Chapter 251: Zombie Queen 16

Mother Tan smiled slightly, calmly and peacefully, "It's okay. When I cried at that time, you all comforted me. I can see that you are worried, and because of my emotions, everyone in the family is depressed and the atmosphere is more depressing. , Even Xuan Xuan dare not laugh. I don’t want to affect everyone in this way, so I just behave as if I’m going shopping every day, watching TV, laughing and crying with the TV, and working hard to vent my emotions, so that I can be with you When you get along, if nothing happens. Occasionally, when I am alone in the room, I will think of her, remembering the bits and pieces I used to get along with, and I can’t help crying for a long time, but I just want to suffer this kind of pain alone, and I don’t want to bring it to you. family."
"I thought I could laugh with the TV, so I was gradually letting go, but I can't help but think, if I forget her, others will forget her, and start a new life, who else remembers What about her? That was the first time I deeply realized that people die like a lamp, and if a person is gone, then nothing is really there. I would think, if someday I have an accident? You will definitely I am immersed in grief, but ten or twenty years have passed, will you still grieve for me? You have to have a new life of your own, I will only be slowly forgotten, and the dust will be in your memory. Husband may There will be new wives and daughters who will eventually grow up and leave their parents to live their own lives. Then...what am I going to live for? Even for myself, what is the point? Life does not bring death or not. , When I finally died, there was nothing different from nothing."
"I didn't want to work at that time. I felt that life is impermanent. Maybe I will die in an accident tomorrow. It's better to spend my time enjoying life. There is no need for busy work and there is no shortage of money at home. Why should I be happy? What about playing everywhere? But I feel uneasy, because in everyone’s perception, this is a waste of life. I just can’t find the meaning of life and the motivation to work hard. I struggle every day and feel very unhappy. My body is weakened, I have no strength, and I am not interested in anything. I try to persuade myself that life lies in the process rather than the result, but I can’t persuade myself, I can’t get rid of that state, and then I realized that I might get it. Depression."
Su Yuanyuan hugged her tightly and typed to her with her mobile phone: Don't tell me, don't talk about these unhappy things, I don't want to uncover your scars, sorry.
Mother Tan smiled and touched her hair lightly,
It’s okay. It’s been many years. Mom has come out. Looking back now, it’s just an experience in my life. Grief, but also the grief at that time made me figure out a lot of things, but cherish life more."
"My mother told you about these things, hoping to give you some enlightenment, so that you may have fewer detours and fewer barriers in your heart. Since my mother knew that she was suffering from depression, she began to actively inquire about relevant information. , Find a psychiatrist and try to treat myself. I don’t know what the meaning of life is, but I know that other people will not think life is boring and commit suicide because of the death of a friend. This is not right. I should be treated. Then in the process of treatment , I found a lot of beauty."
"My husband will chat with me in a caring and considerate manner after work. He will take time to accompany me to go shopping. He will not complain for a long time. My in-laws will consider my mood and care about whether I have an appetite to eat. I can do it every day. Feel their kindness. My daughter will call me mother softly and coquettishly at me, she will look at me with trust, and treat me as her protector. And my parents, when I don’t I’m old when I pay attention, and I need to be filial to take care of it. Even a job I haven’t touched for a long time still makes me unable to let go, and I always think about doing something."
"I have so many things that I can't let go, then I think I shouldn't let it go. Although people always die, but since they are still alive, they must live happily until the day they die, otherwise it is really wasted time. After that, I wanted to understand that the meaning of life is to make myself happy and comfortable. If there is anything that makes me uncomfortable, I should find a solution. After it is resolved, I will live a comfortable and comfortable life. I like to go with my husband. In the world of two people, I like to watch my daughter grow up a little bit, I like to be filial to the elderly to watch the elderly feel happy and happy, I like the sense of accomplishment after work is completed. I like so many things, there is so much happiness, so what I want to pursue is happy."
Father Tan walked over and hugged Mother Tan, and said in a low voice: "Sorry, I didn't accompany you well at that time. Fortunately you came out."
Mother Tan patted him on the back, "This kind of thing must always be figured out on your own. You are the best company to accompany me every day to drink tea and chat. If it were not for you to make me feel the warmth around me, I How can I get out so quickly? The psychiatrist said that I got better quickly, and I was in good condition, maybe because I was not too ill. After all, I always have you by my side."
