Chapter 33:

Before the lunch break class started, Si Jin, who got the answer, hurried to the door of the class.
She decided to showdown.
When the boy was called out, his eyes were still so gentle that it gave Si Jin an illusion.
Right, such a gentle little brother is the one she has always remembered, the one who found her on the street and took her back.
Before he refused his own breakfast every day, it must be because he was still unfamiliar.
The boy’s voice was very soft, like the fallen leaves of a French plane tree in autumn and winter: "Is there something wrong?"
Si Jin cleared his throat and said solemnly: "Little brother, do you know who I am?"
He shook his head blankly.
Si Jin's eyes were very expectant, and his voice was sweet: "I am Si Jin, Si Yi's sister. Do you remember who stayed with you in an orphanage when you were young?"
As soon as she finished speaking, she saw the little brother in front of her gently frowning his beautiful eyebrows, and she seemed to remember a little.
Yes, remember quickly, they are childhood sweethearts and have been together in the orphanage for two years. When he remembered, he would be very excited, and there would be nothing wrong with Zhang Man.
Sure enough, the gentle little brother nodded.
Then, he...he didn't follow, with a hint of question in his eyes, as if he was asking, so what?
Si Jin continued to guide: "Do you remember the year when you first came to the orphanage, I ran out of the orphanage because of gluttony, and went to a candy store that I had visited on the street before, and then got lost there."
"My brother was so anxious that he couldn't find me when he looked everywhere. Everyone didn't know where I would go. Only you said at the time that I must be in that candy store and finally found me."
"I still remember that when I wanted to eat sweets, the shopkeeper said that I had no money, so he wouldn't give it to me and drove me out. You came when I was sitting on the floor crying vigorously, and you paid for the sweets for me. Take my hand and take me back. You are so smart, you are only a few months older than me, but you remember the way back to the orphanage clearly..."
As she spoke, she missed it.
At that time, the little boy was really gentle. He still remembered that he always mumbled before and wanted to go to that candy store. No one else took what a kid said to his heart, but he just remembered it, and was smart and smart. tender.
However, after she recalled this very warm memory in her mind, the teenager in front of her only nodded coldly.
And he began to look at his watch, seeming to be a little impatient.
Si Jin was a little dumbfounded, but he continued his efforts: "Li Wei, I like you very much. Would you like to be with me?"
After listening to her long talk of memories, the teenager finally heard the conclusion.
He shook his head: "No."
I can finally go back to read.
Si Jin stood at the door, looking at the young man's back, his whole body was a little petrified.
To be honest, since she was a little sensible, no one has ever rejected her so directly, except for the owner of the candy store and...Li Wei. She gritted her teeth, feeling a bit wronged in her heart. It was such a beautiful memory, why didn't he take it seriously?
It's really weird.
Si Jin stood there thinking for a while, walked into his classroom, sat in his seat and started shopping.
With her many years of experience, if you want to understand all kinds of gossip about a school, Tieba is the best choice.
Sure enough, it didn't take much effort. She didn't turn a few pages before she saw a red post, which was in October. Inside there is a picture of a handsome boy wearing a handsome tuxedo, holding a bouquet of lilies, and passing it to the girl standing on the stage holding a guitar.
She looked at the comments below, raised her eyebrows and slightly tickled the corners of her mouth.
One of the most influential figures, Qin Shuai, is also the head of the Department of Arts, interesting.
Si Jin followed her brother's appearance and touched his chin.
Li Wei is difficult to deal with, she can start from Zhang Man's side.
She had heard that Li Wei had a bad reputation in school, and they all said he was a mentally ill person.
She stayed with him in the orphanage for two years, and there have always been such rumors.
But she vaguely remembered that although he was very indifferent to others, in fact he was a very gentle person, otherwise he would not hold her hand and take her back.
But Zhang Man doesn't know. Even if she likes Li Wei now, if someone who is equally good and normal pursues her fiercely, no one can say the result.
The more she thought, the brighter her eyes, how could she still think about reading books that made her extremely headache, and went to the second grade to find Qin Shuai after class in the afternoon.
When Qin Shuai came out, he saw that it was Si Jin, and he was a little confused.
Of course he knew this girl, and it was a sensation in the school from the day she first transferred. After all, she was "a beautiful girl once in three thousand years".
