Chapter 2661: Why me (on)

Yongning Palace, originally Chen Fan's bedroom.
Now it has been changed into Chen Yixin's study room.
In order to make his daughter more aware of his responsibility as an emperor, Jiang Zhixi personally supervised the reconstruction of Yongning Palace.
All decorations were removed, leaving only two palace ladies to accompany in the palace.
Piles of books are placed on the shelves. Among them are many books that Chen Fan has read before, as well as books written by himself.
Almost all of them are studying the policies of governing the country, and there are also some content about Chen Fan's wisdom in life.
For sixteen years, Chen Yixin started to learn these things under Jiang Zhixi's teaching every day from the beginning of her word recognition.
The 14-year-old Chen Yixin gradually became pro-government after the death of Dr. Meng the previous year.
Jiang Zhixi thought that her daughter could be alone, so she moved out of Yongning Palace, and since then Chen Yixin lives here alone.
In the past two years, Chen Yixin has tasted loneliness, and has become more aware of the reason why emperors have been called loneliness since ancient times.
But... she doesn't like this.
Today's Yongning Palace is the first time Jiang Zhixi has set foot in two years.
She and her daughter returned to the home of Chen Fan back then. Seeing that although great changes have taken place, they still retain the charm of the bedroom. Jiang Zhixi had already wet his eyes before she knew it.
In fact, she has been very reluctant to set foot in Yongning Palace. The biggest reason is that once she comes here, she will unconsciously think of Chen Fan.
Thinking of my husband.
This time, Jiang Zhixi came with her daughter, because she knew that if nothing happened, Yongning Palace would cease to exist.
Da Chen, after all, was destroyed in this crisis.
Anyone with a discerning eye can actually see this truth, but everyone didn't say, only Jia Boqian stood up.
Everyone is dominated by feelings, and Da Chen devoted all his efforts and wishes.
So, even if you die, you must die together!
It's just... after suffering Chen Yixin, at only sixteen, he has to go through all this.
"Xin'er, you did a good job, and my mother is proud of you."
Looking at Chen Yixin, who returned to her desk and started reading, Jiang Zhixi suddenly felt distressed.
The voice trembled slightly.
Chen Yixin's two hands holding the book trembled a little when she heard the words. She looked at her mother and seemed to stop talking, but after all, she said nothing.
Jiang Zhixi noticed her daughter's abnormality, wiped her tears secretly, and finally said what she had buried in her heart for 16 years.
"Xin'er, these years, have you... blamed me and your father?"
Chen Yixin paused again, and when she looked up, tears were already rolling in her eyes.
She bit her lip, and said after a long time, "I don't complain."
"I just don't understand, why me?"
With this sentence, Jiang Zhixi finally couldn't help her tears anymore, as if the line was disconnected, silently flowing.
She seemed to think of Chen Fan's entrustment before leaving 16 years ago, and she also seemed to think of her daughter's pain for so many years.
Is there a pair of parents in the world who don’t want their children to be happy every day and face the world with smiles?
But when Chen Yixin was five years old, an innocent and lively girl was told by her mother that she could not laugh.
Because of the emperor, you can't laugh!
From then on, the smiling face never appeared on Chen Yixin's face. A child disappeared from this world and was replaced by a power wielder.
It is difficult to say whether Chen Fan's choice was right or wrong.
If he didn't choose Chen Yixin as his successor before he left, it is possible that Da Chen would not have been stable for eight years, and would have died in the endless flames of war.
But all of this, he traded for his child's smiling face.
Is it really worth it?
"Sorry……"
Thousands of words, it seems that it can only be turned into this sentence in the end.
But these words can express the sadness and guilt in Jiang Zhixi's heart vividly.
Chen Yixin also cried.
I remembered that this was the first time she cried when she was four years old when she broke her knee and cried.
For the first time, she felt that it was such a happy thing that people could cry.