Chapter 2662: Why me (below)

"Mother, do you know? I often dream about you and Dad taking me to catch butterflies."
Chen Yixin's low voice sounded.
Her words evoked echoes in the empty Yongning Palace.
It's hard to imagine how a little girl lived alone in this world like a cold palace for two years.
It is also hard to imagine how much Chen Yixin has paid to catch up with Chen Fan's shadow over the years.
"I actually don't remember my father's appearance at all. Even if I know it in the portrait, when I get to the dream, it's very blurred.
"I just remember that my father laughed heartily. Mother, you sat aside, watching me and my father chasing butterflies with happiness."
"I fell, and my crying face was lost. My father picked me up and told me jokes. Our family was smiling happily, as if this world has never been so annoying."
Tears kept coming out of her eyes. For the first time in 16 years, Chen Yixin showed her fragility in front of her mother and also in front of herself.
"Later, when the dream woke up, I realized that it was just a dream. I found that I still had to play the role of father to face the invisible tide of the court."
"I don't want to meet them, and I don't want to go against my own ideas for the lives of countless people who can't be seen."
"But... I can't do it."
"Because of you and father, you want me to be such a person."
With a self-deprecating smile on his face, Chen Yixin looked down at herself: "You want me to be a person who only wears men's clothes, can't laugh, cry, can't have his own expression on his face, but must observe the expressions of others."
"I want to wear a beautiful little dress that I like. I want to live a carefree life like many girls."
"Mother, do you know? I once heard a court lady talk privately that when she was a child, her father would take her to the wind rope whenever she had time!"
"But mother, I don't even know what a kite is."
"So, now I ask you again..."
"why me?"
Jiang Zhixi finally couldn't help it. Seeing her daughter's appearance, she only felt that her heart was bleeding, "Xin'er, mother, I'm sorry!"
He rushed forward and took Chen Yixin into his arms. At this moment, Jiang Zhixi felt endless regret and unwillingness.
She hated why she only understood her daughter's thoughts until she knew it today, and why she had never asked or felt it seriously before.
Perhaps she is selfish. She has been immersed in the pain of losing her husband for 16 years, but she doesn't know that her daughter is also drifting away from herself.
Perhaps, there are always so many unsatisfactory things in life, but these, but all of them have come to Chen Fan's family.
At this moment, compared with Jiang Zhixi's emotions, a more disturbing scene is that even if he was held in his mother's arms, the scroll in Jiang Zhixi's hand still did not slip.
Because she remembered that her mother once told herself that these books were all left by her father, and there should be no mistakes.
"Xin'er, my mother and your father will not be parents. We hurt you, but my mother wants you to know that your father loves you. You may not remember the eve before he left. How did your lonely night pass."
"Your father told you a story for one night. He told me, one story a year, and he wants to tell you until you are eighteen."
"He said that when you were eighteen, he would definitely come back."
"Xin'er, you can blame me, but I want to ask you not to blame your father, okay, he has paid too much for this family."
Under Jiang Zhixi's emotional statement, the scroll in Chen Yixin's hand finally slipped slowly.
Then he hugged his mother's back tightly.
"Mother, my child never complains about you, let alone my father. I just want to find my missing life. I am also proud of being Chen Fan's child!"
"You said he will definitely come back when I am eighteen, and in two years, he will come back."
"This time, we must survive!"