soil. Lin Jinrong's face was wet. I don't know if it was rain or tears. She squeezed Lu Yan's hand madly, kicked him hard, and Lu Yan didn't say anything...gasping and hooping her to death.
A thunder blasted away, and the rain was like pouring, and it smashed down in an instant, and the world was vast. The wind was blowing in the rain and mist, and the clothes of the two were wet. Lin Jinrong could not match Lu Yan after all, and he was dragged back to Tingxue Pavilion.
Lu Yan threw himself on the door, ignoring the rain from his face... said in a dumb voice; "Let’s make it clear today!"
Half of Lin Jinrong's arms were exposed, and his wet clothes stuck to her body. She felt cold and sour all over her body, shaking uncontrollably into a ball, knocking his upper teeth and lowering them, unable to speak a word.
There was only a night light in the Tingxue Pavilion, the light was dim and deserted, but it was enough to show people clearly. Lu Yan leaned against the door and looked at Lin Jinrong tiredly. She frowned tightly and her face was as white as paper, her eyes fixed on toes, her hands alternately covering her chest, her waist and back were straight, and even her legs were stretched straight. The hair had already been half loose, and it was hanging down a few strands and pressed it wet on her face and neck, and the clothes were still dripping. Poor, hateful, and hateful.
Lu Yan only felt that his entire heart was filled with resentment and sorrow. He just wanted to vent it desperately and asked her loudly, why should she treat him like this? Why would trample on his true heart like this? She asked him to talk to her if he had anything, how did she treat him? Thinking of the worry and tension these days, he felt more and more like a joke. He stared desperately at Lin Jinrong, staring until his eyes were sore and his eyelids cramped, and he stubbornly refused to blink.
There was a mess in Lin Jinrong's mind. She knew that Lu Yan was staring at her, but she could not think of anything other than standing upright with a firm posture, let alone how to deal with it, so she waited for him in silence. Open up.
A window was not closed tightly, was blown open by the wind, and made a "slap" sound. Lin Jinrong jumped in surprise. The wind blew out the dim light. She had a cold war and she sneezed. .
Lu Yan let out a sigh of relief, moving his sore eyes; "Why?"
Lin Jinrong was blown by the cold wind and gradually calmed down. There are many reasons, but how do you tell her to answer? Tell him that she once lost Yuichi's child and might lose it again? She once drowned alone in the cold river? Tell him that once when she needed him the most, she couldn't see him from Shu? Tell him that she might die one day?
Tell him again, since she was born again, for more than half a year, she wandered between life and death in her dreams every day? Every time I think of him, it seems to be disturbed by a sharp knife? Countless times of self-denial, countless times of rebuilding confidence, but when the new life is about to begin, was pushed into the mud by the family? The saddest thing in life is this... knowing the end, and struggling with all his strength, he still watched himself fall.
She tried her best to obtain a life different from the previous life, but she never dared to forget that she was using what she knew to avoid the disasters and pains of this life if she did not work hard. , Is the bleak ending of the previous life. Mr. Shui asked her to think more about the good side of everything, and she also thought that when it comes to other things, other people are fine, but when it comes to him, she just can't go around that threshold.
She wanted to spend the past five years with him in a dull manner, when death or life had nothing to do with each other, but things still did not follow her expectations. There was still a break. Gu Xun was replaced by a purse, and Ning'er's death was replaced by an elixir. Anyway, it was not this or that. It was always going to pass before or afterwards, and it was impossible to avoid it.
"Why don't you speak?" Lu Yan pressed harder, since she would not even be perfunctory, he must ask for an answer today.
Lin Jinrong coughed softly and whispered; "Because I can't find anything to say. Unless you want to listen to lies." The wind and rain outside the window rang out, and she continued without hearing Lu Yan's voice. Heir, it is the responsibility that a wife should do. I have not fulfilled it. You can divorce me. I will never complain." At this point, she felt a lot easier.
Deathly silence. It seemed that even the sound of wind and rain disappeared in an instant, and even Lu Yan's breathing was so soft that he could not hear it.
For a long time, Lu Yanfang whispered; "Why? What did I do wrong?"
What did he do wrong? Lin Jinrong felt that he was dizzy, and said after a long time; "Not why."
Lu Yan suddenly broke out. He found Lin Jinrong in the dark with instinct and accurately. He clasped her shoulders, pressed his voice, and gritted his teeth. "It's you and I who have something to do not hide in your heart. I did it, why can’t you do it? Tell me clearly! Tell me clearly! Why are you doing this to me? Why? Where can I be sorry for you? I'm not good enough for you? What do you want? Do you want to do this? ?"
Lin Jinrong remained silent. At this point, she still couldn't say anything vicious.
Lu Yan's hands on her shoulders are getting tighter and tighter, his voice is as rough as sandpaper, with a certain madness; "If you don't want to say it, I will say it for you. You never had me in your heart. You. Unwilling to marry.................."
