Chapter 28:

"Is it reasonable? Then I continue to be a doctor? Is it also reasonable?"
When Shen Shiyan said this, she was smiling, but she didn't reach the bottom of her eyes, and she just fainted to the lips.
"reasonable."
Meng Xintang's answer was quick. He did n’t know why Shen Shiyan wanted to be a doctor, maybe because of his father, maybe because of his beliefs and responsibilities, but he knew that after going through these things, he still decided to be a good doctor. It was extremely difficult, because the light came from the pain in his heart. And fear is enough to crush a person.
When Shen Shiyan heard these two words, he was speechless for a while. Too many people don't understand why he still wants to be a doctor, and too many people have persuaded him to give up. Later, he has been too tired to explain, but stubbornly continued to do what he thinks is right. But Meng Xintang did not. He told him without much knowledge, which was reasonable.
"But many people have asked me if I can't stop being a doctor." Shen Shiyan raised her head and looked at the sky. "You know, SARS was really terrible that year. Many uncles and aunts I know haven't I can go home again. At the time when SARS was fierce, we did n’t know if we could see my dad tomorrow, but my mother did n’t say a word to my dad not to go to the hospital and go home. Later, the college entrance examination volunteered, I reported to the medical school, and my mother also said that it was very good and it was good to be a doctor. But after my father died, my mother asked me if I could not be a doctor. She said that she never feared that I would be a hero, even if At that time, my dad really sacrificed in SARS, and she would not let me change my career. But she said that heroes should not end like this, should not be disappointed, and should not leave like this. "
Chapter 19 We Are Together
Meng Xintang is 33 years old and has experienced many warmth and coldness in the world. He knows exactly what the world looks like, how bad and how good it is, and he thinks he can already tolerate or tolerate them all. But at this moment, the heart in the night breeze is still painful and clogged, a respectable person who should be alive and well, for the family who used to be poetry and fairy tales, and even the person who mentioned the past blandly.
After Shen Shiyan finished speaking, she lowered her body, bowed herself on the fence, her chin against her arm, her moonlight, and she was quiet like a green lake in late autumn.
Meng Xintang retracted his gaze, tapped the cigarette in his hand, and kissed his lips. There were children playing around, adults whispering softly, and unadjusted drunk singing from the side. There seemed to be a man in a white lab coat, a mess of blood and tears, a turn of life and death.
And a teenager looking at the long road ahead.
There is love, there is hate. Both he and Shen Shiyan, or those who have died, walk here.
He patted Shen Shiyan's back gently, and approached his emotions in a silent way.
"Sometimes I wonder, what was my father thinking before closing his eyes?"
Speaking, Shen Shiyan closed her eyes, as if performing a stream of soul jiāo across time and space. This is a question that he often thinks about, not because he is jealous, but just because he wants to know and cannot verify, he can't stop guessing for so many years.
Scared? Panic? Missing? Or ...
"I guess, he is thinking about your mother and you." Meng Xintang's voice suddenly sounded.
Shen Shi's eaves froze and turned to look at Meng Xintang.
"No matter what he thinks, I don't think he will regret being a doctor."
This is what Shen Shiyan thinks. Meng Xintang is very magical. He can know what you are thinking and can tell you an answer when your guess is difficult to tell.
"Your father is a good doctor, and I admire him very much. Such a person will not deny his life's dedication when facing death, because everything he does is rational." Meng Xintang paused After a while, he said, "Human hearts are the most unpredictable and sometimes the most terrifying, but we are not living for the human heart, and we should not live to be afraid of the human heart."
Meng Xintang's words were not plain, but Shen Shiyan understood, because of this, he had thought about it.
The answer that had been chased after many years ago was brewed by Moonlight on such a night. Shen Shiyan suddenly felt solid. Believing in yourself is one thing. Someone believes with you and tells you that you are not blind, but another feeling.
At this time, Meng Xintang had just taken away his feelings from the painful past stories he heard, but he immediately thought that his words of comfort were too grandiose. The phrase "should not live to be afraid of the human heart" is easy to say. In such a situation, how should Shen Shiyan accept the ugly side of the human heart?
He fully agreed with Shen Shiyan's choices, but was curious as to what made him so persistent, even the blood of those who had met close relatives did not fade away.
He was silent for a while, and then asked, "Why do you insist on being a doctor?" After that, he added that it seemed like a qiáng tune: "I don't question you, I just think you are amazing. If it were me, I might not be able to do it.
Hearing that, Shen Shiyan raised his chin slightly, squinting his eyes and saying, "I like it."
He answered quickly, it should be a familiar answer.
"Since I went to the hospital to find my father when I was young, I think the hospital is a very sacred place. The first encounter and farewell between a person and the world takes place in the hospital, or it is a place where life is welcomed. "
Meng Xintang said dumbly: "Is that so?"
Shen Shiyan nodded.
This is different from person to person. Meng Xintang can accept the statement of welcome and welcome, but I'm afraid he will avoid it. This is the same as hospitality. How valuable life is, how troublesome it is to send it in and how it highlights the world.
"In the beginning, it was such a simple reason. I once told Yan Wu that he liked playing the piano, so he went to the Music School, and I like to be a doctor, so he went to the Medical College. This profession is risky and tired, I know it, but it will not I want to give up his reason. As you said, we choose a profession not because of how much glory and wealth it can bring us, but because we agree with it. "
Meng Xintang listened a little, hesitated for a moment or asked, "Have I said this?"
Shen Shiyan's jaw was still fixed on his arm, and he squinted and raised him smiling: "Did that just mean? We are not living for the human heart, we should not be afraid of the human heart. So why do we live and why do we choose?"
Meng Xintang smiled and shook his head, a translucent person.
"Actually, after my mother's death, I hesitated for a while. I thought that the accident caused me to lose my father and my mother. Can I still put on that clothes to help the patient without any clue? But in 2008, I graduated as an undergraduate and went to Beichuan as a volunteer. After that, I knew that I would stay in this post forever. "
In 2008, a severe earthquake struck Wenchuan County, Sichuan Province. Black-and-white TV footage that lasted for several days, and the tolling bell of National Day of Mourning.
"Why?" Meng Xintang asked softly.
"I really took over my life, kissed death, and couldn't leave."
"The first casualty I rescued after that was a little girl, a schoolboy. When two soldiers dug her out of the cement board, she opened her eyes once and asked me, brother, can I live. I told her I could ... but I promised. "
When Shen Shiyan said this, she seemed to be in the usual loose tone, but after listening carefully, the ending trembled and was weak.
Meng Xintang couldn't personally feel the feeling of taking over life and personally feel death, but from the slight tremor of Shen Shiyan, he could see the tears that he had lost for life.
"When I was reading, my grades were very good. I felt familiar with all kinds of cases, but I really got there, but I felt like I couldn't do anything. Life was too fragile, and I thought I would save a few more. Personally, there are still so many deaths. Sometimes, even when I was rescuing an injured person, another one was brought to the side. The soldiers dug it for two hours to rescue it, but I have not had time to rescue him. He closed his eyes. "He smiled bitterly." People who have never seen a disaster will never understand what a disaster is. What kind of heart, interest, selfish greed, at that moment ... "