Chapter 84: doubt

Ji Lingxi looked at Ning Yu.
The young and handsome face looked a little dim in the dim light, except for the black eyes, which were lightly and gently brewing.
Ji Ling's face flushed with redness. Mo, somehow why tell me your secret, and we are not familiar with that point, what does your secret tell me to do?
Ji Ling's heart throbbed. He turned his head and continued to watch the movie, just as if he hadn't heard anything.
After Ning Yu saw him pause for a moment, he turned around to avoid himself, remained silent for a while, and continued to watch the movie casually.
But ... do you really know nothing about our existence? Not aware of my expression? Or do you actually notice it, but don't want to admit it?
No matter which one ...
Ning Yu closed her eyes, covered her disappointment, and then gave out a helpless chuckle. You really haven't changed at all ...
You are still not ready.
Ji Ling looked at the movie screen intently, seeming to be very focused. In fact, his attention has always been on the young people around him, and his mood is tense, curious, and complicated, but he desperately refuses to look back at each other.
He was very contradictory, but he didn't know what he was contradicting.
Does he want to know? Still don't want to know? Still afraid to know?
Ji Ling didn't understand.
He didn't even understand what he was struggling with, and he couldn't understand why he couldn't simply reject the other person like he had rejected Mr. Fu before.
When the movie ended, it was late, and Ji Ling did not refuse Ning Yu to send him home. It didn't take long for the car to stop downstairs again.
The cool breeze seems to calm down some ambiguous breath, a little more indifferent.
Ji Ling suddenly remembered the first meeting in the villa of Ning Kehan, when he heard Ning Yue's name as Ning Yu and was astonished. That night, Ning Yue also drove him home.
What did you think then?
Ji Ling looked back at her, uncomfortably looking away, and said in a low voice, "Thank you today."
Ning Yu looked at the young boy's handsome face, and looked sloppy, and smiled softly: "It should be me thank you, thank you for giving me a chance."
Ji Ling blushed again. He really didn't know what to say, so he turned around and left.
When he got home, Mom and Dad had rested. He quietly returned to the room, was about to go to wash, and suddenly his cell phone rang. A message from Ning Yue came in: I ’m very happy tonight. Yes ... good night.
Ji Ling couldn't help walking to the window, looking out through the gap in the curtains, and found that Ning Yue's car was still parked outside.
Some kind of strong, hard to ignore premonition emerged from his heart again.
Do you want to tell me a secret? what exactly is it?
Why do you like me?
Ji Ling's finger rested on the mobile phone, and almost wanted to ask this question, but he hesitated for a long time, and finally returned only two words: good night.
Ning Yu sat in the car, raised his head slightly, and saw the teenager's home.
There was a thin body in the window, which was illuminated by the light-the projection fell on the window, and it disappeared after a while, and the mobile phone received a reply from the other party.
Ning Yu looked at the simple two words and slowly smiled.
Really kind-hearted child, in fact, I want to tell you, I ’m really happy, you can show your own look without any restraints, do what you want to do, and never have to play anyone Do anything against your will.
I now understand that you were helpless at that time, and after all, I was more like a fool who didn't know what to do ...
Fortunately, you are back.
And you didn't lie to me in the end.
This is the next thing I've traveled to every corner of the world for so many years ... the thing that makes me most happy.
Since you don't want to stay in my world, then I come to your world.
This is also good.
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Ji Ling returned to school again and devoted herself to enriching her busy study life.
Ning Yue did n’t chase after him, he just sent him some messages from time to time, and occasionally said good night to him, and when he ate something delicious outside, he would take pictures and send him, saying that if you like it, he will take you next time Go ... Even the frequency of sending messages is not high. Sometimes Ji Ling gets busy and forgets to return. Ning Yue doesn't ask anything, and he doesn't often call.
It made him feel relaxed, as if they were really just getting along with friends.
If Ning Yue hadn't said that he liked him, but always reminded him of Ning Yu ... I'm afraid Ji Ling would forget that this person was pursuing him.
Ji Ling was a little late after school that day. He hurried to the cafeteria. The cafeteria had already formed a long line. Wang Yixin and others went to find a seat and arranged Ji Ling to line up. He met Wen Yan again in the cafeteria.
Dean Yu Wenyan looked as handsome and gentle as ever. He looked at Ji Ling, his eyes narrowed slightly, and he smiled, "You are back."
Ji Ling also laughed, and then remembered that before, Yu Wenyan School invited him to discuss the original game, but he fled because of embarrassment, and later he didn't take the initiative to contact each other after returning, which made him a little embarrassed ... Moreover, Yu Wenyan, the only person besides Ning Kehan, knew that he was being pursued by a man, and did not know how to treat himself.
This makes Ji Ling a little hesitant.