"Yes!" Isn't he going to buckle her head again? Lin Jinrong was forced to retreat by him, and she couldn't bear to see all of her vain, and simply yelled out, "I just got married so unwillingly! Look at what time I have been married in? Your family, there is none. A good thing! In addition to calculating, bullying, greedy and overbearing...selfishness, do you know thousands? Why do you want me to be your family's mother without complaint and regret? All you have to do to die? Your family treats me. How good is it? You told me to listen to it? Born, even if you are born, like a wolf, like a tiger, vicious and vicious, can you keep it? And you... Don’t think I don’t know that you have been suspicious of me and Wu Xiang! At this moment, are you still wondering, are you? Don't deny it! Don't deny it if you are a man, dare you deny it, I despise you!"
Her words were like a sharp knife thrust into Lu Yan's chest, tearing out the most shameful thoughts he had hidden in the deepest place.
Lu Yan took a deep breath, and the strength in his hand eased. Lin Jinrong slapped his hand away; "I'm not as good as a human, and I don't want to try to exceed others... I will only avoid jealousy and jealous people all day long. Tell me you didn't do anything, you are upright, your mind is dirty!"
Seeing that Lu Yan was silent, Lin Jinrong trimmed his clothes and prepared to go outside...he just stood here as he pleased, so she wouldn't accompany her! As soon as the door was opened, the rain and mist were swept in by the wind, which made her almost breathless. After the initial courage, she didn't have the courage to rush into the rain to get in the rain...then she retreated again, looking for flints to light up the lights. Helplessly, it wasn't her place. I didn't find it after searching for a long time... Instead, she was hit by a chair in her calf... The pain made her grinning, becoming more and more angry... Kicked on the chair.
Lu Yan looked at him coldly, and said nothing.
Lin Jin was anxious, grabbed the chair and sat down.
The rain was a little bit lighter, and there was a shout of lychee bunches outside; "Grandma? Second master? Are you still inside? The slaves and maids will bring you umbrellas and oil coats."
"Litchi, I'm still here." Lin Jinrong stood up as if he had seen a rescuer... Busy stood up and trimmed his hair. He planned to go outside. After walking two steps, he felt that his right arm was empty and a little strange, so he asked Lu Yan. ; "Where is my grapefruit?"
Lu Yan ignored her.
Lin Jinrong held back for a while, then said; "I asked you where you pulled my sleeve?"
The lights are getting brighter and the sound of litchi's footsteps is getting closer and closer, Lu Yan coldly snorted; "You dare to do that kind of self-harm, and you want me to give you up again. What do you want your sleeves to do? What? You should go out like this so that people know that you are not afraid of anything and dare to do anything. If I want to divorce you, how can I care if you are embarrassed or not?"
Lin Jinrong was speechless for a while, wishing to strangle him.
"Grandma?" Lychee knocked on the door lightly, Lu Yan stood still, and Lin Jinrong opened the door with a stern face. Standing at the door were Lychee and Dou'er. Seeing her embarrassed, the two of them screamed in exclamation in their mouths, suddenly shut their mouths, and looked at Lu Yan in fear, full of suspicion and panic.
With a gloomy face, Lu Yan stepped forward to take the oil coat in Dou'er's hand, and did not wait for her to take charge, let alone a lantern, and strode into the rain.
Lychee grabbed Lin Jinrong's hand without waiting for him to go far, and asked anxiously; "Grandma...what's the matter?"
"I can't tell in a few words." Lin Jinrong stroked his hair. Two hairpins on it were missing. "Take the lantern and look for it outside. I'm afraid it might have fallen."
Lychee winked at Dou'er, motioned Dou'er to take the lantern and go outside. He gently supported Lin Jinrong's arm and said cautiously with tears; "Grandma, did the second master hit you?"
Lin Jinrong shook his head lightly; "No. Just let me look around here, don't fall into the hands of others."
-"nonsense-
April｜#
My understanding of the role of Lin Jinrong is that, in the eyes of others, the past life and the future life are completely different things. She has experienced it personally and is unforgettable. But she has never destroyed her humanity because of hate, retaliated wildly, nor did she give up on herself because of her hatred. Instead, she has been working hard. I think it is not easy to do this.
As for other things, it requires a process of accumulating rent. Knowing and doing it are two different things. People’s biggest enemy is often oneself. People make mistakes because their personality and vision are different, and they make different mistakes. Love and hate are just a difference in thought. , Both she and Lu Yan need room and opportunities for growth, and need to understand and tolerate each other more.
If she suddenly forgot about the past, put it all down, and devoted herself to it, I couldn't write it, and I felt that it was incompatible with human nature.
I want to make this turn more natural. She needs time and she needs to broaden her horizons.
Thank you everyone for watching my nonsense and looking at the marriage with tolerance. Thank you (to be continued.