Chapter 37: His mind

Very light, a very light kiss.
　　 is so light that I can only smell the light wine scent between his lips and teeth.
　　 My body is soft in his body, and he put his arm around my waist to lend me strength.
　　 I stared at him in a daze, and wanted to ask him if he would like to have a relationship with me, petting me, loving me.
　　 Naturally, he can leave at any time like other women.
　　 But just when I wanted to ask, he deepened the kiss. I hugged his neck and kissed him. There was no lust. I just found a driftwood in the vast sea.
　　 For a long time, he let go of me and stared at me like a fascinating fairy with a scorching light in the depths of his eyes. I looked at him and smiled. He touched my cheek and asked, "How's the wine?"
　　 I smiled and said, "It's not that I haven't drunk alcohol."
　　 Fu Xi smiled without saying a word, then pulled me out of the bar.
　　 I kept panting in the car. He saw my bleak appearance and started the car jokes: "Look at the appearance you haven't seen in the world, baby, I have a question for you."
　　 I answered: "What's the problem?"
　　 He held the steering wheel with one arm, and the other fastened my seat belt. At this moment, he looked at me with a serious look. Such a serious Fu Xi made me a little uncomfortable, "What's the problem?"
　　 He narrowed his smile and asked, "How does it feel to kiss me?"
I:"......"
　　 I don’t know how to answer his question.
　　 It feels very complicated, but there is no passion.
　　 At that moment, it was the passion for life, and there was no rejection.
　　 Besides, I don’t want to reject him either.
　　 After all, I came to Tongcheng for his purpose.
　　 I bit my lip and thought about it and said, "It smells good."
　　 He squinted his eyes and asked, "What's so fragrant?"
　　 "The wine smells very good."
　　 Fu Xi hesitated, "Nothing to expect."
　　 Then he drove me to dinner.
　　 After eating and chatting for a while, Fu Xi has been living the same life as before. He asked me what I plan to do next, and I sighed melancholy: "I don't want to return to Wucheng in a short time."
　　 There are too many people I don’t want to see.
　　 He suddenly said, "You give me Chu Xing's contact information."
　　 I held the water glass and asked, "What are you going to do?"
"I know a few medical professors, right. Uterine cancer is quite accomplished, I can introduce it." After a while, Fu Xi said angrily: "You are stupid in this world, for a man Tossing like this, Gu Lanzhi's side... are you sure you want to give up?"
I just told Fu Xi about all my recent experiences, and I can find myself a listener. I thought for a while and said: "How can it be so easy to give up after nine years of obsession? Fu Xi, than The more terrifying thing about nine years of obsession is to pay wrong and sincerely. I really have nothing now."
　　 My pure love is gone.
　　 "Crap, don't you still have a master?"
　　 Hearing this, I stared at him with burning eyes.
　　 He frowned and asked, "Why stare at me like this?"
　　 "Seriously, I want to find someone who can get out of my body and fall in love."
　　 Fu Xi was silent, I got up and said, "Send me back."
　　 The hotel is not far from where we ate. Fu Xi drove me back on foot. When I was at the entrance of the hotel, I suddenly stood still, looked at him hesitantly, and asked, "What do you want me to do?"
　　 "Fu Xi, I want to have a relationship with you."
　　 Fu Xi asked me calmly, "Give me a reason."
　　 "I want to taste the feeling of being pampered, and it's okay to pretend."
　　 This is the reason I always wanted to fall in love.
　　 I want to experience what it's like to be loved and spoiled by others.
Our figures under the street light were dragged for a long time, Fu Xi chuckled and stretched out his hand and flicked my forehead gently, and smiled: "Silly girl, you just want to spoil me for you, but I'm sorry I can't tell you. Fall in love, because what I want is equal love, you don’t have me in your heart..."
　　 I think Fu Xi is the one who will not refuse me the last.
　　 But at this moment he still rejected me.
　　 He lowered his head and kissed my forehead and said, "We have known each other for so many years. I can spoil you, love you, or fall in love or even get married with you like a man, but do you love me?"
　　 has always insisted on not being married. Righteous Fu Xi said that he could marry me.
　　 His words are sincere and sincere, which is something I never thought of.
　　 I hurriedly withdrew from his embrace and said, "Sorry, I'm sorry."
　　 Fu Xi lowered his eyes, still smiling and said: "Get a break early and see you tomorrow."
　　 After Fu Xi left, I have been in a mess.
　　 I seem to provoke someone who shouldn’t be.
　　 I never thought he thought of me the same way.
　　 I took out my phone and sent a message and asked him, "Do you love me?"
　　 If he loves me, I will leave Tongcheng immediately.
　　 Fu Xi replied: "Not yet."
　　 I was relieved to see his unsure answer. Just as I was about to put my phone away, a black Mercedes parked on the side of the road opened the door.
　　 Then I saw a familiar face.
　　 I asked in shock: "Why are you here?"
　　 The man under the street lamp was indifferent, his eyes looked at the direction where Fu Xi was leaving, and his voice sarcastically said: "Shi Sheng, looking for men all over the street to fall in love, are you happy?"
　　 Am I happy? !
　　 Gu Tingchen asked me a fatal question.
　　 I always wanted to find someone to fall in love with, but I was afraid that the person I was looking for really loved me.
　　 For example, just now Fu Xi, I am really afraid that he loves me.
　　 I am afraid that my absence will cause him extreme pain, and I can’t respond to his wishes.
　　 The person I want to find should be like this. He is not stingy with his love, but he also has to guard his feelings, and he can retreat from me at any time, so that I have no psychological pressure.
　　 A few hours ago, I thought Fu Xi was the best choice, but he just rejected me because I didn't love him.
　　 I suddenly understood that I want to find someone to fall in love with is something that will never come true.
　　 I sighed and said, "It has nothing to do with you."
　　 Gu Tingchen knows my whereabouts well, and Ji Nuan must have been helping him except by accident. Thinking of this, I sneered and said, "You have taken Ji Nuan into account."
　　 Gu Tingchen kept his gaze on my forehead. He ignored my words and suddenly came over and wiped my forehead vigorously. I stepped back and said coldly, "Are you crazy?!"
　　 Gu Tingchen was cold and silent. He pulled over my shoulder and confined me in his chest. His palm kept rubbing my forehead. Even if I yelled, he turned a deaf ear.
　　 I knew he was angry, and Fu Xi kissed my forehead.
　　 He has restrained his temper like this.
　　 Gu Tingchen wiped it for a long time before letting me go. He sighed and hugged me tightly into his hot chest, and said in a low voice, "Shi Sheng, if you want to fall in love, please find me?"