"Well, we will stay together in the future. Even in the last days, it's no big deal. As long as there are people around you who want to protect, you can live well." Father Tan looked at Su Yuanyuan and said, "Your mother is here. When I didn’t find you, I thought about the meaning of life. The same is true for me. I can understand her feelings. You are our only daughter and the continuation of our life. When we can’t find you, our hearts are cut every day. I can’t sleep or eat. Sometimes when I see those monsters, I think it’s better to die, so you don’t have to suffer when you die. But this emotion doesn’t last long. We have always believed that we can find you and we have to take care of them. Old people, they are the parents who gave birth to us and are our closest beings. We must protect them."
Grandma nodded, "Yes, I see some old people commit suicide because they are afraid of dragging their children. I don't think so. I think this apocalypse is already very desperate. If we commit suicide if we are afraid of dragging our children, we will be nothing. I know, but what about the living children? Like Wan Kun, I hope we die as soon as possible, but like your parents, they will only blame themselves for not being strong enough, and they will suffer from losing their parents. The world is even more desperate. So sometimes life and death are not viewed in this way, whether it has any meaning or use. We have feelings. Our family reunion will feel very happy and full of hope for survival. Ok."
Grandpa is already 70 years old, and he said: "I live my whole life. When I am hungry, I want to fill my stomach. When I fill my stomach, I want to earn more money. I want to have a good family. A good family hopes that the children and grandchildren will have a good life, and when the children and grandchildren are good, they hope that the four generations will be together. In short, people will always have new goals, and there is no need to worry about losing their direction or thinking about future things. Hurry up, think about it, are there many planned things that will eventually lead to changes?"
"So what do you want to do in such a long-term? Now that we encounter zombies, we are thinking about how to defeat zombies. Don't think about how the abilities can get along with ordinary people after the zombies are extinct. When it is true, we will solve the gap between the ability and ordinary people. Don’t think about whether there will be a national war when the gap is resolved. You have to walk step by step. If you don’t learn to walk, don’t think about the meaning of the 100-meter race. When that stage is reached, people will naturally have new ideas. The meaning is to focus on your eyes and do the things you like in front of you. Before you know it, you will find that you have been focused and happy for a lifetime."
Grandma patted him on the arm and smiled: "I didn't expect you to say such a philosophical thing."
"That is, how many things have I experienced ups and downs in my life? What you said, I have already seen it. You said that when I was hungry when I was a child, can I think of being chased and bitten by a zombie now? I'm in the mall At that time, can you think that money in the world has become waste paper? There are too many changes in life, and it is useless to think about it. Just adapt to the new environment and do what you want. If you don’t hurt innocent people, don’t think about whether you should do it or not. Live happily, and you won’t lose it for as long as you live."
Grandpa spoke very proudly, and Su Yuanyuan seemed to be able to think of his life from his words. Yes, Grandpa is one of the best in the business world. Now, let alone doing business, the industry has become a bubble, and you have to flee. For Grandpa, isn't it the destruction of his life's foundation? What's the difference between this and her turning from the seven-tailed monster to a little zombie? They are all things that have been lost for a long time. But Grandpa has a very good mentality. He has been working hard to practice marksmanship and swordsmanship. At his age, he occasionally kills a few zombies to practice his hand skills and learns to protect himself. This is how grandpa is adapting to the new environment!
Su Yuanyuan seemed to see herself from Mother Tan’s perception and understood the process of her struggle. In her grandfather’s words, she seemed to see a guiding light and found the way she should go. In fact, when my grandfather was a child, there was a three-year famine, and the college entrance examination was stopped. Everything belonged to the public, and no private things were allowed. Was the future visible back then? At that time, many people were desperate, desperate and numb, but after they survived, they were greeted by the spring breeze of national reform. Hope always comes unknowingly, and only when you are alive can you have hope, and you can have new and interesting experiences. No matter when you die, you are really gone and vanished.
Su Yuanyuan was suddenly clear-headed and suddenly enlightened. She sat cross-legged, closed her eyes, and took out all the crystal nuclei in the space and piled them in front of her. Suddenly, her mental power slammed through the barrier and rose to the pinnacle of the seventh level, and the spatial ability also directly rose to the sixth intermediate. More than half of the crystal core pile has been consumed, and they have all been supplemented with the spiritual power needed for the upgrade. She felt that the boulder that had been pressing on her heart during this period of time had moved away, and the whole person was relaxed.
Su Yuanyuan slowly opened her eyes and saw the worried four elders with a relieved smile, "Grandpa, grandma, mom and dad, thank you for teaching me patiently. It's nice to have you." Su who was promoted to level 7. Yuanyuan was finally able to speak, and the few people suddenly fell into ecstasy.