Wen Yan looked at Ji Ling's eyes dimly. He actually paid close attention to Ji Ling's development. He learned that when Ji Ling went out, he actually thought about chasing after him, but his senses stopped him. If he really did that ... Is it going to be annoying?
Juveniles may not be ready to accept themselves into this world at all.
Yes, Wen Yan also discovered the novel.
After reading the novel, I realized that he was only a character in a book, but Ji Ling should not be. The many differences in his performance in that world, and all the behaviors that did not match the role of the original book, showed him clearly. In fact, it is the man in this world ... This seems to explain why he can be so calm in this world, and he in this world is more like him, and his eyes are brighter and brighter.
Because this is his real world.
It's his home.
So you already know what kind of person I am, you know the despicable and dirty inside of me, and you know how I betrayed and hurt you ... but you don't mind these, and you don't despise my existence ...
I have never despised or hated me ... you tried to live with me peacefully, but I let you down, in order to get you at the expense of you.
But even so, in the end you protected me.
The pain slowly pulled Wen Yan's heart ...
You came from another distant world, gave me redemption, made me understand how to call-love one, respect one.
I'm actually not qualified to expect your love.
But fortunately, I can come to your world too ...
Meet you again.
"Yu Xuechang, when did you talk about the game last time, when do you have time to talk about it again?" Ji Ling blinked his eyes. He felt this was the kindness of Yu Xueyuan. Of course, he had to take the initiative and never take it seriously. How disrespectful they are to others.
Wen Yan looked back, looking at the boy's uncle and embarrassing eyes, feeling his thoughtfulness, the warm sunny smile, and nourishing his cold heart slowly, permeating through the ubiquitous wound, let him Gradually feel your presence ... you are still so gentle.
He said in a dumb voice, "Any time."
Ji Ling said, "Then tonight, will you?"
Wen Yan nodded.
Ji Ling breathed a sigh of relief, and smiled awkwardly, and then just lined up to him, so he went to have lunch, and when he came out, Yu Xue was no longer there, so he took a plate and ate with Wang Yixin and others.
The afternoon class was over quickly.
Ji Ling had dinner, first went to the library to find a quiet corner, and then sent a message to Yu Xuechang saying where he was.
Ten minutes later, Wen Yan came over, and he took some information with him.
Ji Ling stood up and smiled and beckoned to him.
Wen Yan smiled, came to sit opposite him, and whispered, "Have you waited a long time?"
Ji Ling shook her head: "No, I have just arrived."
"Well ... let me introduce this game first. This game is based on the end of the future. The army of survivors will fight against the zombies. Players can choose different character teams ..." Wen Yan lowered his eyes and took out Own information, slow explanation.
Ji Ling was devoted when he was working. He listened very carefully and raised his doubts from time to time.
Wen Yan said for more than ten minutes, and finally said, "You can draw these characters for your understanding according to your understanding."
Ji Ling bit her nib and thought, saying, "You wait."
When Yu Yu introduced it just now, there was a role of a staff officer who calmly planned and moved. He likes to hide in the dark to attack the enemy. I do n’t know why he thought of Wen Yan.
Although the force is not the strongest among those monsters, the sinister and cunning is absolutely enough!
He picked up the pen and drew it on the draft. Soon a long silver hair was tied behind his head. The man with a soft and handsome face leaped on the paper. It was probably too familiar for him to draw.
Ji Ling lowered his pen and looked up. He accidentally found that the man in front of him looked at himself. In the dark eyes, there seemed to be dark emotions that he couldn't understand, and he couldn't help himself: "Yu Xuechang, what happened to you?"
Wen Yan was not calm, and looked at Ji Ling.
Do you still remember how I look like this, I can hope a lot, have you ever missed me?
It's a pity that I know very well that you always have mercy on me.
But at least you haven't forgotten me, have you?
He has a low voice: "You look good, this is--"
Ji Ling took a look at Wen Yan and looked at his own painting. Just now he was drawn out of his head, and now it doesn't feel right to think about it.
Violates the right of others to portrait!
He closed his sketch book and paused and said, "Forget it, I don't think this painting is good. Let's repaint it. It's too late today, and I will send it to you by email." "
Wen Yan's voice was a bit awkward: "I think it's very good ..."
"Really?" Ji Ling didn't want to bring too much into the past of that world, and he didn't want to confuse that world with reality. He has been troubled recently, so why bother looking for trouble? He smiled: "Let's talk next time."
Wen Yan saw the perfunctory and evasive of the teenager, and he could not exit if he hovered on the tip of his tongue.
He wanted to show his identity, but he was scared to scare the teenager, let him know that he also came to his world, and alienate him to guard himself. He could n’t get along with him like this. He cherishes the time now And everything, reluctant to break the status quo, which makes him very contradictory and painful.
Want to be closer to everything,
But he was afraid that he would lose even what he is now because of an impulse.
