Chapter 89: I have been here waiting for you

Gu Lanzhi should have seen the video.
　　 The video that made me dignified.
　　 I remembered the goodbye I said to him two months ago. I didn't want to disturb him anymore, so I didn't dare to reply him this text message.
　　 It's not that I don't want to return, it's that I dare not return.
　　 I also have many missed calls on my cell phone.
　　 Chu Xing, Yu Luoluo, Ji Nuan includes his sister-in-law and so on.
　　 I didn't answer anyone, only called my sister-in-law.
　　 The past call is international long distance.
　　 This sister-in-law should still be asleep.
　　 My sister-in-law answered my phone when I was about to hang up. She called me Shenger and said, "I heard about you."
I was speechless. Just when I thought she was going to comfort me, she suddenly sighed: "Sheng'er, men are like this, always thinking that what we do is right, but I don't know what we women need! Chu Xing Good, Gu Tingchen, they are all too self-righteous, using their wrong methods to love others."
　　 I murmured, "Sister-in-law."
　　 "You told me Chuxing."
There was endless tiredness in the sister-in-law's voice: "Gu Tingchen wants you to live. He would rather you hate him. He wants you to live. He thinks that you can live more than anything else! But I understand you, you would rather die than die. Living in this way, men and women always don’t understand a little bit, so misunderstandings always arise."
　　 "Sister-in-law, some things can't be relieved simply by forgiving. Gu Tingchen and I have come to an end no matter whether we love or not. I can no longer convince myself to forgive him."
　　 Gu Tingchen gave me the deepest love.
　　 But at the same time there is the deepest pain.
　　 After all, love has not surpassed the pain he brought me.
"Sheng'er, I want you to be happy. No matter how you choose, I can understand it. I hope you... I know that any of my persuasion seems futile, but I hope you dare to love and hate in your future life. Go out bravely if you meet the right one again!"
　　 I asked in surprise: "Sister-in-law persuades me to love others?"
"I used to have a heart touch with another man. After your brother hurt me, he wholeheartedly took care of me and accompanied me, but I was useless and lost to your brother! I still chose to return to him, and I moved The man who was too heart-warming was by your brother... he is no longer in this world. It is difficult to open the knot between me and your brother. I can’t convince myself to forgive him! But now I can’t do without him. I am very useless. I was brave at the beginning... if I can be brave, I won’t be like this..."
　　 My sister-in-law’s cry came over the phone. I wanted to ask her and Chu Xing what happened, but I didn’t want to uncover her scars.
　　 I comforted her and said: "Sister-in-law, we don't cry."
　　 Sister-in-law is an extremely forbearing person, she immediately stopped crying and whispered: "I hope you are happy."
　　 Now my illness is cured.
　　 But there is still a lack of love.
　　 But there is no possibility between Gu Tingchen and I.
　　 But I don’t want to love others anymore.
　　 I love Gu Tingchen, this is a fact.
　　 did not disappear because he hurt me.
　　 But what do I love him?
　　 I didn't want to understand for a while.
　　 I never figured out how the man I followed nine years ago became Gu Tingchen, and then how he became Gu Lanzhi.
　　 I replied: "I will be happy."
　　 Even if I can't see the hope of happiness.
　　 I talked with my sister-in-law and hung up after a while, because I couldn't sleep because of bad things.
　　 was silent, I got up and took the car key and went out.
　　 I don't know where to go, there is nowhere to go at all.
　　 I drove the car in Wucheng casually. I don't know why I came downstairs in the teaching building back then. I vaguely seemed to hear the sad piano music.
　　 Gu Lanzhi.
　　 I always think if I didn’t admit the wrong person back then, would my life be another life?
　　 I think of the song I listened to in the tunnel
　　 A good person like me,
　　 should have lived a splendid life.
　　……
　　 Without Gu Tingchen, I should have been brilliant in my life.
　　 Xiaowu is right. I am the most powerful woman in Wucheng. My life is radiant and brilliant.
　　 is like this, the Ambilight is brilliant and gorgeous.
　　 How did you meet Gu Tingchen? !
　　 Why do you feel so embarrassed to live?
　　 I can't figure it out, the more I think about it, the more painful I feel.
　　 I sighed and let the tears run across my cheeks. I want to cry again tonight and never be bullied by anyone again!
　　 Never be hurt by love again!
　　 faintly, the piano sounded upstairs.
　　 is getting clearer.
　　 is the song "The Street Where Wind Lives"
　　 I was stunned, and the piano sound suddenly stopped.
　　 It didn't take long for a person to walk upstairs, his arm lazily propped on the balcony, his eyes staring at me pityingly.
　　He is so dazzling under the dark night starry sky.
　　 I once said that the vast stars in his eyes are the pure land that I can never reach, the far side of my life.
　　 I muttered, "Gu Lanzhi."
　　 "Little girl, why are you crying?"
　　 This situation is very familiar.
　　 The same place, the same position, he looked at me from top to bottom, and I looked at him from bottom to top.
　　 It was obviously raining that day, but he clearly asked me why I was crying.
　　 He can always see my mind at a glance.
　　 He knows me so so well.
　　 He is so so so that I once liked him.
　　 Even I am willing to spend my whole life...
　　 But how could it be like this now?
　　 I don’t understand, the more I think about it, the more frustrated.
　　 I denied and smiled and said, "I didn't cry."
　　 Tears poured out, but I said I didn’t cry.
　　 I'm such a man who talks nonsense with my eyes open.
　　 He slightly bent his arms on the balcony, moonlight pouring down on him, and I seemed to hear the street where the wind lived again, which echoed in my heart, far away deep in my heart.
　　 He asked me pity, "Are you sad?"
　　 I shook my head and denied, "I am not sad."
　　 My heart is ashamed.
　　 He suddenly called my name, "Shi Sheng."
　　 I looked at him stubbornly, "Huh?"
　　 The vast stars in his eyes are magnificent and bright. He is still there like a painting. I heard his gentle voice suddenly say: "Nine years ago, I came here to find you."
　　 I know, Yu Luoluo told me.
　　 I was silent, staring at him with tears on my face.
He said in a soft and soft voice: "I have looked for you, I have looked for you without hesitation, just like you followed me for nine years, I will keep you in my heart for nine years, when I see you again... you It's my brother's ex-wife, you mistakenly identified me as Tingchen."
　　 I know that there was heavy snow that night, and he wrapped the apricot scarf for me and took me home.
　　 That night was the greatest tenderness he had been to me before.
　　 I will never forget it in this life.
　　 "When I saw you again, I saw you lying quietly on the bed, pale and without any vitality. Fortunately for your will, you let me clearly understand that your nine-year love was wrong."
　　 I was at a loss and said: "Gu Lanzhi..."
　　 "Little girl, I have been here waiting for you."