Chapter 25: All beginnings are hard

Xiaodi was afraid that running away from home would cause her family members to worry and fear, which would affect the normal life of the family. She had decided. She wrote a note to the family members to save them from worrying about their random thoughts. The content is as follows:
Father, mother, brother, sister-in-law: Don't blame anyone, it's all my fault! It's not that I can't think about it, I just don't want to be an annoying person. I am leaving this home that does not belong to me. I think everyone will feel relaxed and happy because of my departure! I'm going to a brand new environment, you can rest assured! Don't find me! I will live a good life. I'll contact you when I settle down.
Jiafu, I'm leaving, let's have a good time with Yushu! I wish you happiness! Early birth!
Xiaodi on September 13, 1998
She shed tears and quietly left the home where she had lived for two years, without fear or thought. She just walked stupidly and subconsciously in the dark of night... She had already left when the east was grayish white. On the road a few miles away from home, she walked silently along the road in the direction of the city.
When her legs were almost numb, she finally got on the first bus to the city. She had a sense of relief when she was squeezed in the aisle, and at the same time there was an indescribable fear and anxiety that made her feel more tense and depressed.
She just came out aimlessly and didn't know what would happen. She had never gone out alone, let alone contacted people and things in the city. She didn't know what she could do? Can you adapt to life there? Is it really easy to make money in the city?
When she was in the city, the noisy road was full of vehicles and pedestrians coming and going, all in a hurry. It seemed that everyone's home was on fire, and they were all waiting for them to go back to fight the fire!
She couldn't tell the difference between the south, east and the north. Hearing her father said that looking at the Buddha can know the direction, she looked up at the red sun, but she still couldn't tell which was east and north? Of course she doesn't know where, and the direction is not so important in her eyes.
She began to walk along the spacious and lively road (as everyone in the family called it). She didn't know anywhere, and was embarrassed to ask people about it, so she had to walk forward like lucky. From time to time, his eyes were watching the shops in the malls on both sides, hoping that there would be signs hanging there.
She remembered that the TV shows were all showing recruitment notices at the door of the shop. She didn't know that there was a special recruitment place or the employment market, and knew that she could not find it! All her hopes are pinned in the shops and restaurants on both sides of the road, hoping that she will be lucky and happen to be able to find jobs.
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I don't know how long I have been walking, my shadow has shrunk to the size of a foot. Speaking of feet, her soles are tingling, should the blisters squeezed and bleeding out of the soles of her feet? Feeling tired and weary, she sat down on a clearing beside the road. Only then did she feel hungry and thirsty.
Sitting helplessly on the side of the road, she began to worry about her future life. In case you don't find a place for recruitment, where should you stay overnight? With so many people in the city, can a job be so easy to find? Is it wrong to leave home by yourself? She became annoyed and regretted.
With a sound of "bang", she was scared to shrink her neck, and her ears "buzzed". After a while, there was silence around her, and she was bold enough to see what was going on? It turned out that an old man next to him was breaking popcorn. She watched for a while and figured it out (she just hasn't seen the world, she's not stupid), this is the popcorn sold, and beside the donkey, there are small bags of popcorn.
The hungry Xiaodi couldn't survive the temptation in the end, and timidly stepped forward to buy a small bag, and then hid aside to eat popcorn. It is good to eat a small amount of popcorn as a snack. If it is eaten as a meal, it will not only make people feel thirsty, but also make the stomach uncomfortable.
Although Xiaodi is not so squeamish, the feeling of eating popcorn is not the same as eating. She felt unspeakable confusion and confusion. Only then did she realize that she didn't even have the most basic ability to survive. She really didn't know what to do next?
The noon sun burned the skin fiercely, and even a trace of wind was gone. People were afraid of autumn tiger's lust, and most of them disappeared! There are few people on the street, maybe you have lunch at this time?
Today’s lunch is a fool, so what about dinner? How to spend the rest of life? While it was still early, did he return by bus? Peng Jiafu didn't want to see himself, but he would just be by his parents' side. In such a big city, his eyes were really dark.
She thought over and over again, and finally decided not to go home. At least she should find a job to support herself, and she must not make herself a burden on her family!
Now that I have eaten enough, I seem to have almost taken a break, and I should continue to look for work and find a place to earn money early. So she began to move silently to the end of the road.
Xiaodi really doesn't know how to find a job, and she also knows that the job will not come to the door. With a fluke mind, she hopes to have good luck, so that she can get a job that she can do, even if she earns less, she will be satisfied as long as she can eat and control.
As the burning big disk slowly hid in the horizon, the temperature was no longer so hot and unbearable, and a hint of cool wind blew Xiaodi even more at a loss and more worry. Her feet were as heavy as lead, and she really didn't have the strength to lift her legs.