Chapter 53:

Sense and emotion are always contradictory opposites in human spiritual life.
When he left her, his reason prevailed.
However, after struggling for so many days, the moment I saw her again, there was no reason left.
Driven by passionate emotions, the primordial nature is exposed.
The boy frantically kissed the person on his heart, licking, biting, and sucking eagerly.
Her soft lips broke into reality from the continuous dream of more than ten days, so sweet, so he couldn't stop.
Zhang Man was deprived of oxygen by his kiss, so he could only take away his hand covering her eyes, pushed him away hard, and breathed with open mouth.
Before he took a few breaths, the boy was bullying him with his dark eyes. He imprisoned her and sat on the sofa with his knees in a dangerous posture.
Zhang Man raised his hand to separate the lips of the two of them and looked at him unwillingly.
There was a huge crystal lamp above the two of them. On the mahogany sofa, she sat on her back, while he was sitting on her knees. The two stared at each other and stood in a stalemate.
The boy was embarrassed and haggard, his eyes stubbornly glowed with reddish water vapor, and the long eyelashes were still stained with suspicious water.
How like a beast that hides itself in the corner of a cave, bruised and unwilling.
He just cried.
Zhang Man trembled in his heart and stretched out his hand to touch his eyes.
The young man stepped back vigilantly, bewildered and embarrassed by her, he could only turn his head.
Zhang Man's heart is like a needle stick.
Yeah, he didn't have a good time leaving her, he must have struggled for a long time before making the decision.
How did he live when she was not by his side? What kind of day can she practice such a look, so that she can't see it at a glance-looking at him, the heart is like an ant bite, and I want to listen to him everything, follow him and pet him.
The teenager she loved really suffered too much.
But she couldn't relent in the slightest-if she let him go, she didn't want to experience the consequences a second time.
She knew that he was now stubborn and fragile, and only he could break the contradictions and struggles in his heart.
Zhang Man hardened his heart, with a mocking tone in his tone: "What? I am not your girlfriend now, classmate Li Wei, do you want to insult me?"
"If you feel that we are okay, then from now on, don't touch my finger, we will never see each other again."
She resisted the soreness of her heart, did not leave him a trace of affection, and did not give him the slightest escape.
Of course, multiple choice questions will never have only one option.
To this end, she offered more charming conditions.
"If you admit now that I'm still your girlfriend, then the kiss just now, let's continue."
After hearing the two options, the young man was silent.
N City, which had just finished setting off the fireworks, fell into silence. This mountainside villa area, on the last day of the year, is more like a paradise away from the crowds.
In the whole house, only their breath.
He suddenly thought of these days, these days of leaving her.
He was in this house these days, except for thinking about her every day, he fell into endless delusions. These ethereal and ethereal delusions seemed to have been pressed a switch since that day, and they broke out completely.
He can't control himself at all.
It was Janet for a while, Nick for a while, and sometimes when he turned his head, he would find them standing behind him, so clear and tangible.
He couldn't distinguish between fantasy and reality all day and night. Sometimes when he was unconscious, he even thought that he had actually been living in this house with Janet and Nick, and had never gone out.
He might even think that the school, the vine, and everything in the outside world are his illusions.
When he wakes up, he will fall into endless irritability and self-disgust.
He is a complete lunatic at all.
How could he be qualified to own her again? What can he bring her?
Choose, the same as originally decided, never meet again.
Never see her again. He didn't want to hurt her in his whole life.
After a while, the boy spoke with difficulty.
"Manman, I..."
A word stuck in the throat, like a fishbone pierced into the meat fiercely, neither going down nor coming up.
Obviously that day, it was chosen like this, why can't I say anything when I see her again?
"What are you? You said, did we break up? You said in the e-mail that we broke up. I want to hear you say it in person. Say it again. What is the relationship between us now? If you say that we are okay, it's normal Classmate, I will leave now, and never leave you alone."
Zhang Man looked at the violent struggle in his eyes, continued to press, and never gave him the slightest chance to control him.
The boy's eyes grew darker, his Adam's apple rolled up and down.
The only struggle left in his eyes finally shattered completely after a long silence.
He can no longer deceive himself.
Perhaps there is a hint of reason in my heart reminding him to leave her, but tens of trillions of cells in the body are clamoring, admit it, you want her, you want her by your side.
Outnumbered.
The boy's heart twitched in pain, he sighed, held her weakly, and leaned his head against her neck.
Finally admitted.
People are selfish, and he is not a saint.
He tore his heart in two fiercely and forced himself to leave her, but she found him so persistently, and then forced him so, how can he persist?
In the boy's voice, there were seven points of pain, three points of dumbness, and the words were like rocks on the Gobi Desert-after struggling for many years, they were finally turned into sandy soil by the hurricane in the desert.
"Manman, you are the most important person in my life."
"Do you... want me?"