"Hello senior, are you interested in cooperating with me?" Si Jin was already sweet and called out "senior" softly. Many of the old sophomore dough sticks passing by were crisp.
Qin Shuai was not moved. He smiled softly: "What's the matter, is the school girl going to join our art department?"
Si Jin raised his index finger and shook it, beckoned to him, motioning him to come closer.
"Senior, this is the case. I want to chase Li Wei, and you want to chase Zhang Man. I think we can work together."
Qin Shuai smiled bitterly when he heard the words: "I have been rejected twice."
In addition to the movie ticket that time, he also gave gifts after that, but was also rejected.
Si Jin hooked up the corner of his mouth: "You don't understand this. Do you know what girls really want? Do as I say, and you can be sure of success!"
Qin Shuai looked at her determined gaze with some suspicion in his heart, but he thought of Zhang Man...what about another risk, maybe she really has a way.
So he smiled and raised his eyebrows: "Happy cooperation."
...
When Zhang Man came back from a walk, he found Li Wei had been watching her. She touched her face, a little confused.
"what happened?"
"……It's nothing."
The boy's voice was low and hoarse, like coarse dust particles in the sun.
Zhang Man sat down, but he still did not take his gaze back.
"What's the matter?"
"I think Si Jin is not as pretty as you."
The boy lowered his eyes, and the ghost knew how difficult it is for a person like him to say this sentence.
But he still said.
When Si Jin was talking about it just now, he carefully observed that none of his eyes, nose, and mouth were as good as hers.
Si Jin is too tall. When he talks to her, he can't use the perspective he is most used to. He likes to lower his head, he can see the cute hair on the girl's head, and he can smell her hair when he gets closer. Her skin is not as white as Zhang Man, and her eyes are not fluent enough.
Anyway, it's not as beautiful as her.
Not like her, as long as I see it, my heart will itch.
Zhang Man was slightly stunned when he heard what he said, and it took a long time to react. He was asking him the question when she was being punished before answering her.
Zhang Man was a little bit happy.
"How do you know? She is looking for you again?"
Didn’t I say I didn’t pay attention at all.
"Well, just now."
Zhang Man still inevitably felt tight: "Then...what did she say to you?"
The boy turned his eyes to the left, recalling her words: "She asked me, would you like to be with her?"
Zhang Man swallowed, and reached out to grab his sleeves: "How did you answer?"
"I said, I don't want to."
"puff."
Zhang Man couldn't help but laughed. So blunt, really his style.
...
Going back at night, Zhang Man sat on the bed and began to plan his confession later.
January 10 is Li Wei's birthday, and it is the weekend, and she wants to formally confess to him that day. Count it, there are still five days to go.
She called Chen Feier.
"Hey, Mayfair, how do the heroines confess in those romance novels you have read?"
"Puff...hahahahaha, Manman, it's a good thing to be in love. I find that you are getting more and more cute. Let me laugh for a while..."
Chen Feier was sitting at the dining table at home, eating the midnight snack her mother cooked for her. When she said that, the soup was sprayed all over the table.
Zhang Man was speechless, but she stopped laughing after a while.
"Ahem, most of the romance novels I have read are confessed by the male protagonist."
She went on to say: "Manman, haven't you heard a word? Ask the man to chase the female compartment mountain, and the woman to chase the male compartment yarn. If you want to confess, you can just go straight to it, you don't need so many tricks."
"is it?"
Zhang Man thought deeply, then there is always something to be prepared, right? Can't two of them do their homework and write that she suddenly said "Li Wei, I like you", right?
That's too strange.
In fact, in Zhang Man's bones, it is really difficult to express emotions. For Zhang Huifang that time, he thought about it for several days and had the courage to do it.
The same is true for Li Wei.
The taciturn people tend to have a much richer inner world than others, but when they really want to say it, they are afraid.
"All right, I will think about it again."
Who knows, she planned well, but things changed.
This day is Friday and there are physical education classes twice a week.
Class 1 and Class 15 happen to be PE classes, and Class 15 is the liberal arts class that Si Jin is in.
Because it rained sleet again a few days ago and there was a lot of water on the playground, the teacher took the girls to the gym and asked them to practice volleyball in pairs. The final exam was required.