So Wen Yan nodded and said, "OK."
Ji Ling said goodbye to the senior and left the library to return to his bedroom.
He suddenly fell to the bed, with his eyes closed, remembering the information given to him by Yu Xue, thinking about how to draw, but his mind couldn't keep the faces of those people from the world, especially those protagonists and supporting actors, each one It ’s memorable ... Is it because they look so good that they never forget?
Ji Ling knocked his head, you are really enough!
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It is also a coincidence that from that day on, Ji Ling ate in the cafeteria and began to 'encounter' Yu Wenyan often.
Wen Yan said that he is usually very busy. When he eats, he can discuss the game by the way. Ji Ling feels good, and he ca n’t let the senior always take the time to meet himself? It seems normal to have a meal in the cafeteria to discuss work.
The only thing that made Ji Ling feel a little embarrassed is that Xue Yu always helped him prepare meals and waited for him in the cafeteria. Over time, the embarrassed Wang Yixin and others stopped eating with him, and teased him that Yu Xue had come out open Maybe I really like men. If you see you, you have to be careful.
Several people were unintentional, and Ji Ling listened to it intentionally, and he was even more uncomfortable in the face of Yu Yu, but the other person never behaved this way. If he said something affectionate, wouldn't he make each other embarrassed ...
And Ji Ling doesn't want people from that world to appear. He likes the peace now.
I don't want to be robbed again, I don't want my life to be messed up.
And that's a paranoid brain. If you really come to this world, you don't know what it will be like ... Has he learned to be a normal person?
A few days passed in the blink of an eye.
After class, Wang Yixin and others met out for dinner. Before leaving, he smiled at Ji Ling: "Go to the cafeteria, maybe Yu Xue is waiting for you."
Zheng Lin: "I suspect he is chasing you."
Chen Ming: "He has come out publicly, won't he really like you?"
Ji Ling's face was dark: "Don't talk nonsense."
Wang Yixin: "Why are we talking nonsense, who would guard you every day if we didn't like it."
Zheng Lin: "What you said makes sense ..."
Chen Ming: "I can't refute ..."
Ji Ling: "..."
Suddenly I didn't want to go to the cafeteria.
Just when Ji Ling was endless, the classmates had already laughed and walked away. He walked on the tree-lined road unexpectedly, but accidentally hit a person in front of him, looked up, and said unexpectedly: "Mr. Field ? "
The brown-eyed man looked at him with a smile, and the corners of his lips were elegantly curved: "I don't even think about thinking about anything."
Ji Ling smiled embarrassedly: "Nothing, why are you here?"
He thought the other party had already returned home.
Carlos sighed softly: "You haven't contacted me all the time. I had to come to you. Last time my proposal, it seems that you hadn't considered it."
Ji Ling thought I really forgot ...
Carlos seemed a little disappointed, but said softly: "I didn't mean to urge you. If you don't plan to sign my gallery for the time being, you can also sell the paintings to me. I really like your paintings very much. I hope I can See your latest work all the time. "
Ji Ling was even more embarrassed. He really didn't feel that his painting was so good. It was worthy of being repeatedly asked by people like Mr. Field, and this gentleman was too generous, which is why Ji Ling did not sell. Give him the reason.
Although he is a student, he is not short of money to that point.
It always feels weird ...
After all, getting rich overnight doesn't always look real, does it?
However, the other party's appearance was really kind and difficult, Ji Ling thought about it, and took out a roll of drawing paper from his backpack, shyly shyly, "If you really like it, you can send it Here you are ... "
Carlos's eyes grew softer and more sad.
You are really good at everything, still gentle and considerate, just cold and ruthless in one thing, that is not willing to accept my love.
Carlos took Ji Ling's painting and opened it. It was a beautiful scenery, not a scene from that world, but still alive and vibrant.
He looked at the embarrassed boy. He didn't mention the purchase of paintings any more, but accepted the gift from the other party and smiled.
Ji Ling shook his head and said instinctively, "It's all right ..."
Carlos smiled: "I want to invite you to dinner as a thank you. I wonder if I have this honor?"
Ji Ling almost bit her tongue: Oh, why aren't I so honest about lying? !!
But if everything is okay, he will say something. If he refuses, he will be embarrassed. Ji Ling said, "... you are very kind."
Carlos smiled and said, "It's the way to exchange gifts."
Ji Ling: "..."
Actually, I just sent the paintings to send you sooner. Qaq
He could only obediently leave with Mr. Field. Mr. Field did not take him far away, so he chose a western restaurant near the school.
Ji Ling was sitting opposite the man, and it felt like he was facing the school leaders, and even this dean had to be careful to accompany him! The worst part is always reminding him of the terrible man who possesses a lot of possessiveness ...
Ji Ling was silent for a while, took out her mobile phone and sent a message to Yu Xue: I have something tonight, so I won't go to the cafeteria.