His heavy, scorching breath splashed on her neck.
Zhang Man finally couldn't stand it anymore.
Hearing his helpless confession personally, she could no longer pretend.
She raised her hand, put her arms around the young man's back, and blinked a string of hot tears at the corner of her eyes.
"So, do you choose the second one?"
She reconfirmed carefully.
The boy's head rubbed up and down between her neck and replied helplessly: "Well, the second one."
Never leave her again.
Zhang Man finally bent his lips.
The body, which had been tight for so long, suddenly relaxed. At this moment, she actually felt the soreness of the muscles on her calf, as well as the frostbite and slight itchy pain on her ears that had been blown out by the wind two days ago.
She was really scared just now, afraid that he said, she still wanted to leave her.
It's really not easy to deal with him sometimes.
"Yes, what I want, as long as you choose me, I want you."
She was afraid that he would repent, and nodded eagerly.
The young man raised his head. Although there was still confusion and anxiety about the future hidden in his eyes, after she nodded, there was still a hint of ecstasy.
Zhang Man put his arms around him, and faithfully fulfilled the promise of the second option.
She first kissed his eyes gently, wiped the wetness with her lips, then lifted his chin, approached him, and tentatively stopped on his lips.
His lips trembled slightly and were so soft that they were hard to disguise.
After a very short stay, the teenager began to turn against the guest, responding eagerly and enthusiastically.
The rewards for choosing the right option should be consumed without reservation.
...
When the two finally remembered to eat the noodles, the noodles were soaked long ago, clumped together, and the taste was very bad.
The tasteless seafood-flavored instant noodles, even the vegetable wraps, are probably the most unpalatable New Year's Eve dinner Zhang Man has ever eaten.
But she really walked too much today and climbed the mountain again. She was too hungry after dealing with him for so long. So he didn't care whether it was good or not, so Zhang Man frowned and settled the whole bowl before putting down his chopsticks.
She raised her eyes to see the teenager who was still eating noodles.
He has been maintaining an unhurried speed without frowning, as if he didn't feel any likes or dislikes for this food.
Zhang Man opened the bag he had just put on the table. In addition to the bag of instant noodles he just took out, there were two other big bags in it, each containing five bags.
I have stored fifteen packets, and I don't know how long I want to eat.
She put down her chopsticks, leaned over and held his hand: "Li Wei, how long have you eaten instant noodles?"
The teenager looked at her seriously, but didn't lie anymore.
"Ten days."
It was about the same as she expected.
"So there are two days left? Eating outside? Or... hungry?"
"……Ok."
Hungry. In the two days after leaving her, as long as he thought of the hand he put on her neck that night, he felt nauseous to retching, how could he eat anything.
Zhang Man was so soft-hearted that he sat a little closer to him: "Why don't you order takeaway?"
"...I can't open my cell phone."
Hearing this answer, Zhang Man was angrily and anxiously: "So afraid of me finding you?"
The boy shook his head.
Actually, he was not afraid of her finding him, he was afraid of himself.
When the phone was turned on, he would call her uncontrollably.
"Then what are you doing these days?"
He doesn't have a TV at home, maybe he didn't even install it on the Internet. What has he been doing for so many days?
"……miss you."
As long as you are awake, think of her all the time.
Zhang Man looked at him like this, suddenly discouraged.
"Do you know how many calls have I called you these days? One hundred and sixty-three. I have also sent you a lot of text messages, but you haven't answered any of them. Li Wei, you just leave, so simply , It's really cruel."
Be cruel to her, even more cruel to himself.
After the teenager listened, the nerves in the forehead began to beat again.
He put down his chopsticks and hugged her uncomfortably. He didn't know what to do or what to say to comfort her.
He had never thought before that she could be so persistent.
"Manman, you have lost weight..."
He touched her shoulders and neck, and squeezed her cheeks, feeling very distressed. She was originally thin, but now she doesn't have much flesh, her chin is pointed, and the rare baby fat on her face is gone.
A face was originally small, but now it is thinner, making those eyes bigger.
How could this happen...According to his original thoughts, 16 or 17-year-old teenagers, after receiving such an e-mail, will be sad, hate, and complain...
But how could you be like her, you must find him no matter what, think of him all the time, even after you find him...you need him.
Zhang Man looked at him with too much information hidden in his eyes, distressed, puzzled, and confused.
He hesitated to ask, but she could actually understand it at this moment.
Zhang Man tilted his head angrily and bit his cheek fiercely until he bit a deep tooth mark.
The young man snorted, but didn't avoid it, holding her to let her vent.
Still puzzled, Zhang Man squeezed his fist and hammered him fiercely, except for avoiding his face, head, shoulders, and chest, and hammered him indiscriminately.
The bones hit the bones, and neither of them felt bad.
"Li Wei, you have known me for so long, but you don't know me at all."