Chapter 19: Old problems

Xiaodi also likes children, she wished she could have a lively and lovely baby too! But since 13??'s stomach has not moved, she couldn't express the anxiety and disappointment in her heart! If you can have a child, your home will not be as lifeless as it is now?
Peng Jiafu also wanted to have another child very much. The rural areas always value boys more. He is also influenced by deep-rooted ideas. He wants a son to take over his household registration and inherit his promised family business. But this beautiful wife is really insignificant.
Occasionally, Peng Jiafu is very dissatisfied. He seems to be a little moody. His long duck-egg face is a bit scary. He looks at Xiaodi with indifferent and contemptuous eyes, and his sharp voice is even more piercing: "I'm down. It's mildew! You spent the money in exchange for second-hand goods, or just a hen who doesn't lay eggs, really bad luck!
Xiaodi could only bow his head in tears and let him swear insults. The matter was clear. People have daughters. If there is a problem, it can only be her own problem. It seems that most of the responsibility for not having children in the countryside lies with the woman. They even Saved going to the hospital!
There are too many people who can’t have children, but it’s fine if she can’t have children. She feels dragged down this man, and also caused her family to suffer blindfolds. She was already in pain in her heart, but now she has a lot of self-blame, Xiaodi feels I am one of the poor fate. For this reason, she should be a person with her tail sandwiched.
My brother still works in his father-in-law’s factory. Sometimes when he comes home, he sees his sister working at home all the time and feels sorry for his sister. If it was not for himself and his parents, how could his sister marry that shameless old man? What?
When he blames himself, he will tactfully persuade his sister: "Sister, don't be busy here all day long. Fengying and I can do these things. You usually stay at home with Fengying's dad! He will inevitably feel it alone. alone."
My sister-in-law also persuaded: "Yes! There is nothing left to live, you should go home quickly, my dad likes how crowded people are! Don’t look at the age, when your heart is not at ease, go back quickly Well, usually watch it next to him. If you say what you need, just take care of it, and you can’t let him do it!"
Xiaodi felt a sting in her heart. Of course she understood the meaning of her brother's words, especially the sister-in-law who had already said so bluntly (sister-in-law was still very sincere to her little sister-in-law): It must be the shameless man who is out there again. Fuck a woman! On the surface, she still looks as if nothing has happened. She smiled at her elder sister-in-law very casually: "There is nothing wrong at home, I like to take An'an!"
In fact, brother-in-law doesn't need to talk to her, she knows a little bit more, her own man sometimes flirts with those frivolous women in front of her, not Bihai herself at all. It's no longer a thing for him to be confused with a woman overnight, it must be his old problem again!
auzw.com Apart from turning a blind eye, there is really no way! Who let his shortcomings be in the hands of others? And it's not the same. She was consciously wrong, and she didn't have the courage to compete with that old man, she really had nothing but to swallow.
If the conditions of your family weren’t that bad at the beginning, and your family didn’t receive so much favor from him, if you hadn’t done that at the beginning, or you could just interfere with him, if you could give birth to a boy and a half girls, or if you were confident It will be enough! But now, I really can't stand up my spine, I can only let it go.
In response to Xiaodi’s resignation, Peng Jiafu became even more irritated: "Look at your grievance? Who is angry with you? Or is my mind thinking about adulterers and seeing me not pleasing to my eyes? I'm really cheap! It's okay. I found a cold-faced little mom and picked up a green hat!"
Xiaodi couldn't even answer the conversation, she just listened with a low eyebrow and let him vent! She has a cowardly character, she has long been used to it! The two of them were even less likely to quarrel. To such a numb person, no amount of grievances from Peng Jiafu could be expressed! He hoped that Xiaodi could quarrel with himself and splatter with himself, so that he seemed to be calmer.
The days are just like that, it's a good time to pass on.
Xiaodi has become accustomed to his cold words or his silent indifference. She is like a slave without personal freedom, or even a deaf-mute person, listening to what he said with guilt, without any sense of anger. When there is no explanation or answer, she only knows that she is working silently all day long, and she also depends on whether the master is happy at night?
If you are happy or can give him some tenderness, when you are not happy, it is cold talk and rough possession and conquest! Sometimes, Peng Jiafu didn’t see him for a few days. It was because he stepped on wild flowers outside and was exhausted. Even when he went home at night, he would sleep alone in an empty room. Xiaodi just didn’t know anything. She knew that even if she asked, she cared. Take the shame.
In this way, it seems that there is nothing wrong with each other. Xiaodi has recognized this monotonous but peaceful life from the heart, or this kind of life is already very good and satisfying for her, she never thought that there would be a comparison This is a better and more desirable life.
Not having her own flesh and blood seemed to be a destiny. In addition to hating her own fate, Xiaodi also completely accepted the arrangements given to her by fate. She treats her nephew as her own flesh and blood. She loves him better than his biological mother. She spends more time on her nephew.
Besides, Xiang Yonggang failed the first year of the college entrance examination. After a year of re-entry, he was finally admitted to a university in the city, which is said to be his favorite school. His parents gave a big banquet to celebrate his entrance examination. The young and old in the village went to celebrate, but Xiaodi did not show up under the pretext of bringing her nephew.
She really didn’t want to see Yonggang again, especially in the public. She knew that she was a person who would not conceal her emotions. She was afraid that both herself and Yonggang would be embarrassed. She was also afraid that Peng Jiafu would see any clues and be afraid to provoke them. Necessary trouble.