Zhang Man's original partner was Zhou Xiaoqi, but as soon as the two of them made a pair, she was called away by another girl. Zhang Man was practicing boringly by herself, just as Si Jin walked over and picked up her volleyball that had fallen to the ground.
"Zhang Man, come to the playground for dinner, I have something to tell you."
"Can't you say it now?"
Si Jin shook his head: "There are too many people now."
Zhang Man didn't want to go. Si Jin said he wanted to tell her something about Li Wei when she was a child. After thinking about it, she agreed. According to her personality, she couldn't think of any harmful ideas.
After arriving at the playground, he did not see Si Jin, but Qin Shuai.
Zhang Man probably guessed what was going on, and couldn't help feeling a little helpless.
Seeing her, Qin Shuai walked over with bright eyes: "Sorry, let Si Jin call you, I'm afraid I will ask you, you will refuse."
He remembered what Si Jin had told him before, that temptation is impossible if you want to impress the heart of a girl.
I have reserved a retreat for myself, how can the other party believe you.
It must be sincere to let her feel how important she is to you.
No matter how introverted girls are, they can't stand the sincere sweet talk.
So he walked up to her with a more serious look than ever before: "Zhang Man, I really like you for a long time, starting from the first time I saw you. In fact, I lied that day. You don’t need to join the literary department for your show. , Can also be on stage."
"Later on the National Day Parade, I asked someone to buy flowers. I wanted to confess to you that day, but I was afraid of scaring you."
"I picked those two movie tickets at home for several days. I didn't like to watch romantic movies, but when I thought of seeing it with you, I thought that only romantic movies were the most suitable." "Zhang Man, in you I’ve never felt this way for a girl before. Can you be my girlfriend if you want?"
After he finished speaking, he looked down at her seriously, with a trace of tension in his eyes.
For the first time, he did not test again, but directly and sincerely expressed his heart.
However, after she was silent for a long time, he had a foreboding that it would not be possible this time.
Sure enough, although the girl's expression was a bit unbearable, she still shook her head firmly.
Did not speak.
Qin Shuai felt a little pain in his heart, but at the same time he let go of a heavy burden, as if he had always kept one thing hidden in his heart. Now he went to do it, and then let it go.
She didn't speak, and only shook her head. It was better than sending him a good person card. He looked at the girl's expression and knew that she had the intention to take him seriously.
He raised his hand and touched her head. It felt better than expected. Although his tone was a little low, it was not too sad: "Zhang Man, this is the third time you have rejected me. There are only three things. I wish you happiness in the future."
Before Zhang Man could answer, he turned and left.
. ...
With Qin Shuai's confession, Si Jin blocked Li Wei, who had just finished eating, at the entrance of the cafeteria.
She walked over on her own, trying to pat the boy on the shoulder, but he took a step back and avoided. The two passed by, and Li didn't say a word to her.
Si Jin curled his lips, a little speechless, this pretty little brother was really hard to follow.
She caught up again: "Li Wei, are you free this Saturday?"
"No."
"Then...what about that Sunday?"
"No."
The corner of Si Jin's mouth twitched: "Then tell me, when will you be free? You can't be empty all your life, right?"
"If you ask, there is always no time."
Si Jin was so scorched by his words that he was stunned. Isn't it, so unfeeling?
She was stuck in her heart, walked over and stretched out her hand to stop him, cruelly: "Qin Shuai just asked Zhang Man to meet, she has gone. Now Qin Shuai should have confessed to Zhang Man, I guess she has agreed, you There is only me now."
She said, "I gave him the sincerity and gentleness that girls want most, and it will definitely be possible. People are as good as you, sunny and cheerful, and no girl would agree. And I saw it. She was obviously very happy when she took the picture on the post bar. She should like Qin Shuai a little bit in her heart, right?"
As she said, she saw the calm in the eyes of the young man suddenly burst, and a rare storm broke out, and the whole person was instantly different. He strode forward and pinched her shoulders: "Where is she?"
The rush of voice, the hoarse like a rough north wind, made Si Jin shiver straight. His strength was so strong, she felt her shoulder blades hurt.
But she still didn't want to say, biting her lip and making no sound.