Although the other party never said anything, Ji Ling just felt that Xue Yu may be waiting for him ... even if Yu Xue was not waiting, it should be nothing ... because if the other party is waiting, it feels like he is letting go Like other pigeons.
He put down his phone, raised his head, and met the man's eyes with deep smiles.
The man's voice was low and sweet, and he patiently asked what he liked to eat, ordered him, and sent freshly squeezed juice.
Although this restaurant is already the best one nearby, in Carlos's eyes, the environment is still very simple and the dishes are not very good. It doesn't deserve his beloved boy, but now it can only be clicked.
The world is average, but fortunately teenagers like it.
The teenager seemed a little nervous, refused to look up at him, and kept his head down to eat. The careful and well-behaved appearance was exactly the same as his memory ...
In fact, the juvenile is really different from the arrogant original owner, probably just because he has never cared about what the original existence looks like, so he ignores the difference between the young person and the original owner.
At that time he never thought that someone would come from another world ... and his own world is just a fictional world in the pen of others.
Fortunately, you are real.
This is the only surprise and gift from heaven.
Carlos looked at the boy. His heart was full of love and compassion. He couldn't help raising his hand and gently wiped off the stain on the other side of the mouth. Like an unsuspecting little animal.
He didn't know that everything he escaped followed.
Ji Ling felt the man's fingertips rub against the corners of his lips, raised his head to face the gentle face of the man, but remembered the strong and terrifying man. He always looked polite but strong in front of himself.
Carlos ...
Ji Ling's hand holding the fork was clenched, and his lips were strained. The past scenes flashed from his mind. The cold side of Carlos, the gentle side, the paranoid side, the sad side ... and finally died by himself. In front of him, his sad and painful eyes.
No matter how terrible and ruthless this man is, his heart is beyond doubt.
Unfortunately, he couldn't respond to him ...
Feelings of guilt, sadness, and fear, all kinds of emotions surfaced in Ji Ling's heart, and his look was a little complicated. Don't look over your eyes, pull down the food on the plate, and be a turtle with a head down.
Carlos sighed softly. No matter how much he did or changed later, the first impression he gave the boy could never be erased.
But since I have come into this world, how can I give you up?
The only thing I love.
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after dinner,
Ji Ling put down the knife and fork, because of the messy thoughts in her heart, she was more cramped and well-behaved, and said, "I'm done. Thank you for your hospitality. I should go back."
Carlos stood up and picked up his coat on the chair: "I'll take you back."
Ji Ling: "..."
He walked back with the man, stumbled on the other side's face, and couldn't help thinking about it. Don't think about it! You see, although Mr. Field is very similar to Carlos, he is not called Carlos. He looks and has a different name, so it must not be Carlos.
Definitely not ...!
Ji Ling walked side by side with the man. Because he was nervous, he didn't notice that he had the same hands and feet. No wonder he was too entangled. The big villain of Carlos came to this world, wouldn't he want to rule the world again? After all, he really looks like the villain of the second disease in the movie ...
Finally, he quickly returned to the bedroom, because Ji Ling was too nervous to see the ground, accidentally stomped his feet, and rushed forward with an exclamation, only to hit the man's arms, followed by a pair of strong arms A low voice of concern and concern came from his waist and ears: "Be careful ..."
Ji Ling's face turned red, and he raised his head nervously and panic. As a result, he saw the man standing at the door of the bedroom unexpectedly along the arm of the man, and couldn't help it. "Mr. Fu?"
Really terrible, why is Mr. Fu here!
Jing Sui reclined under the tree at the door of the bedroom and looked coldly ahead. He had been waiting here for a long time, just because he wanted to see the young man, even though he knew the other party did not love himself, but he came here ridiculously.
Then he saw the boy and Carlos coming together.
He thought of other forces not long ago when he was investigating novel authors. Jing Sui appeared cold in his eyes, so he said ... when you come to this world, you won't give up, right?
It was no surprise at all.
How do you plan to cheat him this time?
Jing Sui's lips twitched, his voice glowed with chill in the night, and his tone was slow and ironic: "Mr. Carlos Field, I thought you had returned to China."
Ji Ling stared blankly at Jing Sui, his fingers tightened tightly, and his body stiffened. He suspected that he had heard wrong.
Carlos, Carlos ...
How could he not be called Field?
A man like Carlos called Carlos ...
Ji Ling's pupils shrank a bit because of panic, raised her eyes and looked at the man in front of her, her lips trembled and shuddered, and an answer he had been reluctant to think about almost came out like this: "You, you ... "
The author has something to say: sorry, the author was unwell the day before yesterday.
There have been too many things in recent years, so I just wrote it now. There is no update tomorrow night. Don't wait to be very sorry! _ (: 3 ゝ ∠) _2k novel reading network