The temperament of the teenager's whole person was getting colder and colder. Si Jin noticed that his eyes were beginning to glow with abnormal red, not the moist red, but the dry, bloodshot red.
He took a deep breath, as if trying to suppress a certain emotion. He let go of her, but still stared at her eyes: "I'll ask again, she, where, where?"
Obviously he no longer imprisoned her, but Si Jin felt even more terrifying.
At this moment, she suddenly became frightened, and her voice was trembling: "In...in the playground."
She ignored him at the beginning, her nails were already pinched into the palms of her hands. Ever since she was young, with her brother, where has she been treated like this?
He was so terrifying, the look in his eyes just made her feel that he was going to kill her next second. Isn't it just a Zhang Man? What's so great. She didn't hurt a single strand of her hair. Is he like this? Si Jin squatted down, fear and grievance hit her head, and she began to weep uncontrollably.
When she was crying, she heard the young man say: "You said you like me because I am gentle? Then you saw it too."
"Change your personal preference."
Except for her, there is nothing in this place worthy of his gentle treatment.
After saying this, he left.
Si Jin squatted on the ground and cried for about two minutes. She stood up and wiped her tears, her mouth pouted high. She kicked the roadside steps a little annoyingly, but the light and soft sneakers she wore made her toes hurt.
She barked her teeth and yelled, still very painful, and she sat down for a while.
She thought sullenly, what kind of gentle brother, all memories are deceptive, he is a lunatic, she is not rare.
...
When Li Wei arrived at the playground, Qin Shuai had already left, and Zhang Man was walking down the stands.
There was still thin snow in the entire stand, and the school did not let anyone come to clean it. There is a lot of water on the playground, and every time you step on the plastic track, it seems to see water. Such a gloomy rainy and snowy day, almost no one would come to the playground, deserted, but it made his mood even more irritable.
The night is fast in winter, the sky has been dark for more than five o'clock, and the street lights on the playground have begun to light up.
He ran fast all the way, and he had never been so flustered before, and the muffled pain in his heart made him unable to bear it anymore.
He wanted to see her in the next second.
Finally, Li Wei found her in the east stand. He saw her thin figure from a distance, she was the only one.
The uncontrollable irritability and uncomfortable feeling relaxed slightly, but if she didn't ask her personally, she probably couldn't sleep peacefully in the future.
He walked over and stopped her.
Zhang Man was thinking about confessing to Li Wei tomorrow, but he didn't expect that the young man would appear in front of her in the next second.
His face was serious, his lips were white, and he seemed to have experienced a big storm. His eyes were covered with dry bloodshot eyes, and his hair was messy and embarrassed.
Zhang Man's heart tightened: "Li Wei, what's wrong with you?"
"Have you accepted?"
The boy's voice was hoarse, his apple trembling, and his knuckles were all white.
He thought, this kind of nervousness seems to have rarely happened since he remembered. He was afraid that she would nod her head. In this case, he didn't know what he would do.
He still remembers that when he was young, his grandfather took him out of the hospital and went to the orphanage without even returning home. He told him in the car that he was taking him to see a friend of his.
He was still holding a toy, a racing car that his father had bought him before. When grandpa and that friend were chatting, he was sitting on the sofa next to him and playing racing.
He heard their chat and said something like "schizophrenia, money, foster care." He has always been a very early wisdom, and he has already had a lot of thoughts at a young age, and he already has a foreboding.
Later, Grandpa told him that he was going to the bathroom and asked him to sit in the room and wait. He didn't obey, stood up with the car, and took Grandpa's hand.
He still remembers when he asked Grandpa if he could go with him.
That was the only time in his life to stay.
But Grandpa let go of his hand.
That day, he was sobbing and crying in the dean’s office for a long time, and no one would pull him away. That little boy was not born with no attachments to anything. He was so uncomfortable. I also imagined whether Grandpa really just has something to go, and will be back in a while.
But Grandpa never came back.
For the next ten years, he never contacted him. Even after he applied to leave the orphanage, he only sent a subordinate to him to hand over the inheritance left by his father.
From beginning to end, never showed up.
I used to think that there is no other thing in this world that makes him so nervous.
But now it appeared, the girl who made him so nervous that his internal organs were all locked together, stood in front of him, a step away.